#i'll probably mostly be bsd blogging but i'd like to talk about higurashi and idv more too...

[maerrine]

I got the results of my work capability assessment back!! And the tl;dr is that I’ve been judged as having a limited capability for work and work-related activity.

Honestly?? It’s kind of a huge relief to feel validated in a sense of like, yes, my issues (and especially executive dysfunction) exist and affect me hugely - I’m not imagining or making it up?? It’s not just finding work next to impossible, but struggling with doing the things I want to do and enjoy as well, on top of even really basic tasks...

I’m not happy that I struggle with those things, but I’m working on becoming less ashamed about it. I want to look for things I can do like volunteering even if I can’t manage full time work, because there are a lot of causes that are important to me that I want to make a difference with, but it’s nice to feel less guilty that I can’t always do as much as everyone else.

Staying active here and talking to people (online and irl) is another thing that’s hard for me, and I’ll probably never be as active as I want to be here/slow to respond to messages as well, but I do want to try and be around more too! So I’m gonna work on that from now I think. No guarantees, but still - I really enjoy reading everyone’s thoughts here and I’d like to get to know more people, so we’ll see how it goes!