#i was thinking like maybe if they havent gotten back to me by tomorrow i'd try to call them again but i dont wanna b annoying about it

[lilowoof]

ngl gamers, I think I'm gonna inevitably lose to the hormones and depression in the near future XD

Can't bring myself to be active cause I'm using a lot of energy to not vent post all the time. But fuck it, into the tags I go!

[dumbbitch1997]

found an apt i rlly like, was hoping to sign a lease today so that i can get in before its snatched up, but the lady i talked to said she was going to give my info to the leasing agent or w/e who would get in contact w me to tour it etc but now its been two hours and i’m like :p 

[heartlites]

tomorrow, friday, is my last day working my crummy job. i told myself i would go in today (thursday) but i didnt. i just cant bring myself to care- and i had a massive headache this morning (and leona was being a lil shit all night). but, anyway, i will work friday to say good bye and to try to make sure i have okay-ish money saved for a little bit. im going to still pay for groceries until i run out of money. i see my therapist this coming wednesday, the 17th, and i will talk to her about starting my disability application.

anyway, with the coming freedom, there's a collection of things i want to do. i really need to clean my room, the messiness is killing me. i want to get my kitchen back to decent, too. i want to try and get back to painting or drawing, in particular i'd like to paint something for my therapist as part of my farewell to her after working with her for 9 years.

i also really, really want to get back to my spiritual practices. i havent really done any prayers or spent time with Isis in months and i miss it. i wish i had some guidance while working with Her and exploring my faith, too. i feel like im fumbling around in the dark, trying to be true to the practices that have been in place in devotion to Her, but i lack any good foundation or knowledge. i feel like a blind child reaching for Her.

outside of this, other things i want to do include finishing my recent embroidery project even if its a bit fumbled and messy. i need to get a punch needle to finish the other two. this saturday i am going to go to barnes&noble to pick up some new books to read through in the coming months. i want to get some kind of history book and then some kind of mystery novel. at least two books, maybe up to four depending on prices. then, there's the shows, movies, and other media i want to watch, read, and/or play. this list as follows:

interview with a vampire

bridgerton

nimona

dungeon meshi (currently watching a little with friends!)

that's all i can think of for now. i want to add more books to this, i'll probably come back and edit this post once i've gotten my new books this weekend (side note: wish there was a used bookstore i could go to, but alas, i don't know of one anywhere near me; additionally, wanna get back to going to the library).