#i would like to talk about their deleted kiss scene i can't be normal about it
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skynobi · 1 year ago
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bylertruth3r · 1 year ago
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Mike and Will literally share shoes (and Will might be sleeping in Mike's room) and might not be dating yet when they start dating they're gonna share a whole closet and flirt with each other about how good they look in each other's clothes and just being obnoxious (I will rewatch those scenes so many times) what if they're sharing/swapping shoes because it's the 80's and they're in a really homophobic and conservative town and if they want to give little hints that they're dating and want to openly show it (to at least their friends) they have to be subtle about it? and maybe when they're at home they share clothes without feeling like they have to be careful with how they act around each other and can be openly affectionate (like them in s2)
Thank you for pointing it out @cler1csfink
you can read my twitter thread about Mike being gay and in love with Will here
blue sky account here
tik tok account here
Finn's gay Mike playlist here (STurn)
Mike had an unrequited gay puppy crush on Eddie
"Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship"
Finn said that they costume made the jacket so them putting a triangle on Mike's jacket was intentional (triangles are a queer symbol), the costume designer said that they put triangles on Robin's shirt to represent her queerness (she's a lesbian), Mike is gay
Mike is wearing Will's shoes in s5 and they're sharing clothes which is a thing couples do
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Confirmation that they're the same shoes and they're both size 10 so yeah they're sharing shoes
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and Mike brought these shoes from Hawkins which means the puma suede belong to Will
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and in a leaked footage El and Mike broke up/ were already broken up because Mike says "we'll still be friends" and "i wanted to tell you first" which makes me think he might have came out to her (and in that video he was literally wearing his boyfriend's shoes)
video from @nowmemoriees
in s1 during that scene on the train tracks they're friends and in the leaked video they were wearing similar clothes to what they were wearing in that s1 scene where they were friends and could trust each other. i think Mike's gonna come out to her (as gay) there which would explain why El was crying, and why Mike said "i wanted to talk to you first", in s1 Mike said "friends tell the truth" to El and in s5 it's Mike's turn to be honest about himself and maybe he'll tell her he's in love with Will or maybe he'll tell her that he's dating Will
it's the same song that played when Robin came out to Steve, obviously Steve had a crush on Robin but she's a lesbian and can only love him platonically while even though Mike tried to love El romantically he couldn't do it because he's gay and he didn't even bother to close his eyes and kiss her back
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plus in a deleted script it says he was mad at himself
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and the song playing when Mike and El were kissing in s3 "can't fight this feeling" is about someone being in love with their friend and not knowing what to do about it while already being in a relationship with someone else so it's about Mike being in love with Will and not knowing what to do so he represses it and pushes him away to get over him but then realizing it's not working (which is something he realized at the end of s3) and he's gay and he want on a double date with Will and Lumax after that
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and Mike in s4 was trying to be normal and might be into new things (men, because dnd is not new)
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and in s4 "in the closet at rink o mania" started playing Mike took what Will said "and us?" as romantic and felt the need to clarify that they're friends and Will said they used to be best friends and the camera panned back to Mike plus synth music is his thing since he has "Smalltown Boy" (gay song) as his first song on his spotify playlist, it's a song about a gay man leaving his homophobic town to start a new life and Finn said he wants Mike to leave Hawkins
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and he has a "one way" sign pointing to his closet because he's gay and closeted and in his room he has a poster of a shirtless man while the others (Steve, B*lly, and Lucas' "friends") all have women posters because they like women, Mike has all the things he loves the most in his room, a wizard (Will) and buff men <33, and a buff male dragon for some reasons and he has Will's drawings in his room
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Mike being obsessed with Superman? and him having a poster of a shirtless man while Steve, B*lly and the tigers all had posters of women in bikinis (because they like girls) Will has a skinny pink panther poster in his room which symbolizes his type in men (Mike) Mike has a shirtless man poster and a buff male dragon poster which symbolizes his type in men (Will) (he's not really buff but he's stronger than Mike) they're each other's type and love each other plus you can see Mike looking at Will's arms during some scenes
also in s3 he was happy about Dustin having a gf and asked him about her but then in s4 when he "finds out" Will has a crush on a "girl" he doesn't ask him about "her" and acts distant (he was pretending he didn't care but he was jealous) and he asked Will about the painting because he was hoping it was for him (it was)
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and he realized Will loves him back in the van scene, Mike wants to feel needed and Will needs him, Mike felt lost without Will, Will felt lost without Mike, Will loves him, Mike loves him back, they both think the other doesn't love them, they will prove each other wrong in s5 when Mike finds out Will lied about the painting and loves him back, they love each other the way they want to be loved
and he was so happy to see Will drew a heart on his shield
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which is literally an engagement ring, no hands because they'll be more than friends in s5
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they've been filming a lot at that farm.. and Ross and his wife said that they enjoyed eyewitness
and Lukas and Mike both have internalized homophobia (Lukas was dating a girl to be normal and then he breaks up with his gf and starts dating Philip,his male best friend)
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and if this leak is actually correct there would be another parallel. the episode 2 of s5 is called "the vanishing of ***** Wheeler and if Holly goes missing then Mike and Will are gonna go looking for her in the upside down and maybe they'll kiss there (maybe that's where Mike's gonna get injured)
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because in eyewitness Lukas gets injured and his boyfriend stays with him and he kisses his forehead, Lukas' dad sees it (he's ok with it)
and in s2 Mike stayed with Will at the hospital so now it's Will's turn
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they've been filming a lot at that farm.. and Ross and his wife said that they enjoyed eyewitness and they filmed at like 3 or 4 different farms (one of them has swings) and they're literally filming at one right now
more s5 leaks and Mike and El staying friends after the break up and Mike being worried for Will <33 and Mike and Robin bonding over their partners being in danger
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Will is wearing one of Mike's shirts in s5, Mike wore something similar in s3 it's a gap shirt and Eddie said Mike wears gap shirts and Will has never worn something like this in the previous seasons and he didn't bring that many clothes back to Hawkins so he's gonna have to wear Mike's if he's staying at Mike's (the Wheelers added 2 chairs to their breakfast table and Will's tiger plushie is in Mike's room, it makes me think that they're already dating in the scene because Will is wearing blue yellow and green which are Byler's colors
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Noah liking another byler edit? fork found in the kitchen. pic from @iamforbyler from here . there are hints that Mike and Will's first kiss will be in s5 episode 7 (during Jopper's first kiss there were boxes that said MW705, Mike and Will s5 episode 7) they definitely told him to promote Byler again to introduce Byler as boyfriends to the GA and Millie is not promoting mlvn anymore and when they asked her what her favorite pop culture couple was she said the couple from twlight instead of mlvn
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Will's wearing Mike's black jeans, the blue shirt looks like something s2 Mike would wear but the undershirt looks like Will's in s4. he's just stealing his boyfriend's clothes atp because Will has never worn black jeans before and he's wearing blue (Mike's color) and Mike's the only one in the party who has worn black jeans and Will might be staying at Mike's because his tiger plushie was in Mike's room and the Wheelers added 2 chairs to their breakfast table plus Will has to stay at Mike's since he doesn't have a house in Hawkins and the cabin is too small for all the Byers to live in.
maybe he's wearing Mike's black jeans from s5 instead of the s4 ones but either way they're still Mike's jeans since Will has never worn black jeans before s5 and Mike has, Will is stealing his boyfriend's clothes, plus Mike is wearing Will's shoes in s5 <33
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Byler is so obviously gonna happen even without all those proofs because they gave mlvn the stancy storyline of Nancy not being able to say "I love you" to Steve because she's in love with Jonathan and they didn't give that storyline to Jopper, Lumax and Jancy or even Duzie which are healthy couples who don't lie about who they are to each other and never felt unloved by their partners, and Mike wants to feel needed and Will needs him and El doesn't and Millie said El realized she's her own superhero and that she's gonna figure out who she is without Mike and Millie is not promoting mlvn anymore
Mike and Will spent s3 acting like they were the exes because in s2 Mike was overly affectionate with Will but he stopped doing that when he got a gf because he saw what he did as romantic so in his mind being affectionate with Will even just hugging him or just holding his hand like he did in s2 would be cheating because he's in love with Will and he's gay
Mike becomes less and less interested in El the more feminine she becomes, it becomes more difficult for him to pretend he's straight i mean he "fell in love" with her when she looked like a boy and people kept calling her a boy..
Mike probably thought she was a boy at first, everyone kept calling El the boy with the buzzcut at first in s1 and Mike said "that's not Will" instead of "that's a girl" and interesting thing is the more feminine El becomes the less interested in her Mike becomes, he probably thought El was a boy at first and she was wearing a yellow shirt (Will's color) maybe she reminded him of Will?
I mean Mike being gay aside who would you rather for him to be with?
A, with someone who doesn't understand him and he feels like he has to change himself to be with and who makes him feel insicure?
B, with someone who he feels like he can fully be himself with and who understands him and who puts him on the first place and makes him feel loved? B right? with Will
Jancy had their "we're just friends" moment and they kissed in 2 and Jopper had their "it's just 2 friends getting together for a nice dinner" moment and they kissed in s4 , Lumax had their "she's not my girlfriend" moment and they kissed in s2 and Byler had their "we're friends, we're friends" moment (started by Mike who doesn't know Will is gay) and they'll kiss in s5, there were no moments like these between Dustin and Lucas because they're not in love with each other
Byler's first cameo in a book and they're kissing and holding hands<33 it's about Alina wanting to ask a guy out and she catches the guy (Ben) kissing his boyfriend (Janos), there's carved "W+M" on the tree and a "byler" sign in the second pic, they probably asked permission to Netflix and people who worked on st to add them which makes Byler already canon? the author of the book reversed the arrow on Mike's pocket to point at Will.. and it's close to his heart.. that's adorable
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pic from here @sususu34
originally El was supposed to die in s1 (I'm glad they didn't kill her) and they were already planning to make Will in love with Mike since s1? plus if they wanted to make Will move on they would've given him a bf in the previous seasons like with Dustin and Suzie because Max didn't like Dustin back. So basically Mike and Will are gonna get together in s5
JEALOUS MIKE WHEELER WELCOME BACK, Will getting his own love triangle as he should, or maybe it's just Mike since it says "a love interest" not "a new love interest".. I kinda want to see Mike being in pain for a bit tho since I had to witness Will being in pain for 4 seasons, I kinda want a guy to flirt with Will and Will tries to get to know the character to move on from Mike and Mike gets mad and jealous about it, although they did say there were no new characters in it.. and the only new boy is Derek who's Holly's age so maybe the love interest is just Mike, and Mike is gonna be Will's boyfriend, they literally just confirmed Byler because they said Will is getting a boyfriend and they said they won't add any major characters in s5 so that means Mike is gonna be Will's boyfriend
they literally just confirmed Byler is endgame because they said Will is getting a boyfriend and the Duffers said they won't add any major characters in s5 so Mike's gonna be Will's boyfriend since the only new characters are a woman a boy who's 10 and a family with 2 little kids and the Duffers said that Will's emotional arc (his relationship with Mike) is gonna tie up the whole season, if they wanted to give Will another boyfriend they would've done it in the previous seasons (like how they handled Dustin's unrequited love for Max in s2 and gave him a gf in s3) instead of making Will in love with Mike for 4 seasons
Mike is gonna be Will's love interest and boyfriend and they know it that's why they only allowed their subscribers to see this tweet to avoid a lawsuit, leak here, this leaker is really reliable and from Reddit
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There's a leak about how Mike and Will are gonna clean each other's wounds in s5 episode 2 like Jancy did in s1, maybe Mike is gonna get hurt while protecting Will from something and Will is probably gonna be there scolding him while cleaning Mike's wounds and Mike is just staring at Will's face and not listening to a single word and blushing
this leaker has a source that was an extra for 2 weeks, take everything as a grain of salt, nothing is confirmed, Mike's gonna kiss Will first (and it's gonna be angsty) after he finds out Will lied about the painting and loves him back, the kiss is gonna happen halfway through the season or later
So according to a leak Mike has finally accepted that he's gay and he's not trying to be normal (straight) anymore, and he's discovering things about himself, he's gonna kiss Will first
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So Finn's new st playlist (for s5) is really interesting.. Mike is gay, "it's a passing phase" "give it a hundred years, it won't go away' (from "angst in my pants")"I don't want to be the one whose coming out first" (it's from "don't ask me to explain) Mike wants Will to come out first and to confess first, and "should you need a love that's true, it's me" (from "what you're doing), Will needs Mike and Mike knows it, Mike and Will both have "just what I needed" as the last song in their playlists because they need each other, Mike also has a song about dreaming and thinking about a person they know they're not supposed to, it's his POV of Byler
This is the playlist (STurn), Finn makes playlists for characters he plays for inspiration
Mike tried to lie to himself and pretend that he could love El but he can't (because he's gay and in love with Will), there's a song called "don't ask me anything" in his playlist and the lyrics are "it's so easy to lie to myself and pretend i could love you but i can't" the last lyrics are about a failed relationship with a girl
in s5 episode 4 there will be a flashback with 8 yo Mike and Will and 13 yo Jonathan, the fact that they're spending so much time on Byler (and even giving us Miwi flashbacks) and that we already got confirmation that Will's gonna have a boyfriend (it's Mike) should tell y'all everything (they're gonna get together), they spent s2 and s4 together and they're gonna be a team (jopper parallel) in s5 and spend most of s5 together, they're gonna film the scene in early July, Mike's the only one with lines so the scene is gonna be shot from his POV of Byler
Mike and Will are gonna spend most of s5 together because they're gonna be a team (jopper parallel) and they're gonna have scenes with Rovickie where they're gonna be a group, Mike's obviously gay because otherwise they wouldn't have put him with other queer people, plus El's gonna have a separate arc from Mike (because they're gonna break up and she's gonna be more independent)
we're gonna get a scene of Byler riding a bike with Holly, Holly's gonna have to thirdwheel Mike and Will, good luck to her, Will's gonna spend most of S5 with Mike and they're gonna be a team (jopper parallel) and if Will's boyfriend was gonna be another boy they would've made Will spend most of S5 with that guy so basically Mike's gonna be Will's boyfriend
Pics here
Will's staying at Mike's which would explain the Wheelers adding 2 chairs and it would explain Mike and Will sharing clothes/items and it would explain Will hanging out with Holly, plus the Byers don't have their old house anymore
Now that we know that Will's staying at Mike's house we're gonna get so much domestic content like them sharing clothes/shoes, them sharing Mike's bed, them taking care of Holly together, them kissing, them going to school together .. They're so married
the mlvn make out scene people are talking about is just a kiss at the beginning of s5 which is gonna be their last kiss (a break up kiss?) which is gonna parallel stancy's last kiss in episode 1 s2 before they broke up and Nancy got with Jonathan ,I think they're doing that to compare Byler's first kiss (which is gonna be passionate and desperate) to mlvn's last kiss, also more confirmation that the painting is gonna be really important in both Mike and Will's storylines, a byler got these things confirmed by 2 sources but they said to not worry because this is not bad for Byler, it's actually good for us, production is also trying to keep Byler hidden (they're gonna get together),
Pics here
They're trying to keep Byler hidden because they're gonna date and the painting is gonna be really important to their storylines because that's how they're gonna get together
happy 2 years anniversary to the most obvious foreshadowing ever (making willelmike walk in their love triangle formation and making El walk away from them and picking up the same dead flowers Mike gave her at the airport because their relationship is dead and making Mike stay with Will and putting Byler with other couples and putting them in the center because the're gonna focus on that relationship in s5 and making them breath in sync while the other couples were holding hands, and they made the music pick up while they showed us the couples, Mike and Will are gonna get together in s5)
video of the scene here
so from what we know so far: a guy is gonna hit on Will and Will won't reciprocate, Jonathan hates that guy for hitting on Will and Mike and Will's relationship is gonna be extremely important in s5 and they're gonna be a team, it's kinda obvious what's gonna happen (Mike and Will are gonna get together), what if Will starts dating Chance and starts hanging out with him more to get over Mike and Mike gets mad and jealous about it and they fight about it and then we have another Byler rain fight but this time Mike's the jealous one? btw Jonathan HATES Chance for hitting on Will, he's a Byler shipper fr, pics of the leak here
Mike said he's the only one that CARES about Will because he's in love with him and he said he cares about El because he's trying (and failing) to love her the way he loves Will but when El called him out on him not loving her anymore he got defensive because he's not in love with her ,he's in love with Will and he's gay
Mike only said those things because he thinks El commissioned the painting and he felt like he owed it to El and you can tell that because he only started saying those things after Will said "you're the heart" and they called the soundtrack of the scene "you're the heart" because Mike now thinks the things Will said in the van were from El, in this scene Mike was trying to recreate the shed scene but the difference is no one pushed Mike into saying those things to Will and he didn't repeat any word he heard from others when he spoke to Will, in s5 he's gonna realize Will loves him back and that he lied about the painting and he's gonna kiss him, Mike likes to plagiarize things, pics here
THE OG PARTY IS BACK and so is the Byler height difference <33, Mike and Will being the IT couple in high school <33, Will is sitting in front of Mike during lunch <33 they're gonna be such a cute couple i just know it, they're gonna be the couple who plays footsies under the table, Holly has a gay thing in her room, maybe to support Mike being gay?
only the couples said to each other or about each other that they were "friends" while the actual platonic friends (Dustin and Lucas) never said it because they never felt the need to, and Mike said it about Will while not even knowing that Will is gay and in love with him.. he said it because he was thinking of Will romantically so he said "we're friends, we're friends" to convince himself not Will
the Duffers called Mike and El their E.T and Elliot (which are platonic friends) and the dead flowers El picked up at the end of s4 were the same flowers Mike gave her at the airport, dead flowers represent a dead relationship, hopefully after the break up they'll be able to communicate more and to actually get to know each other and rhat they'll be actual friends, Mike does love El but he loves her platonically even though he's been tryng to force himself into loving her romantically but he can't because he's gay and in love with Will, parallels here
Byler, Jancy and Lumax all held hands in the same episode in s2
Byler's parallels with Jancy: Nancy couldn't love Steve because she's in love with Jonathan, Mike can't love El because he's gay and in love with Will, Nancy talked to Jonathan about Steve on a car after the break up, Mike talked to Will about El on a car after the fight, Jonathan lied and said Steve asked him to bring Nancy home, Will lied about El commissioning the painting, Nancy yelled Jonathan's name in the upside down and he went to save her, Will yelled Mike's name in the upside down and Mike snapped Will out of his episodes
Byler's parallels with Lumax: Mike stayed with Will in the lab, Lucas stayed with Max in the hospital, Will yelled Mike's name during his episode and Mike snapped him out of his episode, Max yelled Lucas' name and Lucas was there for her, they played a song used in a s2 Lumax scene (on the bus) during Mike and Will's heart to heart and used the interruption trope (a romantic trope) in both scenes
Fun fact: they used "heroes" in s3 again but they cut the "and we kissed as though nothing could fall" lyrics that they used in s1 when Mike was hugging his mom and thinking about Will, those lyrics are reserved to Byler and I think they're gonna use this song again during Byler's first kiss, Acid (a leaker) said that Mike's arc in s5 is about self-discovery (which could be Mike understanding who he belongs with, Will) and that he's not gonna try to be normal (straight, Finn said that Mike was trying to be normal in s3 and s4) in s5, plus I think Mike and Will are gonna have another rain fight before the kiss since Shawn Levy hinted at another Byler rain fight, plus s5 is gonna be Will centric and Mike and Will's relationship is gonna be really important in s5
In the first picture Mike is looking at Will (the boy he's in love with) and in the second picture Trevor is looking at Lucky (the girl he has a crush on), Netflix posted this on Instagram
Mike and Will are gonna spend s5 together as a team (Jopper parallel) and their relationship is gonna be really important in s5, also Will is definitely staying at Mike's since he's hanging out with Mike and Holly so much
Mike is filming a lot of scenes with Robin (canon lesbian character) because he's gay, Will is gonna clean his boyfriend's wounds <33, is Robin gonna be Mike and Will's gay mentor and help them get together? i would love that, Mike and Will are sharing two pair of jeans and sharing stuff is a thing for couples
He called El a weapon in s1 and he wanted to send her back to the lab and only changed his mind when he realized she knew where Will was and that she could help him find him, he absolutely DID NOT fall in love with her her at first sight, if he actually loved her he would've chosen a moment where he actually showed that he was in love with her, plus he's gay and in love with Will, He said he fell for El at first sight because he saw Argyle say something similar about Eden and he tried to copy him, he got caught for plagiarizing something at school so it wouldn't be the first time for him doing that, plus he copied what Eddie said about Dustin and said it to El, plus the Duffers said that they don't believe in love at first sight and the first thing Mike said/thought when he first saw El was "that's not Will", he was trying to recreate the shed scene except that in s2 they won and no one lied to him and his words to Will were genuine and sincere while in s4 Will lied to him and made him think El commissioned the painting (which is why he said those things, he didn't know what to say before Will said "you're the heart") and they lost
The actress who plays Suzie ships Byler, Noah and Finn also ship Byler and Brett also ships Byler and Millie ships Byler and the actor who plays younger Henry ships Byler
why did they make Mike say he loved El in s3 and then made him say he forgot he said it and then in s4 he couldn't say it anymore? it makes no sense because he knows El heard him and he just could've just said it again to her face in s3 instead of acting dumb, also in s4 he put the blame on other people instead of on himself and instead of trying to comfort El and he was all defensive and stuff like Nancy when she broke up with Steve, Mike meant it platonically and he's gay
CALEB SAID THEY MADE PLAYLISTS FOR THEIR CHARACTERS, SO STURN (Finn made this playlist) IS ABOUT MIKE AND HE'S GAY (it has lyrics like "it's so easy to lie to myself and pretend that I could love you but I can't" which is about mlvn and "besides I don't want to be the one whose coming out first") which is about Mike wanting Will to come out as gay first because he's scared and it has a song about a milkshake and about how a relationship wasn't built to last (which is also about mlvn since they had milkshakes in s4), and he could also be referring to Mike's bassment beats, which has smalltown boy on it and that song is a gay song about a gay man leaving his homophobic town to find a new life and Finn said he wants Mike to leave Hawkins, or maybe it's the Wheeel playlist, Mike (Wheel)er, Finn made it for Mike, you use the wheel to drive and he put a song called "gay thoughts" in it because Mike is gay
Noah liked a byler edit yesterday (he already knows how the show ends since he's read the last episode script and he knows the endgames, so Mike and Will are gonna date)
Lukas from eyewitness is gay and has internalized homophobia and dated a girl to try and be normal, Mike is gay and has internalized homophobia and he's doing the same thing with El and Lukas has some parallels with Mike
these colors represent El, Will and Mike (i love how Mike is next to his boyfriend instead of in the middle) also i love that Mike wears make up (i have no idea what that thing does), Will is Mike's favorite <33
Will's love interest and boyfriend, they're gonna spend s5 together I can't wait, Mike and Will are still filming together and they're filming the final episodes, they're gonna be a team
Mike thinks he's unlovable but Will loves him like breathing <33, and he makes Mike feel loved instead of insicure and he understands him like no one else could and loves him the way Mike wants to be loved
Mike is wearing Will's clothes again, sharing clothes is a thing for couples
"Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship, and as it goes on you kinda realize that Will does.. am i allowed to say this?" we already know that Will is in love with Mike, why couldn't he say it? Why is it a spoiler? Because Mike loves him back and he confirmed that Will is still in love with Mike and he's not moving on, reminder that Noah has read the script of the last episode and he knows all the endgames (including Byler)
Mike's monologue made El angry and she knows he was lying to her, does she also know that Mike is gay? She knows Mike doesn't love her in a romantic way even if he tried to in s4
well now that we know that Will is still in love with Mike and that he's not moving on from him.. this leaker basically confirmed that Mike is gonna be Will's boyfriend (they made Will spell "lover" in the words game in the s5 bts pic)
So basically Mike is gonna go on a journey of self-discovery in s5 (accepting that he's gay and in love with Will)
Noah and Finn cried during the final table read , the Duffers said that they put a lot of time in the show to have a proper pay off and the fact that Finn said that the van scene will pay off in the end??
Noah saying: "Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship" Cara Buono saying: "Mike goes on his journey in s5" (self discovery, accepting that he's gay and in love with Wll), Millie dodging the monologue question, her becoming a byler after reading the s5 scripts, Noah and Finn both crying at the final table read, Finn saying that the van scene will pay off in the end (the Duffers told him that), the Duffers saying that they put a lot of time in the show to have a proper pay off, Mike and Will sharing clothes and Will's shoes in s5, Finn making that STurn gay playlist about Mike and Caleb confirming that they made s5 playlists for their characters
"Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship"
"bye Will, see you Will🥰"
THIS MIKE WAS ALREADY IN LOVE WITH WILL :(
THIS Mike realized he was in love with Will, this part of the letter matches with Mike's thoughts so well, he wants things to go back to how they were in s2 when things weren't awkward and he didn't know he was in love with Will
THEY'RE IN LOVE
"only love makes you that crazy sweetheart"
"crazy together"
THIS Mike was already in love with Will and he thought he lost him forever without being able to confess to him :(
"Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship" this scene was always supposed to have romantic undertones because they're in love with each other
them playing "every smile you fake" while Will was faking a smile while dancing with a girl (he's canonically in love with Mike) them playing "and we kissed as though nothing could fall" while Mike hugging his mom while thinking about Will (because he's in love with Will), them using these lyrics was intentional
Karen Wheeler wanted to read lines for Joyce's play with Patty so she could kiss her, she's bisexual, she's queer like Mike
Byler looking at each other's lips <33 also Mike noticed something was wrong with Will before Will touched his neck because he was already looking at Will instead of watching the movie <33 i love the Byler and Lumax double date sm and Mike being a protective and worried boyfriend over Will
happy 7 years of this scene which was basically a love confession <33 in "st the first shadow" Henry was possessed by the Mindflayer (like Will) and Patty used the "power of love" (like Mike) to help Henry, and Will used the hand Mike held to communicate to the others to close the gate so basically gay love saved Hawkins <33
Mike has all the things he loves the most in his room, a wizard (Will) and buff men <33, and a buff male dragon for some reasons and he has Will's drawings in his room
the Duffers put "the Birdcage" on the s4 DNA board which is about a GAY MAN pretending to be straight in the same season where Finn said that Mike was trying to be as NORMAL as possible and where he was acting awkward around Will and in the season where he kept staring at Will's lips and where they played a song called "in the closet at rink o mania" when the camera panned to Mike and he started talking again", the closet is thin air atp, he's so gay
in s5 Mike is gonna go on a journey of self-discovery (accepting that he's gay and in love with Will),and he's not gonna try to be normal anymore Finn said that Mike was trying to be normal in s3 and s4 (he was trying to be straight), "he might be into some new things" (men), dnd is not new for him so the Hellfire Club was not new for him, the word "normal" has only been associated to the queer characters of st
the fact that Mike was trying to make things less gay but he made it gayer by acting weird around his "best friend" who he has "no feelings" for... like all Will wanted was a hug from his best friend of a decade.. homotron 7000 can't even hug his "best friend" anymore who may i remind you has NO IDEA WIll is gay and literally thought Will had a crush on a girl and made the painting for her and Mike got jealous and petty about it... oh and in s2 and s3 he had no problems with hugging Will or being physical with him..
if it was because they drifted away they would've made Will act awkward around Mike too but they didn't, It was confirmed by Finn twice that Mike has no idea Will is gay and he thought Will had a crush on a girl so why was he acting like that? Cuz he was jealous of the girl and gay panicking about Will's glow up
Mike uses his Will voice in Dustin's book and he's afraid of losing Will (and El), Dustin mentions all the things in his healthy relationship with Suzie (like having things in common and being honest with each other) and Mike can't relate to that (they spent s3 and s4 lying to each other) and he doesn't know what to talk to El about, this book was made by a professional writer who's a Byler shipper
in s2 in the shed scene they showed Byler while the lyrics said "if you say that you are mine" "i'll be here till the end of time" , they're the only fully romantic lyrics in the song
THIS was Mike's pov not Will's which is why Will is blurred out but after this Mike turns to Will and he looks happy but then Mike looks back at El and he looks sad and i think there are 2 reasons for that
1 he was scared of how El would react to the truth (he's gay and in love with Will)
2 he was trying to make Will jealous (cuz he knew Will was in love with him during that moment) but then he noticed that it didn't work and he got sad about it, at the airport he was also trying to make Will jealous by kissing El's cheek after he learned that Angela would be at rink o mania (and he thought Will had a crush on Angela), the parallels with Rovickie were intentional cuz we're gonna have 2 queer couples instead of one
they called the van scene the most heartfelt scene in s4? heartfelt means: from the heart, sincere, genuine, which means Mike lied during the monologue cuz they could've called that scene the most heartfelt scene of s4 but they didn't
Holly is gonna go missing but at least Mike and Will are gonna look for her together in the upside down <33 (and maybe that's where they're gonna confess and kiss?), they posted Byler, Jancy and Jopper for st day (and Robin and Vickie's chairs)
maybe we'll get a Byler rain kiss? because in August Noah posted a picture of Byler and a bts picture of him sitting on a chair wrapped in a towel and Shawn acknowledged a post that said that they wanted another angsty Byler scene like the s3 rain fight, hopefully they'll play heroes during Byler's first kiss
Mike said "I didn't know what to say" about his fight with El as if she wasn't literally begging him to say the words "I love you" AND Mike relating and nodding to Will saying "what if they don't like the truth?" Why wouldn't El like Mike "loving" her? She literally heard Mike saying it in s3 and she liked it, so why was Mike so scared of the truth? Because he's gay and in love with Will and he has abandonment issues AND internalized homophobia and he's depressed, the El scene has another meaning behind it: Nina waiting for her lover to come back but he doesn't come back and Nina leaving the station= Mike not being able to love El the way she wants to be loved and her breaking up with Mike in s5 (tho i think it will be a mutual break up)
in s4 Mike bit his lip while checking Will out, because he's gay and in love with Will
Mike listened to his boyfriend's heart in s1, he was so happy to see Will<3, I hope we'll get a scene where Will listens to Mike's heart instead, maybe while they're cuddling in s5?
all the s5 couples were next to each other at the end of s4 <33 (Byler, Rovickie, Jancy, Lumax and Jopper)
Mike used his Will voice a lot in s2, the Will voice is a softer voice he only uses with Will/ when something is about Will
Mike was trying to love El the way he loves Will (romantically) but it didn't work cuz he's gay and then he got all defensive cuz he's not actually in love with her but he's in love with Will, like with the "crazy together" thing and the "blank makes you crazy" and the shed monologue (which actually worked) and the s4 monologue (which didn't work)
the leaker (my time to shine hello) who said that Mike is gonna be Will's love interest got a thing right from Agatha all along that they said would happen (Billy dressing up as Maleficent) so this leaker is reliable and Mike is gonna be Will's love interest and boyfriend
one of the guys Mike was looking at had a rainbow flag on his book, just a funny little detail, and the clock was ticking (Vecna detail?), maybe the fact that he only likes boys will be what gets him Vecna'd?, Mike has been associated with rainbows before (and Will has drawns a rainbow spaceship when he was younger, he's canonically gay)
Mike caressing Will's drawings was so gay, new headcanon: Mike caresses Will's drawings while imagining it's Will's face, oh and i NEED to see people use this scene to transition to Mike stroking Will's cheek in s5 after/before the kiss
"I love you on your bad days" no he doesn't..
*cuts to Mike not even trying to comfort El at rink o mania and sitting close to Will even after they had a fight*
*cuts to all three of them looking upset in the van and Mike only looking at Will while El was crying*
*cuts to Mike comforting Will while he was possessed in s2, him taking care of Will, him being super protective of Will, him literally saying they'd go crazy together, him staying overnight with Will at the lab to make sure he was ok, him acting and talking softer around Will*
*Mike telling El he was already in love with her in the woods*
*cuts to Mike saying "that's not Will" in the trailer when he first sees El* (which is what he was thinking in the show)
*cuts to El listening to Mike wanting to send her back to the lab in s1 (and only changed his mind when he realized she knew where Will was), Mike calling El a weapon and saying "we're no use to Will if we're dead"*
*cuts to s4 Mike saying meeting El was simple dumb luck*
"I love you without your powers"
*cuts to Mike only focusing on her powers and calling her a superhero (superman) has he ever complimented something about her that weren't her powers or her looks? No, why? Because they don't communicate and aren't honest with each other*
like he was literally lying to her face bffr, stfu gay boy in denial, what a hypocrite..
Not to mention that Finn made a face he makes when his character lies before saying "i love you"
Imagine Will teaching Mike how to use a gun in st5 and their faces are really close to each other and he notices that Will's voice has really gone deeper over the years and he starts blushing and gay panicking about it (I want this to happen before they start dating), and then they start leaning in and they're about to kiss but Jonathan interrupts them and we have a Byler almost kiss before their first kiss and imagine Will trying to get closer the guy who hits on him in s5 and he starts bringing him to their party hang outs and the guy starts getting protective of Will and Mike starts getting jealous about it so they have a fight in the rain and Mike says "what? You don't need me anymore?" And that's how it's revealed that Mike knows Will lied about the painting and then Mike kisses Will and Will is shocked and at first he doesn't kiss him back so Mike panics and says he's sorry and has soon as he's about to leave Will grabs his arm and pulls him into a passionate kiss and imagine Will changing in Mike's room and Mike walks in on shirtless Will and he blushes and starts gay panicking about it, imagine this.. st5 starts and we get a Byler kiss but then it turns out it was just a dream but then we see Mike suddenly wake up and he sits up and he's sweating cuz he was the one who has dreaming of that and then Will asks if he's ok and we find out that Will is next to him in bed and we get a parallel to the s2 Miwi scene
#let Mike see his boyfriend's muscles, because Mike likes muscly men or men who are stronger than him (Will)
imagine this.. st5 starts and we get a Byler kiss but then it turns out it was just a dream but then we see Mike suddenly wake up and he sits up and he's sweating cuz he was the one who has dreaming of that and then Will asks if he's ok and we find out that Will is next to him in bed and we get a parallel to the s2 Miwi scene
Ted was cheating on Karen in the play, Karen was emotionally cheating on Ted with Billy, Nancy was emotionally cheating on Steve with Jonathan, Mike is emotionally cheating on El with Will
It runs in the family
The Wheelers are a family of cheaters/emotiona cheaters and Karen and Ted don't like each other and in the play they were just making out and didn't communicate at all (like mlvn)
i do think Murray was talking about Mike and Will but i think he meant it like experiment in a gay way (romantically) like Mike kissing Will, and it's so funny how he clocked them being gay within a second, he mentioned playing nintendo and Will in the van said he wanted to play nintendo with Mike
does this count as Byler getting Murray'd?
El's words "i think there is someone he likes cuz he has been acting weird" relate more to Mike cuz he was the one acting weird around Will while Will was just happy his best friend was there with him and this scene parallels Hermione acting weird around Ron cuz she likes him and they're an endgame couple, "Harry Potter and the chamber of secrets" was on the s4 inspiration board
the pineapple pizza scene was so queercoded for both Mike and El like Mike calling fruit on pizza blasphemous (against God) and not wanting to try it because he grew up in a homophobic and conservative town and he has internalized homophobia and prejudice but then when he tried it he said it was good (while the camera was on Will) while El grew up in a lab and obviously she doesn't have any prejudice or bias against things so she just tried it without complaining because Max told her that to understand what you like you have to try things on and she said it was good and they already used food to indicate queerness like Vickie with peanut butter (putting peanut butter on both slices of bread and called it a peanu butter monstrosity and she had a boyfriend who broke up with her and she likes Robin and will be her girlfriend in s5 and Mike's been paralleled to her and he's in love with Will) and she's bisexual, so basically Mike's gonna kiss Will first (and Will's gonna kiss him back), i also think Max is bisexual because she said "there's more to life than stupid boys" while Will said "a day free of girls" because he's gay and Mike said "i have an idea, boys only" because he's gay, they already used food for symbolism, Mike wants to feel needed, Will needs him and El doesn't
Noah's switch up is crazy cuz now he knows that Mike and Will are gonna get together since he's read the final s5 script "you guys are gonna get me in trouble" "am i allowed to say this?" and he used to say things like "BYLERBYLERBYLER" on Tik Tok and "yes, something went right for him" (for Will) he was definitely talking about Mike loving Will back
can we talk about Finn saying "yeah i'm super excited to see my gf in California but deep down there's some trauma but that doesn't came out"? why would having a gf give Mike trauma? and it's the same season where he said Mike was trying to be as normal as possible.. (he's gay and in love with Will)
when Joyce said "you're not gonna think it's gross when you fall in love" she meant " when you find a bf" but she didn't want Will to realize that she knows that he's gay and when Will said this he meant "i'm not gonna find a bf" (Will's boyfriend is gonna be Mike), if Byler wasn't gonna be a thing they would've given Will a boyfriend in s2 since Will was already in love with Mike in s1 but they didn't, while with Dustin they gave him a gf in s3 cuz Max liked Lucas instead of him and they made him move on from Max, they didn't do this with Will cuz Mike loves him back, Will's character arc is about getting romantic love even though he thinks he doesn't deserve it cuz he's gay andh he's gonna get proved wrong in s5
"and the guns shot above our heads and we kissed as though nothing could fall" they're SO gonna use heroes during Byler's first kiss in s5 (hopefully Bowie's version?), also Mike being protective of Will. he loves him so much <33 they played these lyrics while Mike was thinking about Will in s1 and when they used this song again in s3 they didn't use these lyrics cuz they're reserved to Byler
this video by teambyler explains Mike and Will's relationship really well
AIDS mentions in the show/ in the bts (mentioned in scenes with Mike and Will who are gay)
MIKE AND WILL ARE GONNA GRADUATE TOGETHER AS A TEAM (COUPLE) <33, this means that they're not gonna die and they're getting their happy ending together btw and Noah and Finn said that Will is getting his happy ending (which includes his boyfriend's being alive) and the Duffers said that they won't kill Mike because it would be too sad, Mike and Will are gonna leave Hawkins together after the graduation and Smalltown Boy is gonna play during that scene #trust (Finn said he wants Mike to leave Hawkins), hopefully we'll see Byler together at senior prom? obviously they can't dance together but i would love to see them go there as a secret couple or idk maybe they could go dance in a classroom just the two of them? Like the two boys dancing in a classroom she sees (it's from Rebel Robin), according to Rebel Robin Byler is gonna be the second gay couple she's ever seen <33 i hope they'll come out to her because they're gonna have scenes together, i hope her gaydar works
purple is a gay color (this is about s5 Mike wearing purple, he's gay), Will's also gonna survive in 1989 and Will's costume was purple in s3, he's also gay)
David Harbour talks about Stranger Things 5: “There are a lot of relationships that they (the Duffer Brothers) know they need to tie up, and I think they're doing a very good job at that. I think you'll be very satisfied when you watch it.” same season where Finn said that Mike being clueless about Will's feelings in the van scene will pay off in the end and Noah said that "Mike was always super protective of Will and Will always leaned on him, and you could never really tell if it was something romantic or just a really special friendship" btw, reminder that the Ross Duffer said that Will's emotional arc is what ties up the whole series and s5 is centered around Will (and his relationship with Mike), and Finn said that the painting will pay off in s5 and Noah said that you can't tell if Byler is romantic or platonic, and Will's emotional arc is based on romantic love and him thinking he doesn't deserve it cuz he's gay (he's gonna get proved wrong in s5 when he starts dating Mike)
This post was very sweet it was a draft that he was supposed to post when he actually wraps up and that's why he deleted it and didn't post it again, not all the s5 Will Byers scenes have been filmed yet, he's scheduled in Atlanta until December 20th, what if he was talking about Byler when he mentioned the Duffers? "creative progress takes time, and it's ok to be meticulous about creating perfect moments " Byler is a slow burn that took 5 seasons and he's a Byler
really funny that Mike wore converse in s4 (which are really gay shoes) because he thought Eddie (his unrequited gay puppy crush) would wear them (the costume designer said it), before y'all start saying stuff i'm just gonna say that Dustin had a puppy crush on Nancy in s1 and Max checked Steve out in s4, also Mike was looking at Eddie like this and fever was playing in the background and the costume designer said that Mike was influenced by Eddie in s4 and i think Mike grew his hair out because of Eddie and he was staring at Jake (he didn't know he was a bully) and accidentally said "El" instead of "Jane" because he was distracted ,isn't it funny that they showed Mike showing attraction for multiple boys (Will, Eddie and Jake) but they only showed Mike having "attraction" for only one girl while he was disgusted by all the other girls? Dustin and Lucas (who are straight) have shown attraction to multiple girls
Finn said that they costume made the jacket so them putting a triangle on Mike's jacket was intentional (triangles are a queer symbol), the costume designer said that they put triangles on Robin's shirt to represent her queerness (she's a lesbian), Mike is gay
in the script it says that El was supposed to draw on the map but they changed it in the show to foreshadow Mike and Will getting together and El being happy about it and they made Milie draw the figures multiple times to allign them with Mike and Will
i think Mike is gonna say "let's start a new party, you and me" to Will as a way of asking him out after he tells him about the Hellfire Club cuz yk they're nerds and maybe he's gonna say to Will "you know what? no more joining other parties (double meaning: relationships), let's start a new party, you and me" (a relationship with Will), because Mike said "what if you wanna join another party?" and Will said "not possible" and on the cover of that book there are a paladin and a cleric (Mike and Will's dnd characters)
1987 Byler riding bikes with Holly, 1987 Byler on a field together, 1989 Byler graduating together and going to college together and maybe living together, 90's Byler going to a bar together, now all we need is 90's Byler at a gay bar together and dancing with each other
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ygo-rock-bottom-au · 1 month ago
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Rock Bottom Q&A
If you have any questions of your own, the ask box is always open! I love nothing more than getting to talk about this AU!
@nyanbinaryrose: It’s very common in this fandom to ship the yamis with their hosts. Do you see Seth and Seto’s relationship as more familial, platonic, romantic…?
Excellent question!
Short Answer: Yes.
Long Answer: It's complicated.
Seth explicitly refers to Seto as his son, because Seth, unlike Yami Yugi, knows that his host is his reincarnation. I also make reincarnation a hereditary thing in this universe, though that doesn't get mentioned until Season Five because it's not relevant until then. But basically, if you're someone's reincarnation, it's because their family line carried on in a way that ties you back to them by blood. (Don't ask about Yugi/Yami, I'll get to that explanation in Season Five lol)
I've actually written a scene for later in Season Three that didn't make the final cut, but it's in their soul room and Seto decides to kiss Seth. He's going through some stuff mentally and has decided that Seth might be the only person in the world that he can trust. Seth is caught way off guard and tries to tell him no, that he shouldn't be the object of his affections (but his reasoning there is "I'm a spirit and someday my mission will be complete, and then I have to pass on to the Afterlife"). The scene then either goes two ways: Seto storming out, pissed at being rejected, or Seto insisting and getting his way, with Seth yielding because he knows that he'll treat Seto right when so many people haven't, and he wants Seto to know that sex can be a good, enjoyable thing. It's an unfinished deleted scene, so those two outcomes are equally valid, because it's not canon either way.
Seth is not morally opposed to sleeping with Seto, he just doesn't think it's healthy for Seto long-term. He doesn't want Seto to only trust him like that.
There are times later where Seto will refer to Seth as a father figure, because it's the best way that he can explain to a third party what their bond is like, but it's not an adequate or complete description.
Their relationship is so multifaceted that it can be considered all of those things in some way: familial, platonic, *and* romantic. The only thing it won't become is sexual, but even that's kind of a blurry line, because Seth is always with him. Seth sees him naked every day. If Seto does eventually start a relationship with someone *ahem* Seth is going to be there for all of that too, not in a creepy way, he just can't help it. Seto can put the Rod in a box, but Seth's spirit still dwells around the artifact, and Seto will never leave the Rod far out of his immediate reach for long.
So, will they ever fuck in Rock Bottom? Not outside of a deleted scene, no. Would Seth kiss Seto? Absolutely. Will Seto wish at some point that Seth was the only person he needed to have in his life? Yes. But we don't usually get what we want in this world.
They're not normal about each other, but it's impossible for them to be normal about each other given the circumstances.
Also, yes, I do ship Stoicshipping, but I ship a lot of things.
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jimmycarterghostland · 10 months ago
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Here's someone's(alcalde) Reddit comment from the Fear The Walking Dead subreddit. He or she has a theory that Madison had incestuous feelings for her son and daughter, Nick and Alicia. I disagree. I took screenshots of the comment, and I want to discuss it.
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I've only seen seasons three through eight of Fear The Walking Dead, but I can still debunk some of what this person is saying.
I'm sure Madison had a good reason for opening the bathroom door while Alicia was in the shower. I think I saw that scene on YouTube before, though. I might be wrong, but I believe Alicia was wearing a towel when it happened. Not actually naked. Even if she was naked and Madison walked in on her on purpose, it was probably because the situation was urgent. Not because Madison wanted to ogle her naked daughter.
Alcalde mentioned Madison being in Nick's hospital bed with him. The fact Alcalde sees this as wrong proves to me that their incestuous feelings theory is nonsense. Because there's nothing wrong with a parent sharing a bed with their child, especially when it's just for a temporary amount of time. Nick had gotten hit by a car, and he was hospitalized. Of course Madison would want to be close to him like that. It's natural for someone to want to stay near a loved one after they almost lost them. Here's a picture of the hospital bed scene:
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I can't stand when people sexualize normal affection between family members. I see people doing that in the comments all the time on social media, or on YouTube. I won't go into detail, because I'm not trying to make this post too long. But just know that I've seen plenty of instances where typical family affection is seen as a bad thing by weird morons.
There's nothing sexual about cuddling. Like kisses, even lip-to-lip ones, cuddling can be platonic. Alcalde doesn't think so, though. They even mention how Madison decided to lay in bed with Alicia in Mexico. I actually watched a scene of that on YouTube recently. While Chris picked up that knife in the hotel room, Madison was cuddling Alicia from behind in the bed. Both asleep. That's still innocent affection. It's also pretty sweet. Here's a screenshot:
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Here's the screenshot cropped, without the blackness surrounding it:
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Alcalde mentioned the deleted scene. I believe I watched that, too. Alicia and Madison were on a bed and facing each other in that scene. Nothing wrong with that, either. How is two people laying on a bed together and talking a bad thing? Especially when they're mother and daughter?
As for Madison following Nick around, I haven't seen that scene, but I'm sure it wasn't anything sexual on Madison's part. Alcalde is seeing incestuous desire where there isn't any. It's best not to take whatever they say into consideration.
Alcalde is thinking too deeply about this. And their sexualizing of normal family affection angered me, so I had to make a post explaining why they're wrong. Madison didn't have sexual feelings for her own children.
Also, about the hospital bed scene with Madison and Nick, I remember seeing a real life picture of a mother sleeping in her hospitalized young daughter's hospital bed. While the daughter was in it and sleeping too. Is someone going to tell me that mother had forbidden feelings for her daughter?
Fear The Walking Dead was a really great show. The seasons before #4 anyway. I'm still hoping I'll get to watch one and two someday.
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wearequeer-andwearehere · 2 years ago
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I am so sorry if this may sound ignorant (I have been doing online school for about 3 years now and havent really been around many people my age for a while so I don't know if this plays into my question or not)
I have 2 questions
1. I use the pronouns she/her (it's just what I have always been comfortable with) but I prefer to were more masc or boy stereotypical clothing I guess you could say. Now I do like girl clothes but not as much. I think im just confused if it's a body thing or a gender thing because I like masc clothes so much since they just fit my body better I definitely feel more comfortable in them, but I also like to wear fem presenting clothes as well that may be more form fitting. And you know sometimes I want to put on a suit and strut around in it and sometimes I want to put on a dress it just depends.
2. I am very confused about my sexuality lol. I don't think I realized people could even be more than what society had already deemed as normal and around the age I would have probably began to explore my sexuality covid hit and everything went online. (For reference I am about to turn 16 and would have been 13 when the pandemic hit) I feel the same when I see an attractive female as I would an attractive male (this goes for anyone really if I find them attractive I can feel attraction to them, whether it's a platonic, romantic, or sexual attraction genuinely don't know) I also am fine reading sex scenes but whenever people talk about it in person or if I watch it on tv that's when I get uncomfy and I genuinely can't see myself having sex with someone (idk if that will change or not) but im fine with seeing myself being in a relationship and cuddling expressing my love for a person and sometimes kissing (it depends)
I am so sorry that this was sooo long and all over the place my brain is all messy when I don't plan things out before I write or say anything, and you don't have to answer of course this was just me ranting about how I have no clear thoughts as to who I am yet and it feels good to get it off my chest lt even if you don't answer or even see this.
Thank you genuinely it feels good to talk.
No need to apologise!! I’m here for u :] That’s good, I’m glad writing this ask helped you feel better—try and write shit down sometimes, even if it’s just hastily typed into a google doc and immediately deleted. Shit’s magic honestly.
Preferring or liking masculine clothing doesn’t necessarily mean that you’re transgender. Like obviously it’s a possibility but it’s not like, oh I like pants instead of skirts that means I’m a guy!! You could be trans or you could just be a girl who likes different types of clothing.
My advice is like, don’t sweat it too much, and just do what makes you happy. If you like masculine clothing, fucking go for it!!! I’m sure you’ll slay 100%!! If you wanna wear form fitting stuff, go for that too!! Just. Do what makes you feel like yourself, and do what makes you feel happy, don’t worry about labels and am-i-trans-am-i-cis and all that, kay? Just Vibe!!!!!!
I’d suggest you consider mspec labels, which means attraction to multiple genders, labels like bisexual and pansexual, or just plain old bi and pan might be good for you!!
You can look into the asexual spectrum, which is basically all sexualities that aren’t like 100% allosexual (allosexual means like. most of the population and how they experience sexual attraction.)
Yes, attraction can be confusing. And yes, it’s possible the stuff you feel might change. Maybe you’ll feel sexual attraction someday, or maybe you never will!!
But go with what you like *now.* If bi feels good, go for bi! If asexual feels good, go for it. If you wanna change it later, that’s okay!!
I’m gonna give you my standard new shoe advice—yknow when you have rlly shitty old shoes but you’re used to them, and when you get new shoes you’re like wtf these are really weird, but then you eventually realise they’re much more comfy and you were just used to the shitty old ones?
New labels can be kind of like that. So like, if u try a label and it feels Weird, ask yourself if the weird is a “this is the wrong shoe size” weird or a “i need to break this shoe in” weird.
Hope I could help you out!! Sending my love, and I hope you find what makes you feel happy and feel like yourself!! Have an amazing day <333
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lazywriters-blog · 3 years ago
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UNHAPPY BULLY
SERIES PART 14-15
Warning: It May contain triggering content, kidnapping, violence, and non-consensual touching, some scenes might be too troubling to the viewers so take caution.
Summary: Being trapped inside a car with your kidnapper and bully isn't exactly a pleasant combination.
Word count: 7.4k
The next part might be the last instalment of this series, I feel like this whole series should be a trigger warning. Errors might be present, please don't mind them, enjoy!
The trunk lid slammed.
The luggage she had packed with her to bring along, now wedged in the rear compartment, with no other way to retrieve without the key, she had nothing on her, except her phone, the car door he willfully prone agape, with her on the front seat, tempting her to take the bait, but even if she attempted, with her ankles tied and tight, she would fall short.
Her hands weren't linked together, thankfully, just in case, someone with authority caught the heinous ploy in action. His method of avoiding unneeded issues.
Her head slouched on the backrest, eyes drowsy but remained wide-open. Crickets chirped, the soft smell of the night providing some ounce of normality, and intimacy, she heard the door collide, the noise now contained, and distant. He settled in the driver's seat, locking the entrance, he side-glanced, expression firm and sombre. The car engine roared, her heart plummets, nauseous, remotely feeling like this might be the last time she would be close to her home.
The drugs were wearing off. She noted.
Katsuki focused on the road, the streets quiet, taking a route where not many vehicles drove past, perhaps, the dose he mixed with the water wasn't as potent as he had thought, or he was testing her loyalty. To be sure of her choice-making and be cognizant of what her silence meant. In other words, he was trying to learn her stubborn habits.
Her stiff posture slackened. Respiring deeply, slightly darting her gaze to the male, watching his vermilion pupils dilated, calloused rough hands controlling the stirring wheel, he briefly glanced at her, suddenly placing one of his hands on her thigh, his veins on display, tightly gripping her clothed skin, he smirked, gently nipping his lips.
He commented, "I still remember our first kiss, you were such a coward even back then."
Her face slightly inclines forward, shunning her despondent eyes to the right, her chest heaving up and down, he continued, "Then, you blocked me." he spitefully muttered, the cramped layout of the car seems more suffocating, more restrained, and foreign, the tension tangible. She casts her gaze to the darker region of her little space, sensing the poorly-hidden antipathy radiating from his sullen narrowed eyes.
"Changed everything I knew about you, to push me away."
Her hands slightly trembled, with no gap between her fingers, and clasped her lips tighter, swinging her arm across her body and gripping the other arm, intensely focused on her breathing. Tears were mere seconds away from spilling.
"How did that end up for you? Running away, ignoring me when I texted, refusing my calls, and then, deleting your number. Sure ended well for ya." he spouts, broadening his angry smile, prevaricating the situation into his perception, strong-headed enough to defiant an inculcating belief. Much less listen to the anxious female beside him.
"Now that we've reunited, don't you think it's appropriate to be welcoming towards me? No? Or has your mind grown weak?" she bents her head lower, slouching her shoulders, eyes peeled, adsorbing in most of the negativity, growing queasy by the minute, he looked at her, incapable of withdrawing into her cracked shell. It dawned on her that, she was truly alone with him, trapped, and nobody might help her. She held her breath.
"Can't even talk to me. Real mature, loser," he grumbled, scorning.
She didn't please him with a reaction, drinking in his vile words without question. It's been years since she contemplated her waking the next day, dreading and hesitating, it's all coming back at once, uncomprehendingly overwhelming, blowing up in her face.
He carried on driving, peering at her from time to time. Watching her with vehemence, promising her if she does anything kindred to an escape, he'd chase her down with as much desperation she possesses, like a taciturn predator monopolizing its prey.
"Place your hands where I can see," he demanded.
She wordlessly obliged, after having seen him activate the child-lock system, the doors won't open from the inside, unless it's made inactive, she's stuck in a corner, just fearfully discerning her worst nightmare closing in on her frame.
"Have you... ever had a dream, where you can't seem to forget the past..." she gently uttered, speaking without any truculence for the first time, immediately, his attention is directed at her, her glimmering tears slowly overflowing from her eyes, "because, I can't just shut out the words you used to mock me. Every day, it haunts me. I..." Her under-toned voice ruptured, forcing out the remainder of her speech.
"I need to forget them..."
Her voice quavered, a lump forming in her throat, lowering her shoulders and curving within her herself, hazy sight trained upon her black jeans, stained white, then pledged, "Please let's just go back, we can fix this. It isn't too late yet..."
His ruby eyes hardened, blown open, his body expressing the turmoil he was undergoing, his knuckle turning white as his fingers pressed onto the stirring wheel harder, nostrils flared, driving with her on mind, his exhale audibly, and his fist encasing her supple skin subjected to a harsh grasp, at this point, she could see his visible veins, even clearer.
He said nought in response.
Staring at the monotonous highway, soulless, dreary, and ghostly. She softly weeps, her statement gone ignored and invalidated, she couldn't barter his motivations when he's dead-set on having it done, accomplished, and achieved. Like bringing home a trophy for a job well-done, for bringing victory.
"Please stop the car." She went on.
"Stop... Please stop," she begged, it prompted him blind to anger.
"SHUT UP!!!" He yelled at top of his lungs, expression painted with rage and resentment, dissuading all his thoughts, and, for a split second, he snapped. Her body quickly recoiled to curve towards the car door, face away from him and hiding her chest and thumping heart, fearing he might raise his hand and hit her as he had four years prior.
He continued steering the wheel, befuddled, his hand that was in contact with her skin, itching for her presence, but to no avail, she had pushed herself away, he grew restless. Irritated, he speeds up the vehicle, the air around them unquiet and disturbed by his sudden outburst, the girl opposed to opening her mouth, mindlessly observing the outsides, the adrenaline fading but her worries heaped up.
Within a minute or two, a bright lilted store came within view, the quietude only multiplied upon slowing at the stop, she heard him pull the lever, the jingling of the keys, and the hush breeze flooding in. He loudly slammed the door, startled her, quickly locked the car, and stridden towards the shop, leaving her unwatched. Alone.
She hastily pulled out her phone, thinking how he hadn't noticed it by now or was this another one of his plans for an excuse for punishment, she didn't care, with trembling hands tapping in her password and to her contacts, glancing up to see him parking at the counter, her legs shook in fear, frantically tapping one of the numbers, Izuku's mobile number.
It rang, and it rang.
He didn't pick up.
Katsuki had paid the sum of money and on the way towards her, she attempted to steady her shaking hands, but it wouldn't. Swiftly dialling in 911. Her heart was in her throat. She could hear it in her ears.
He saw her, frighteningly gazing in his path, he instantly knew she had done something.
He walked to her side, the sound of the car unlocking surprising her, and the door unbolting leaving her exposed, her phone still clutched in her hands.
"911 what's your emergency?"
The call connected, and he clearly heard it. Quickly muffling her voice with his bigger hands, pushing her in, he grips her wrist, dragging the phone away, face to face with her wide eyes. Voicelessly communicating her to zip her mouth, she wasn't going to, she screamed as hard as she could in his palms, he densely clenched her face, feeling her cheekbone against the tips of his rough fingers. He jerked her phone further away from her.
"Hello? What's your emergency?" The woman's voice asked again.
Forcing the blood to clout, she sensed her fingers loosening the hold on the device, her head was hurting, and it wasn't getting better, she squirmed, trying to shake him off with all her might, restlessly kicking him, but who was she kidding? He merely suppressed her squabbles.
She was experiencing dull pain stemming from her wrist, and Katsuki had his hands full.
"Hello? Please say something."
Eventually, her grip waned, and he snatched it, shutting the door into her face, and throwing the gadget to the ground as badly as he had endured her obstruction.
Then, rapidly began plodding on it, crushing the chucks under the base of his boots, the glass shattering into tiny pieces, unrecognizable. Exhuming all his anger on the fragile object, she was there to witness through it all, appalled.
If only she had the key to her bounds.
She didn't look at him, closing the door as he stepped in, bitterness making him unaware of what he just committed.
The engine rumbled, and then the car drove off. The shopkeeper watched the scene, daring not to intrude. He only glanced when the young man lob something on the ground, then proceeded to step on it.
Something about it unnerved him.
The both of them didn't utter a word to one another, the atmosphere in the car was unsettling, something kept off to contrive and rot, creating more hardships that could take years to untangle.
The incisive event that just came to pass smothering the girl, in a sense of foreboding, shedding a few tears, her shoulders would shake, every so often, mustering the courage to look at the infuriated male, driving them 'home'.
For certain, she could say, he was unhappy.
Nervously switching positions poised a pained low hiss to fill In the equanimity, and it attracted his uninterrupted focus on her for a split second, she feebly quaffed the discomfort, drawing in a deeper breath, and further leaned back into the seat. Posing her head towards the window, her arm swung across her stomach, observing the dingy road extend and disappear behind them.
It would have been tranquil.
But it wasn't.
Her heart was still racing, albeit less rapidly, the beats were steady and profound, knowing most of her uneasy fears by heart, and more aware of it when he is around, a frail trial to preoccupy her brain. So, she doesn't scare herself to death.
What hurts most? The fact that she failed, or her aching body, her face that still senses his hand gripping it, even after it no longer was present, her eyes that prickle, persisting insights with far less than 24 hours of rest.
The adrenaline was dwindling and exhaustion was balancing in, making it a difficult stint to remain vigilant.
She whimpered, all the agonies her body had overlooked in favour of surviving making themselves known.
They halted at a serene location, which she least anticipated. Katsuki got out, closed the door, and unhooked the trunk to acquit her bags, while she stayed inside the vehicle, heeding the pitches of crickets, the wind, his footsteps distancing from the car, slowly, she freed the space provided in the front to place commodities, to her surprise, finding it empty.
She couldn't carry on her search as he had shortly returned, wearing the most vexed expression she's seen, he unfasten her side, the breeze gently touched her skin, he sternly mouthed.
"Put your legs out."
Her breath hitched, nonetheless, without question, pushed herself onward, her body faced towards him, he dived in and heaved her up, she reflectively grabbed his neck upon the sudden movement, stressing she might fall. She only bemoaned it later.
He seemed slightly appeased, darkly cackling, the glum in his eyes withering, the unhealthy thought crossing his mind. She needs him, he entertained that belief.
He entered the house with her in his arms, shutting the door with his shoe, a low airy tone ringing shortly, the place reeked of fresh paint, an intense smell of coffee, and then the cologne she breathed in while he carried her near, she didn't reckon he would fancy such a locale. However, it oddly suited him.
Her eyes trained on the entrance, pondering what password it would need to unbolt, he glared, accurately assuming what she was thinking, walking to the common room, and he let her down to sit on the couch.
He hates to admit, that he's grown soft.
She didn't meet his eyes.
"When did you eat?" He coldly implored, looking down at her, she hampered her response, quietly glancing around the place, looking for something, he could guess what it was.
"Uh, the night you came knocking at my door." She replied. How was she supposed to consume anything when she couldn't, she was worried, alone, and her peace was stolen.
He illustrated the subtlest hint of shock in his eyes, she didn't see it behind his fierce facade.
If he left her unsupervised, she might as well just succumb to death. "Who told you to starve?" He firmly chastised her, she doesn't speak her thoughts, solely avoiding eye contact. He didn't like that.
"When I'm talking, you look at me. Loopy." He commanded, close to her face. Hiding her view of the house, she curled within her skin, gazing into his scarlet red pupils.
"Okay..." She muttered.
She's weak to sheer pressure when it comes to him, it's a whole different case of emotions, feelings, and terror.
He has hit her in the past, she vividly recalls it even after these few years, it's affected her. On a personal level.
"Good." He grinned. It intimidated her.
This wasn't how she remembered his tactics or behaviour, he's certainly changed as izuku mentioned, but not his temper.
Old habits die hard.
If izuku has seen the call, he was long too late to receive it and save her.
Within the next hour, she kept eyeing the windows, anything she could use as an escape route, Katsuki was busy in the kitchen, he got to work as soon as he tied her hands, and grimly ordered her not to move or misbehave, even if she did, how long before she trips and plunges to the ground.
He would turn around, with a suspecting gaze even when she sneezed, he was hypersensitive to any noise.
It would make running off at night tougher than it ought to be, she didn't notice him when he sat down with a steaming hot plate of noodles, she made a face but instantly diffused it when he tauntingly frowned.
Thanks to the ordeal back at her home, she didn't refuse it when he feeds her, hesitating to chew it down, he felt content, gratified that she needed him now, that she was helpless without him.
She needed him more than he ever did.
"Chew it faster! You've kept it in your mouth for long enough." He criticized, shoving the spoon to her lips, the casual attire he changed into was so odd to her.
She shook her head, saying, "I can't."
"You haven't even finished the entire plate!!" He loudly replied, "I'm not letting you sleep until you finish your meal."
"I can't eat anymore..." She cried, just on the verge of letting the tears outpour, if he kept forcing food into her mouth even when she was full, she would throw up.
"Don't be such a crybaby." He growled.
"I really can't..." She begged. That ticked him off, he furiously got up, careened to the kitchen, and plonked the dish down harder than necessary, the water gushing from the faucet, while she practically repented her choice. Being the non-confrontational person that she is, perhaps, she disliked edging others towards anger.
She bows her head, staring at the one glass piece set on the delicate table, briefly peeking at the male's back. His frustrated body language was maintained.
Katsuki was only trying to care for her, but she kept distancing herself even at the smallest of inconvenience. He loathes that about her. The drugs should kick in, eventually.
With wet hands, water cascading from his hardened skin, he made his way towards her figure, surly tone barking out an order, "Get your ass up." he said, she looked up at him, slightly raising her voice to demur.
"Why?" she timidly abjured, involuntarily shrivelling into herself. Restive to abide with his spoken words, treating it like if a threat, as if he was going to hurt her, what could she think when he appeared so sardonic.
He groaned, dismissing her lachrymose nature and just proceeding with what he wanted.
Carrying her to the room he had prepared for her long 'stay', he plopped her down the mattress, moving back to lock the exit, whilst she was struggling not to yield and relent, she could not sleep in a situation like this, she needed to concentrate.
He sends her a hurried glare, unzipping her suitcase, rampaging through her finery contends, taking his time to pick a lighter, stumbling across her expensive shirt, see-through and pellucid, he scooped it out.
She really couldn't handle the headache raging inside, controlling the need to throw up for the third time, suddenly, she jolts back as katsuki's shadow towered over her, he swiftly steadies her, she slipped out of his grasp, "Shut up, it's not like you can change your clothes in that state anyway, come back here!" he caught her ankle, slithering her retreat.
"No! I- I can change myself, please let go!" she endured his tugs, pushing him away.
"Shut up! I'm not going to do anything," he reassured, but it didn't sound very genuine. At least in her sleep-induced haze.
Clamped her thrashing frame to the bed, his hand snaking down to unbutton her pants, gently trailing it down her supple legs, she shouted, "Stop!!" He was very quick to shush her, fully removing her article of clothing, now, her black underwear was visible to his eyes. "Black doesn't look half-bad on you." he remarked, pulling her up, mandating, "Put your hands up so I can take off your shirt." he finished, she was crying, and her eyes were swollen.
"No- I- please let me change myself!" her tone barely above a whisper, positioned tight to his chest, he grimaced, prying her hands off her top and undressed her regardless, leaving her bare with her bra and panty. She curled her arms around her torso, feeling more vulnerable and humiliated. Credulous that he might harm her more.
He gently made her put on the transparent shirt, stating, "that wasn't so hard now, was it?"
She didn't seem in the right mind to soundly utter anything, he huffed.
"Go to sleep. I might not be as nice as I was today otherwise." He cautioned. Tossing one final glance and switching off the lights, letting her sit in the darkness.
He's going to take care of her, better than anyone else.
The scene at the table was vapid.
The female wearing a frown, as she reposed her hands on her laps, peering at the male opposite to her erratically glaring at her face, the young girl's hair was tugged behind her ears, visible eye bags, red lines showing at the rim, abnegating comfort while his carmine hued eyes were on her, louring balefully, then at the plate of half-eaten food she forced down her throat, it didn't feel pleasant.
"Why is your plate still full?" he firmly asked, splintering the scarce tensity in the air surrounding them, she peeked at the voice, nervously embracing her lips, slightly open eyes unable to sustain persistent eye contact with the strident man sitting across the dining table. She replied, "I'm not feeling hungry..."
She did the mistake of tearing away her gaze upon completing her sentence, his dour expression displacing itself with irritation, he meanly mouthed, "Just say you don't like my cooking." she quickly shook her head, hoping to damage control of what even the safest option had landed her on, even silence didn't help her case.
"No, that's not it. I promise." she calmly reassured, her exterior not coinciding with her inner mind, give her word to his meddling tetchiness so their conversation wouldn't be needlessly hostile.
"Don't lie to me." he said, "You didn't sleep all night, did you? What were you doing, looking for something to help you with your escape?"
She had somewhat foreseen his statement, all the more insecure and parsimony when she is in question, craving to decipher what her quietude meant by less peaceful norms.
"No, I did sleep right after you left, I only woke up when I had to... puke." she hesitantly answered, he wordlessly tests the veracity in her response, sneering, it did match up.
"Hmph, that's what you get for not eating in time, idiot." he scoffed, she excluded their exchange of words so he doesn't misunderstand more than necessary, as it was in his nature to doubt her no matter what. She was the diffusor in their conundrum pair.
The stillness endures, the clinks of her spoon against the glass as she puts some rice into her mouth, dithering to ingest it with curry, katsuki quietly watched her chew, thinking if the medicine dosage he put into her food needed to be stronger whilst observing her swallow and slowly finish whatever lingered on her plate.
The girl uncomfortably shifts in her seat, fastidious to his sullen attitude, she gulped, her mood-altering, unnerved by his stare, coercing herself to devour the last portion of rice.
He immediately took the dishes, letting her inspect her whereabouts, looking out the large window on the kitchen side when all she noticed were trees and greenery, there was a huge casement window in the living hall, but getting out by breaking it would attract his attention, which wouldn't be ideal with his speed and experience.
If she could lessen his disciplining methods by being sensible, then so be it, she could not overpower him, but outsmarting him when the time comes is worth an attempt.
A silent predator with a renounced and notorious vulture can get the better of it.
"I have my patrol tomorrow, you better behave if you want to live." he suddenly announced, veering his gaze to the female's presence in the room, "if I see anything out of place, I'm going to make you wish you haven't done it." He finished.
He would know. He did not install the cameras for no purpose, he was going to watch her, and she wouldn't know it. She nodded, pupils dilating, rapidly blinking her eyes as she quietly resumes caressing her fingers, just knowing even if she is not trying to lie, he would think that, he always doubts.
"When will you come back?" She inquired, ceasing her movement and focusing on the male. He answered after closing the faucet and scanning for a hint of dishonesty. "When my patrol ends, I'll come." he flashed her a look, "you don't need to know anything else."
She pushed away from the table, leaning back, suppressing whatever she had on mind to not reveal itself on her face, hiding her folded arms under the furniture and close to her stomach, gently rubbing the skin. He approached her, sitting down for something more to disclose.
"When were you planning to leave?" he sternly began, tightly crossing his arms and impetuously glaring, she kept her eyes darting to the side, sinking lower into her seat, feeling whatever she was about to utter would end up as a canard.
"In June, 1st week." It would be a useless lie if he was aware.
He listened.
She stole a glance, his expression staid, face slightly tilted back, then exhorted, "Give me your email address, phone number, everything. I will cancel it for you." He urged, opening his rough palms towards her.
She knitted her eyebrows, disliking his request, jaw jutting forward, straightening her posture, and answering, "No. I will not hand you anything of mine."
He pinched his lips up, espousing his need for control over her, otherwise, she will run loose, leave him as she did before, and who knows if he can ever see her. He would not let her have her way, not when he can indefinitely help, she was going to need him, whether she wanted it or not.
"Fine, I'll find it out myself." he challenged, which irked her the wrong way.
"No! You can't take hold of things that I need! You've done so much to hinder me already, how much more do you want to ruin my life?" she paused, her cries harsh and discordant, the softer edge of her voice still in place.
Drawing in a heavy breath, swinging her arm across to grip her elbow, "I'm not letting you take your place in my life again." she joylessly muttered, defiantly shaking her face, recalcitrant to the very notion of it.
"Too bad, I'm not going anywhere." he taunted with an angry smile.
She looked at him.
"Why do you hate me so much, what have I done to you? Are you holding a petty grudge against me for rejecting your feelings? Or was it because I did not praise you like everyone else!" she raised her tone, firmly planting her feet, she fumed, "Must have been nice being at the top, looking down on everyone." glaring back with the same intensity he held in his eyes, clenching her fist.
"How would you know how hard I've struggled to keep up in life." she continued.
"You wouldn't know how much I hated myself, every day even if I'm not in that forsaken place, it's always in my dreams, reminding me that I can't forgive you no matter how hard I try!!"
"Don't you get it? We are not made for each other, I... couldn't try even if I pitied you, I'm willing to put this behind us if you will stop and achieve your dreams that I have no place in. It's still not too late, please, let me cope with my issues." she voiced her worries, wrinkling her face and eyes as a means to dehort her grieving, grasping her clothing tighter, stifling down the tears from materializing.
She needed to be strong when crying is assumed to be nothing but a weakness.
She's learned it the hard way, displaying emotions is a hurdle to overcome so that she can preserve. The male was silent, speaking with a voice that eventually cracked if you were keen enough to hear it.
"Why can't you forgive me?" his knuckles turned white, paring down his tensed muscles and furrowing his brows.
"Is it so hard to look at me every day?!" he roared, squinting his red eyes and loudly exhaling, his chest pounding, biting his lips till it would bleed, concealing his face from her sight, "I've been doing so much, only to hear that you not only can't bring yourself to forgive me but love me as well."
"I don't care if you hate me or not, I don't care about anything you say about me!!" He yelled, his fist on the rigid wood, she quickly stepped in, but his resentful eyes halted her in her tracks. "I'm the best choice you have, only I can fill in the place beside you and nobody is going to take it."
"I'm not letting you leave me again, ever." she came to take note of the slight nuance in his voice, "So you better get used to it." he ended, he looked at her and her face explained all the things she felt understanding him, dismay, and inimical to dispute.
Deposing her position from her chair, she shouted, "you can't keep me here!! I have my family to go to, my own life.!"
She went on to upbraid.
"This is wrong and you know it! You have no right to keep me here against my will!!"
"You better shut up your mouth!" he yelled, his voice reverberating in the entire house, drowning out her own, abruptly shutting her up from saying anything more, her fist loosened, involuntarily leaning back from his person with big eyes, teary, and staring down.
"If I hear another word out of your mouth, you'll regret it!"
She hushed her sentiments. Not letting out anything when he rose to his feet, rushing to her weeping frame and grabbing her as hard as possible, brushing her struggles off as if it were nothing more than a minor hassle he had to deal with.
Quickly unbolting the entrance to her room and hurling her inside, closing it and walking away with loud footsteps.
Leaving her mind to wander through her unquiet thoughts alone.
She sat before the window, deep in thought as she observed the orange skies aloft, rarely blinking at the same spot, she decided to get up, gazing at the door with a distant look.
Arising to move toward it, pausing in front of it and watching, softly resting her ear to it, hearkening for any sounds, there weren't any.
She makes an effort to open it, but, it doesn't budge, he locked it.
The incident in the morning had left them both wounded, distancing from one other and eschewing. He hasn't confronted her yet, she was praying, he wouldn't.
There was no other way she can escape if there are no faulty features to utilize. The bathroom didn't have any safe points, the windows even if broken, no one can go in and out due to the cross-fenced iron bars, all she could hope was to drop a note and hope someone other than her kidnapper would discover it.
She did not yield, launching at the door with what strength she currently had, it didn't move, just the painful sound of her body crashing against it. She wasn't going to break it in a million years, not until she dislocates her shoulder before it.
She groaned, searching the room the second time during the day, and trying again after coming up empty-handed. Most of whatever was placed inside were just harmless objects, it had to contain a knife if she can ever succeed in getting it and going unnoticed.
She needed to get out before he confiscates everything.
She plonks down on the mattress, disheartened eyes and dimmed down from all the stress she's putting up inside her, thinking through her decision, crouching her torso further down, and skimming through her early recollections.
"Hey, loopy! Forgot to bring your toys again?" One of the five boys teased, in the lounge, the six children circled amongst each other, the single girl in the group looking away and scooting a little closer to the green-haired boy beside while curling within herself, wide innocent eyes soaking in the simple and modernized home.
"It's fine! We can share our toys together!" The greenette exclaimed, she gazed at him with happy eyes, unknowingly forming a smile on his tiny lips.
"Birds of a feather flock together, must be true for these two losers." The blonde-haired kid grinned, instantly goading laughter from the other kids gathered next to him, even though they hadn't truly understood the meaning behind the statement.
The two meek children wordlessly heeded, not saying as they thought hard about what he said, it's true, boys at this age are following one other's trends as they haven't developed their own sense of understanding. They are still learning, and in their younger years, no one realizes how wrong they were.
"Kacchan! Let's play some games today! How about tag and run?" Promptly a boy with black hair suggested, earning a couple of agreeing and eager nods.
She appeared like she didn't want to stay there anymore.
"Yeah let's chase these losers!"
The girl sheepishly gazed down, indecisively following behind the rowdy chaps, both brows uplifted and lips compressed into a thin line, stepping out the sunny afternoon.
Walking behind her friend, timidly inspecting the small playground at the back of the house, she came to play with izuku since her parents wanted to obviate staying at home when she was still so young, sadly for her, the greenette mostly hangs out with these unfriendly kids, so it was inexorable.
"Okay! Who's out?" asked kacchan.
"Who came last?"
All heads turn towards her, anxiously standing far behind the group and did leave with them a little later, so as per the on-spot rules, she was out. They chuckled, "Wow! Guess we are gonna get caught by loopy!"
"Loopy! Catch us if you can!" they mocked running from her figure, her friends meekly smiled and put up some distance, she didn't want to play.
Eventually, after much thinking and hesitance, she trailed after some of the ones nearest to her, taunting her to catch was kacchan who quickly dodged upon spotting her coming his way, at long last, she caught her only friend and desperately ran without drawing in any breath.
Then, it came to some of the blonde's friends and shortly, himself.
She was supposed to be an easy target, according to kacchan's logic, however, she simply managed to slip out of his grasp at the last moment, until one of them cried out, "Whoa dude!! You are losing so hard right now!"
"Shut up!!" he shouted back, he kept chasing after her as others stopped when they weren't being pursued anymore, enjoying the unexpected show.
"ARGH! You stay still loopy!!" yelled the boy, clenching his teeth, stretching his arms, just an inch closer to her and he would win, when she begins putting more space, he jumps forward, tackling her to the dirty ground, mounted on top of her back, his fall cushioned by the girl who fell face-first to the concrete.
"Hah! I win!" kacchan cheered, perking up whilst still mashing her tiny body with his.
The small spectators gawked, unsure whether to encomium or applause him after that sudden shift in behaviour, soon, they nodded and agreed, somewhat shocked.
One of them whispered to the other, "do you think he has a crush on her or something?" the only response was their rapid blinking, sealed lips, squinted eyes at the scene.
An unspoken sentence stuck inside their mouths.
In the next few days, as they were nearing parent's day, the teacher had decided to arrange a quick but cheerful performance by the kindergartners. It was a fun time, at first.
The brightly coloured classroom had most of the children pacing back and forth, bickering and chattering, the girl was attempting to draw a picture of her teapot, only to cease as a loud emollient voice called out to them, innocently glanced up from her efforts.
"Kids! We have an announcement to make, settle down!" calmly urged the teacher, gently motioning her hands to the children who silently gaped at her.
"We are going to host a special celebration for your parents and we need your help, it will be lots of fun preparing for it!" said the female teacher, grinning at the astonished younglings who probably might not have known what exactly this day for surprise was.
"We will select all of you one by one, so please let us know if you can't do it!"
First, she was elected by the teachers to be a queen in one of the skits, it only made her nervous, waiting beside the elder as they swiftly gave each student a role, in the end, who she was paired up with, regrettably, turned out to be her blonde nemesis, the prime excuse was that he suited the role and was similar to the character he had to play.
It was the story of a king and his queen, the emperor was a bad-tempered man with a queen unlike him, one day, she was upset with his stingy manners and decided to perform mischievous acts to infuriate him, it was a comical relief tale aimed to make jeers and have the audience laugh by the cute and faultless children, one of the scenes included the queen sneaking a kiss to make the king lose his dour, it was cut off until replaced with another idea.
A small peck to the cheek. That's what she had to do at the very end of the enactment.
"Katsuki, you shouldn't push her too hard, gently!" scolded the teacher, shaking her finger while suppressing her own ounce of awe from watching the two-act.
The kid glared but didn't say otherwise.
On the day of the spree, she had been dressed in a gaudy red gown, which she found extremely difficult to amble around with. Katsuki was given a crown, a blue royal suit, and instructed to smile a little.
When the two of them entered the stage and everyone seemed so taken aback and awestruck, grinning at the bunch of them, her favourite was she stepped on his shoe and he couldn't do anything about it, the crowd chortled.
Their knit went without a hitch, the last part just doubled the cheers as his reaction was so unpredictable even for her, he blushed.
In the final scene, he held hands even without her forcing her hand around his, from then on, the bullying worsened.
At times, he suddenly would pull up her skirt, she recalls immediately walking away feeling some sort of way her mind at that time couldn't comprehend, it was humiliation.
"Kacchan has a crush on loopy?!" The boy exclaimed, fortunately, was deterred by the other kids around him, terrified by his audible tone.
"Not so loud! If he hears us, we are doomed!" Fretted the boy, "what should we do? He always looks so different after seeing her man, I get so many bad feelings about it." Confessed another lad, placing his fingers on his mouth.
"Yeah, he's always looking at her!"
"I think we should do something guys, let's help kacchan!" Determinedly shooting his arm up in the air, then, their plan was in steady action.
"Hey, kacchan I heard something from the girls!!" Shouted one of the chubby boys in the bundle, leaning in to whisper.
Instantly the boy widened his eyes, saying.
"Are you sure?!" Implored the blonde kid. The other boy gave a big nod, flaring his nostrils.
"Yeah, that's what I heard! She has a crush on you dude, I saw her looking at you too!"
The kid's heart sped up, his gaze going to the girl who sat alone watching everyone.
She startles up from her place on the bed, throwing her attention to the unlocked door, soon, Katsuki stepped in, with a neutral expression, fastening the entrance as he shot her a glare devoid of its usual enmity, he looked at her face, pointing his eyes downward, fist at his sides.
He begins.
"I'm sorry." He mumbled, peering at her body gradually faltering, gazing with wide eyes, he proceeded.
"I'm sorry for bullying you."
He noticed her disinclination to deny his statement, stiff and stuck to the spot, blinking and deflecting her eyes from him, jaw clenched. Then, muttered clear enough.
"I don't get it... Why are you apologising all of a sudden?"
He kept his eyes open.
Not daring to blink as he soaked in her facial display, he didn't say anything, striving to close the distance between them, he walked towards her, she instantly backed away, putting up her hand to soundlessly convey, 'stop'
He didn't.
She hastily shunned herself into a corner, he gave in to the temptation and tightly embraced her, dismissing her hands seeking to push him away. Put more space between them, let him grow apart and lose her yet again.
Her restlessness grew apparent, as she thrashed in his hold, but he wasn't affected by the slightest. They both settled down on the floor, her tiny painless strikes beginning again.
Shoving the girl closer to him, nuzzling his face Into the nook of her neck, softly breathing in her scent, he loosened his strained muscles, facing her, giving her an unstable sad smile.
"You used to love me... So much, I know you did, you would always look at me, smile at me and now, you act like... Like you hate me when I'm so in love with you."
He whispered close to her, she whimpered, still, hell-bent on harshly nudging him away, his tight grip pressing into her waist ripping out more pain, she lifted her head from his eyes.
"Look at me." He ordered. She wasn't going to obey his beck and call. He breathed in a little heavily, speaking a little louder, "I said, look at me." He sternly murmured.
She did.
He put on a small smile, her fearful eyes now in touch with his distressed yet hardened gaze. He lowly chuckled.
"Why do you look at me as if I'm about to hurt you. I'm just trying to protect you." He emitted, his gruff voice ringing in her ears, his eyes seeming scarier now that the light is withering away. She swallowed her nerves, finding it hard to commemorate his demands.
"I wouldn't ever hurt you willingly." He confided in her, drawing closer.
"I'm not letting you leave me, what if you get injured by someone, a villain no less, or worse try to avoid me as you've always done!" He didn't say, but, she could almost sense it from his miserable expression.
'The paranoia will kill me.'
"I don't care about your opinion, I just can't let you wander off to the outside world and never let me see you again." He pressured, his focus was only on her, staring into her pupils, the room had gone dark, barely any light rinsing from the impenetrable windows.
"You need me!" He raised his voice, a few tears had slipped past, she curled herself further away from him, looking into his frightening eyes made her heart pound and drive her insane as well.
"I won't let your parents take you away from me, not them, not anyone!"
"We are stuck together now, I know you've had a big fat crush on me ever since kindergarten, you like me." He smirked, clamping around her flesh harder.
"I know you do. Don't try to deny it."
He made her completely face him, believing what he needed to hear, to fix into his brain, that she and he weren't just lovers, they were something more intimate than that.
His smile dropped upon hearing nothing in response, she gulped, inching away from him despite how close they were.
It didn't please him.
"Are you still running away from the fact that you love me?" He brusquely started, causing more anxiety to flood her mind, not looking into his eyes, from how warm he was, and there being no space to breathe, she felt dazed, light-headed.
"Come on, say it don't make me choke it out of you." He smilingly imperilled, strengthening his maiming clutch.
She did not answer.
"Say it." He nagged, tilting his face, letting there be no vacancy for her to evade his blood-red eyes. With bated breath, she peered up, parting her lips and acknowledging under her breath.
"I like you." It came out robotic and uncertain, but it elated the male nonetheless, he grinned wide.
"Say it with my name."
To elude a fight, she replied.
"I like you Katsuki."
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fuckingfuckityfuck · 4 years ago
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A/N: Originally,this was supposed to be a story but then my drafts got deleted idek why or how.I tried to write it the way how I remembered it.Let me know your thoughts on this one.✨
Pairing/s : Jeffrey Dean Morgan x reader, Negan x reader
Warning/s: mentions of sex
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Tomorrow will be my second week portraying one of Negan's wives on the walking dead.
My first scene was easy.I had one line and that was it.The rest was either me walking around or sitting pretty.
Jeffrey made sure that I was comfortable with him.That's why he decided to have sessions with me before doing the actual scenes.And you were fine with it.
The other casts and staffs were very friendly and fun to work with.They welcomed me with big open arms into their family.
Since this was your first ever show,Kirkman thought it would be fun experimenting with your character.
You knew how wild his imagination was and you were pretty excited with how your character is going to be portrayed.
He wanted your character to be lively and very sarcastic.He wanted you to have that power over Negan.Your character is Negan's favorite wife.
At first,it was hard to act intimidating infront of Jeffrey.Hell,you were intimidated by him.
A knock on the door pulled you away from your thoughts.I stood up and opened the door to see Jeffrey standing there with papers in his hands.
"Time for rehearsals?" He said and I mentally face palmed myself.
"Oh god." I muttered.
Jeffrey chuckled and patted my shoulders.
"I see,you're not the only one stressed out here.Angela wanted to know if you're fine with our next scene." He asked.
And I totally forgot the most important thing.My love making scene with Jeffrey will be tonight.
"What's wrong with me and my memory today.I totally forgot that it's today." I said and Jeffrey laughed.
"I feel like you're the old one here and not me." He joked and I nervously laughed.
"Why don't we get inside and start our rehearsal?That way we can discuss our scene?" Jeffrey continued and I nodded at his suggestion,which is good.
Mostly,for our scenes,I just follow his lead.I told him that and he knows.
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She couldn't believe the rage building inside her.She wasn't acting like herself but she couldn't stop the words coming out from her mouth.
For some reason,she wanted to test how far Negan would go.
Twirling around to grab the door knob,she heard a slam on the table.
"Don't you even fucking dare leave this room without fixing the shit you caused" Negan angrily said in a loud voice.
Holy shit,calm yourself y/n.Just like you practiced,you will be fine.
Breathing heavily,you slowly turned around to see Negan glaring up at you.
"Can't you just let me go?You said it yourself that if we don't feel like we belong here anymore,then we can just go.There are walkers everywhere,Negan." You said in a low voice,not wanting to increase the tension building between you two.
"That's the real threat,not me walking away from your overprotective and jealous ass.I just don't get why you have to punish every single man who comes across me?It's not like I'll cheat on you or anything." You continued explaining to him.
It was starting to frustrate you everytime you hear someone gets a hot iron on their face or a lash on their back just because Negan apparently saw them checking you out.
"I don't even know if this is marriage to you,it clearly isn't one.We're supposed to be partners.Not you owning me,telling me to just be here when I fully know that I can be out there too.Earlier,what I did,I had to prove to myself that I can do it too.And I did." You said and saw his eyes soften a little bit.
Slowly,Negan stood up from the couch and went to stand in front of you.
You felt his hand on your chin,tilting your head up so he could look at your face.
You saw his eyes glimmer with humor and lust?
"So you want us to be like a normal married couple?Not this apocalyptic survival mode marriage?Do I have to bring you breakfast in bed?" Negan mumbled and you wanted to punch him right there and then.
"I can't even talk to you properly.You always have these crazy ass jokes.Am I a joke to you?"
"Oh kitten,you are not a joke to me.You are my lifeline.Jokes aside,i also happen to love your pussy.Which brings me to ask,what time does your pussy open?" Negan said as he put his hand on your waist,pulling you closer to him.You giggled and looked up at him.
And that's where you lost it.You pulled his face and kissed him hungrily.Following the script,Jeffrey held your face between his hands.You felt his tongue on your lips,asking for permission.
You moaned out when you felt his hand on your waist,going lower to your ass.
Negan growled when he felt your hand on his growing bulge.He missed her like hell.
Being able to do this with her after being gone for weeks makes him want to slam his dick in her wet pussy right there and then.
But he needs to feel her,touch her,savor every inch of her body that he missed.
"God,i fucking miss this,kitten." Negan mumbled while trying to unclasp your bra.
With one movement,he pulled down your bra,leaving your chest bare for him to see.
Negan wasted no time and went to suck one of your boobs,his left hand playing with the other one.Your hands are tugging at his hair,feeling a wet sensation pooling between your legs.
"Negan,please" You moaned out,forcing him down to your legs.
Jeffrey looked up at you,at that moment,you didn't know what to feel when you saw his face.You wanted to pounce on him,feel him between you,slamming his huge dick in a hard thrust of his hips.You totally forgot that you were just filming a scene.
"I love it when you say my name like that,makes me want to ram my big,fat,juicy cock inside your wet little cunt.Do you want that?" Negan growled while fondling with the hem of your panties.
You nodded,not having the voice to speak out.You just wanted to lay down and let him have his way on you.
"Fuck,you're already dripping wet on my fingers and that's just me playing with your delicious breasts" Negan said as he put one finger inside of you.
Good lord,as much as you wanted him to pounce on you,there were people everywhere.You can feel everyone's eyes at the both of you.But here's Jeffrey not even caring about anyone.
"Cut! Next scene we'll have you lay down on Negan's bed.Take a break for 30 minutes." Greg yelled using a microphone.
People shuffled around,leaving you and Jeffrey alone.
"That was hot"Jeffrey said as he threw you a bathrobe while putting his over his body.
You rolled your eyes and chuckled.
"I hope i looked fine.I feel like my hair's everywhere.We still have to do the main scene and that's where I'm worried most." You said.
Jeffrey shook his head."You look absolutely stunning with your hair all over the place.You look like you're about to get fucked"
You sighed.
It was hard to pretend that it's not affecting you,but it does.Every scene that you do with him,gets harder for you.You just hoped that no one would notice.Even Jeffrey.
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yurtletheturtlehenderson · 6 years ago
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I'm Asexual!! 💜🖤
Hey, so I'm kinda frustrated, only because I spent like an half an hour typing out this message only for tumblr to delete it and it didn't get saved so yeah I'm upsetti spaghetti, so this time I'm gonna try and cut it down. I will keep this free of spoilers for season 3, I promise.
I thought I'd try and get a good solid chunk of an episode worth of planning done for season 3 and I already got stuck on the first scene with the gang. At least on how to write Will and Readers dynamic and how their relationship will have developed over the past year since season 2. And it kinda hit me that I don't think I ever told you guys.
Anyways, I'm asexual!
In case you aren't familiar or you aren't 100% clear on what that means, the general definition is a person who does not necessarily experience sexual and/or physical attraction towards another person.
Don't quote me, it can mean many different things to many different people, there isn't just one type of asexual person.
Anyways that might make a lot of sense to some of you who may or may not have noticed a severe lack of pda and physical affection between reader and Will. [Aside from the fact that he's missing most of season one and like, more or less half there season 2 seeing as he gets possessed] but the most important thing to me that I kept in mind was that in season one and two they are literally 12/13 so they are still awkward and shy and not ridiculously or actually in love with one another.
But the biggest thing is, writing that kinda stuff like kissing, is weird and unnatural to me. I'm not going to go into it but I've only ever been in one relationship before and when I had a boyfriend, and I thought I was expected to all this normal pda stuff and found myself dreading being around him even though I liked him, that's when I realized I was asexual.
You might be wondering why I started writing an x reader series if I'm asexual. Easy. I didn't know I was when I decided I wanted to write the story.
And no worries, I'm not giving up on this this series, but I'm also not going to write anything I'm not comfortable with.
This is still an x reader series, I just am not going to be writing a whole bunch of kissing or anything more than that. I'm just not comfortable with it and even if I did it would be terrible, I assure you 😂
Of course there will still be fluff! Of course there will be hand holding and cute awkward moments, and shy messes and sure I'll try to write an occasional peck here and there later on as the story progresses but I'm just not going to write anything more intense than that. The thought of even having to do anything beyond that terrifies me and that's not what writing this series should make me feel.
Being asexual is not something I am ashamed of. And it is not something I have tried to hide from any of you. I still feel deeply. I love deeply, and I still feel attraction, just not physically. And that's okay! While we are on the subject, I'm also bi! As I like to put it, I like to window shop but I never want to buy anything 😂
Anyways, I realize that not everyone like me gets to live as openly as I do and my heart goes out to them. Anyone who is the same and maybe is in a place where they can't or maybe aren't ready to share who they are and THAT'S OKAY!!!! Or maybe they have shared who they are people aren't ready to accept them, I accept you. The point is, as long as we can accept ourselves, then even that is okay. It gets better. If anyone needs someone to talk to I'm always here! Who knows maybe, you read this and it felt all too familiar and you might be realizing some things about yourself, again you can always talk to me, even if this post is like a million years old.
Anyways. That's all I wanted to say. Thank you taking the time to read this and feel free to ask me questions although if you do I prefer you do it through DM seeing as I can't reply directly on comments. And thank you for understanding, and if you can't seem to wrap your head around this then I'm truly sorry. And come back anytime when you are ready.
Thank you 🖤💜🖤
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