#i think we enjoyed each other but overall we're better off as casual friends
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....yeah and then idk. idk. wednesday night came....
i'm not even as into the fwb as i was hoping to be. and i don't think he's EVER really been into me that much, like i think he likes me well enough as a human and i am attractive enough to him but i don't think that he's all that into me lmao. (truthfully...ditto) i think if he was, he'd try a little harder. and i've lost interest as well
before i went after him, i'd been talking to someone else for a while. we'd set up a date, and then a few days before, he said that he had gone on what he'd thought had been a casual date only for him to like her enough to pursue her instead. he offered to still hang out, though, and i declined cos i was not there to make friends...like i respected that he told me, though. it sucked, and i was pretty bummed because of all the men i've been speaking to in the last..9 odd months of being on dating apps, he was THE ONLY ONE to actually talk to me like a human, like he was interested. he'd say good morning, he'd ask me how my day was, he'd ask me interested questions. chatting was really easy and normal, he didn't have any weird quirks i had to work around (E), he wasn't rude, and he consistently texted me like every day..it was nice. and he had such a cute face ;__; he lives an hour away or so, so, not ideal but not bad
anyway. he decided to go out with this person he met. it's whatever, we're on dating apps, that's what happens. we decide to hold on to each other's numbers
a few weeks later, i spot E on apps w his insta handle and i pounced (he had briefly appeared on there months before and had disappeared. i'd been curious about him) and he responded well and we went out for 3 weeks or so. DURING this time, D (from before) texted me saying hey it didn't work out w this person, would you still be interested. i had to say, no sorry, i'm going out with someone now ...i'll hold onto your number !
....so then it doesn't work out with E, and I text D: hey, guess what lol
and he says, hi, actually i've gotten back together with my ex...ha ha. he suggests we still meet up for coffee as it's getting a little goofy between us at this point. i agree initially, but felt sort of bad for his gf considering we'd almost gone out and i would have felt worse having seen him and knowing he was taken, so i declined. but once again didn't delete him from my contacts
i arrange this fwb situation w E (despite that not really..having much steam behind it lol) and last week i gET A FUCKN TEXT from D saying haha hey....GUESS WHAT.
he was once again single. he went into it a little more to explain cos damn, yeah. he also said he wanted to take a little time to himself but like....did i want to get a coffee if i was free? and i was like yeah man you need to take that time but i am also free, hallelujah
so now we've been chatting amicably like the last two months didn't even happen *sound of club hitting on an empty skull*
...i'm trying to not get my hopes up here. we've never even met in person. i've barely gotten used to having any sort of self confidence, given my assorted hangups/baggages, and idk i'm still always waiting for ppl to not be into me. there's also always that possibility of him randomly finding someone else as we're chatting, since he seems capable of that, and UGH i don't want to get used to the idea of him AGAIN only for it to be potentially swooped out from under me if 1) someone else gets him or 2) he's (or I'm) not into it when we meet in person....
#personal#idk i just need to get this stuff off of my chest#it all sounds so stupid and fake and vapid#it's just unbelievable to me#it's hardly real#it wouldn't surprise me if E in like two weeks texted me like hey....want to hang out#but. i think i'm good#i think that ship has sailed#it would also not surprise me if he never brought it up again#i think we enjoyed each other but overall we're better off as casual friends
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hiii Ghosty! 4,7 and 8 for the multi f/o ask, if you feel like it? :3c
Hi hi!! Thank you so much for the ask!! I'll answer these for my current yandere mains!!
4. Someone (perhaps a friend or family member) said something hurtful to you. How do your F/Os handle it? Do any of them confront the person? Do they argue with each other about how to deal with the situation? How do they comfort you?
Charlie would try to get me away from the situation as soon as possible, offering to walk me home and just have us spend some time together, maybe order takeout and watch one of my favorite movies together. He'd focus on comforting me before anything else, but once I'm asleep or we're away from each other, he'd make sure karma worked it's wonders until the person apologized.
JD would need a lot of restraint to keep his composure, depending on who made the comment in the first place. If it was someone I spoke highly about he'd make snarky comments about how they're "not all that" and get me to go spend some alone time with him instead. If it was someone he was jealous of, he wouldn't think twice before just swinging at them and only getting away from them after I dragged him off them.
Jacob knows it's important to know your enemies better than you know your friends, so he makes sure to keep records on anything that could ruin people's lives, especially those that he considers as competition. One rude comment would be all it'd take for him to pull out his phone and show an extremely compromising video of them and tell them to keep their mouth shut so they wouldn't make their life more miserable than it already is.
Overall the general agreement between them is that whoever made me upset has to go, but how they'd get to it is an entirely different story. An "accident"? Maybe a sudden "suicide"? Or maybe just getting them out of town for one reason or another? Endless options for them to discuss!
7. It’s time for gift giving! Whether it’s a holiday or a birthday or another occasion, how does gift giving go with your F/Os? Do any of them try to one-up each other? Do they coordinate to make sure no one gives the same thing?
All of them would end up trying to one up each other in their own way, to the point where I'd end up having a full day of pampering...
Charlie would take me out to the café where we first met and talk about everything that he loves about me and our relationship, then he'd take me somewhere scenic so I could admire the horizon while he just watches me, eyes full of love and all.
JD would get us a bunch of snacks then have us have a nighttime picnic somewhere away from everyone else, like an abandoned house or a forest. It's easier for him to let his guard down when we're alone, so he'd end up being all sappy and sweet throughout the night!
Jacob would make things casual and domestic, he'd ask me to help him bake my favorite treats while chatting about whatever it is we're celebrating, basking in the joy of getting to be by each other's side like this. Then we'd spend the rest of our date just holding each other and talking about anything that crosses our minds!
8. A stranger just flirted with you, in front of your F/Os! How do they react? Do some become upset or protective? Are some chill about it? Do they argue with each other over the proper response to it?
None of them would react positively, on the contrary!
Charlie would try to keep himself in line and just try to get us out of the situation as soon as possible. As soon as we're away from that person, he'd give me a tight hug, trembling and tearing up a bit. Once he lets go he'd need a lot of reassurance and praise, to be reminded that I do still love him and that I don't feel anything towards whoever was just flirting with me.
JD would honestly just be an asshole about it and either make out with me in front of them or cuss them out until they got upset enough to leave or to start arguing with him. He'd just enjoy knowing that he has something that no one else can have, while at the same time being extra protective and possessive over me.
Jacob would give them a death glare and tell them to back off, pointing out how uncomfortable I was with their advances. After they left, he'd make sure I was alright and let me know that if I ever need to get rid of anyone, he's more than happy to keep me safe.
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The Ghost Of You
08 - Confession
This chapter's songs:
Off and On; SALES
Heaven; Clairo
A Pearl; Mitski
- Y.L. Perspective
"Hey."
The word is distant yet close, making me gasp awake. When my eyes open, I'm in sight of the foggy wet window causing pitter-patter in front of me. 'It rained.' I thought, looking out to the concrete that was soaked. Not that it bothered me; rain was one of the many things that I enjoyed.
Coming back to reality, I notice that the scenery outside is too familiar, and not long after do I realize we're parked right outside of my house, waiting for me to awake. At first, I'm completely tripped out that I had teleported from the skate park to here, but it was just a generous favor from Sugawara.
And suddenly, everything from last night comes to mind.
After Suga had kissed first me, we'd spent more than enough time on each other's faces. But the last thing I remember is sopping down on my seat and falling asleep, worn out, instead of coming up with an excuse of why I made the stupid decision of making out with him. There was not one thing fair about me knocked out in his passenger seat while he reflected on my behalf as well.
But thankfully it appeared Koushi didn't care all that much. Getting me home was one of his priorities this morning.
"What time is it?" I yawn, stretching out my limbs as far as they can go, but that's only to where the seat's leg space ends.
"It's ten AM. But it's a Saturday, so you should probably get some rest today. You went to sleep pretty late last night, and you didn't look very comfortable." He describes, leaning on the door window, staring at the pouring rain. It enlightened me that Suga cares about my rest, but what about him? From what I understand, he stayed up just as long as I did. If not, longer.
So, I decided I should offer something that I was hoping wouldn't make him uncomfortable or jump to conclusions. "Uhm...if you're tired then you can come in too, and we can just stay here for the day until you wanna go home, " I tell him, mirroring his action, and resting both my head and arm on the window.
The invitation seemed to surprise him, for he had quickly whirled his head towards me, asking, "Wait, are you sure? Y-your mom won't be mad that I'm over? Cause– you know..." he trails off, anxiously pressing his palms together, and looking downwards. It came off that he felt almost ashamed that we shared an intimate moment, which wasn't something that he should be responsible for. But even so, I still wanted to spend more time with him. If I'm being completely honest, I wasn't sure if it was because I liked him, or because he was such a refreshing person to be around, but he made me feel better than I had felt in a long time.
"Suga, I'm sure. Look, if you don't wanna hang out that's fine. I was just asking because you seemed tired and said you don't wanna be home right now." My eyes snake from his chest to his eyes, hoping it would give him an understanding that I really wanted him to come inside. "So, do you wanna?"
Sugawara gulps in nervousness, clearing his throat before speaking. "Uh, yeah. Sure. But we better hurry up, or we'll get soaked."
- K. S. Perspective
I wait behind her light brown painted door, running my hands through my damp hair. Small noises of clatter are heard, while I uncomfortably stand outside of her room, waiting for her to open up. To be honest, I wasn't sure about being casually invited into her house after last night. All that ran through my head was, 'did she even like it? Does she feel uncomfortable? What if she wants to go further?
Should I confess right now?'
Finally, her door pops open, revealing her in a change of comfortable clothing and the room behind her. "Uhm, come in," she says, pulling the door wider for me to come in. The room consisted of regular decorations I thought she'd have: anime and music artist posters, a random guitar, a few color-changing lights, and a bean bag chair. "I know it's weird and all. I guess I just haven't gotten the chance to redo my room."
"No, it's—it's fun," I tell her, sticking my hands in my pants pocket. I had to say, it'd been quite a while since I'd been in a girl's room so casually. Not that I was jumping to conclusions, but I was hoping she'd want to discuss things over what had happened. That way I could make it clear to her that I wasn't playing around with her feelings.
She shuffled towards her messy bed, turning towards me, before falling backward onto it. Her loud yawn and stretch echo throughout the room, as well as the low music that she had playing on a home speaker on her dresser. As much as I wanted to feel relaxed, I hardly could. I felt almost scared to stand in her room alone right after we had made out. All I could think of was running my hand against her skin, and rubbing my lips against her hot neck. Now she was casually laying on her bed, looking back at me with absolutely no expression.
"Come, come, " she says, holding out a hand towards me, which makes my anxiety advance to an entirely new level. But following her orders, I hesitantly take it, quickly being pulled to where she laid. The sudden action has me wide-eyed and rested on my side, facing only Y/n. Though I tried hiding my uneasiness, she eventually broke my cover with a simple sentence. "I feel so tired. Don't you?"
I nod, before gulping almost too loudly. However, Y/n keeps her gaze on me, gradually making her eye rests longer. Feeling the dirtiest in the room, I begin to distance myself from her stature, removing the dark paid cover-up that spread over my shoulders, as well as a few accessories I had and tossed them on a small desk at the side of her bed. Then, I took out my phone, deciding it was best to talk to Daichi about everything; I was hoping my friends weren't angry I had ditched them so suddenly.
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Daichi
How was the party?
Weren't you there?
I left earlier than expected
Around what time?
12:00 AM
That's not that early
Anyways, it was fine I guess
Everyone was being stupid and drunk
I know, good thing I didn't stay so long
Miya said you left with Y/n-?
Yeah, but I just took her out cause she wasn't having a good time
Well, I just took her to some park where we spent the night in my car and I drove her home today
Now we're just napping in her room
I thought you said you wanted to see how things went with her :(
Don't worry we didn't do anything
At least not something extreme
What'd you do??
Uh
We just kind of made out for a few minutes
But it wasn't bad or anything
It was nice
Pls don't tell anybody because I'm not sure how to tell her yet
That you're in love with her?? Ahh ok-.-
I'm not in love with her,
Koushi, you told me you've never wanted to want to make somebody feel loved the way you did Y/n.
Well
Uh
Whatever
Are you coming to the practice game today?
Oh yeah
What time
In like thirty minutes
Are you serious
But I needed to talk to y/n
I was gonna wait till she woke up
Sorry man
Just leave her a note you'll be back?
Yeah, ok
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As Daichi had told me to, I decided to find the nearest paper and pen that sat lazily on Y/n's desk. But instead of tossing a few words to excise my absence, I thought of doing something very stupid and risky.
I left a love letter.
At first, I felt as if I was being nothing but a coward for not telling her personally. What would she think if I had just run off and left a confession for her to run through my herself? But after realizing that I could let her think things through, I thought it was the best idea I had that entire year.
And so, I wrote my feelings down quicker than ever imagined, fitting in what I could to convince Y/n of my love for her.
To y/n,
This is one of the most idiotic things I could have done to tell you, but I have a practice game and I can't afford to miss practice right now. As you know, I'm on the edge of having my position taken.
Y/n, after about a week of knowing you I realized that you make me feel like a better person. When I hear your voice or get the benefit of making you smile, it feels like I'm on a high off of you. You're the most beautiful, talented girl have ever met in my life. Without you, I don't think I could have lasted this first week.
I remember the feeling you gave me when we were younger. Even if you didn't talk to me, or didn't acknowledge my existence very much, I still wanted to discover every corner of you. I thought I wouldn't have ever met someone that I was so passionate about like I was for you. And when our first year of high school ended, I felt heartbroken by the fact that I didn't get to tell you how I felt about you. How your essence made my heart warm, how your skin makes me crave touching you, how much space you filled up in my small brain.
When I had seen you on the bus that one morning, I couldn't believe how much you've grown. I know this is personal for you, but you were in a bad state, and it caused me pain to see that you felt alone, and you didn't know how much I cared for you. So when I saw how much you were taking care of yourself, it brought me to hope that I could do the same. If you didn't already know, after my mom had died, I started creating bad habits and ruined my self-portrait. I felt like there was no way out, and that I was useless. But then I met you, again. You brought me to become a better person for myself, Y/n.
I don't want to rush you into anything, but I feel like I should confess to you that I'm in love with you. I've never had the feelings I have for you. Every day I find myself thinking of how lovely you are. And after what had happened last night, I realized, why wait? Why wait to tell you this the way I did in my first year? If I did, then I'm gonna run out of time. I want you more than I've ever wanted anything, Y/n. I think I'm scared that you won't look at me the same, or that you think I'm a burden to you. But at this point, I think I've run out of space to store what I feel for you.
Overall, I love you, Y/n. Please, do me the honor of being with me.
Love, Koushi.
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As always, I love you guys
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