#i'm also VISCERALLY lucky. physically abled. financially stable. debt free. decent–ish degree (even though the industry shat itself) | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

ultimateinferno · 4 months ago

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Looking back I think one of the biggest things that got me through uni was that Canvas had calendars that showed when assignments were due and actually let me plan out what tf I was going to do without feeling overwhelmed.

Well... that and being a tutor/TA/lab assistant letting me work on homework during my shifts. Those two things really pushed uni from being agonizing to doable.

#honestly getting through uni in 4 years with 0 loans on unmedicated adhd is a fucking god damn miracle #i was even able to do extra curriculars senior year AND art #god i miss that #also i didnt have chronic anxiety then but i also didnt have chronic anxiety 2 months ago so its not unique #honestly looking back at 1:45 am is a gentle reminder that for all the hardwork and dedication i have #i'm also VISCERALLY lucky. physically abled. financially stable. debt free. decent–ish degree (even though the industry shat itself)#cishet white guy with a support network who even while unemployed for an entire year #was still able to survive comfortably in spite of hardship.#it does make me frustrated just how badly ive stagnated because of it.#but also fully aware that i can very very easily bounce back #hell. after a year with 1k+ of debt on my credit card that shit is evaporating since ive gotten a flexible job that pays by productivity #rather than by the hour while working from home.#like... this is can easily constitute as bragging and tbh it is.#this past month has been a fucking ringer that im just taking it all in.#i'm lucky. i'm okay.#anyways heres to hoping the psychiatrist can fucking put down this OCD bug in my brain then ill be golden.#im tired of my thoughts being interrupted by pointless bullshit that shouldnt bother me but 100% does.#and maybe adhd meds along the way.#god had to take my attention span to make it fair for all of you.#thats a joke but its also not.

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