#i was really hoping to get the next chapter of dear ed up today becuase it's almost done in editing

[piratecaptainscaptainpirates]

Sorry, just a vent post, having a Day

all of this is so stupid individually but I just need to shout into the void. don't mind me.

phd stressors are Stressing, and real life sucks right now (just cannot seem to catch a break with anything), so I think I've been putting too much stock in this online space to be a happy place for me.

this is 1000% on me for being a sensitive little baby but I've lost a couple mutuals lately and one even blocked me and I just have no clue why at all, and obviously it's good that they're curating their space and I'm not about to block evade or anything, and if we weren't close enough to to talk much or for them to come to me if I've done something wrong, then it's something I should be able to move on from. Logically I know that, I'm just so sensitive it's unreal. Probably it's because I post too much discourse or something? I dunno, I'm genuinely lost and it's jarring to go from having nothing but friendly interactions to a sudden block.

just. man. genuinely 99% of the time i love being here and reblogging from everyone and making my silly posts and having fun. but today I think I just need to get away for a bit because I'm just having such a rough time irl and it's not helping to be here. I know it's on me for being too sensitive but yeah. not off to a great new year so far