#i'm a historical girlie at heart so this is very fun

[softodettes]

i'm juggling three wips right now and have no clue which one i'll be posting first, so have a longer snippet as an apology.

He bows gracefully. "Xaden Riorson." Violet blinks at him, frozen in place in the wake of this man.  He looks up at her from the depth of his bow, that smirk still on his face, and whispers, "Cat got your tongue?" Tairn chooses that moment to gently bump his head against her thigh, as if to remind Violet that she has a duty to uphold. She drops into a curtsy quickly, and it's a little less graceful than she intended. "Violet Sorrengail," she says finally, rising out of her curtsy and extending her hand to Xaden.  He brings his lips to her knuckles, kissing them chastely as he meets her eyes, and Violet's heart pounds underneath the layers of her dress and her corset. His stubble brushes against her skin, and her skin prickles at the sensation. Xaden's lips linger for a moment, like he, too, is trapped in this small pocket where time seems to have stopped and they are the only people around.  "The pleasure is all mine, Violet," he murmurs. Violet thinks she might've forgotten how to breath. 

[lietpolski]

do you have robul fic recs! :0

i do!! :D this will get long, so it's going under a cut

literally everything by phyripo on ao3 is great, but i'll summarize them:

destiny's chance by phyripo - this is a must-read! very cute very lovey human au long oneshot :) and LONG! i've reread it So Many Times

on christmas by phyripo - this is... THE cutest thing ever!!!!! not robul centric, it has a few different pairs with an equal amount of screentime, but robul are so fun here! best read around december for obvious reasons,, u can mark it for later <3 it genuinely warms my heart so much

a thought away by phyripo - also not just focused on robul, BUT this is one of the sweetest cutiest robuls like i shed a tear or two!! just a fantastic story in general like,, i don't care for half the cast of this but this fic made me care about them it was that good!! drama mystery AND feels... read it

falling high by phyripo - fun short and silly actors/social media au!!

one day by phyripo - also short and very very sweet human au, this one has holiday vibes but it's more about new years' resolutions and stuff i think u could read it any time of the year :)

take one breath by phyripo - ok this is sooort of cheating because it's focused around luxembourg/moldova (aged up) BUT robul are there and they're cute they're having their wedding like!!!🥺it's worth a read

and then some equally great ones by other authors!!

you know my name by quiettoxic - ALSO A MUST READ this is i think my favourite robul oneshot ever and i'm not huge on human aus!! it's basically them growing up together and falling in love over time and ouggghhh my HEART

castles in the air by shadowcatxx - bulgaria is horny for vampires & i'm also horny for vampires so this was meant to be <3 it's written in the 1st person but don't let that scare u it's a good time it has like,, vaguely classic lit vibes and it's nice to read smth so different once in a while! + vampires are hot

be ready and be brave by doomspiral - doom writes historical nationverse that makes me want to tear my heart out of my chest and chew it !!!! historical robul is a rare and delicious treat so u have to read this

transcendence by roesslyng - this one makes me go insane like,, the homoeroticism of consensual murder needs to be a bigger genre in nationverse!!!!

see you soon by roesslyng - short cute fic exploring some nationverse meta which is something i always love to see :)

self-indulgence by roesslyng - just smut but i'm a pwp girlie and proud!! this is sweet and it's nationverse what else could u want

as a treat by roesslyng - cute soft fluff ... save me cute soft robul fluff.... i love little silly romantic snippets of their lives this one got me kicking my feet & listening to laufey <3

i'll add more if i think of them but that's all for now! :) happy reading!

[ambreiiigns]

Is sanremo over? How did it go! Did you have fun, did it go the wayyou wanted it to? :)

it is over i'm so fucking sad i feel so empty post sanremo depression is REAL but it's worse bc i don't have next year to look forward to bc they're gonna have a new host and director and i am Scared. in this economy. i don't trust anyone. i'm scared that sanremo will go back to demo-christian right-wing friendly land and then what. but yeah it was really good for some reason i didn't expect it to be as fun as it was this year? i wasn't thrilled with the contestants when we got the announcement but it was really good... was missing that achille lauro flavored gay activities on stage but yk. no gay kissing after what happened last year ig. BANNED

for what concerns the results. ehh. my three favorites didn't even get in the top 5 but most of my other faves did well so it's ok all things considered. can't believe mahmood didn't get in the top 5 i will Not be forgiving anyone for that, dargen got fucking NUKED to like 20th place and loredana was at least in the top 10 but i was ROOTING FOR HER SOOO HARD see my icon. that's her. mother. BUT! ghali got 4th place which is very good all things considered and two kids from south italy got 1st and 2nd, one of them bringing a song fully written in dialect which is a really big deal For Me and the other one being the first girl who's won in like a decade so it's good. it was the year of minorities who could give the fascist politicians a stroke just not in a gay way this time we were going for north africa south italy alliance mediterranean girlies rise UP!!!!!!

on a lighter and sillier note the now iconic historic host and his uhhhh. special friend. said their ship name w they whole chest & pussy in a song about how they're the greatest couple in the land and then when it was all said and done they left the building in a horse-drawn carriage looking out of a heart shaped window and kissed each other's cheek as it was riding off into the. sunrise given the time. i'm gonna miss them like air

[dat-town]

own fic rec game

recommend 5 or more of your own works that you would rec to someone asking what they should read first & explain a little bit about the work. these can be the most popular, the ones you think are underrated, or your own favorites! then tag five other writers!

tagged by @restlessmaknae

tagging @lily-blue

dude, but like romantically - mark lee, 10k

i'm usually not your go-to uni au, slice of life or fluff writer but this was so much fun! honestly, probably the most fun i had writing a story in the last years because it didn't even feel like writing at times. i looked up mark-inspired playlists, i listened to him speaking in random lives and i just wrote without really knowing how i wanted this to end. i was there, you know, just for the ✨vibes✨ and i'm really happy that lots of people seem to enjoy it and think that it's mark-like. (so many that i just checked and it bet my hades!yoongi story in notes even though that had been my most popular writing for almost 5 years. wow.)

ignisum - hwang intak, 24.5k

world building! oh my god, i love world building. really, sometimes i get so swept up creating these little worlds for my stories that they end up being way more detailed than needed for the story. that's actually one of my favourite parts of writing and maybe that's why i love fantasy, dystopia etc. aus so much because i can do just that. the plot might not be the strongest (political intrigue isn't forte) but i really enjoyed creating ignisum and all these kingdoms. also for some reason i really like my fantasy aus with historical settings as well as badass girlies with smug boys, so really i put a lot of my favourite tropes here.

small doses - choi yeonjun, 7.8k

i don't think i have written anything so heavily focused on mental health before this one, so this was challenging but i think i could keep it realistic and i'm quite proud of that. also i have been wanting to work with such a now/then kind of contrast/parallel structure for a while, so i was glad that this story proved to be the perfect for that

bed warm, heart colds - min yoongi, 3.7k

i love mythology and fairytale aus a lot because they have so much potential and i love to twist the original story a bit, i love to explore their worlds, see if i can surprise people. and while this one i just wanted to jump on the train that claims that hades loved persephone and their love is tragic, i really wanted to put this here. i think this story was the first one i tried to write in a poetic-ish way and i still think back on it fondly.

destined to fall - kim taehyung, 33k

i'm pretty sure that if i were to read back this one, i would cringe really hard at parts and i would write it differently, but i'm still proud of the idea of it even if the execution wasn't that good. but it's okay, it wasn't an easy story to tackle and my longest for a long time (or maybe still is?) it was very interesting to jump in time, to create so many scenarios and try not to make it repetitive. i think my angst writing really took off with this one.

[somewhereinthepines]

hi hi! been curious about .. will you ever write a non-murder hector?

i suppose, i might do it at some point? but then, if i’m being completely honest, i kinda dig the canonical hector / du’met’s attire the most. *twirls fingers together* so in a way, it’s not easy for me to separate his murderous intent from him completely. in the back of my mind, i will always make a mental note about how it's smth, that he's capable of.  

besides, i generally love deeply nuanced characters. their mental struggles & misery is a good food for my brain. and their flaws are usually very precious to me. i tend to play into it vs making the characters overcome it. i usually don’t make my favs better, than they really are. in fact, i often make them give into their worst traits/impulses, bc it’s the most fun for me.

i’m also not the kind of author, who writes good-natured ‘fix it’ stuff tbh. many things (media), that i like on this acc are tied up to a narrative, that is written to be both disturbing & tragic. so instead of giving the characters a ‘happy ending’, i just try to give them smth nice in the middle of all the mess. or just make their situation even more shitty, haha. depending on the idea, that lies in the center of my story, anyways. but in most cases, the final goal isn’t to make the characters get better in some ‘fully healing’ way or smth, but to consider a variation, where they can get what they want without being ‘saved’. naturally, it can differ in the level or in how far the narrative can go with it, but in the end, i kinda love ‘fixing’ smth very messed up & sad in canon by changing the tone, rather than overwriting everything.

and when it comes to hector, i’m very enamored by the possibility of him still having charlie’s love, even when it’s all gone too far & he can no longer turn back. i mean, if charlie can accept hector munday like that, at his very worst, then what else can hector realistically ask for? this is the maximum level of devotion, that someone can show to a person. sticking with them, even when everything goes awry & wrong. charlie isn’t there to act as hector’s savior. he’s smart enough to know, that he can’t truly change him at that point. but maybe, he can make it easier & offer him a distraction. a hand, that doesn’t chastity or punish, but that keeps one grounded. 

i guess, what i’m saying is that it’s easy to imagine charlie being in love with hector munday, who’s just well, a sad, lonely dude with a traumatic past. but it’s more thrilling for me to imagine charlie, who would still love hector, even when he poses as granthem du’met. their canonical dynamic is predator/prey, after all. and i rarely see it being executed in tasteful ways in the media, so starting from the demo of the game, i was just like ooooh, that’s so pretty & intriguing. their first meeting made my heart go doki-doki lol. so like maybe, this is also why i’m kinda mentally unwilling to fully let go of this imagery? it was more, than i could have hoped for. and then, i’m historically weak in my knees for captor/captive stuff, when it’s done ‘right’. and now, i have one of such kind and it’s supermassive too! *girly giggle* for me, it’s like a present on bd tbh. i'm so happy to unwrap it.

but honestly, it’s a mere personal pref. a whim. and nothing stops me from eventually giving hector a story, where everything goes more smoothly and somewhat ‘normally’ for him. well, to a degree. so at some point, maybe i will write smth like that. but atm, all ideas that i have for du’lie are tied to du’met being a murder. the themes & visuals that it implies are very appealing for me, when it comes to the horror genre, and i’m a simple fella. i just do what feels ‘natural’ to me. 

sorry for a long answer, i guess, i just wanted to kind of explain my current view on this topic. everybody depicts things differently, and tbh, this fandom offers a fair share of different outlooks on du’met & charlie. and thankfully, there are a few authors/creators, who provide fics with set-ups, where hector is just a man with issues. so it’s not like this au doesn’t get covered. 

as for me, i’m a weirdo who tends to play in their own sandbox. so at times, if the wind blows, i might write smth unexpected, but well…usually, there is still a murder or some disturbing stuff looming in the background lol. i have very little understanding of 'naked' gentleness or pure fluff, or like…well, just nice things being nice without smth surrounding it, like a slowly closing fist. so usually, i just sit on side, watching how other folks do it. so this isn't like i don't like those set-ups. i'm just isn't the person, who can easily conjure smth like that, haha.

[courtofmatchups]

Hi!! Would love to get a match-up if you get a chance <3

Name: Alex Pronouns: she/they Orientation: demisexual!! Age: 21 MBTI: ENFJ Sun sign: Aries Moon sign: Pisces Rising sign: Cancer Favorite color: Blue

I'm a biology student and love learning about the world around me!! I love reading both fiction and non-fiction, I especially enjoy historical fiction! I also enjoy doing more art-oriented things such as painting, drawing, writing, crocheting, sewing, etc. I am also super spiritual and enjoy doing tarot and some witchcraft energy stuff. Another thing I enjoy is playing videogames, I am particularly obsessed with Stardew Valley and the Sims.

I want to say I'm very observant and can be quiet when taking in a new situation. However, once I am comfortable I can be very adaptable to my environment and the people around me, and try to match their energy and mention things they might be interested in. While in a social event I can appear very extroverted and do feed off the energy in the event to keep going, but once the event is over I do need some time alone to recharge. With my friends I'm very touch-y (love hugs and cuddling!) and will make sure to always take care of others. I've often been called the mom friend. I'm very empathetic (almost to a fault) and used to be the therapist friend, but have since decreased this as it was a bit much emotionally.

I do take great care of my appearance, and looking and feeling stylish is really important to me on the days I have more energy! I'm a ring girlie, and enjoy wearing a variety of jewelry items. My favorite thing is choosing fun earrings to match my outfit, with my current favorites being either my lightning bolt earrings or my strawberry milk ones.

I own one cat, her name is Cassie and she is a chubby black cat and I LOVE HER! she is the best thing ever, the apple to my eye. If someone doesn't like my cat, immediate red flag.

Sorry if this was a bit disorganized, I wasn't entirely sure what information might be helpful and what might not.

It seems to me that you have captured the heart of...

The Ravishing Warrior:

Violet Muller!

Oh, dear. Violet has taken quite a few L's when it came to dating, but it seems like you're the breath of fresh air she needs. Your demisexuality implies that you're only willing to be with someone only after you feel a deep emotional connection, and quite frankly, that's exactly what she wants. Polyamory isn't quite her thing, after all.

I think Violet would appreciate your energy as well as your interests. It's actually canon that she likes to make accessories, so she would like to make some especially for you. She also likes to admire pretty things, so you can count on her absolutely loving anything you make. The ones you make for her even more so.

Also: CUDDLES. Violet would absolutely love cuddling you. You also mentioned that you were the mom friend of your squad. Violet knows how tiring this is, as she is a mom friend herself, so I can see the two of you helping each other unwind after a long day of keeping your friends in line

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<no oneshot this time. Sorry>

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[mediaevalmusereads]

Too Sinful to Deny. By Erica Ridley. 2011, 2019.

Rating: 3.5/5 stars

Genre: historical romance

Series: Gothic Love Stories #2

Summary: One look at the towering ocean-side manor that is to be her new home, and exiled socialite Susan Stanton knows: This is a place haunted by secrets, and riddled with menace.

For Susan, there is no escaping the most dangerous element of all—dark-haired smuggler Evan Bothwick, a man whose rakish countenance cannot hide his wicked intent.

But Susan has a secret of her own—a special gift that renders her privy to the darkest mysteries lurking within the walls of the manor and in the labyrinthine cellars beneath. And the only man who can help her is the very rogue she would do anything to be able to resist…

***Full review below.***

CONTENT WARNINGS: blood, murder, imprisonment/abuse, suicide, explicit sexual content, ableism

OVERVIEW: I read the first book of this series for Halloween, and since I'm a Gothic Girlie, I thought what the heck - I'll read the rest. I had a good enough time; though this isn't the best-executed romance I've read, I did find myself intrigued and delighted, which is enough. Thus, this book gets 3.5 stars from me.

WRITING: Ridley's prose is fairly good in this book. It's about what you'd expect of the romance genre: quick, easy to digest, a hunt of humor and eccentricity (without being overwhelming). It did it's job, and I can't fault it for things that are hallmarks of the genre.

PLOT: The non-romance plot of this book follows Susan Stanton, a 20 year-old well-bred lady who is sent to the remote town of Bournesmouth after being caught up in one too many scandals. Susan is determined to marry a rich man with a title to secure her future, but her banishment to Bournesmouth poses a unique challenge. Not only is she far away from proper society, but there seems to be something amiss in her host's home.

This book felt less "Gothicy" than some of my other Haloween romance reads, so if you're going in hoping for something traditional, you'll be disappointed. The manor itself really isn't the object of intrigue; it's more the threat of isolation and the nefarious goings-on by the seaside.

Still, there were things I liked. I enjoyed the ghosts and the overall mystery. The feeling of isolation and desertion was palpable. There was also quite a lot going on, but rather than feeling like my attention was pulled in a dozen different directions, everything felt more or less related. There was just... a lot.

There were some things, however, that didn't quite click for me. For one, I felt like there wasn't enough done to present Susan's host as a real threat. They don't even know who each other is and she's staying in his house without making a real protest, and even after we learn about their connection, the host doesn't exactly seem like an active participant in the plot - but more on that below.

I also think the interactions between Susan and the women in town were a bit tedious. I'm fine with a little conflict between women, but this felt over the top and not fully explored - especially towards the end.

CHARACTERS: Susan, our heroine, bothered me at first but grew on me over time. She starts out as this somewhat uppity town lady, but over time, she proves that she has a backbone and actively tries to do the right thing. It was a fun evolution to follow.

Evan, our hero, was interesting in that he was both not a titled hero and an unrepentant rake. I feel like most rakes I read have a secret heart of gold, so I was intrigued by a character who self-admittedly only sees women as objects for pleasure. Some readers might hate him, but watching him reform and finally break was narratively satisfying.

Other characters were fine; some felt well-used while others felt underdevelopped. Susan's host - Ollie - felt like he existed on the periphery of the story when his threatening presence could have inserted more tension. The subplot with the town women and the magistrate was fine but could get tedious. Without spoiling anything, I will say there is one character that Susan meets at the manor who seems to be forgotten half the time. But eventually, that character takes center stage, so it turned out ok.

ROMANCE: The romance between Susan and Evan was kind of fun. I liked their dynamic and how they absolutely irritated one another; it made for some silly banter that helped alleviate some of the dread and the doctor moments. But I also appreciated that a big part of their arc involved learning to trust one another with real stakes at play. Their troubles were not just miscommunication issues, but real misalignment of values that they had to work on.

It wasn't always satisfying. I'm still not sure that the story convinced me that Evan had truly changed or that his resect for Susan would continue once the whole mystery was solved. But as a standalone plot with a small scope, it was entertaining.

TL;DR: There's a lot going on in Too Sinful to Deny, and not all the plot threads are explored fully. But it was interesting enough to keep me turning the page, and I'm always a sucker for the reformed rake trope.

[bradleysbradshaws]

Ahhhh, well, so let's talk about Forest Pussy.

So it did start because I had mentioned wanting to draw a historical/fantasy thing for Roosmav (I come from a background of drawing very whimsical characters/settings - I would probably be in The Witcher fandom now if the Netflix show was any good), and it was actually Fopps who brought up the idea of Forest Pussy. And that was really exciting for me because I had always wanted to have more things in common with her, and honestly, that brief time we had planning that AU in its initial stages was one of my fondest memories.

I wish I could have access to that conversation now, but she actually came up with the "Forest Pussy" moniker because I had said something like "Forest omega!Mav with a Pussy," and she abbreviated it to "Forest Pussy" - that was honestly so big-brained! I'm glad I was able to tell her while I could, but she was just a fun-as-hell person to be around, even if our erections aren't exactly aligned...but honestly, my erection doesn't align exactly with anyone's. None of my friends - save one - share my slavering passion for my specific brand of bottom!Bradley, either.

But I get that her heart has never been in twink!Cruise (she likes twink!Bradley, lol), and I would never again want to force anyone into doing things that they aren't interested in. That definitely was a huge mistake of mine last year - me trying to push people into doing stuff that, if I want to have done, I should just do for myself. To be fair, at the time, I had felt like they were my friends, so it just felt like an encouraging my friends thing to me, but I understand now that I had probably come off as pretty annoying.

But the fact remains that I still have my fantasy of drawing for some sort of Roosmav historical/fantasy thing, and I get that I can no longer do that for Forest Pussy because neither of its authors want to talk to me anymore, and I respect that and don't want to make anyone feel uncomfortable with unwanted interactions. I'm sad about it, of course, because both of them were super nice to me in the brief time we were able to talk, but I respect their feelings. And I'm grateful that they were able to write things that I would have never been able to write myself (omg, I cannot write twinks to save my life - not twink!Mav, not twink!Bradley - I have found that I am a masc4masc girlie, after all, much to @unrealwasteland's disappointment xD) - so I know Forest Pussy is in good hands, even without my involvement.

SO - I have to make up my own shit now. Somehow. The cringey part is definitely me and my utter lack of writing ability trying to write things that I can draw for myself, but it is what I have to do now if I want to make my own dreams come true. I'm James Cameron: and I have to write, draw, direct, and produce my own shit now.

As I have said before, this has all been incredibly character-building, and even if I can't achieve my own goals, I think I will learn a lot in the process of trying. :3

[zgvlt]

Hello again, this is the same anon from here

Honestly any fanfic would do, a series or one shot that seems to have really good writing. I've been trying to look for well written one shots for awhile on tumblr. My friend on here actually introduced me to your blog, they speak very highly of you. But other than your blog I did find people who write in detail but they're from another fandom sadly:(

A questio, do you know the self aware twisted wonderland AU? It's a very interesting AU. You should see the one shots made for the AU although they don't write in detail as much but their ideas for said AU is very interesting, nowadays most of the things being posted about the AU is all about writing letters to your favorite characters instead of one shots so that's why I was hoping you could give me a few recommendations:)

ohhhh i think i understand better now yes. and yes, i know about the self-aware AU! it was popular in the mysmes fandom too haha, it's a fun au for any game. i think a couple of writers have done their take on it so i don't really know who you're referring to or who did it first haha

regardless i guess i'll recommend fics (and honestly? just writers) i personally enjoy, and you can see if they're to your taste as well! or you can scroll through their masterlists yourself! and also this is my opportunity to talk about my talented mutuals oopsies

sorry for the tags pls forgive me hehe 🤗

i already talked about this in a post a few months ago, but i love anything written by @traumxrei-archive !! one of trau's leona fics titled "the shape of one's heart" is an easy new favorite of mine, i love character studies so much and screams and falls into a pit. and speaking of series! trau has a mini series based on fairy gala, fittingly named "the fairy gala collection"... and then and then just... trau's fics <3 heart eyes only!!

these are short but intimate... which makes sense because "fondness found amongst fleeting intimacy" [part 1 w/ idia, vil, mal, crewel] [part 2 w/ savanaclaw boys] by @twsthearts i just think about them every so often, the title itself enraptured me and i was just compelled to read and i had no regrets knox if u see this i adore ur writing sm i always feel like i'm reading one of my poetry books or the diaries of novelists excerpts from your works feel like they belong on a book, and then a pinterest girlie will be so in love they'll scan it and post it on their board

@twstedstoryshop hi okay so i'm going to admit i haven't finished shopkeep's full catalogue yet but i'm going to say "convenient marriage" (deuce historical AU) is probably my favorite bc i just... historical AUs, but i also enjoy "funny thing called fate" (azul soulmate AU) because i'm predictable and I think soulmate AUs are the best!!

@kaiijo ying...!!! such charming writing...! "magnetic" (azul frenemies to lovers) might be to your taste! although i am a simple human and the love triangle [part 1] [part 2] ones are my favorites dreamy sighing

i haven't actually read any of these yet (bc i want to binge all of them in one day oops) but since you mentioned series of one shots i thought of "the who does the prefect like" collab bc some of my (again, talented!) mutuals are participating in it i think it's worth checking out!

these are all i can think of right now off the top of my head that you might enjoy but if i think of more i'll reblog this!

anyway to whoever else is reading this feel free to recommend me some fics as well because i have not been reading a lot of fanfic lately hjsjsjsd i haven't had the time to finish my mutuals masterlists cries +++

i would love to follow more people ahhhh give me your recs &lt;3

[southerneclecticwitch]

𝓐𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓶𝓮...

I've got scars, stretch marks, and chubby curves...

I'm very anxious and shy until I know someone...

I don't really wear much make up beyond the basics. My hair is naturally curly and usually an unruly mess in a bun. I'm not a girly girl. I prefer flip flops or boots. I'm a jeans and t-shirts kind of girl. I'm laid back, open minded, and give most people a chance unless your energy is trash. I cuddle my stuffies and my puppies when I'm sad or scared. I color pictures and watch cartoons.I like shooting guns. I'm silly and playful when I like you.

I'm very sensitive to feelings, to energies, to vibes. I study herbalism and read tarot. I honor Freya in my home. I give of myself so much more than I ever get back. I love movies and books and museums and campfires and hiking and taking a million photos of sunsets and sunrises.

I've known great pain and great loss in my life. I've had my heart broken so many times. I've buried my only child, both parents, and two best friends. I live with chronic pain on a daily basis since my late teens. I'm a CSA survivor. I'm a tough bitch, but I'm tired.

I'm in an open ENM marriage with my husband who I've been with going on 25 years.

What do I really want in a partner? l really want someone who wants to go on adventures with me. Travel to fun places and explore historical sites. Someone who will respect my challenges, but not see them as deficits. Someone I can watch bad movies with and laugh. Share our playlists because music heals me. Share our dreams. and our fears. Someone with an open heart who will love all my pieces and won't walk away when I show them me.

𝓛.

[ladykatakuri]

Layers

Pairing: Wrecker x Reader

Word Count: 2221

Warnings: Just fluffy and a kiss! Wrecker is not just the hug-a-bear we all love, he is more !

Song Lyrics: Faith of the Heart performed by : Russel Watson

Summary: People always judge you by your so-called defects, but Wreck…” Carefully you place a finger under his chin and lift it. “You are a man with so many layers to discover. Beside your sweet and gentle nature, your love of explosions and bets with Cross on who can destroy the most clankers and your deep affection for your family, there is so much more.

So a Wrecker one shot i made. I think there is far more to the man then has been shown until now and i hope that we will get to see more in depth about all of our sweet Batch in season 2 ( and yes I mean all of them when i say Batch! Crosshair included! )

The Havoc Marauder always seemed as a small home to you all. There was enough space to sit and relax, sleep after a mission or work while underway to whatever planet it was the lot of you would go to, to earn some credits. It was a home away from home, even though you also had a new home base on Ord Mantel. The Marauder was that bit more special because it was the last part of home that the guys had left after defecting from the Empire. Today it seemed to be a refuge for one of the guys and you were glad it was parked on Ord Mantel. Now at the very least, you could spend some time with him, without having to worry that one of the others would walk in on the two of you, without having to worry that he would shut you out again.

“Wrecker….” You walk up to the man currently sitting with his back against the wall of the Marauder. It took you a minute to realise he had taken refuge in the hull and you would not let him get away with withdrawing himself from you again.

“Wrecker, you know you can talk to me right? If not me, then you should find someone to talk to. Please Wreck, don't shut me out.” You slide down next to him on the floor and put a hand on his arm.

When he turns his head to you, you see his watery smile. As much as he is always the cheery and positive man around his family, he now seems to have withdrawn from it all to suffer alone. “I… I don't know where to even start Mini.”

Mini, the name he has given you when you first met and it never left. It became his sweet nickname for you, knowing that you never felt secure about yourself. You had always been well aware you were more weighty then most of the women crowding around the troopers at 79s and all the women flocking towards the men of the Bad Batch whenever they showed up in a bar. The clones who were the majority of the visitors to 79s never looked at you as someone different because of looks though and Wrecker and his brothers were very quick to point out how sweet they found you and how special you had become to them when you joined their little family. To Wrecker you were the most beautiful person in the galaxy as well. He named you Mini, because compared to him, almost everyone was small and you were no different in that. Softly patting his arm you tell him to start where he wants to start.

It's been a long road

Getting from there to here

It's been a long time

But my time is finally near

“I guess, I just wonder where it all will end, or when it all will end. Omega is still just a kid ya know? She is growing up fast, but she is supposed to be a kid. She should be playing with other kids and having fun, bringing home stray animals as pets and kiss a special someone…. Well not kiss, that would not be alright with me and the guys, but when she is older…. But she is learning how to fight and kill now and she is a fugitive with us. It ain't right.” He almost shouts out the words, as if it was blocking his every thought and had to be thrown out there. “I know it wouldn't be much of a life on Kamino for her and all, but still… Is this the right thing to do for her? To keep her with us where she is always in danger?”

You know it is a sentiment that all of the men have had at one point, but Wrecker who bonded strongly with the young girl, as the older brother, felt strongly protective of his little sibling and feared greatly for her safety. With what you hoped to be a reassuring smile you look at him. “Wreck, I know you worry. But this is also Omega`s choice. You all wanted to give her a chance at a more normal life with Cut and Suu. She chose to be with you and live her life with you. You are her family and family is all that matters to her and to you.”

For the first time he grins. “Yeah, she is stubborn ey? Guess she has that in common with us.” Reaching to his side, he grabs a bag of his favorite snack, most times shared with the young girl after a mission. “Want some Mantel Mix too? “ He offers you the bag and you grab a handful of the mix. Popping some in his mouth he chews while staring at the wall opposing you. “Remember how we first got to talk? It was in the hull of the Marauder as well.”

And I can feel the change in the wind right now

Nothings in my way

And they're not gonna hold me down no more

No they're not gonna hold me down

No they're not gonna hold me down

You had been travelling with the guys for a while now, getting used to the day to day business and to being somewhat of a sister figure to Omega. You were no warrior, no clone and no mechanic or medic. You were just the person who was easy in making connections with people when you decided to give it a real try and you knew how to prepare meals from whatever was lying around that was edible. And even more important, you befriended the Bad Batch and covered for them when it was first announced they had defected from the Empire. Knowing how close you had grown to the men, you were under investigation and the guys quickly decided to get you away from the Empire's clutches as fast as they could.

Each of the Batch had grown rather attached to you and Omega clung to you, especially when it came to doing the girly stuff. You enjoyed it immensely but it was Wrecker who surprised you the most. The man had always been considered a simple person that loved explosions and fighting and having his sweet snacks. He could party like the best of them and that was all there was to him. Boy, did he surprise you when you walked in on him one night.

You had been on the way to some remote planet in the Outer Rim. The possibility of finding an ally or foe was small and you needed supplies. Tech and Echo were in the cockpit as usual while Crosshair and Hunter were sound asleep. Omega shared her private sleeping space with you and after a long talk and reading a fantasy story she finally fell asleep. Lula was tucked snugly in with her after which you softly stepped down a ladder and moved to grab something to drink. You stumbled in on Wrecker, concentrated on something on a pad and not hearing you enter the hull. “What ya doing Wreck?” Carefully moving around a crate, you stand beside him and look down.

“Y/N ! You surprised me!.” He quickly puts the pad beside him and looks up to where you stand. I was, well… I was reading something.” He scratches his neck and a slight blush creeps up on his cheeks as he looks at you.

Tilting your head you slide down beside him. “What are you reading?”

For a moment he seems to be debating whether or not he should let you know. Then, he grabs the pad and hands it over to you. When you look at the text displayed you look up. “Wreck, I didn`t know you were interested in this.”

He shyly smiles at you as he takes the pad back. “I like to read about things… Do you know about this man? Asimov? He is really smart. I thought maybe… There is something we can use from what he writes when we face clankers and all.” The sincerity in his voice surprises you a bit.

“I won't say I understand everything this man writes, but it is very interesting. Honestly, I prefer reading different kinds of stories. Romantic novels, historic stories or thrillers and all that. Biographies can be very interesting too and sometimes it can still teach us still I guess.”

Wrecker nods at your every word and a smile beams at you. “You love reading too! Why didn't you tell me? We could share favorites and talk about them if you want? I mean, if that's something you'd like?”

From that moment on, the two of you would share time together whenever you could to talk about the latest story you discovered, about the things either of you did not understand and the other could explain or just reading the same book. More than once it happened that the others would walk in on the two of you, you with your head against him, him with his head in your lap or the other way around, just enjoying the stories you were reading or discussing the stories. Those moments were also the start of Wrecker opening up even more to you about the past and sometimes about his deepest feelings and fears.

Cause I've got faith of the heart

I'm going where my heart will take me

I've got faith to believe

I can do anything

I've got strength of the soul

And no one's gonna bend or break me

I can reach any star

I've got faith

I've got faith

Faith of the heart

Now right here in the present, you realise that the man you came to love for his love of life and his hidden, deeper layers of personality is severely struggling with everything that has happened up until now. And he needed to work through it, alone and with you. Carefully you lay your head against him. “What else is wrong Wreck? I know it is not only Omega you worry about. You always shut people out when things bother you and you retreat to wherever you can go to vent.”

Wrecker inhales deeply and shifts to wrap his arm around you. “You know Mini, there is so much that happened. Omega is young and a fugitive with us, my chip activated and I almost killed them! Crosshair…. well you know his chip also activated and we lost him for a little while. I`m just happy we got him back again, but he has a lot to work through and he still blames us sometimes. And you….. Mini, you are not safe with us either. They will hurt you if they ever get you. I don't want you to get hurt Mini. I mean, we all have been injured on jobs and stuff, but you and Omega? I would die if something happened to either of you!”

You can hear his heart race as he speaks and feel his body shudder at the thought of you and Omega getting hurt somehow. But, you let him vent every bit of emotion, every bit of anger and fear he has deep inside of himself. He finally decided to open up and let this out. He decided to let you be the one to hear every thought and every struggle he has been fighting with on his own. To so many people he appeared to be a simple man, but you knew better. You knew all too well how many layers there were to this gentle giant.

Pulling away from his body you sit up on your knees in front of him. “Wrecker. You are the most gentle man I have met. You care so deeply for your own and you would sacrifice all that you have and all that you are to ensure their safety. People always judge you by your so-called defects, but Wreck…” Carefully you place a finger under his chin and lift it. “You are a man with so many layers to discover. Beside your sweet and gentle nature, your love of explosions and bets with Cross on who can destroy the most clankers and your deep affection for your family, there is so much more. You are smart, Wrecker. You have an intelligence that defies the understanding of those who always considered you only by your CT number and purpose. And Wreck? You are also the only man I truly, deeply, love.” You place a gentle kiss on his lips as you look him in the eyes.

As you pull back from him, a grin forms around his lips. Without any warning he embraces you and then stands up and slings you over his shoulder. With a high pitched yelp from you, he walks out of the Marauder and into the streets of Ord Mantel. “Time to treat you to some proper dinner, my sweet Mini!”

Before he lowers you back to your feet, he kisses you with a smile.

Out in the back, a man grins and turns around. You only see a glimpse of a red bandana, as Wrecker walks off with his arm wrapped tightly around you. Your Wrecker, a man of deep devotion and many layers to him.

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