#i was gna talk abt the stories i've been reading lmfao but i ended up rlly investing in them n trying to understand the authors
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reading some short stories for literature rn n i'm just. in awe of life.
#🌙.rambles#it's certainly bittersweet growing up n thinking of how i won't ever experience this part of my life twice.#so i always try to live it to my fullest. it's.. overwhelming n hard having all these thoughts but.#i'd hate to live without this depth n complexity. fuck if life would be easier. i would be stronger for it.#one thing i love abt. growing up tho. is that i understand life even better. i can empathize even more with other people. i understand more#& yet.. it's bittersweet too ofc. of how ephemeral n fleeting it is. n the depth the complexity can really be too much at times#i can't really. see life very simply anymore. but i take my mind of its intricacies when i'm more focused on. more#routine n normal parts of my life? but god i don't know how to say it#i really don't know how to write it. of the suffocating pressure of knowing how fast time is. of wanting to hold on as much as i can#so when time goes by. this won't be lost. but much.. much already has been lost n#idk i have a lot of thoughts rn n it simultaneously distresses & comforts me n i don't know how to write it#i really just. want to learn n take in so much. perhaps too much for me#bcs ik i still can be too perfectionistic or systematic when it comes to.. success? or life in general#so much of it is also just irrational n unpredictable n. really just. human n. that escapes me at times#bcs i don't.. often feel like i really interact with the world in a social way. that's one thing i really lack but it's rlly a weakness#of mine. bcs it's so fleeting it's so unpredictable n it interests me so much i love the endless. mystery of life but#it's. also too much at times when i feel particularly emotional bcs it's. too.. human? i don't know how to write it#i was gna talk abt the stories i've been reading lmfao but i ended up rlly investing in them n trying to understand the authors#i really just want to understand n learn so much. maybe i can be too passionate n curious for my own good but. i can't help it?#..the thought of wishing to belong still persists. n i'm rather hopeless when it comes to it rn bcs i don't know how i'm meant to face it#i tell myself i know better but i rlly. think i need to get it through my thick skull that life really isn't about doing things right n#just. doing this or wtvr. i can.. let myself be human too n. yeah. yeah i'm about to cry noo my mind is a mess#but times where i feel like this is when i want to write the most bcs a part of me is still. restrained but. so vulnerable deep down#i hope one day i can let go of those chains. n even if it's through writing something just for myself. maybe.. a story w more form?#hdflajsdklf i'm too pressured tho to do it as quickly as i can bcs time is so fast.. but. i'll. just. be patient w myself. yeah.#i'll live however i can as time just goes by. n i'll find my peace in myself like that. yeah. YEAH.#sorry this is like a mess but my mind is srs a mess but i'm oddly distressed n at peace rn. but i'm fine. i know myself well.#i'll just do what i can tonight. life n time will go on but i'll rest tonight.#listening to music rn makes me think of how much i fucking love life despite. the pain. n then.. my love for fiction n. everything#just everything in the universe. my love for the universe as a whole can just be too much i'm crying it's all too much but i'm ok dw 😭
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