#i was just curious okay because I'm so ethnically ambiguous that even people in this country wonder where I'm really from

[homiro]

It look like to what lol this ai is on as many drugs as I wish I was. What kind of Asian are we talking here, champ. Because if it's middle east then okay yeah maybe you're onto something. Other tries with other pictures gave me Spanish (closer) and another gave me British (not so close) but it kept giving me Asian with different pictures and I'm like fam specify please. Asia is pretty damn big.

This looks like a mugshot and I think that's kinda funny. Happy Halloween.

Mini rant under the cut.

I'm ugly I know sorry for the jumpscare. My hair is falling out I also know that. Thanks, I don't have money to fix that. I don't say this to fish for anything. And when even on Facebook someone makes an account to call you ugly you know you're right. I think the only times anyone said I wasn't ugly were when they thought I was a trans girl or a cis guy who just so happened to be androgynous. The moment people realise I'm afab they go all out in pointing out how ugly I am. And I wish I was making this shit up. And it's amazing how transphobes will go all you lovely beautiful girl uwu when they realise I'm transmasc afab intersex to try to make me a butch woman or something or binarists will have a full body reaction to me when they realise I'm intersex so like I try to put my face out there to try to come to terms that this is what I look like and can't do anything about but I genuinely look at myself and just see ugly fucking thing that confuses people

[lokigodofaces]

So I'm wearing a Brazilian football jersey today, specifically for the team Flamengos. I usually where my jerseys on Saturdays because they're comfy, but Today is a Day so I wanted to wear a jersey. First time I've worn one of my Brazilian jerseys at college. People keep asking me if I'm from São Paulo. Which brings up a few things.

I am wearing a Flamengos jersey. They aren't from São Paulo. They're from Rio de Janeiro. Which I don't expect Americans to know, I didn't know until I lived in Brazil. I just am curious as to why they specify São Paulo instead of saying Brazil.

While no one has directly said it, this is probably another demonstration of many white Americans not knowing crap about Brazil or how race works.

In case you didn't know: Brazil is very diverse. While I lived in Brazil I met white people, I met black people, I met indigenous people, I met Asian people, I met first generation Brazilians with parents from Germany, France, and Japan, I met immigrants from Venezuela, Peru, Columbia, Portugal, and Haiti, and I met tons of people who are racially mixed. It's very diverse, as many countries in the world are! There is no Brazilian "race" or "ethnicity." Scratch that, let me clarify. There are indigenous groups from Brazil. What I mean is that Brazil is racially diverse and there isn't a "Brazilian look," like many Americans seem to think.

I am experiencing this for the thousandth time so I've had time to think about it, but it still baffles me. I am white. I know my genealogy, my ancestors immigrated from England, Wales, France, Denmark, and several of the Scandinavian countries to the United States. Now, I don't have every record of my ancestors obviously, but I can go back pretty far. I also have German ancestors (if you have English ancestors, you have German ancestors. The Anglo-Saxons were Germanic, and Germany did conquer England a handful of times). What I'm getting at is that if I have POC ancestry it is either super far back or a very small amount of people. I am very much white. The apparent concern? I have dark hair, dark eyes, and darker than average skin for whites that tans very easily. In other words, I apparently don't "look" white. I "look" ethnically ambiguous. Y'all would be surprised by the amount of times that people asked what race I am or assumed that I wasn't white. I've been assumed to be Latina, Jewish, Native American, Brazilian (again there's no fricking "Brazilian race"), and Pakistani. Maybe I'm forgetting some but this is what I remember. Why do I find this so annoying? Because I have absolutely no features to suggest that I'm not white other than being "darker." My facial structure is very Germanic I guess you could say. I can't think of any other appearances that generally depict race at the moment, but I look very white other than the dark skin, hair, and eyes. People ask if in Brazil I was mistaken to be Brazilian because I speak Portuguese and "look Brazilian." I was mistaken to be Brazilian, but what everyone thought was that I was from Rio Grande do Sul or Santa Catarina. These are two states in southern Brazil that have tons of Germans. So, yeah, I "looked Brazilian." I looked like someone with German ancestry and those states historically get lots of German immigrants. It gets very annoying when white Americans assume I'm not white. I've been accused of lying about my race (why would I lie about my race?). I've had people ask me which parent is American and where the other one is from (okay at least they noticed that I look white, but they still failed) (the US is racially diverse and immigration didn't start 40 years ago, even if I had a POC parent they easily could've been natural citizens) (why?????). I've had people ask for tanning tips (I'm not purposely trying, my skin just does this. Even worse in winter, because my skin tone changes during the seasons and in the winter I'm at my lightest, which is still darker than average. So technically speaking my natural tone, unaffected by the sun. I can't help with tanning in January, that's just my skin color at that point). Then people ask if I'm from Italy or Greece or somewhere like that. Countries that tend to have darker people. So, okay, guess they don't consider Italians to be white I guess. Then when I say my ancestors are German, English, Celtic, and Scandinavian they go insane because those are the "pale" countries. They demand to know how I'm so dark. Buddy, d'y'all think I know or care? I like family history not because I'm hung up on my complexion. Like, I dunno, and I know that in the grand scheme of things it really doesn't matter. But I feel like American whites are very uneducated about race, even leftists and advocates for equality. Because in Brazil no one thought I was a different race, and most POC in the US think I'm white (other than one single exception, which was actually a funny story). It's gone to the point that if I lie and say I'm a quarter Mexican or whatever everyone believes me. People see me wearing a Brazilian shirt and I'm dark skinned, clearly I'm POC. It gets annoying.