#i thought it was a transphobic slur because i get it in my inbox sometimes

[valtsv]

moid is an insult against men, after the incel word femoid. It isn't really trans specific and they don't refer to trans men as that word

OHHHHH. that makes more sense. thank you. anyway yeah terfs tend to use it so watch out for it.

[clonehub]

This is hard for me to write but also ok to reblog. No clowns.

(under a cut for length)

I knew that starting #UnwhitewashTBB was going to only increase whatever hate was already levied against me, and I was fine with that. But I don't know how many people realize just how bad it would get, especially earlier this year when the racists were feeling emboldened and the survey had just come out.

I got accused of being racist for pointing out racism. My friends who were Polynesian/Asian/Black/etc were accused of being racist against their own people for pointing out the racism in The Bad Batch--and they were called soft and liars and any number of names. There was that guy on twitter who was stalking my account, yelling at me through the survey, getting his friends to demand that I unblock him, etc. He eventually escalated to yelling at my friends on twitter to tell me to unblock him, and I did--just to say that he would remain blocked because that behavior was wildly inappropriate. He apologized to me on here, went back to talking about me, but took the survey again a few weeks ago to warn me about a potential anti-uwwtbb situation that he thought I should know about. He said he was trying to be a better man.

When the survey first came out, we got a lot of pornographic responses. Thirst comments directed at the Bad Batch, smut fics, you name it. It's since stopped, but those early days of the survey were rough. There's someone who semi-regularly takes the survey to accuse me of fetishizing the clones because I talk about Maaori culture (and I guess my URL sounds NSFW to them?), of being transphobic and ableist for having trans and autistic OCs (which is why I asked that one time), starting harassment campaigns against minors (????), etc. All of these are without evidence, but that doesn't stop them. I had folks call me alt right too, once. I don't enjoy checking the survey and seeing there's more responses.

Trolls make burner accounts to call me all sorts of names (spineless, racist, the occasional ableist slur) and they direct fatphobia and blatant ableism at my corunner @tieflingkisser. They direct racism, ableism, and other forms of bigotry at my friends. People take my zero tolerance policy for racism as me being "rude" and they use whatever issues they have with how I talk about racism/to racists as an excuse to not support the movement at all. I get personally blamed for a lack of support of uwwtbb quite often.

I guess, for whatever reason, its easier to attack just me for uwwtbb and to ignore the countless other people who talk about this regularly. Everything I post on here is used as evidence against me and "proof" that I'm actually a terrible person, a performative activist, a "slacktivist", a white woman (lmao)--and it's often reported directly to racist white fandom members. They literally never bring any evidence, but truth and honesty has never stopped these people.

It's stressful. It's anxiety inducing. It probably won't end when #UnwhitewashTBB ends.

I'm not going to stop the movement, but I can feel the kind of toll it's taking on me--and I very rarely talk about it because my appearing "weak" is just going to be another reason for racists to attack me. I'm sure many people think I'm just cruising along blithely dismissing racists left and right--and sometimes, I do do that.

But sometimes my skin goes cold and I start shaking and I feel like throwing up. Sometimes I wake up filled with dread. Sometimes I feel a buzzing anger under my skull that I can't identify the source of. I could have a good day and then come on here and see new racism in my inbox, another fucked up troll in the survey, another person blaming me for their lack of desire to support a movement that they have never once said anything about.

As I said: It's stressful. It's anxiety inducing. It probably won't end when #UnwhitewashTBB ends.

[goblinselfshippr]

New pinned post bc it needed to be done

Icon credit | | Carrd

📌Hello! I go by Goblin or Caz (or GoblinCaz) she/they pronouns pls!

📌I am 21, can and will be your rabid mutual if you’re an adult. I don’t really post nsfw here, I have a sideblog for that, but sometimes I will tag stuff as #suggestive if I make an inappropriate joke

📌 I am autistic and partially blind in one eye, so please bear with me if I read/interpret something wrong

📌 if you have a question about something you are absolutely allowed to ask!! My anon is always on if you feel nervous

📌 I do not tag caps/all caps or swearing because honestly they would apply to all my posts. If you need anything else tagged though, I have no problem doing so (just please ask in my inbox or dm)

🚫DNI if🚫

you’re a ‘phobe, homophobe, transphobe, lgbtphobes can suck my non-binary toes.

if you think queer is a slur, Block Me. my identity is not a slur, and I will not be arguing with you🖤

racists count as phobes too. Just cuz my skin glows in the dark doesn’t mean I agree with you

swerfs and terfs aint got no friends on this page. There’s nothing radical about being an asshat

You ship incest and pedophilia(including aging up or down to make it “legal”) Proshippers this one’s for you.

You post a lot about cannon x cannon with my f/os. I’m okay with sharing some of my f/os with other self shippers, but I really don’t want to see things like Alisanne x cicero and the like. This is a selfship blog not a general ship blog.

If you romantically ship with Vergil. Platonic or familial is totally okay, and honestly if you wanna go in my inbox and say like “omg isn’t he cool/handsome/etc” I’m ok with that!! Bc he absolutely is!! And I get to gush with you!! But pls do not say like “our husband” or stuff like that. It makes me feel generally :(( I am okay sharing others though!!

You’re gonna be an asshole or instigate stuff. I encourage you to block me and find inner peace.

💕F/os💕

❤️‍🔥Romantic❤️‍🔥

Tag explainations

Vergil- #❤️[A Thousand Years]

Cicero- #❤️[DWTC]

Farkas- #❤️[Tír na nÓg]

Aizawa- #❤️[Mr. 10pm Bedtime]

Dr. Al.bert Krue.ger (Al)- #❤️[Mr. Doctor Man]

Lev.i Ack.er.man- #❤️[Under the Willow]

Wrecker- #❤️[Absolutely Smitten]

Simeon- #❤[Kannst du die Engel sehn?]

J.afar- #❤️[Out of Body]

💛Familial💛 oops all Ghost songs

Tag explainations

Mephisto- #💛[Call Me Little Sunshine]

Amaimon- #💛[Year Zer0]

Lucifer- #💛[Pinnacle to the Pit]

Hizashi Yamada- #💛[Dad Rock]

Diavolo- #💛[Majesty]

💚Platonic💚

Tag explainations

Dante- #💚[Téir abhaile riú]

Leviathan- #❤️[Break the Internet]

Scar- #💚[Do the Roar]

Cyrus D.rake- #💚[Spillways]

🔖miscellaneous tags:

#GoblinRambles - general ramblings, may or may not be selfship related

#goblin drunkposting - oh joy! Goblin has been given a glass of wine and pondered the blorbos

#goblin crushposting -some blorbo on my thoughts that I'm not ready to claim

#GoblinAnswers - for my asks

#GoblinRamblings - (really similar to the first I know) is for when I start posting like a cat with dilated pupils

#GoblinConfesses - random thoughts that I need to confess or I will explode. Also may or may not be selfship related

#🛴[golfcart crew] -tag for any shenanigans Amaimon, Dante, and I get up to

[g3nosarchive]

ok i genuinely think a lot of other people have this problem but stop inserting yourself when xyz issue is mentioned. when someone is telling you that a person, a celebrity, some franchise is harming their identity or anyone’s identity as a minority, or part of a certain race or religion or anything shut the fuck up and accept it.

they do not need to know your emotional attachment to said thing, your disbelief, your horror, your personal experience - we didn’t ask for all that. we know just how bad it is, cus yk it harms us maybe? we’ve already gone through the cycle of being angry and indignant and now we’re here trying to get you to understand in the hopes that as a friend you do what you’re meant to do when you became friends with us. we are not your constant ball of anger to use whenever you find something that’s “crazy, unbelievably, shockingly” once again, a hate crime, when you decide you want to feel angry and care about it.

more under the cut bc i talk too much

by doing that, you’re making an issue that you didn’t even know about suddenly yours. ask yourself, what is the purpose for telling anyone all that? to get them to sympathize with you personally so you can get a pass because you didn’t know? of course you don’t know, of course you’re unaware, that’s the whole reason why you’re being told in the first place. do not water down the issue or even try to play the ‘everything has some issue like this so there’s no point in going this far’ card. especially as a white person. the reason why you don’t know primarily is because it doesn’t affect you and it doesn’t cross your mind.

when you watch a show with a black character, you don’t care about how off the character design is or how stereotypical and borderline racist the comedy gag surrounding said character is. when you listen to your favorite white music artists or watch your favorite movie with a majority white cast, white staff, white team, and white theme, you don’t care to analyze just how outdated and stereotypical the way that token asian character is portrayed. some of y’all don’t understand and will never understand the mental struggle and awareness forever plugged into the brain of lgbt and/or poc, especially black people when we consume anything, when we go anywhere, when we meet new people, to constantly catch those micro aggressions and know what to avoid.

so when someone tells you insert classic hot mess is racist and you should stop supporting it, one of the worst things you can do beside outright rejecting it is to defend it and insinuate that we don’t know what we’re talking about, that we need 30 different sources to prove it all, that you don’t think (for example taylor swifts dream colonized africa mv) is bad. you try to say the thing or person that is actively promoting all this homophobia, racism, transmisogyny etc needs to be kindly educated, is trying their best, will learn soon enough, just wasn’t educated, will do better in the future (esp looking at u kpop stans). does their apparent regret but refusal to properly apologize actually matter? the damage has already been done.

that in itself is a privilege i could never have. i don’t even try being a fan of any major white celebrity or any kpop group because i guarantee if i search up their name with ‘racist’, ‘sexist’, ‘homophobic’, ‘transphobic’, ‘cultural appropriation’ behind it something or some image is bound to show up. you will all say “oh they haven’t done anything yet” but when it comes out that they did, they have, and they do not care about who it affects, suddenly it’s a bombshell dropped on you out of nowhere.

it’s not that hard to spot these things actually. if your fav is constantly putting themselves against people of color, saying shady shit about non cishets while being a cishet themself, saying one thing and doing another, or has been silent when their voice was expected to speak up, shouldn’t you notice? y’all will reblog all these posts but in reality only 10% are actually reading and listening and actually digesting this information for future use.

and i think the thing that pisses me off is this is all from personal experience where i’m speaking from. over the past 2 days the amount of times if i’ve heard about the “tea that dropped w meghan markle” is ridiculous and annoying. a girl texted me and i sat there and i realized that she does this on a daily basis to fuel my anger and get me to validate her own useless anger. of course i knew about it and i wasn’t surprised at all - she’s still a black woman.

almost every black blog on here, when they get big enough, deals with some sort of weird shit surrounding their blackness. if you get big on speaking about issues you are now this emotionless token ‘smart black person i can actually trust’ to use as your replacement for google. this is not to say asking questions is bad, but it is so easy to pull up some of the shit you guys ask for. some people get called slurs directly, targeted for being too black or not black enough, attacked for their features and etc and someone mentioned this before but the only people that care in those situations are other black people themselves. white people will have blm in their bio but turn the other way the minute some anon starts acting up in their mutuals’ inbox, calling them a dark1e because they felt confident enough to post some selfies. and then you get sad when we dont go to you for any kind of support? 

i’ve stated sometimes that asking me questions on issues and things is okay, but one of the main reasons i say that is because whether i say it or not, i’ll be asked questions and expected to know everything and i am your personal walking encyclopedia and ofc it’s natural for me to have all this information in my head, as if i didn’t research it myself. but then i think about the numerous amounts of people that specifically say not to ask them this shit because it really does tire you out, that they don’t want to have to deal with this in any space but they still get them. 

and then the ones that don’t even know themself so people will use them as an example and say “well this person didn’t know and they’re ‘marginalized identity’ so it should be fine for me too”. good god just apologize, show that you really care, change your behavior and move on. do you think it was fun being asked the statistics for george floyd’s and other black peoples death in class? that you were being inclusive and giving me a chance to show off my intelligence, to prove to others that i really had something up here and you were my greatest star eyes white friend that gave me that chance? i cant close my posts like this properly but i want you to think about that shit and actually ask yourself if you’d do that. a lot of you will read this and think “i’m not that type of racist” “i don’t have those deep seated prejudices in me” yes you do. you just haven’t been called out on it.

for all the shit ive dealt with above, if i’ve ever talked to you about this before dont come to me to apologize i do not need it and you are not the only person i’ve received this from. i guarantee you that there’s about 20 other people i’ve thought about while writing this post considering i’m a black person in the real world, so keep your guilt to yourself an deal with it

white people don’t add on to this

[butchspace]

on he/him lesbians (and gnc women in general)

I'm not gonna take asks about this anymore. If you send them in, I'm just gonna delete them (or maybe link to this) because there's more than enough on my blog and on Tumblr in general to explain this to anyone who's willing to learn. If you need some posts on this, I started a tag for it. Also check out the posts I link down at the end of this.

I don't want to jump down anyone's throat about this or make anyone feel bad, but I'm gonna take ~ one paragraph to vent. I get why it might be hard to understand something you've never seen, heard of, and/or experienced. The honest asks that just want to know more aren't that bad. The people who want to understand so they can support us or just to learn about us are ok.

TW for:

(mostly brief) discussions of transphobia, lesbophobia, and misogyny

mentions of racism

I don't like how many asks I see asking why some lesbians use he/him. It sometimes feels like my identity is being questioned. And a lot of them accuse us of being transphobes or of diluting the meaning of language. (All of these anons assume all GNC lesbians are cis and no trans or nonbinary person has ever preferred any pronouns but the ones directly associated with their gender, which is...incorrect.) They come into our inboxes and ask GNC lesbians to lay out every piece of evidence for why they should be allowed to exist, and then twist those words around and make us into villains.

When I say pronouns don't equal gender, I don't mean they're not related or connected. That's actually the precise reason why someone might want to express their gender non-conformity through pronouns. Pronouns are associated with gender, but they are not the absolute & ultimate gender decider. People don't identify as a man because they prefer he/him. It’s usually the other way around. Most people use the pronouns that are directly associated with their gender because of how they identify. A nonbinary person might prefer they/them because those pronouns are gender neutral and affirming. A trans man might prefer he/him because those pronouns are traditionally thought of as male and are affirming. But a nonbinary person is not obligated to use they/them and a trans man is not obligated to use he/him. A cis man is not obligated to use he/him either. People choose their pronouns based on what they are comfortable with. What they are comfortable with is often directly influenced by their gender, but not always. Some people use pronouns that align more with their gender non-conformity or gender presentation. No one is obligated to go by any pronouns they don’t want to.

Misogyny and homophobia intersect and fuck with the lives and identities of LBP women. It makes it weird, hard, and confusing to be women. LBP women of color and trans women experience even more intersections that affect their relationship to womanhood. The only acceptable womanhood (1) is to be a straight, white, cis, able-bodied, thin, gender conforming, etc. woman. Most women are going to have a somewhat complicated relationship to gender. But for any woman who is not everything on this list, it's going to be even harder to navigate. So we do it in different ways. For some women, going by he/him pronouns is one of those ways. Some women present in an untraditional way. Sometimes, they prefer to subvert traditional femininity.

And using he/him isn’t necessarily about a disconnection from womanhood. There are women who are very firmly connected to womanhood who use he/him. It’s about a disconnect from femininity or from gender conformity. But ultimately it’s about experiencing womanhood differently.

And honestly, how does being "masculine" or using """"male"""" pronouns automatically, despite this person identifying as a woman, turn someone into a man. (2) I think any theories about gender identity that discount someone's internal idea of their gender are bad and often have transphobic or misogynist implications.

The bottom line is women (and everyone really) are allowed to express their gender however they want (3 & 4). The fact that there isn't nearly as much backlash about lesbians who use they/them (although there certainly is some) is really telling. People want lesbians to fit into some gender box and never branch out. They especially want lesbians to never ever do anything even remotely associated with men, because this threatens gender roles. But we will never fit into gender boxes. Those gender boxes inherently exclude us. Society wants this of all women, and those boxes are rarely meant for otherwise marginalized women. (5) They are created by misogyny, and heavily informed by homophobia, transphobia, and racism.

And, just to reiterate, men cannot be lesbians. That is no way what I’m saying here and if you thought so you didn’t read the post very well.

Thank you for coming to my TED talk.

Notes:

(1) in some way, there is no acceptable womanhood because of misogyny (see note 5)

(2) a post about why I don't like calling butches in general words associated with men, hence the scare quotes

(3) Do what you want but don't use culture-specific identities that you don't have claim to, don't you slurs you can't reclaim, etc.

(4) a post about gender identity and presentation that goes into more detail about my do what you want philosophy

(5) this is not to say cis het white women always fit into their gender boxes very neatly either. Misogyny affects all women, it just affects LGBT women and women of color in unique ways.

other posts on this subject: x, x, x

even more stuff:

x, x, x

[rabbitindisguise]

I don't know what it is about "blue" states that make people think we just don't experience homophobia in them.

I've heard gay as a slur, queer as a slur, the t-slur, sexist slurs, racist slurs, and more in blue states. Blue states are not free from bigotry, they just pay themselves on the back as if they are, despite marginalized people saying otherwise. I didn't have an SGA- I would have had to make it myself, run it myself, and endure harassment for it as the only out trans queer person in the school.

The difference is that I was aware enough that if I said queer first, identified myself as queer first, and made it a positive attribute I was proud of (aka . . . the entirety of pride) then they couldn't say queer negatively with the same power behind it. The problem was using queer as an insult. It wasn't traumatic for me to be called queer, it was traumatic that they thought they could get away with insulting me about my identity. With expressing their vile hateed freely. That had nothing to do with hearing it positively, but about recognizing the structures of on are more complicated than just "being queer is bad." Because being gay (another word thrown at me as a slur and far more often, so much so that I get twitchy about people saying ”that's so gay" in a positive light because of the sentence structure), or being queer isn't the problem. It's their hatred of us that is the problem. They could express that hatred by using that disgusted tone they use with any other word in the universe and the hatred could remain the same. I care far more about the hatred than the word, because any negative associations with the word is, in reality for me, with the hatred behind it, not the word itself.

The reason why it pushes bi and trans people out is because lots of bi and trans people, or bi trans people, use queer because of biphobic or transphobic members of the community. Queer won't immediately identify themselves as anything other than belonging. And don't forget genderqueer people can be trans too, and we're definitely pushed out when any instance of identifying with queer is met with harassment in our inboxes, pressure to censor our identity that never has been used as a slur (mostly because cis people don't realize it exists), and handwaving the issue as not important or not relevant.

Drop the T campaigns still exist, on top of drop the L campaigns, made by TERFs that want to isolate lesbians from trans women because of transmisogyny, and not dating trans people is a popular position, even by bi people. LG people are still telling bi people to "pick a side," and saying they don't date bi people because they're not gold star gays. These things are happening right now on Tumblr, in spaces where LGBTQ+ spaces are supposed to meet safely, and plenty of other places. Not being allowed to use queer makes it just that more difficult for us to exist, because then we can be identified on sight. It also allows greater solidarity with trans and bi people, because queer can apply to gender and to sexuality.

I can understand not knowing these thing but please listen when people in the community express concerns like these. We're not leaving in idyllic worlds free from homphobia or transphobia. We just have different opinions on how that homophobia and transphobia should be dealt with. In order to even have that conversation, people who have reasons to use queer need to be met with the understanding that they're not inherently missing basic information like "queer is still used as a slur sometimes." Believe me, no matter where someone lives, not hearing queer as a slur is wholly about sheer luck. Consider that and the fact that plenty of people still use that term and it becomes clear that not knowing isn't the problem at all.

me a year ago when “queer is a slur” discourse started going around: “oh well I guess I can understand why that could hurt maybe some people of older generations who were called queer as an insult guess I’ll just tag it”

me after seeing how “queer is a slur” discourse is just being used by terfs and exclusionists to push ace, bi, trans, and anyone who doesn’t fit into the narrow “lgbt” label from the community: “Queer community, queer rights, queer identities, I’m QUEER, respect our history and fuck you.”