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[feuqueerfire]

Cherry Magic TH Live Blogging

Couldn't decide whether to watch Blank Season 2, The Boyfriend reality show, or jump into the first 2 eps of 4 Minutes even though I can't watch it as it airs next week. Wasn't really feeling any of them fully though, so there I am with Cherry Magic TH which I've been meaning to watch for a while. One of the only recent GMMTV series that I've heard pretty much only positive things about because Last Twilight, the other GMMTV BL I've been meaning to watch, had a divisive last few episodes.

About TayNew, I thought their Kiss series side ship was alright but didn't really like Dark Blue Kiss, was annoyed by all the characters. However, I like Tay as a person and have liked him as different characters since then + I was quite impressed by New in The Warp Effect. So I have high-ish hopes, especially because of the general positive buzz toward them for this show even from non-TayNew fans.

Also, it's a long weekend so I can just watch it grey on my laptop for these 3 days and my beloved uorigin.

Ep 1 (Aug 3)

ah, office settings, how I hate them. tend to avoid watching office BLs, esp boss/employee romances because there's nothing romantic about that setting to me but I wanna watch this one.

It really is a little strange to watch this remake because I'm like anticipating things that will happen before they happen. it kinda feels like when you know spoilers but I know more than a random scene that will happen sometime in the show, it's like I'm waiting for the events/sequences like getting his power -> the elevator scene etc. but good thing kinda is that I don't actually remember the Cherry Magic JP much, so it won't be like this for long.

Achi smiling to himself as he tries to find who Karan is complimenting lmfao only to be confronted by the realization that it's him

not Achi finding the Cherry Magic manga during his search. so that also canonically exists?

aww a cute surprise party for Achi from the 2 women whose character names I don't know yet. but hello Jan <333

ahhh Karan looked through reviews for a month to find this cake for Achi omg

the friend's name is Jinta? I just think of 1) Triage mystical Jinta and 2) DFF Jinta myths

loll so fun how everybody also slinks away as soon as the boss leaves. anyway i think i'd pass away if i had to work like that

girl what the hell the samples arrive at 10:30pm and they have to confirm the order in half an hour? After just one person has seen them? omg

Karan and Achi are sooo cute to me already

not Karan's condo romance fantasy lmfaooo

I kinda remember this sleeping in Kurosawa's condo thing but I thought it happened a little later tbh

Good start, very cute.

Ep 2 (Aug 3)

hehehe bonding over manga despite Karan trying to keep up the cool appearence

pajamas Karan specifically bought for Achi?!?! he's crazy lmfaooo

I'm cryinggg Karan is actually so obsessed, the doodle is of Achi's ear and mole?!

Achi's heart beating faster at the good night + smiling when he realizes Karan practiced making the egg for him

ah, Rock got broken up with but also gave Achi more fuel for his am-i-taking-advantage-of-karan's-crush crisis

why did the boss not have any thoughts played

trying to remember if the side couple had an antagonistic beginning like they're doing here.

not Jinta also hearing the cat's thoughts!!! lmfao

ahh the office party and forehead kiss already? Why do I feel like things are happening faster than the Japanese version or do I just not remember. In my head the scene where Adachi has to placate the boss who needs that dessert happened before this scene but maybe not

ahh my poor Karan feeling bad about liking Achi and making him uncomfortable

ahh i love the rooftop convo (and thoughts)

Ep 3 (Aug 3)

almost kiss

Achi ended up accidentally giving Karan more hope than he's ever had

I can't remember anything about a resort or beach trip in Cherry Magic at all so I can't figure out if they invented it for this version or not

Karan buying the drink to give to Achi + making the executive decision to switch seats with Rock + wishing for every misfortune that would delay the bus so that he could sit beside Achi longer lmfaoo

god, Karan being too good at stuff that he wants just as hobbies. wish I had that problem so bad

We didn't get to see Rock and Mr.Tanaka but it's funny that Rock keeps getting stuck with him

We don't get to hear Karan's presentation about Achi?

we're supposed to believe New isn't built?

why do i have to see women being harassed? and was this in the OG Cherry Magic? can't remember

Karan saviour

yayyy Karan bad at singing

oh, Papang appearance. Did I know he was in this? I don't think he'll appear again

yaas let's go Pai. and hope the guy's fiancee breaks up with him too

oh, we do see the presentation final

cryinggggg at Karan's internal screaming at Achi leaning his head on his shoulder that startles Achi awake

Ep 4 (Aug 3/4)

Jinta's heart beating faster because Min thought he smelled nice nad like his grandpa lmfao

okayyyy the client incident is here, idk why it left such an impression on me, I'm looking forward to this rendition of the scene too

Pai likes Achi too?

Achi feels nothing towards Pai but his heart beats for Karan

I think there was a storyline about Kurosawa's sister coming into the picture and being mistaken as his fg right? and lived in his house for a bit? Did Kurosawa sleep over at Adachi's house during that? I'm vaguely rmring some things

I feel like there was a scene of Kurosawa getting jealous/misunderstanding Adachi and his friend's relationship, was that supposed to be here and they didn't do it or a later time?

I thought the heartbeat pen was gonna give Karan's increasing heartbeat away when Achi does something cute

time for sleep, i'll watch the last 15 mins tmrw

oh lol we kinda get Achi's racing heartbeat w the pen

not Pai being a fujo which is fine and expected but the screaming and running out at Karan and Achi being cute is so wtf lol

not Achi passing out when he thinks the sister is Karan's gf

Ep 5 (Aug 4)

ahhh Karan thinking about wanting a keepsake for their first boat ride and Achi doing an origami for him

cryinggggg, not Jinta's sasaeng Hira tease

Karan being jealous of Rock is so cute omg and is also a type of angst that i like a lot where it's not like overdramatic considering what it is but is still a little sad and achy

now Karan's gonna get jealous of Jinta? plss

were Rock and Min in that band from before? I can't remember if this was also in the Cherry Magic JP live action but it probably was, right?

Rock and Min are cute but too long, let's go back to Karan angst c'mon!

omg Karan confessing !! but I wish there weren't random people in the both who can see/hear them

This was such a sad Karan episode! I thought it'd just be a little cute jealousy towards Rock but I love that it's a more melancholic, deeper thing.

Ep 6 (Aug 4)

ahh confession

man it always hits whenever somebody apologizes for being queer to their parents or for having queer feelings toward somebody... it speaks to me

i feel like this scene + Karan walking away needs like a kdrama OST right now

wait Ms. Kem is Gun/Li Ming's very attractive mother, hellooooo

not them letting Karan be sexual harrassed! and being basically given as a sexual favour!! >:(((

my poor fucking Karan T.T

it makes sense that Karan started liking Achi after this

Karan seeing Achi take care of the office and doing small things to take care of Achi is soooo cute omg

and Achi even figuring it out!

cryinggg Pai takes her fujo duties so serious, letting the motorbike driver keep her id and stuff hostage so that she can drive Achi to the airport

enough Rock and Pai, take me to Karan and Achi, the episode is almost over!

I'm gonna pretend they didn't say there were 40 minutes left before the airplane lands and i also don't get why he has to catch Karan at the airport like just go to Karan's place? talk to him tmrw? smth??

aw, confession from Achi too

Ep 7 (Aug 4/5)

5 am?! for a full day date?! girl

Karan buying an expensive shirt for Achi for their first date, that'd stress me out so much if I was Achi

Achi's gonna be nervous about sex all day bruh

interesting contrast between Karan-Achi's highly planned but kinda meh date vs Jinta-Min's impromptu cute date

did OG cherry magic also have a dating prohibition among coworkers?

this ep kinda reminded me of PeteKao's Our Skyy episode lol. in general a kinda meh episode for me even though i get why it's needed and what it's conveying. I ended up doing 1.25x about 20 minutes in and might continue with that tbh

Ep 8 (Aug 5)

naurrrr not Ms. Kem >:(((((((

she wants Karan to kneel and apologize?!?! i'm so mad and even more so bc i would love love loveeeee to see Tay Tawan play a role where he kneels in front of women but not like thisssss D:

I kept waiting for the boss to speak up but why did he not do it until Karan was already kneeling and had his hands together and was already basically apologizing >:(

I have vague memories of the mind reading thing happening in either Adachi or Kurosawa's home in the JP version, so I can't tell if they'll fr reveal now or if it'll be like haha joking

They should not have had Karan go through with all this with Kem, I'm so aghhh >:(

Ep 9 (Aug 5)

lol yeah Kurosawa also took the mind-reading thing extremely well

ohhoooo they're so cute after moving in together and Karan constantly touching Achi and being like test, test hehehe

Jinta-Min is so cute and funny lol suchhh an improvement from the jp ver.

"The scariest thing is to limit myself because I'm scared beforehand." I need to believe this fr...

kiss! and it's pretty good to watch too, not too awkward/stilted (though i was like ok n stopped paying attention halfway through)

Ep 10 (Aug 5/6)

I wishhhhhh that this was still on Youtube so that I could easily down it for my commutes.

practice time apart... for both the couples

ooh, I do enjoy a celeb-ish/non-celeb couple where the fame and celeb culture affect the relationship, like Jinta being jealous that Min's being shipped with another member of his group

aw, Min's group didn't win

Achi doing something nice for Karan

Ep 11 (Aug 6/7)

idk if Achi not telling his new coworkers about dating Karan will come bite him later but I fully get why he doesn't say

Karan goes to sleep at 8pm???

Min reading hate comments, I can't believeeee this show is randomly giving me idol or celeb dreams and the things that come with that!

aw the coworkers are fine with Achi having a bf

i have neutral feelings about Pai and Achi together, though a bit sad about losing our aro queen from the jpn version but this is annoying

i’m on the subway, so i’m not watching 12 mins onward - to watch at home

okay update from home later: *thumbs up*

Ep 12 (Aug 7)

goodbye Achi’s magical powers

i’m skipping through Rock and Pai scene

i wasn’t expecting Too Much of a hassle with the parents but doing the fake-out “they come out and the coworkers/parents seem upset at first but aren’t actually and it’s just a funny thing” twice back to back (11-4 and 12-1) is like give it a rest. i wish the parents had at least some sort of reservations regarding the queerness or were affirming in their support, not this jokey thing like we Just got that last ep!

Min telling fans that Jinta is his bf the day he gets confirmed to debut like let’s chill and think and plan first

lol author fansign basically

okkkk angsty meeting the parents with Karan, i was wanting a bit of this

okay nvm ig bc they’re like ok as your parents we support you but like… why was the mom saying on the phone that they’re busy then? and they acted quite cold with karan and achi too

okkkk yes the parents don’t want Karan to tell others that Achi is his boyfriend

let’s go Karin

goddd, Karan wanting to put his hand on Achi’s but turning around to see his mom looking at them and so keeping his hands to himself and they’re shakinggg

Karan tearing up in happiness/relief at hearing Achi and his parents talk wuahhh

“I didn’t disappoint you, did I?” one of my fave lines in general when it comes to coming out and parents ahh

aw marriage proposal even though it’s too quick for meee but theyre in true love and will be together forever so it’s okay

i loveeee a gay double proposal

the cherry theme for Jinta’s novel, Min’s band name, Achi and Karan’s wedding is killing me like lol

and Achi Karan do get to register there marriage now, aw

and Achi Karan do get to register there marriage now, aw

i’m quite meh about weddings in shows in general but this was is cute enough

so cute Min thinking like D: is he that serious about me? and Jinta jolting from his sleepy state to be like i only haven’t proposed bc of your idol dream, pls come and propose to me whenever you’re ready

on the other hand, don’t give me lovey dovey Rock and Pai

ah, mentioning the mind reading powers again, I did feel like it had disappeared without enough acknowledgement

Was I more picky and annoyed watching the first half of ep 12 because it’s like 8am and I’m on the train to go to work?

Overall:

I had watched the Japanese Cherry Magic live-action, which everybody seemed to love but was pretty meh and forgettable to me, but I’m glad that I ended up liking this adaptation better. I was quite unsure about the whole thing when it was announced like 1.5 (almost 2?) years ago, so I’m eating my words.

TayNew’s BL work after multiple years apart and they were both better than their Dark Blue Kiss days I think, helped by the fact that they’ve individually done a bunch of acting work since then. Karan and Achi were cute and endearing (and felt more human/real to me than Kurosawa and Adachi I think? but i can’t remember much from CM JP to say it with certainty). The ship is kind of “boring” in that there isn’t much angst between the characters, not as much tension, they don’t end up breaking up 3/4 through, etc. and I find that it can be hard to care about those sorts of couples for 12 whole episodes but Karan and Achi were cute enough and had enough outside struggles to pull it off.

i’m so charmed by Jinta and Min actually, a vast improvement from the japanese version’s equivalent. How cute and endearing and I liked getting my little taste of celeb/non-celeb dating and typical idol show problems bc I enjoy these tropes, even though they weren’t fleshed out at all in this instance (I will love Thame-Po forever if they actually give me a good, proper show but idk if they will lol esp considering what I’ve heard about Only Boo!). I watched Mark and Junior first in their Midnight Museum storyline and it was good enough, a bit heartbreaking the way the stories in that show were but not mind blowing and I don’t think I’ll be watching Perfect 10 Liners, but I’d still be curious to see them in something different later on.

On the other hand, I didn’t care about Pai and Rock whatsoever. I knew they were gonna end up together based on people’s comments + the SingJan ship but it’s a shame that they didn’t keep aroace Pai though i know she’s not aroace in the OG manga). Even without that, I just didn’t care about it, I just wanted Rock to give up and leave Pai alone. Pai is great and I liked her putting her ex his place and choosing happiness etc but not the part where she screams whenever her real life coworkers Karan and Achi do anything cute like okay you ship them but keep it in your head pls.

I enjoyed the adaptation and how it had the Japanese touches (the company try work for specifically) while also introducing Thai elements (religion, festivals, dialects). Great improvement on the kissing department and I’m glad they also squeezed the wedding in there.

Another of those I enjoyed it and it was well-made but I doubt I’ll be thinking much about this and it didn’t give me any soft of brain worms.

Rating: 6.5/10

[love-toxin]

How would Eddie feel about being bred (either with a m!reader or a f!reader pegging him)?

you have given me an immense gift anon <333

(cws: m!angelface, internalized homophobia, casual sex/fwb situation, outdoor sex, multiple orgasms, breeding kink, dirty talk, pillowtalk (forest talk?), love confessions, angst and fluff, insecure eddie.)

He always starts it off that way. "I dunno how you feel, being around the freak..." And it always bothered you.

At first, you thought he meant his reputation alone. Then you figured it must be because people don't understand D&D, and they think Hellfire's some satanic ritual club. Then you thought it was because he wears that Dio jacket and blares heavy metal for everyone to hear, which does make the older ladies in Hawkins clutch their pearls when his van drives by.

But then you discovered the reason. Why he's so antsy around you, yet he's always in your personal space. Why he's always wrapping that black bandana around his hand or swinging it around, making it obvious to you that he has it but only when you're hanging around. And why, when you asked him once if he had a crush on any girls, he just laughed. He didn't laugh when you told him your own truth, though, he just stared at you with those big eyes and watched every word fall from your soft lips.

Definitely not when you've got him pinned to the blanket you spread out under Skull Rock, his jeans rucked just under his ass and yours only unzipped and shuffled down a bit, your hands bracing the ground by his head and your hot breath on his ear as you start slowing down your thrusts. It's a little cold out, the September chill having caused you to don your jackets--and they've stayed on, despite Eddie's face being so flushed and warm and your back puddled with sweat from the workout that's lasted an hour at least.

"Like that, baby boy?" His back arches further into your chest at that, a whine bitten off his lips at the condescending tone of your voice. He doesn't like being condescended to, unless it's you, and unless you're at least several inches deep in his guts. "Like makin' me a daddy?"

His fists clench, grabbing up a bundle of the blanket underneath him that's already been soaked with a puddle of his cum. Thinking he's the only guy in Hawkins with love and desire for other men has been isolating--you know the feeling pretty well, ironically--so thinking that he might find someone willing to indulge in his strange fantasies has been like a faraway dream. Something he never even dared to think about other than in the throes of jacking off in his cluttered bedroom.

"Got plenty of cum in here," You continue, hand sneaking beneath his shirt to sideswipe his leaky cock and rub possessively at his belly, pushing on it just enough for Eddie to whimper and clench around you tight--doesn't want any cum spilling out, doesn't wanna waste the precious gift you've given him. "Wanna make me a baby, love? I'll breed you even more--I'll breed you as many times as it takes, stud."

Your cock slips out, creamy and throbbing with an ache you've rarely felt so strongly, and before the cool air prickles the skin you slam your hips back down, and snicker so mischievously at the sound it makes that Eddie has to clamp his hand down on his mouth to muffle half the moan that comes out. As much as you want to tear those fingers off his lips and force those cries of sweet, sweet pleasure out of him, you know the risks--so you let him do as he pleases while you throw your back into blowing his out, balls squishing against his and sticking together with cum and sweat every time you bury your cock so deep your stomach meets his skin.

"You'll be such a good daddy, Eds," You whisper, nibbling at the shell of his ear and knowing his eyes are already rolling back, knowing it drives him fucking crazy when you're sweet like that. The tip of his ruddy cock is grinding into the forest floor with how weighty your thrusts are, and how heavy your hips come down on him from above--but the fuzziness of the blanket cushioning him hurts in a good way, it coaxes spurts of that clear arousal out of him like he's a damn fountain on the fritz, and what you wouldn't give to lap it all up and have him dump all the rest into your waiting mouth.....well, you'll have to do that another time, since you're already breeding the fuck out of his perfect, pale ass. "Gonna have such a cute little family, gonna make such cute little kids, you and me."

Your hips won't stop rolling now as you moan that out, your brain getting a little melty at how hard he's squeezing around you and how thickly your seed is sloshing around inside him already. Eddie's always told you to keep the dirty talk simple, that's what he likes, that's all he needs to get off--but you'd be lying to say that you don't enjoy this fantasy just as much as he does, that dreaming of filling him up with cum like this doesn't keep you awake and giddy with intimate excitement for the nights leading up to Sunday mornings at 11 am. Sometimes your cock twitches in your pants just when you hear his voice, when you pass by him in the halls and instantly get a flash of that pitchy, broken tone begging you to drain your balls in him as deep as you possibly can. It's difficult to speak yourself when you get to this point, huffing and puffing with strain as Eddie bumps his hips back and strokes you off with those tight walls that make your wet dreams so much wetter.

"Pretty fucking stud, you are--you're meant for making babies for me, Eddie. And you're not leaving here without mine." Eddie finally grabs your arm, scrabbling to gain purchase on your sleeve before his nails dig into it. His hips are jerking back, limbs shaking, voice breaking--he's so ready for it, and so are you.

"Fuck, fuck, fuck--p-pin me! N-Now-!" With a grin that twinges with the jolts of pleasure starting to overwhelm you, you stop holding yourself up and drop your entire weight on Eddie, collapsing on top of him and forcing him to the ground--effectively both sinking as deep inside him as you can, and grinding so much delicious pleasure into his cock between the hard ground and his body that he writhes as he cums, kicking his sneakered feet out over the leaf-covered dirt and moaning into your palm as you quiet his uncontrollable volume with your hand. If only you'd let me kiss you, is the thought that last leaves your head before you tense up and still your hips, your own sounds muffled into his jacket-clad shoulder as you both meet your respective ends.

It's fitting, then, for the world to grow quiet after that, save for the panting breaths and shifting of clothes on your heated bodies. It never ends with much afterthought, not a word spoken between you as the high comes down quick and you become intimately aware of how sticky you both are--cum spilling down between Eddie's cheeks as you pull back, and you're sure there's quite the mess waiting for you underneath him when he's strong enough to sit up. For now, though, you're faced with the Dio album cover on the back of his jacket that he's played on the way to your hookups, his body only responding to you when you fully remove yourself from his ass and move to cup the mess, reaching for the bandana in his back pocket with your spare hand to wipe him off. When the fabric makes contact with his flesh, he shakes his head to throw those curls every which way--a sign enough that he doesn't want to be cleaned up this time. He's so unwilling to break the silence that it falls to you, much like it always does.

"Fuck....that was even better than usual, Munson." You chuckle, tucking the bandana back with minimal stain before sitting back on your knees, and pulling his pants back up over his ass--mournfully, because you really can't get enough of how perfect and chubby those porcelain-skinned cheeks are. If he let you leave marks, you'd certainly like to see bruises in the shape of your teeth littering that pretty skin. Only once you get up to your feet do you zip yourself back up, mindful that you'll need to change when you get dropped off at home, and Eddie rolls over with a groan and sits up to do the same to himself. With some help from the blanket you brought, of course, wiping his crotch clean of the absolute mess of cum he'd been laying in before he does up his belt. "So, same time next week, huh?"

Eddie's usually pretty quiet after the fact, choosing to avert his eyes and avoid questions unless he really needs to answer them. He doesn't like the afterglow, doesn't enjoy the feeling of his own conscience dawning back on him when your bodies have both grown cold and separate again. He shuffles back the few inches to rest his back against the cool stone of Skull Rock, bringing his knees up to his chest and pulling his arms around them to hug them tight to his body. He may be quiet, and that might be normal, but he's never like this.

"...What's that face for? Did I...are you okay? I didn't hurt you, did I?" With a step forward, you squat down until there's only a little space between your faces, yours painted with concern and worry as you lay your hand on his knee. Don't touch me after we're done. Those words hit you like pins as your fingers graze the denim, the memory of him laying out his boundaries when you started this is....conflicting. You hate to make him uncomfortable, but the anxiety around his strange reaction is just too much for you to bear.

"....I want us to be something. But we can't." Eddie's head shakes again, a glistening sheen over his eyes that resembles oncoming tears being furiously blinked away. If this is really the conversation you think it's gonna turn into, well....this isn't how you thought it would start. "And I....I dunno if I can keep doing this if we can't. Because, I-I...I'm clingy. I won't move on."

Being so vague with his feelings isn't abnormal, either, but you can count on your fingers how many times he's said anything after you've had sex. Eddie's not touchy-feely, not with you, not when he's tried so hard for so long to treat this as a business transaction. So have you, but not in the same way--not in the way that even looking at you makes him want to say stupid things, things that would drive both your lives towards further ruin if anyone ever heard them come off his lips.

"Eddie-"

"You don't need some freak ruining your life." He turns his gaze upwards, finally, to look at you--and those eyes are cold, bitter in a way that isn't directed at you, but rather at the circumstances that have brought you both together. The fact that the one thing you have in common is something he knows he can't hide, but he hopes that you can, for your own sake.

"Don't be mad at me, please. I don't wanna ruin this, but I know I'm going to, and I'd rather you forget I exist than keep being reminded that you....you'll never be mine." As if he's become awash with a new surge of strength, he startles you backwards by shooting up to his feet, and walking with purpose away from you and down the start of the hill--leaving you standing, staring, until you can't take the view of his back any longer and raise your voice so he can't ignore you.

"Did you ever ask if I would be yours?" You couldn't be more grateful that he stops in his tracks, a twig snapping under his last step as a quiet falls over the forest again. Your heart pounds so loudly you wouldn't even think that he'd fear you could hear his doing the same.

"It's just a passing fling. You'll move away and be someone, and I'll...I'll still be here." You can see his head tilt down, defeat pouring over his shoulders--and yet he hasn't even fought his battles yet, it's pathetic. He's always thought that way about himself, always wondered why you'd settle for him even as a fling, never realizing that what you really feel for him is much deeper than he'd ever dream.

"You think I'd leave the man I love for anything?" Then, and only then, does he turn so fast he sends pebbles skittering off into the grass, his eyes so wide and gleaming with disbelief that's coloured in honey brown and cocoa.

"You love me?"

He utters the words almost silently, brows upturned and mouth half-open in shock. It's such a visceral reaction that it almost makes you wonder whether he's never been told such a thing before, if the mere thought of someone professing their love or even feeling it in the first place is just....ludicrous. It cuts you in a way you weren't expecting to even consider, and powers your feet to start moving and crossing the distance between you, until you're standing right back in front of him and looking eye-to-eye.

No touching after sex, no kissing, no saying any "cheesy shit".....you're about to break all of those rules when you reach up to cup his face in your hands, and move in so fast that Eddie's pushed back a step by how firmly you lay your lips into his. He isn't completely submissive to your desires--he pushes back, moulds his mouth to yours and pins you on either side with his hands on your arms, and moves with you on your first attempt to break the kiss until you have to to get some air.

"I love you, Eddie Munson. And I have no intention of leaving, unless it's on a tour bus with your name on it." You breathe, unaffected by how desperate you must look, and for the first time in a long time you see Eddie smile. You've seen him happy with his friends and at his shows, but it almost never happens when you're alone or when you're in the midst of a romp. There was a part of you that, at one time, thought he just despised you so much but had no one else to help fulfill his urges....but you know, you know that this smile is one he's been holding back for a long time. This is one he never felt safe enough to show until he got this moment with you that he didn't think was possible.

"Let's get to the van," He puffs out, grinning with lips already red and kiss-swollen. "Need your clothes off. Need to....see you. Never get to see enough of you..." He mutters as his hands glide down your waist, your hips, and rest self-consciously just above your beltline.

"Lead the way, rockstar. Gimme a good view while we walk." You grin wolfishly and squeeze his ass, watching for that twinge in his expression and the groan as he clenches to try and keep the rest of your cum from leaking out. But he doesn't bat your hands away, just starts walking back for you to follow and for you to match each other's pace as he rights himself, hurrying on light feet towards the unmarked path that will lead you back to the road.

For once, you're content with this post-coital scurry. It's been too long you've spent sneaking around, hurrying back and forth from the van to your house, and hoping to at least share a few words with your bedmate before he drops you off at half past noon and the cycle begins anew. You've wanted to be more with Eddie, and now, that's what you're getting--and you're happy, sharing knowing looks with him as you walk and abandoning all distraction from the brown-eyed, dark-haired weirdo you've always felt your heart belonged to. Until you both pipe up with your synonymous realization just as you're coming out of the woods, and have to turn to sprint back from where you came.

"....Oh shit, the blanket-"

"Shit, we forgot the blanket!"

[oh-my-may]

Tsukishima, Sakusa and Osamu having a childhood crush on older! reader

requested: If you're not bussy ☺️ please write Headcanon for, Tsukishima, sakusa, and Osamu who has a Crush on childhood friend Older!s/o (like 5 years apart) ☺️🥺 They propose the her once when they were little and she replay "I'll marry you, if you grow taller then me"  It just so cute in my head.. ☺️😊 How are they will reapproach them years later when they surpassing their s/o height 🥰 Love your work btw 💕💕 

This?? Is such a cute idea ckdksks MY HEART <<<<333 I hope I did it justice :D

Also Osamu’s one is waaayy longer than the other two I’m sorry I got lost halfway through :D

warnings: underage(??) drinking in Osamus part, though it’s not underage in my country lol

Tsukishima Kei:

As children you guys were inseperable, your houses literally being on the other side of the street. The age difference between you never mattered when you guys were playing around.

You were as old as his brother and therefore you often came over to meet with hum, but Tsukki would always end up joining, especially after his brother started playing volleyball, you would always join in with Tsukishima.

Everything was great for a while, you would come over practically every day or they would visit you and then you would spend the rest of the day chilling and playing, until you and Akiteru got into Middle School and puberty hit you. Due to your age you were always a bit taller than Kei, but you grew even more.

Kei always had a crush on you, you being the only girl he only ever hung out with. You always talked to him about Dinosaurs or volleyball or music and he thought - since you shared most of his interests - why not propose? It made sense to 8 year old Kei. “Y/N... Would you marry me?”

You started to laugh and poor Kei got very confused. He was being serious about this. You saw his kinda shattered expression and froze, looking at him with a grin. You pet his head and said: “If you ever grow taller than me, then yes.”

And so the years passed, and gradually you spent less time with the Tsukishimas. You found a bunch of new friends in school that you regularly hung out with, and even though you still saw Akiteru in school and talked to him, walked home with him... You barely ever saw Kei. He seemed to grow a little more distant, he didn’t come to family gatherings anymore and rather just hung around in his room, listening to music. But frankly, you actually didn’t notice.

So eventually you graduate High School and live your life, though sometimes you still meet up with Akiteru to chat. And one day, he tells you about his younger brother. “Kei joined the volleyball club I was part of, remember? Little giant and all? Yeah, of course you do. And guess what - they actually made it to nationals! The first time since then!”

You are very surprised to hear this, though you’re glad and happy for Kei. What Akiteru suggests next though comes as a surprise to you. “I have plans for watching them as least once in Tokyo, wanna join?” And even though you haven’t seen Kei or spoken to him in quite some time, you say yes. And that’s how you end up in the Tokyo gym, swarmed by tall teenage boys and hundreds of guests. Akiteru drags you along with him through the crowd of people, determined to greet his younger brother before the game. And honestly? You feel a little excited to see Kei again, to see how he’s grown since his childhood.

You finally find the boys standing in front of a huge door that clearly leads to the inside of the gym. At first you don’t even notice, but when Akiteru calls his name a very tall, blonde boy turns around, looking startled. You’re a bit shocked to look into the face of the now 16 year old boy. He’s clearly grown since then.

Kei looks at his brother for a minute before his glance wanders over to the person he’s brought along - you. Suddenly his eyes widen a bit and his heart stops for a minute. He swears his entire life was flashing in front of his eyes - well, at least the part of his life he shared with you. All the moments you guys played as kids, runned around the backyard, talked, laughed... And now you were here? So many years after this?

“Y/N what are... what are you doing here?” The words tumble out of his mouth uncontrollably and theres a slight tint of pink appearing on his cheeks. “Ya, what’s that? Is Tsukishima flustered?” One of his team members come up beside him. He has a shaved head and tries to casually rest his elbow on Kei’s shoulder, but he fails. You notice how tall he has gotten - clearly taller than you. You have to laugh but also feel you skin heat up when you remember his question and your promise from 8 years ago.

“Why are you laughing now?” Kei seems a little helpless and confused, just like back then. It almost makes you laugh even harder. Does he even remember it? You softly place your hand on his arm, looking up into his face. His eyebrows are raised, they surpassed the lines of his glasses. “Kei...” you begin, but when you see how curious his brother and his members look at you, you lower your voice. “Remember when we were children... One day you asked me a very peculiar question and I answered with a promise.”

His head shoots up immediately and you see blood flushing his cheeks and ears in a violent red. His expression seems more than shocked and for a second he even chokes on his own breath. You grin, leaving him like that. “Rock the game, yeah? I don’t want to have travelled this far just to see you fail in the first round.” Kei is still frozen in the spot, though in the game hsi brother tells you how he seems even more focused and determined than before.

You may have teased Kei right there, but from then on you began hanging out with the Tsukishimas more, visiting them as often as you could when your career didn’t take over your life. And maybe, eventually, Kei asks you out after his graduation and this time you take it seriously and don’t make another promise.

Sakusa Kiyoomi:

As children your grew up in the same neighbourhood and your parents would always take you to the same playground.

You noticed the young boy immediately - every now and then between playing in the sand he would go to his mother and she would clean his hands thoroughly with wipes and sanitizer. That got you interested very quickly. So you just walked over and sat down next to him and his mom, watching as they would repeat the same procedure over and over again, until you eventually ask: “Why are you doing this?”

And this little boy just looks up at you and starts explaining how he doesn’t like dirt and why you, too, should clean your hands like this. So you try and after you do, the boy drags you along across the yard saying how other kids don’t like playing with him because of his habits. You’re a bit taken aback by this - even though you’re older, you’re still gonna be friends with this younger boy. He’s like 6 or 7 at that time and from then on you met him on the playground almost every day. And every day, you’d go to his mom to clean your hands properly and then go play with “Omi-chan”, as you called him.

And Sakusa would honestly admire you, treasuring you as his closest friend. Even though he was younger and smaller than you, you accepted him and his habits and you still liked being around him. “Y/N... Will you marry me someday?” he bursts out one day, his big dark eyes looking up at you. And you take a second to look at his cute face - his round eyes, the curly hair, the snub nose, his soft cheeks. You grin and your hand moves from the top of his head to yours. “Maybe when you’ll grow taller than me.”

And so time went on, until you got to Middle School and then High School. You grew closer and when you were older you stopped hanging out at the playground and rather met at your houses, the only safe and clean places he trusts. You even adopt some of his habits, like cleaning your hands etc. You make it a whole ceremony to clean your rooms together before hanging out.

And even after you got into college you’d still find time for him. Calling him every now and then, watching some of his games and meeting up with him whenever you were home. And of course you notice him growing up, too. The way his hair grows a bit longer and hangs into his face, his sharper jawline, the shape of his eyes. And - his height. When he was 15 he finally surpassed your height, but you both had forgotten about your little conversation at this point.

Until your mom hosts a garden party and his family is invited, too. They make you both take a photo together and when Sakusas mom looks at it, she suddenly remembers and hands her son an older camera, a video waiting to be played on the screen. You both exchange a confused look before you press play and you see the two of you as children, thoroughly cleaning your hands, the playground in the background. Sakusa looks up at you and says “Will you marry me some day?” and that’s when Sakusa stops the video, his eyes a little widened and the tips of his ears painted in vibrant red. At first you’re a little confused, as you wanted to see what you responded to his question back then, but when you look at your friend you suddenly realize and giggle.

Sakusa thinks he’s about to sink into the ground because of embarrassement. He never thought about his feelings for you as a crush since he didn’t know better. He always thought all friends act and feel like this and over the years, as he realized he was actually in love with you, he couldn’t picture himself with someone else. You were so considerate, so accepting. Never once in your life did you think of him as weird, you never disrespected him or made fun of him. And after all, you were always the one accompanying him to events and he did the same for you. And when he looked at you now - all grown up, confident, pretty, your curious eyes scanning his face - he thought about how he was never brave enough to admit his feelings for you. Not like this. And certainly not in front of you.

“Y/N... I know this might come across as weird now, because we’ve known each other for so long, and I know you’re and adult now and I barely just graduated High School but... I want to show you that I’m not that little boy from the video anymore.” He gulps when he looks at your face, your eyes still looking at his, a slight smile on your lips.

You sigh and place your hands flatly on his jacket, over his chest. “But Omi-chan... I already now that. Although if that was your way of asking me out on a date, then take this as a yes.”

Miya Osamu:

Your mom worked as freetime volleyball coach/trainer for children and sometimes you would accompany her, wanting to see what she was doing and also seeing a chance in getting to know new friends

So you’re casually in the small gym, watching as all the younger children throw around balls, laughing and chasing each other. You’re distracted, so you don’t see the ball flying straight into your face, causing you to stumble and fall. When you look back up, there’s a boy about 5 or 6 looking into your face, a curious expression on his face rather than a worried one. “Did that hurt?” He looks back up, his face turned to someone you can’t see. “Tsumu, I told you not to punch the ball like that!” What follows is a sequence of words you don’t understand, coming from the other end of the gym. You stand up on your own and follow his gaze. You rub your eyes as you see another boy standing there, looking just like the one next to you. A little irritated you look in between them a few times, before the one next to you dryly says: “That’s my twin brother, Atsumu. I’m Osamu by the way... And I’m sorry about the ball.” He points at your face, that frankly hurt a bit, it felt hot and will probably get red in the next minutes. Osamu turns to his brother again. “It was simply because my brother can’t handle the ball well!”, he shouts and his brother sticks out his tongue for it.

And so it began and you would join your mom more often from then on, watching the twins play volleyball and develop over time. They would always come up to you and ask who did better, who improved more etc... You were older than them after all, they trusted your judgement.

You would grow particularly fond of Osamu, since he was the one who seemed to care more for you, he was nicer to you and always come up to you in between practice sessions. At first he only asked about volleyball, if you play too or why not and so on, but when you came often he’d get more interested in you. And he was barely in Primary School, you were the only girl he knew closer and you were so... mature to him. He developed a cute little childhood crush on you. “Y/N, we should marry.”, he states one day. For a moment you’re a little surprised, but you laugh and squish his cheeks. “Maybe when you grow taller than me, Samu-chan~” you tease him.

And so it would go on for a while, years even. Throughout his Primary School years he’d always come to your moms little practice sessions together with his brother and at least one time a month you would hear the same question. “Will you marry me, Y/N?” and you would always answer the same. “If you ever grow taller than me, yes.” His brother very quickly notice his brothers behaviour and tease him. Sometime later, they were already in Middle School then, it’s Atsumu who approaches you. Of course you don’t notice, since they had the same hair back then. He even styled it like his brother, so there was no difference. Atsumu thought maybe, since he was a bit flirtier, he could settle something for his beloved twin. But he gets caught mid act and Osamu is furious. Let’s say this might or might not be the final reason why they color their hair different colors.

Over the years however, even though Osamus crush on you stays, he doesn’t ask you the question anymore. During puberty he gets way too embarrassed over all his past actions towards you, especially since you were older. You literally had a boyfriend, and yet his 11 year old self still asked. His toe nails were starting to curl just when he thought about it.

He never forgets, though. But even when he does eventually grow taller than you in his first year in High School, he still doesn’t say a thing. Of course he doesn’t, you’re in college at that point and probably already made out with so many guys... His blood was boiling just thinking of it, even though he knew he was being unreasonable and childish.

On the twins 18th birthday, they throw a big party. And of course you’re invited, you’re basically their oldest friend and have followed their “career” since the beginning. Both the twins are stupid drunk in no time and you sit down with Osamu after a wild round of beer pong. He’s completely out of it, his words almost incoherent but they still make sense. You literally heave him onto the couch and sit down next to him, still laughing. For a moment it’s just the two of you, him a lot more drunk than you, the music blaring in the background, lost in your thoughts. Until Osamu speaks up, the alcohol getting the best of him.

“You know how... When we were children... Well no, when I was a child... I’d always ask you stupid questions??” he goes, one index finger raised as he explains. The alcohol in your blood and getting to your brain makes you laugh at it. He still looks at you expectantly though, like he’s waiting for your answer. So you nod. “You always asked me if we would marry one day. Like... A lot. 10 times a year or so.” He nods exaggerated. “Yessss, and you’d always, ALWAYS, say, that you’d do it when... When I get taller than you.” That’s when he pushes himself up from the couch with big effort and looks at you, a dark expression on his face. He stays like that for a while, his face neutral but his eyes determined. Until he literally falls on top of you, the alcohol making him stumble around. You giggle, and Osamu apologizes a hundred times, though he likes the feeling of your arms magically wrapping around him. It’s like a reflex of yours, you couldn’t stop yourself. “You alright?”, you ask quietly. Your faces are barely inches away from each other and he still has this certain look in his eyes, that almost makes you shiver. You always thought of Osamu as a younger brother, but ever since he got into High School and he grew taller and muscular, but also his demeanor maturing, you sometimes caught your mind wandering off... Like now. He makes a vague face before he just leans in and presses his lips to yours, capturing them in a really sloppy drunk kiss. But it’s fine, you both enjoy it. When he leans back, a smug smile traces lips. “Now I’m alright. More than that, even.”

You drunkenly make out for quite some time that night, Atsumu filming some of that in the same state as you, just so he can show his brother what he accomplished. Eventually you both pass out on the couch and when you wake up it’s a little awkward at first, until you nudge him and say that you’ll give him a chance, now that he was an adult and taller than you.

[luckyhoran]

Can you do a blurb on Niall writing Mirrors about you?

Yes! Yes I can! Mirrors is my favorite song by Niall

It does mention self harm shortly just an fyi

Send in your blurb requests for Niall or Harry!

“Do ya wanna tell me why you’re locked in there Y/N?” Niall said after he softly knocked on the bathroom door as he was leaning on the wall. He heard soft cries coming from inside and sighed lightly as he turned to face the door and laid his left hand and forehead on the cold wood. “Is it your mind again?” He continued.

He paused, waiting for your reply, until he heard his phone bing from the sound of a text message. He reached into his right back jean pocket and pulled out his iphone to look at his screen as he leaned on his left hand that was on the door. He clicked the side button to make his screen light up and he saw it was a message from you just saying yes.

He nodded his head and ran his fingers through his brown locks before he slid down the wall behind him to sit on the ground. Niall knew he had to be very patient with you when you were like this. He knew you couldn’t be rushed, since he’s been helping you deal with this for so long.

…………………..

Niall had always been your closest person, you’ve lived next door to each other since you were five, and he was 6. You ended up having to move to Ireland when your mom got a great job opportunity there. Your parents moved into the cute little house at the end of the road, and it just so happened that the Horan’s were your neighbors. Your parents were always outside, whether it was gardening, or just relaxing. And Niall’s parents saw one day and introduced one another as they looked and talked to each other over the brown stained wooden fence. Days past, yours and Niall’s brother Greg got to be super close, and that’s how you got to meet Niall. Your brother got told one day that he had to start bringing you with him so that way you could play with kids as well. Your brother jake sighed “She’s like a freaking baby, I don’t want to have to bring her over to watch her” the 13 year old would scuff. 

Your mother sighed, “Maura said she wouldn’t mind watching Y/N. Just make sure your sister comes back safe and you get her there safe, that’s literally all you have to do.” 

Your brother sighed one last time, grabbed your hand and said “Let’s go.” As you waddled in your cheap plastic princess high heels that your mom got you from the toy section. Your brother walked with you, obviously not enjoying it until you got to their front door. He rang the door bell and Maura answered the door, with one of the biggest smiles on her face once she realized who it was. 

“Ah! Jake and Y/N so good to see you! Jake, Greg is in the back yard with Niall.” Then she turned and looked at you “And Y/N,” She said as she looked at you sweetly “I want you to meet my other son Niall. He’s not much older than you and I think you’d get along great.”

Your brother quickly ran to the back to instantly go play outside with Greg, when you walked in with Maura and sat at her kitchen table. “How come I’ve never met Niall?” You replied. 

Maura giggled and poured you a glass of milk, grabbed her cookie jar and walked over to you “He was stayin with his friend for a few days since it’s summer break.” She replied as she opened the lid and you reached in to grab a cookie. You grabbed one and she placed the cookie jar on the kitchen counter as she walked over to the glass sliding door that lead to the back yard. 

“Niall! Get in here! I have someone for you to meet!” She closed the glass door and started walking toward you, “He’ll be in soon.” She said as you were eating your cookie. 

You heard the glass door open and a small boy walked in and replied “Who do ya want me to meet?”

You turned and looked at the boy, who had the bluest eyes, with a bit of freckles and light brown hair. You were only 5, but you never thought boys were gross. And as you stopped and looked at him, you thought he was the prettiest boy you had ever seen, so pretty in fact, that you even put your cookie down.

Maura smiled as he walked in, “Niall, this is Y/N, Jake’s younger sister.” 

You went to get up off of your seat to go say hi to the boy, when your plastic high heal snapped it’s heel, almost causing you to fall. Maura luckily grabbed you in time and asked if you were okay, you just simply replied in your sweet voice, “I’m fine, but I’m sad about my shoe.”

“Lets see if I can maybe fix it.” Maura said as she grabbed it and took it over to the counter. 

Niall walked over to you and said “I thought only princesses wear those shoes?” You stood there quietly, not really sure how to reply. You couldn’t tell if he was going to make fun of you like your brother always did. Niall laughed and replied “Well, then it must mean you’re a princess, a clumsy princess, but still a princess.” Your frown quickly turned into a smile and nodded. He followed with a smile and asked “How old are you?” 

“I’m five” you replied

“I’m 6,” Niall stated, “But I’m going to be 7 in October.” You nodded your head to reply and Niall continued “I’m older which means I’m going to have to look after you, the princess.” You started to blush, “Don’t worry, I’m a skilled warrior, I’ll protect you our whole lives.”

You smiled the biggest smile, “Okay Niall.”

And the rest was kind of history, you and Niall grew closer and closer over the years. All throughout schooling, he’d walk home with you. You were there for each other when his parents would fight, and finally divorce. Luckily Maura kept the house that was right next to your family’s house that way you two never had to split up. You were with each other through all the ups like when Niall auditioned for the XFactor, to you when you finally got diagnosed with severe anxiety and depression. You two never left each other’s sides.

What was the hardest was watching him have girlfriends, which you hated to admit it, but you had the biggest crush on the Irish boy since the first time you saw him. And of course when he had to start disappearing a lot due to touring with 1D. You never took it personally, but you really missed your best friend. But Niall never failed to contact you whenever he got the chance.

………………….

Niall unlocked the screen and began replying to you right away. All you heard was nothing but silence and the clicks of his keyboard as he was replying to you. Sending you the message “Please let me in when you’re ready to talk, I know your anxiety makes you silent. Just please let me know when you’re ready.”

You wiped your tears as your phone vibrated revealing the message you got from Niall. You sat there, for what seemed to be hours, but was actually just 20 minutes. You slowly crawled over to the door and unlocked it, without pause you heard Niall turning the door knob and looking at you with the saddest look on his face.

“Oh, Y/N” He said as he instantly sat on the bathroom ground with you and wrapped you up in the deepest, and warmest hug. His hands, tangled in your hair rested on your head and upper back as you cried into his shoulder. You hated to admit it, but a lot of nights were like this. You felt like your life was going out of control and there was absolutely nothing you could do about it. You got tired of being in an every day battle with your head, what upset you even more was the fact you remember when you didn’t feel like this, and it was the most frustrating feeling knowing that you didn’t use to feel this way. 

“Shhh,” he said softly as he rocked you, “It’s gonna be okay, it’s gonna be okay.” 

Time passed, and you were finally able to calm down, Niall was softly rubbing the left side of your face and stopped. “Do ya wanna go to that diner you love and get something to drink, maybe eat?” 

“It’s almost midnight Ni.” You replied as you pulled up your long sleeve over your right hand and wiped your nose of the tears that shed. 

He chuckled lightly, “That’s why I suggested it also, because it’s a 24/7 diner.”

You leaned up and looked at him, realizing you were only inches apart. You blushed lightly and sat back a little bit so you weren’t so close. “But aren’t you afraid of getting recognized?”

He shook his head, “Don’t worry about me, everything will be fine. I’ve gotten a bit better at hiding from people.”

You laughed slighlty, “If you were so good at it, then how come I see photos of you every time you go out?”

He jokingly looked offended, “Don’t doubt my skills.”

You both laughed, and then you sighed thinking about your break down. Niall gave you a reassuring smile, and he wiped some mascara that was coming down your cheek. 

When you both got to the diner, Niall got a booth in the back where no other people were around. He was right, it did seem pretty safe. You orded a coffee along with a banana nut muffin, and Niall ordered his usual. 

You sat there in silence with your sleeves over your hands and your arms crossed on the table. The food came and Niall sat there, ate his and realized you didn’t even touch your coffee. As he finished he pushed his plate to the side and leaned in closer to you with the table inbetween. “What caused it this time Y/N?”

You sighed as you twittled with the handle of your coffee that was now cold. “I’m worried Ni.” You started. “I’ve always been alone. Even in school. No guys ever chased after me, or even wanted to take me on a date. And now I’m especially worried, that because” You paused and then continued “I’m really worried that with how fucked up I am, now no one is really ever going to love me.”

Niall sighed, he reached over and grabbed your hand that was playing with the coffee cup and started stroking your hand with his left thumb. “You’re never alone Y/N. You know you will always have me.”

You nodded your head and continued, “You know what I mean Ni. No guy is going to want to marry some crazy person.”

He chuckled lightly looking down at your hands then back at you. “You’re not crazy Y/N. You could never be crazy.” He took his right hand and grabbed your other hand as he leaned in as close as he could and looked into your eyes. “Any man would be more than lucky to be able to call you his wife. I mean it. You’re more than amazin Y/N.”

You could feel your cheeks start to heat up as your heart literally felt like it was going to burst through your chest. Niall let go of your hands and turned around and asked for the check, as he turned back around he looked at you with a playful smile “Have I ever told you how beautiful ya are?”

He got up and went to go pay for the check after he got it from the waitress. As he walked away you slowly smiled to yourself. Niall always told you how amazing and beautiful you were. But you told him it never counted because you guys were always so close. And he would just always reply with “Well, I’m not lyin!” 

Months had past, Niall had finally finished his first solo record and he brought you over to his house so you could be the first person to hear it. You rang the door bell to his house. You always called it his fancy house because of how big and nice it was. You just lived in a tiny 2 bedroom apartment. 

Admiring his house you heard him walk up to the door, and unlock it. You turned and looked at him “You know, this is a big house for just one Niall.” 

He chuckled and instantly wrapped you up in a hug. “I wanted a big one so we could have room to hang out it.”

You hugged him back and you laughed as you walked in, and sat on his grey sectional couch. He went and grabbed his laptop, and sat it on his glass table. 

“Now, as ya know I worked really hard on this, so please don’t hate on it too much.” He stated

You laughed, “You know I’ve always loved any song you’ve ever sang Ni. Even if you did or didn’t write them.”

He smiled and then started to explain his Flicker album to you. You were so amazed at how detailed and excited he was about it. His eyes were lit up the whole time he was explaining each song he wrote to you as he played them on his laptop.

Once he finally got to the song Mirrors he actually kind of went quiet. The only thing he said was that this was one of the ones he was most proud of, and he worked really hard on it. 

You nodded your head as Niall leaned over and clicked play. 

As the guitar started to play through the speakers Niall sat there quietly at the edge of his cushion with his legs spread and his hands interlocked between them. He bit his lip as he kept switching from looking down to at you. 

Instantly as he started singing in the song, you felt tingles in your body, and you felt it begin to heat up. Not in a bad way, kind of like your heart was so full of love that it was bursting out. 

As the lyrics sang “She wants to fight, but her eyes are tired, nobody’s on her side.” You stopped and looked at him. He smiled slightly and nodded his head as you looked back to the screen and started to listen more. 

After he first sang “I need love, to hold me closer in the night” softly, tears started to form in your eyes. 

Once it got to the part where he finished “He turned around and said, I hope you know, you’re beautiful, have you ever been told?” Your tears immediately started to fall, falling onto his white fluffy rug. Niall came closer to you, wrapped his right arm around you and pulled you close to him as he reached up and lightly put his hand on your head to lay it on his shoulder before he held onto you as the tears stil fell. 

“D-did you rea-” You started, but Niall cut you off before you could finish. 

“Ya told me that you didn’t feel special, that you felt all alone. But I wanted you to know that you’re never alone. And everything you feel is real, and yes, I know its scary for you Y/N. It’s hard seein ya like that. It’s scary for me too, but I know it’s so much harder on you. I’ve been there for you since the beginning, through all the self harm to now. I want you to know that your battles don’t go unnoticed, and honestly Y/N, you’re the strongest person I know. Nothing is harder I can imagine than being in a constant, everyday battle with your own head. But I’ll promise you one thing Y/N, I’ll continue to always be there for you. You’ve come such a long way princess.”

You looked up at him and he looked at you, he reached up and lightly wiped away your tears. “ You haven’t called me that in awhile.” you soflty stated. 

He smiled, “Well, ya are one.” he tucked a piece of hair behind your ear. “You’ve always been my princess, and you always will be.” 

You smiled, and wrapped your arms tightly around his torso as the song continued to play in the background.

He held onto you, oh so tightly. You closed your eyes, listening to the soft beating of his heart as you felt the warmth of his body quickly soothe you. Not for a second did Niall let go of you. 

“I love you so much Ni.” You stated. You couldn’t see, but Niall smiled softly as he started to run his fingers through your hair, something he knew you always loved and would always soothe you. 

“I love you so much too princess.” he carefully moved his right hand where his index finger was directly under your chin and softly rose your face slightly and he leaned down and kissed your forehead gently. “I promise I’ll always be here for you. I’ll always protect you. Whether it be bad guys in real life, or the demons in your head. I’ll be right there beside you.”

[need1etail]

My Opinion of Redtail’s Debt

I’m writing these out while reading the book so I don’t forget anything! This is just a way to motivate me to read. This is really long sorry. WARNING SPOILERS UNDER THE CUT

Chapter One

I liked it! Not much to say here it was kind of a boring chapter, not much happened. I kind of like how Redpaw seems admire Tigerclaw but can also tell he’s just too ready to fight. I don’t have much to say cause I read it a couple days ago and can’t remember much lol.

Chapter Two

- Wasn’t White-eye born with one blind eye? Am I just dumb?

- I like how Red is a little awkward around Sparrow and White. Like they’re being all lovey-dovey and he’s just like “I’ll . . Just be over there I guess … ”

- “[Redpaw] couldn’t help the warm curl of admiration that ran through him. He’s so brave.” Redpaw do you have a little crush? Honestly though … The way Red is talking about Tiger gives me little crush feels. I don’t ship it of course it’s just kind of cute. THIS IS FUTURE DASH SORRY I JUST REALIZED THEY’RE RELATED! I will say that I enjoy Red’s admiration of Tigerclaw though ;w; Please disregard any crush things you see in the future, I did not realize they were related I’m so sorry. in my au they’re not related so I hope you can forgive me cause I forgot that my AU isn’t canon eheheh sorry

- I wish Spottedpaw and Redpaw had more of an interaction than just “Here’s your herbs stay safe”. I like Willowpaw so far honestly?

- I miss the forest territories :(!

- I’ll kick that hawk’s ass how dare he hurt my son

Chapter Three

- “‘Don’t leave me,” [Redpaw] whimpered.“ DON’T LEAVE THE POOR BOY PLEASE.

- I like Sparrow’s interactions with Redpaw, especially when he thinks he might be hurt. He really seems to care for his apprentice.

- I really love Willowpaw. Scared for her brother :(!

- "If there’s anything I can ever do for you, T-Tigerclaw, just name it,” … “I owe you everything.” That seems like it’s gonna come and bite Red in the ass :/

- Tigerclaw obviously is just trying to get on Redpaw’s good side and I love it

- “You owe me more than one,” [Tigerclaw] purred cheerfully, “you owe me your life!” Please don’t turn that on him I know your evil but my poor son doesn’t deserve this!

Chapter Four

- Adderfang is a good dad! Supportive of his son! I love him!

- Runningkit and Mousekit I adore them.

- I know 100% that RunningRed is not going to be canon cause the editors suck, but honestly? I just wanna take this time to say that I absolutely adore them.

- Tigerclaw is scaring me lol

- AWW SWIFTBREEZE! I love Red, Willow’s, and Spotted’s good parents ;w;!

- I forgot the Clan thought Misty, Stone, and Moss were Blue’s and Thrush’s for a sec. I wish Thrushpelt could have seen them grow up :(

- Bluefur is so strong I adore her

- Tigerclaw’s taking Redtail out hunting and I’m nervous …

- Aw I love Sorrelpaw!!

- Don’t make fun of my son Tigerbitch

-

SORRELPAW

- YOU TELL HIM STAGLEAP! NO ONE HURTS SORRELPAW

- Please don’t hurt Stagleap ;w;

- Hhhh oh no Red and Tiger’s relationship seems really abusive and I hope it doesn’t turn out like SH ;n;

Chapter Five

- Runningkit I love you

- My poor Redson

- Sunstar don’t be too harsh please

- BCJAJXJX TIGERCLAW SHUT THE HELL YOUR FACE SORRELPAW DID IT ON ACCIDENT

- Red speak up please! Poor boy.

- Noooo my little red boy stop. You don’t owe Tigerclaw anything

- I’m glad Sunstar was reasonable enough to talk to Heaterstar

- Talltail! My boy!!

- Tigerclaw and Thistleclaw are little bitches I hate them

- Sunstaaar just listen to what Heather has to say

- Crookedstar and Cedarstar don’t want anything to do with Wind and Thunder’s drama

- I love Stagleap. He seems really level-headed but firm. I can’t remember him much from Tallstar’s Revenge heck

- I honestly like that Redtail sees Tigerclaw as a good cat so he can’t bring himself to say that he was wrong. It’s … Hard sometimes. I understand.

- Stagleap is a good, reasonable boy <3

- “I owe him everything … But does that mean i have to follow him, no matter what?” HHH that hits a little too close to home honestly

- Lol why wouldn’t Sunstar believe Redtail? He was there, plus he knows that Tigerclaw is too aggressive for his own good. Redtail just talk to him.

- Sunstar I love you but you’re a bit of a dummy :/

- Ooohh I honestly love Tigerclaw in this book so far. He’s pretty chilling. But uh LEAVE MY POOR SON ALONE

Chapter Six

- I like Brindleface and Frostfur’s relationship

- Poor Red boy :(

- YES REDDY CALL TIGERCLAW OUT FOR HIS BULLSHIT

- YESSSS GASLIGHTING Sorry I just like abused characters. But it seems like Redtail is gonna be treated the exact same as Spotted so :/? That’s real disappointing. Remember, if someone is abusing you please seek help! You aren’t obligated to stay with them if they’re hurting you, physically or emotionally!

- Don’t hurt the elders and queens please :(

- Honestly with Bluefur’s past and the death of her mother, I’m surprised she’d want to go through with this? Come on Erins she’s probably traumatized by WindClan’s camp.

- Only … Only six cats? This is a whole camp you’re barging into guys

- I really hope Tigerclaw and Thistleclaw don’t kill anyone

- I love WindClan’s camp honestly I love WindClan

- Aren’t Red and Patch brothers? I kind of wish they had more of a brotherly relationship :/

- I lied they’re cute

- HXJSXJ “WE’RE NOT GOING TO HURT YOUR KITS” THRUSHPELT SAYS AS HIS CLAN ATTACKS WINDCLAN CAMP

- Poor Ryestalk!!

- :( I feel bad for the kits. Poor things are losing their den

- Barkboy <333

- Bluefur learned her lesson about the med den

- Redtail it’s not your fault!

- BEAT TIGER’S ASS STAGLEAP

- Poor Plumclaw and Ryestalk. I hope they come out okay

- I LOVE YOU REDTAIL YOU’RE SO BRAVE

- Fuck yeah I Redtail stare him down

- YOU TELL HIM REDSON! <3333

Chapter Seven

- Idk if they’ve said this before but “They haven’t changed a whisker” is my favorite phrase from Warriors idk why

- You go Redtail don’t let Tigerclaw scare you

- Yeah I hate the fact that Sand isn’t Redtail’s daughter anymore :/ It might have been because now Squirrel and Bramble aren’t related anymore (which I’m sure they are somehow) But I wanted to see a cute relationship between Sand and Red!

- Darkstripe has a thorn in his tail because he is a thorn in the tail.

- :( Redtail don’ gooo

Chapter Eight

- I wish we could have seen some more Dust and Red interactions. Maybe see how Dustpaw was before Darktail got his dirty paws on him?

- Ehhh Ravenpaw’s OOC? But I can excuse it cause he hasn’t been traumatized yet

- I wish we saw that Ravenpaw and Redtail were closer maybe? Just cause I always liked the idea that Ravenpaw really looked up to Redtail and wished he could ask Bluestar if she could have him and Dustpaw swap mentors

Chapter Nine

- nooooo Ravenpaw would never say that ugh

- Tigerclaw leave Ravenpaw alone! He may not be the Ravenpaw i know but FUCK OFF

- What?? What happened to Oakheart was killed by falling rocks? didn’t everyone in RiverClan agree to that? Was their pride hurt so they lied???? What happened to “It would be immoral for a deputy to kill another deputy”?????? Ugh okay now I’m angry

Chapter Ten

- Ooo I love the murder scene though. It’s almost exactly how I imagined it

- NOOOOO YOU CAN’T DO THE UNFULFILLED PROMISES TO ME DUSTPAW WAS WAITING FOR HIM ;n:!!!!

- I love the scene where he’s being guided to StarClan by Sunstar omg . I’ve been waiting for a POV character in StarClan and even if this is the closest we’ll get, I’m happy

- OOH THAT last scene was good. Firepaw! I love him.

OKAY SO last thoughts:

Someone said that she-cats were brutalized so Redtail could seem like a good guy and I didn’t see it? Who were the she-cats??

Also, I think some people hated the fact that Redpaw admired Tigerclaw but. I liked that part. It was interesting. And it made sense! Tigerclaw was a strong, brave warrior who hadn’t shown his true intentions yet so. It makes sense that Redpaw admired him

Overall it was . . . good? Better than everyone said it’d be. I didn’t love it I didn’t hate it. It was just eh. I’d read it again. Redtail was a good cat who genuinely seemed loyal and brave, just like we wanted.

I’ll do Tawnypelt’s Clan next!!

[bloody-punk-rocky]

RULES: Answer all the questions, add one of your own and tag as many people as there are questions

Tagged by @peaceandcows and @mingyuie - Thanks my dudes!

1. COKE OR PEPSI: Coke

2. DISNEY OR DREAMWORKS: Disney

3. COFFEE OR TEA: I like both, but I’m more likely to drink tea than coffee. But I love it in desserts!

4. BOOKS OR MOVIES: Movies, though I really love books too

5. WINDOWS OR MAC: Windows, Mac is ridiculously expensive

6. DC OR MARVEL: Marvel! Though I really love DC as well.

7. XBOX OR PLAYSTATION: HNG. I’m a PlayStation girl, but we have the Xbox One instead of the PS4 bc my brother bought it so he could play with his friends... He misses PlayStation lmao.

8. DRAGON AGE OR MASS EFFECT: Wat.

9. NIGHT OWL OR EARLY RISER: Night owl. I can’t stand waking up early, and I can’t stand people that wake me up early as well.

10. CARDS OR CHESS: Cards, you can do much more with cards than a chess board. I loves me some President.

11. CHOCOLATE OR VANILLA: Chocolate.

12. VANS OR CONVERSE: Vans, Converse hurt my feet and look like clown shoes if you have big feet lmao. (I don’t have big feet, but I have an aversion).

13. LAVELLAN, TREVELYAN, CADASH, OR ADAAR: Again, wat?

14. FLUFF OR ANGST: HNG. Angst? I can go for angst at all times of the day, but I have to be in the mood to read fluff.

15. BEACH OR FOREST: Forest

16. DOGS OR CATS: Cats yo, dogs freak me out sometimes.

17. CLEAR SKIES OR RAIN? I prefer clear skies tbh.

18. COOKING OR EATING OUT: Eating out is nice, you get to change up what you eat and it’s almost guaranteed to be good.

19. SPICY OR MILD FOOD: Spicy af.

20. HALLOWEEN/SAMHAIN OR SOLSTICE/YULE/CHRISTMAS: Christmas holy crap. Christmas is so warm and toasty and I love having ten thousand santas sitting around my house.

21. WOULD YOU RATHER FOREVER BE A LITTLE TOO COLD OR A LITTLE TOO HOT: A little too cold? Heat can be overpowering, so a little bit too cold would be more preferable.

22. IF YOU COULD HAVE A SUPERPOWER WHAT WOULD IT BE: I wanna be able to fly so that I can get around faster and not have to walk everywhere.

23. ANIMATION OR LIVE ACTION: Animation is the best omg.

24. PARAGON OR RENEGADE: Once again, wat?

25. BATH OR SHOWER: Showers - baths feel unproductive.

26. TEAM CAP OR TEAM IRONMAN: Team Cap, Iron Man is being a douchebag and he’s fucking wrong.

27. FANTASY OR SCI-FI: I love both omg. I’m gonna say sci-fi bc Star Wars is my life.

28. DO YOU HAVE 3 OR 4 FAVORITE QUOTES IF SO WHAT ARE THEY: I don’t have any rn tbh.

29. YOUTUBE OR NETFLIX: Idk man, I like them both. I’m not gonna decide lmao.

30. HARRY POTTER OR PERCY JACKSON: *Hagrid voice* Haaaaarry Potteeerrrr

31. STAR WARS OR STAR TREK: STAR WARS <333

32. PAPERBACK BOOKS OR HARDCOVER BOOK: Paperback, though hardcover is good for reading while at a table.

33. FANTASTIC BEASTS OR CURSED CHILD: I haven’t seen them, but I don’t even have the opportunity to see Cursed Child, so I’m gonna say Fantastic Beasts

34. ROCK OR POP MUSIC: Rock tbh, the radio makes me mad lmao.

35. WHAT IS THE MOST IMPORTANT THING IN YOUR LIFE: My mom or my siblings, or maybe painting.

36. THE LAST BOOK YOU READ/THE ONE YOU’RE CURRENTLY READING: The last book I read was the translation of Oedipus Rex by Sophocles for English class, but the last novel I read was The Blind Assassin by Margaret Atwood

38: SONG THAT MAKES YOU SMILE/SONG THAT MAKES YOU CRY: A song that makes me smile would be Senza un Perche by Nada, and a song that makes me cry would be A Million Years Ago by Adele

39. SUSHI OR WAN TAN SOUP: sUSHI, BUT I LOVE BOTH

40. SPRING OR AUTUMN: Spring, fuck autumn. Autumn is shit.

41. DRAWING OR WRITING: Drawing, even though I’m really not the best at it.

42. SINGING OR DANCING: Both tbh, even though I’m not very good at either of them.

43. TV SHOW/MOVIE/BOOK THATS LIKE YOUR HAPPY PLACE, SOMETHING THAT ALWAYS MAKES YOU SMILE: The Young Pope gets me omfg. I have such a big crush on him tbh lmao. I love how confident he is in himself, and he inspires me.

44. FIRST GOOD CHILDHOOD MEMORY THAT POPS INTO YOUR HEAD: Oh boy, I think maybe the time that we went to my brother’s hockey tournament in Ottawa and he got into a huge fight after some kid hit him in the back of the head with his stick. That fight was epic and hilarious, and he’s so proud of it lmao.

45. IF YOU COULD VISIT ANY HISTORICAL TIME PERIOD, WHAT WOULD IT BE AND WHY? The 60′s or 70′s because of the music, the cars, the style, and a bit more common sense lol

46. PINEAPPLE PIZZA OR NAH? nO

47. TV OR MOVIE? TV, though movies are awesome ;; I’m more likely to watch shows though bc they take less time

48. FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR: Pumpkin pie ice cream from Kawartha Dairy (I think only Ontarians know about this lmao)

49. WHAT FICTIONAL CHARACTER DO YOU RELATE MOST TO? So many, oh boy. Alec Lightwood, Mai, Lapis Lazuli, and Rin Matsuoka. P much I relate if they’re salty.

50. LAST SONG YOU LISTENED TO? While My Guitar Gently Weeps by The Beatles

51. TOP 5 OTPS?: Kylo Ren and myself (lmao), Reaper 76, Malec, Rick and Morty (not romantic lmao, their friendship is the best), and Garnet ohboi.

52. What makes you happy?: GOOD QUESTION. Not a lot lmao. Ajin, Reaper 76, and p much anything that has to do with Star Wars, and sleep.

 (My question!) 53. ALL TIME FAVOURITE MOVIE?

I tag @smilefortheaudience and whoever wants to do it?

(Edit: I forgot to remove @mingyuie ‘s tags, I apologize to the few people that I tagged by accident ;;)