#i’ve had other hyperfixations but i feel like these are the Main ones chronologically

[piratespencil]

I’m really curious which of my hyperfixation eras people followed me for lol. (If it was more than one, just vote for the main one!)

[crisis-aversion]

I feel the need to elaborate on this. Mostly because it’s kinda funny

Of the theatrical releases (that I am aware of) I have seen:

The Phantom Menace 1 1/13 times

Attack Of The Clones 1 time

Revenge Of The Sith 1/7 times

A New Hope 2 times

Empire Strikes Back 1 time

Return Of The Jedi 0 times

The Force Awakens 2 1/13 times

The Last Jedi 2 1/3 times

The Rise Of Skywalker 2 times

Rogue One 2 times

Solo 1 time

The main reason I never finished the OG Trilogy is that the first time we tried to watch SW through, when I was like. 12. We started at the beginning

Chronologically

So with two movies before we got to ANH (we didn’t own ROTS at the time, and in fact I don’t believe we do even now), we got distracted before we actually watched ESB

This is how movie marathons usually go in the family. We make it a few movies in and get distracted, so usually we never make it through the whole series. Or at minimum I’ve lost the ability to pay full attention to the third in a trilogy

To be fair we did watch a trilogy that time. It just wasn’t the correct three movies

Dad found ROTS at the library, but I had also borrowed the Marvel Encyclopedia at the same time (12 year old me loved Marvel). So I was too busy reading that to pay attention to ROTS. I only actually paid attention to a small handful of scenes

I didn’t have the same problem of not finishing the trilogy with the sequels, but it may have been because I didn’t watch them back to back because the dvds came from different christmases (I don’t remember whether I got them all at once or roughly in the same years they came out in). I half shipped Reylo after the first time I watched the sequels, mostly bc I love enemies to lovers and liked Kylo

Solo was one I got on dvd for Christmas roughly the same year as release

Rogue One is one of the few movies I’ve seen in theater when it was originally playing, and I own it on Blu-ray so I’ve seen it twice (though I wasn’t paying too much attention the second time, dad wanted to watch it and I was distracted by something I don’t remember)

The second time we attempted to watch the og trilogy we made (technically) more progress then the first time. We started on ANH so we wouldn’t have the series burn out but we still never managed to make it to the third movie

The second time we watched the sequels was bc I randomly found some sequel fics while reading SW stuff in AO3 and realized I barely remembered who these characters are and declared an impromptu binge. Somehow we made it all the way through for once, but that was mostly because I had somehow obtained a hyperfixation on Hux from fanfic despite not remembering who Hux even was other than a vague memory from the first time I watched the sequels of going “he’s hot” *not that long after* “oh no”

I found Reylo (and especially Rey) boring the second time around and have come to actively hate it due to the inability to kriffing find sequels fan content that doesn’t have it unless you manually filter it out

Not that long after that I rewatched approximately the last ten minutes of TFA and 50 minutes or so of TLJ because they were on Cable when I was visiting my grandparents and I still had a hyperfixation (why my SW fixation is specifically on the sequels, one specific book probably no one has heard of, and a parasocial relationship with the clones through my one friend and fanfic is beyond me. No one ever said I have taste)

I’d finish watching the og trilogy, but the tv and VCR aren’t compatible and the DVD player we connected them through died. So I physically can’t until we either find dvd/blu-ray copies thrifting or get to the library

For reference, the copies we own are as follows:

Phantom Menace: a VHS recorded off (presumably) a tv broadcast (incidentally how I came to rewatch the first ten minutes of it during our Matrix binge in 2020, because it was immediately after the first one and dad wanted a nap before we started the rest of the trilogy)

Attack Of The Clones: thrifted dvd (somehow, twice. Presumably mom or I forgot it was ROTS not AOTC we didn’t own yet)

Revenge Of The Sith: none, to my knowledge

A New Hope/Empire Strikes Back/Return Of The Jedi: VHS, in a box set. I don’t know how or when dad came into possession of it

Sequels and Solo: dvds, brand new

Rogue One: blu-ray, brand new

[everybodyelsesgirl]

#atotsweek2021 

day seven:  we will never be apart, indefinitely

since I hadn’t been able to take part in the other days this week, I’m going to make this a sort of all-in-one post with some of the things I've wanted to say about the show and what it’s meant to me, personally, so if you want to read that then click the read more I guess?!

what does the show (and the fandom) mean to you?

one of the main reasons that I started watching the show when I did was because of the gifsets here on tumblr (in particular, it was all the sets of the “what did you have for dinner” scene that finally tipped me over the edge, both literally and figuratively lol) and the overall discussion around the show and it’s approach to a genre which tends to be pretty rife with toxicity a lot of the time. I’d been feeling pretty frustrated (and probably slightly traumatised) by some of the shows that I’d been watching up until then, but I really wanted to give atots a chance after I’d seen people talking about it here.

so, of course, when I started watching I tried to go into it with relatively low expectations; I was looking for a distraction, something relatively harmless to occupy myself with for an hour or two every week. and whilst the show wasn’t perfect, it managed to capture so many aspects of life that I have been personally struggling to reconcile: chronic illness and how it can destroy your sense of self; the loneliness of self-isolation as a means of protecting yourself from being hurt by others; feeling like you’re living someone else’s life or living your life out of obligation to other people, and the struggle to understand how and where you fit into the world when you try to break out of that cycle; and, of course, a relationship between two people built on mutual trust that allowed for both of them to learn from each other and grow together as individuals in their own right.

the way the show handled these themes with genuine care and sensitivity had a deep emotional impact on me that I absolutely did not expect and so, once it came to an end, all I wanted to do was talk more about it. and I felt so fortunate that there were other people here who had connected with these things and wanted to talk about them too. honestly, being able to talk about the show with people here has helped me to process some of my own trauma and guilt in a way that I genuinely never thought I’d be able to. I see so much of myself in both phupha and tian’s characters, so seeing how people here empathised with their choices and motivations (as well as the people that didn’t) has honestly helped me to empathise with myself more. I don’t think any other show has had such an effect on me like atots has and, really, I owe a lot of that to the community here on tumblr for persuading me to decide to watch it in the first place.

name some of your favourite blogs/fandom creators? 

I’m going to be somewhat biased towards @systoles-lfc here purely for the masterpiece of hyperfixation which is the chronological list of phutian moments that I have been using as a resource for memes like the heathen that I am (also your fic is honestly so beautiful and perfect, I feel like I haven’t raved about it enough and I am sorry for that 😔😔). 

but I also want to mention @ataleofthousandstars and @phapundao and @taleofstars and @billkinsdancing for all the amazing edits and gifsets and other great content, and also big thanks to @eyepietime​ for always validating my ridiculous tag-essays lol 💖💖💖 

I know I’ve definitely missed lots of people, but I just wanted to say thank you to everyone for making such amazing content; it has honestly helped keep me sane since the show ended and I was left with an incredibly painful atots-shaped hole in my life.

anyway, here’s to many more #atotsweek’s to come and the definitely inevitable season two that we’re all just patiently waiting to be announced any day now! 🤡🤡