#i think ultimately my writing has grown stronger in many areas. i'm just struggling to remember that i did not conjure my works out of | Explore Tumblr posts and blogs

pyro-sea · 2 years ago

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Sometimes when you take a break for a while, you come back and you're rusty. So you work on shaking off the rust. And once the rust and the dust and the cobwebs have started to clear, you have to grapple with the reality that you're not only rusty, but your style has changed. You're not the same as you once were. You might have grown into improvement during your much-needed rest, but you still cannot return to create in the same voice that you used to.

Your creations are different now. And you have to face that.

#i have a lot of emotions about growth change setbacks burn out and progress tonight apparently #i got reflective of my journey as a writer and got a bit overwhelmed remembering how much my works attracted kind comments #and how different my writing sounds and how much my general process has changed #i write slower now. my ideas don't have the same depth. i don't have the same amount of time or energy #it feels a bit like i had broken a bone metaphorically speaking. and now it's healed. i've been doing the physical therapy #but it's still not the same. the limb is still moving differently than it used to #i think ultimately my writing has grown stronger in many areas. i'm just struggling to remember that i did not conjure my works out of #thin air. i did not write them overnight. my stories are labors of love and of time and energy.#i need to remember i will craft them again. better this time even since i will be working at a more sustainable place #i don't usually make posts like these. but this has been on my mind for a little while now #i need to remember not to idolize my past. i need to embrace my future and take the steps needed to be as i want to be #pyro speaks #textpost

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