#i'll reblog that to my main along with the other sketches id posted previously sometime later...

[international-repeater-station]

one thing i think about is how sunny mustve dealt with his feelings of guilt. he was around 12 when mari died, meaning he was just a kid, and i think, especially at first, he'd have some very, very, very conflicting emotions and thoughts, one of them being the desire to "put the blame" on basil. "he's guilty too." it's irrational, of course, and i think he would understand that, and hate himself for these thoughts even more. sunny's mind would just come up with "excuses" like that to make the crushing feeling of guilt a bit more bearable, "it's all basil's fault we dealt with mari the way we did"

and i found the phrase/lyric "i don't wanna be friends" to be something that kind of captures that childish tone these thoughts of his could have sometimes, i think. not 'childish' as in 'immature', 'childish' as in he was just a goddamn kid when he had to process all of this and so he mightve expressed his feelings using the most simple words and concepts such as these ! just. ough. my poor son.