#i'm actually so excited to start using that bathroom again it's been in exile for like 10 years at this point.

[selfinflictedgunshotwound]

started deep cleaning my bathroom today and i felt like i was gonna have a heartattack after throwing a bunch of old shit out and sweeping 🤦‍♀️ BUT it felt very good to put in some work and start to make it look nice again 👍 i actually can't wait to get my own place and do regular maintenance cleaning because growing up in a hoarder's house is just. fucking horrendous. i wouldn't wish this shit on anyone

[hobiiiiiworld]

A piece of us | KSJ - Epilogue

Synopsis: Three years later you find out something exiting.

Pairing: Reader x Kim Seokjin

Genres: Marriage | Fighting | Pregnancy 

Word Count: 2K

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You sit on the bathroom floor, tears pouring down. In front of you are four different pregnancy tests - all positive. You and Seokjin haven't exactly been trying, but you haven't been using protection since welcoming your daughter into this world three years ago, either. Deep down you knew this could happen, and you silently hoped for it, too. However, never, in your wildest dreams, would you imagine it actually happening: getting pregnant for the second time. Having another baby with the man you live. 

"I'm home, girls!" Seokjin shouts from the hallway, probably forgetting your daughter's playdate, which you conveniently scheduled for today so you could take the tests without your daughter banging on the door, crying because you locked the door for once. 

"In here," you shout back, standing up with shaking legs. After a couple of seconds, Seokjin approaches the bathroom, looking at you with big eyes. 

"What's wrong?" he asks, rushing to your side and hugging you tightly, kissing the top of your head. "What happened?" 

"Look," you say, freeing yourself to show him the positive pregnancy tests. "I just found out." 

"Oh my god." Seokjin´s first reaction is to laugh, pick you up and spin you around. As he puts you down he kisses you deeply, forgetting everything except the two of you. Then, something enter his mind. "Where's Tae?" 

"Playdate," you tell him. 

"How did… Why did… I'm so happy I don't even know what to say right now," he says, studying the tests. A realization hits him, filing him with hope and excitement. "This means I can finally do everything right. Last time everything was a mess, but now I can be here for you. I have so many regrets from the first pregnancy, maybe I finally can try and make something right." 

"You're happy?" 

"Of course I am! Not just happy, extatic," he says, pausing. Seokjin falters a little as he takes in your tears. "Are you?"

"I am! It's just a lot. Honestly, I didn't think we would ever get to do it again. To have a good pregnancy," you tell him honestly. "And I'm scared from last time. Not only was I all alone last time, but I also had that scary experience when I started to bleed. Seokjin, there is so much I haven't told you. Did you know I had the worst morning sickness?" 

"You haven't," he says, hugging you. "But I'm here now, I can be here for you and experience it all with you this time. Trust me, everything is so much more stable. I am much more stable. And I'm here, for whatever you need." He looks at you for a while. "I'm sorry it turned out like this, baby. This should be an happy occasion, but it ´s tainted." 

"You're right, things will be different this time," you say, giving him a kiss. "I trust you. I can be happy about this. " 

"So… Should we celebrate?" 

"What are you thinking?" 

"I'm thinking a steaming hot bath, some snacks and a good drink. Just the two of us." 

"Sounds perfect."

It's dinnertime. You, Seokjin and Taeyang are sitting by the dinner table, Seokjin cutting up the food for your daughter while you just look at them, loving them so indescribably much. 

"Darling," Seokjin says to you, nodding his head. You nod back. "Tae, baby, there is something we have to talk to you about. Mom and dad want to tell you something exiting," he says. 

"Exiling?" Taeyang asks. 

"Exiting, honey. Exiting," you tell her, and she repeats the word back to you. "It means something that makes us happy." 

"Am I exiting?" 

"The most exiting thing in the world," Seokjin tells her, smiling lovingly at her. Right now, it feels like his heart might grow out of his chest. " Are you ready to hear the other exiting thing?" 

"Yes!" 

"Do you know how you were made?" you ask, earning a shake of the head. "Well, mom and dad decided we wanted to have you, so we gathered all the love we had for each other and put it in my belly. Then, you started to grow inside of mommy's tummy."  

"How?" 

"Well, mommy has something in her tummy that grows babies, and first, she grew you!" you tell her. 

"How?" 

Seokjin chuckles. "It's difficult to explain everything to you right now, but do you want to hear something very exiting? Something just as exiting as you?" Taeyang nods her head enthusiastically. "Right now, in mommy's tummy, there is another baby growing." 

"How?" 

"Dad and I wanted to have another baby," you tell her.

"What about me?" 

"You will have a little sister or brother! Someone you can share your love with, your sadness with, and your happiness with." Taeyang looks displeased, and so you go on. "And we will love her just the same as we love you, not any less, not any more." 

"How?" 

"Mom and dad will have to grow their hearts to make room for the love we have for him or her," you explain, watching as Taeyang looks at you with huge eyes.

Seokjin smiles and places Taeyang drink in front of her, reminding her to drink. "Baby, this means you will always have someone to play with and talk to. Doesn't it sound fun?" 

"I dont know…" 

"How come?" Seokjin asks. 

"What if the baby doesn't like me? Or if I don't like baby?" 

"We don´t want you to worry about that. The baby will love you because you're you. And if you're angry at the baby then you have to come to mom or dad and talk to us about it and we can figure something out. However, I don't think that will happen. Do you know why?" Taeyang shakes her head, and Seokjin goes on. "Because siblings have a bond that makes them love each other. Maybe you feel it already?"

"Can I touch the tummy?" 

You stand up and show them your non-existing baby belly. Your daughter stretches out her hand and touches the stomach, closing her eyes hard.

"I feel it! I feel it!" she shouts, making you and Seokjin laugh. 

"See, I told you." 

"Remember Taeyang, mom and dad will always love you," you say, hugging your daughter. 

"Yes, always."

You walk in, your daughter on your hip. You don't really know why your heart is beating so fast, or why your hands are so clammy. There is nothing to be nervous about. Your mum and dad, Seokjin´s mum and Seokjin are all waiting for you in the living room. As soon as Taeyang sees Seokjin´s mom, she starts to fuss, demanding to be let down with her whole entire body-language. 

"Granny!" She shouts, running as fast as she can, stretching her little hands in the air in front of her. It's a luxury seing her granny as she lives so far away, and always reacts the same when she sees her. 

"My lovely. How are you?" She asks, leaning so your mum can greet Teayang as well. 

"I have new toy!" You daughter says, pointing to her new pretend doctor set in the corner of the living room. Taeyang is put down and runs directly to it, ignoring the grownups again. You share hugs and settle down on the couch. 

"It's great that we could all gather again. It's been too long," you say, grabbing your husband's hand. 

"It has! I was saying this to Jinia just the other day. How great of you to arrange this," his mother says. "Have you been well?" She asks your parents. 

"Oh yes. I just retired," you dad says happily. 

"That sounds nice." 

"I finally have time for my lovely wife," he says. "But she thinks I should take a cooking course." 

"Yes, dear. Then it wouldn't hurt my tastebuds as much," your mum teases, clearly not meaning it.

There is a couple of seconds of silence, and then Seokjin speaks up, making your heart rate pick up. "Tae baby? Can you come here for a minute? Your grandparents wants to see your new shirt."

Happily, your daughter runs over, proudly displaying her new shirt. In yellow glitter it says: Best big sister! You parents look confused. 

"What?" You mum asks. 

"We're pregnant," Seokjin finally says, and you can tell how happy he is that the two of you can do it properly this time. "Again." Your parents erupt with joy, all of them moving forward to hug you, Seokjin and Taeyang. 

"Congratulations!" 

"It's finally happening again!" 

"There you go!" 

"How far along are you?" Seokjin´s mom asks, placing  her arm carefully around your shoulders. 

"Just 3 months, but it's getting harder to hide it," you say with your hand over the small baby belly. 

"We are so happy for you," your mum says, drying her tears. 

"You did good," you dad tells you, kissing the top of your head. "And you," he tells Seokjin, grasping his hand, but seemingly changing his mind, dragging him into a hug. Then, he picks up his first grandchild. "What about you? Are you exited to be a big sister? You know, they will always look up to you. You will probably be their hero," he says, clearly making your daughter light up. 

"Mommy says her heart will have to get bigger with all her love for us! I think the same thing happen to my heart, it feels big." 

"That's right. And dad's heart is getting bigger too, it will only continue to grow to make more space for all of us. He already loves us so much, I think his heart will become the biggest one," you tell her. 

Taeyang places her head over her granddad's heart. "What about grandad?" 

"Of course, I can feel my heart getting bigger already," he plays along. 

"No." You daughter announces. "My heart is biggest." 

You almost cry - what a perfect family you have. 

Seokjin enters the car, already late for work. Taeyang was fussing over he shoes this morning, and made the two of them late. As if Seokjin´s life wasn't busy enough already with a very, very, very pregnant wife, a toddler and his own company just taking off. He wouldn't trade it off for anything, though. Finally he feels like things are settling down after the scandal that blew up when he left his management. 

He sees your name on his phone: missed call. He instantly hits call, waiting impatiently. 

"Hi, darling!" He says once you accept. On the other side of the phone he only hears heavy breathing. "Is it happening?" He asks.

"Yes! Meet me at the hospital," you manage to say and hang up. 

And no, Seokjin doesn't speed. There is another, perfectly logical, explanation as to how he is at the hospital only ten minutes later, even if the drives normally takes fifteen minutes.

He runs up to the front desk, telling them his wife is in labour and is coming her. They ask for your name, and can inform him that he came here before you. 

All he can do as he waits for you in the private room is fix the duvet on the bed and draw the curtains. Then open them again, just in case you want some light. He realizes that you probably prefer privacy over lighting, and close them again. 

And then you enter, and Seokjin loses all track of time and space. All he knows is you, the pain you feel and the  swivel of emotions he is feeling. You're wearing a look Seokjin has never seen before, and he is so proud he could cry. You're doing so well, everyone are telling you so, but Seokjin still tells you. Again and again as he holds your hand, brings you ice chips and places a cold cloth to your forehead. He wishes there was more he could do, but settles down with the thought that he, at least, is here this time. 

Before he can properly prepare himself, you are told to push, and push you do. Things happen so fast, and he doesn't know anything anymore. Nothing makes sense anymore, but it doesn't matter, because your are delivering his second baby girl, and he has never seen anything like it. Never felt anything like it. Tears mixes with sweat. And then it comes: the scream. And Seokjin knows:

Nothing will ever be good enough after this. Nothing will ever come close to this feeling. 

End Note:

I hope you all enjoyed this story. Seokjin really came a long way! We´re all proud of him, aren´t we? <3

Thank you to those who gave kudos or commented, it really means the world! I´m planning another story, so keep a lookout.

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