#i think i just really haven't been confident with writing lately 😅

[starrattlerofprydain]

Kinda been stuck between “i wanna write this thing but no one’s gonna read it” and “idc imma write it anyway”

[midgardian-witch]

casings by ethel cain has so much nathan angst potential😵‍💫

I absolutely agree, anon!

I did want to write a little smth inspired by that. Not sure I managed to get the angst across as much as I would have liked but at this point I've been working too long at this and if I keep editing it will only get worse 😅

(Not) Good Enough

tags: angst | insecurity | infidelity | break up | sad ending | unhealthy relationship | mentions of oral sex and cock warming | mentions of sex with a robot

relationships: Nathan Bateman/Reader, Nathan Bateman/his fuckbots

AO3

"F-fuck. You're so tight. You’re fucking milking me."

This was a terrible idea from the start. You should have never opened those live feeds. 

Nathan always went to bed extremely late, usually stuck working on the latest update for something BlueBook related or something for his latest personal project. Meanwhile you were lying in bed, unable to sleep. So you crawled over to Nathan's desk, because of course that workaholic would keep a desk in his bedroom, and logged into his computer.

And then you opened the live feeds. 

Knowing it is one thing but seeing it with your own eyes? That hurt more than a dagger through the heart. 

While you were lying in bed waiting for Nathan to join you, he was busy bending his latest android in two and ramming his dick into her synthetic pussy. 

The sight would have been hot at some point, earlier into or even before your relationship. Now it just reminds you that you're not enough, never enough. 

You need a certain type of confidence when you're in a relationship with Nathan Bateman. It's not easy when the man you love is building androids in his basement that look like either supermodels or pornstars. And then fucks them into oblivion for their test run. 

(Ok, not his basement. His remote research facility in the middle of nowhere that he built himself and in which you both live in. Small difference.) 

And it’s a certain type of cruelty when the man you love tells you not to worry, that he loves you, that you are all he needs and wants, and then he leaves to fuck his android with bigger boobs, a bigger ass and clearer skin a few rooms down.

You had discussed it beforehand, of course. Him fucking his androids was no secret even before you got together.

"They aren't human, more like a sex toy really," or so was his reasoning. 

You knew what you were getting into. But it chips away at you slowly nonetheless. And while you know that you shouldn't compare yourself to the perfect little robots Nathan builds you can't stop yourself. 

It's exhausting having to fight your own thoughts. 

You've tried your best to be a good partner, to support him in any way you can, to please him with everything you have. You stopped counting the times you've snuck under his desk to suck his cock, to keep it warm for him while he works. Of course an android doesn't walk away from that with aching knees and a hurting jaw. No, they are perfect. And you're not. 

You've tried to talk to Nathan about your growing fears, your doubts and anxiety. In his Nathan-ness he tries his best to reassure you: 

"Do you really think I would keep you around if I didn't need or want you here?" 

Nathan Bateman; truly a man of tact, empathy and emotional intelligence. You used to enjoy the snarky banter with him, to tease him until he finally showed even an ounce of emotion, of affection. Now it's just another thing that leaves you drained and unsatisfied. 

With the perfectly pitched moans of his newly developed fuckbot as your background music you can feel yourself go numb. You're trapped, the sounds and sights of Nathan pounding into this nameless female figure looping over and over again. 

With a start you wake up from your nightmare. You haven't heard from Nathan at all since you left. Instead your own mind doesn't let you rest even if the man you used to love doesn't care about you enough to look for you. 

You still mourn your relationship, or at least how your relationship could have been. If you would have been more understanding, if he would have listened more. The what ifs are no comfort as you cry yourself to sleep at night. 

At this point you're sure there is something wrong with you, to cry over a man like Nathan. But at least he can't see you like this. And he will never know the heartache he caused.

[ofmdee]

MAN i am so close to getting the next part of BU written, im like at the very end of the chapter but im having a hard time wrapping it up, i think because i Know that means then i have to do the pictures 😂

the chapter kinda started off as a freewriting thing, a pwp i wasn't planning on sharing, but then i realized it Could actually be a good filler chapter, and once that happened i was like oh i can't write anymore 😅

but i added a few plotty things, including a conversation i wanted ed and stede to have re: ed's transmogrification which i think is important, and ed giving stede a pearl he finds. he's bringing stede little trinkets like a kitty bringing gifts. mermaids are just big cats 2 me.

and then stede starts calling ed his pearl, etc etc

i WANT TO want to write, i want to keep creating this fic, i love it so much, it's my passion project etc, but i am just having such a hard time with it lately! i am rly trying to follow this advice and be gentle w myself and not push it, but it's hard! i worry that by the time i Really feel like doing it again, anyone who was interested will have moved on. i compare myself to other ppl too often, and i feel like holy shit ive been working on this for over 2 years, i should have SO MUCH more to show for the amount of time i put into it 💀

and then ofc i always doubt myself, like this isn't good, ppl are just reading it because they are my friends/feel sorry for me, the sims stuff is Cringe and im so amateur and embarrassing and everything i do sucks!!!

but also ive been rereading the fic during downtime at work, just to try and get a feel for it again, and im like oh, this is actually NOT awful? and it's making me like hmmmmm maybe i WILL get back into this....... i really do love it. i love reading it. and that's so important, i think. i like what i create, even tho i am also convinced no one else will. idk when my self confidence fuckin TANKED man but i think so little of myself and i hate that! i wanna think im the shit. or at least okay.

anyway idk what im even talking abt anymore, lmfao, just. fic stuff!!! being obsessive abt stuff. fandom stuff! i'm thinking abt taking an edible later and then trying to churn out the rest of the chapter so i at least have the framework to edit but idk, i rly AM also trying not to force it. i have ts4 open still from making my new icon/header and im like hmmm i could load my photoshoot save and start working on the pics.... but idk.

i HAVE gotten really into diamond painting over the past month or so, tho, and i think having another hobby, one that isn't tied to the internet in general, is rly helping me balance some things a bit more. here are a few pics of things ive made:

ive even ordered a custom ofmd kit, using one of ann's edits as the picture, im soooooo excited for it to arrive!!! ive been rly obsessive abt this since i started, but it's rly relaxing? it makes my mind go (white noise static sound) and rly helps me forget abt being anxious. but then i can also end up getting anxious about doing it Too Much, but that's a whole other can of worms re childhood trauma etc etc w/e

this turned into kinda a life update post lmfao, i just wanted to untangle some fic thoughts but it got away from me. oh well! idk thanks if u read this and thanks if u read my fic, i promise i haven't forgotten abt it 🧜‍♂️

[moongurl95]

Writer Interview Game

Thank you for the tag @theladyofshalott1989! 💕 Yours was such an interesting read (can agree with your only child syndrome - im one as well ✌️) and it's something to think about since it's my first time receiving a tag game this long 😅

When did you start writing?

I remember making a lil homemade "Book of Jokes" (simply made out of elementary paper and just binding them with glue), my mom still has it somewhere she said she keeps as a memento.

But ive found i had a way to express myself in essay writing and with the other blogs i had before (blogspot days), before i really practiced creative writing back in 2019 by joining some writing groups online. They gave prompts and we spin a short story for it, which i greatly enjoyed doing. Joined Nanorimo in 2020 and even self published a couple of ebooks from that (not really confident to market it tho...)

But Fanfiction writing? ive honestly joined many a fandom but only Hogwarts Legacy was the one who called out to me to write something about my MC!

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

I curiously read smut cuz for the life of me i cannot write a sexy, intimate scene in detail - my brain just blanks when i want to write it, so always back to the drawing writing board for me 🫣

Is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

No one in particular really, tho i transitioned from reading the kids' books (Magic Treehouse, Geronimo Stilton and Bailey School Kids) to straight up P.C. Cast and her Goddess Summoning series. The only good 'ol YAs that touched my soul were Maggie Stiefvater's Shiver Trilogy, Emma Raveling's Ondine Quartet, Courtney Alameda's Shutter, Jess Rothenberg's The Catastrophic History of You and Me, and last but not the least (which also shaped my love for morally grey characters, Julian goddammit i cried teenage tears for him 😢) L.J. Smith's The Forbidden Game and these are most of the writers i remember growing up reading (i never even read the HP books... whoops!)

Can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

i don't really have a fixed one, i used to go to those co-working spaces when i started with fanfiction writing but i can type out a quick short story in notepad on any pc as long as the mood strikes. i've also adapted to typing on my cp too (OneDrive is my friend in syncing it on both my mobile and laptop) 😁

What's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

Peace and quiet. i usually have the best ideas late into the night when everyone is asleep, and im up like a gremlin, awake and typing away on my pc (those subliminal writer sounds work on me too) and there comes a time that i just need to write the words out when they've been brewing in my head for a fortnight too long...

Are there any recurring themes in your writing? Do they surprise you?

3 love interests and the 1 mc who does not have the leisure for romance (i did it once, i unwittingly just realized im doing it now with my fanfic... oh well.)

What is your reason for writing?

Granted i haven't written any original works since starting my fanfiction (all my brain juice goes into that WIP, i guess), it does give me a sense of purpose and a nice lil side hobby project i still quite enjoy coming back to every now and then ✍️🤓

Is there any specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating?

i don't get alot so i love all of them! The ones that comment on how sweet the interactions were between the characters keeps me motivated tho, it's challenging enough for me to be naturally affectionate irl so i really think my dialogue over before capturing it in words.

How do you want to be thought about by your readers?

i guess just somehow who'll not leave them hanging on an unfinished work 😅 at this point in time i still love adding chapters to it, but it does take time for me (between working and adjusting in a new country). i greatly thank them for their patience and support of my work! 💌

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

Slow-burns. 'Cuz maybe it takes me awhile to really understand a certain level of affection that's why im more interested in seeing how it develops. Also i do get comments on how i really visually describe a scene real well, so i hope that's true and im not really dragging it out? 🤔

How do you feel about your own writing?

i personally feel like i lack a back and forth dialogue in how i write, as i tend to be introspective, though overall i love the art of writing itself! There are days i read a random work of mine just to get motivated, read the comments on that and get encouraged more. 🥰

Hope these lovelies dont mind me tagging them 💌 @glutengoblin @animasola86 @evaslytherpuff @little-emerald-snake

[alintheshitposter]

It is currently 4am in the morning, I can't sleep, so let's do this now. (Pretty sure I've done it before but this is simply going be the updated version🤪)

15 questions + 15 friends; I was tagged by @spezialgelagerte-rokokokokotte thanking youuu <3

It got quite long, so I'll put a cut here😅

1. Are you named after anyone?

No😊 (and I say this confidently because I named myself)

2. When was the last time you cried?

Two days ago, on my birthday (I was just a little emotional), but @maxwellshimbo was there to comfort me💚

3. Do you have kids?

Not of my own, no. And it's unlikely that is ever going to happen.

4. What sports do you play/have you played?

I did ballet as a kid but quickly got tired of it and started playing football, which I technically STILL play (it's been 84 14 years💀) but I am falling out of love with it. I used to do archery for like a year which I absolutely loved and hope to do again sometime! I'm in a club for lifeguarding (German peeps will probably have heard of DLRG👀) so I spent quite some time at the swimming pool as well. Though I am not as active in actual training anymore. And I did ballroom dancing for a while. Like standard and latin dances. My favourite was probably Cha Cha Cha and my least favourite was definitely Quickstep😵‍💫 it was fun tho! I danced with one of my best friends and I did the leading parts which made me feel kind of gender euphoric. I also like to go for a run every now and then but overall I'd consider myself a not so sporty person. I like to relax a lot🥴

5. Do you use sarcasm?

I cannot live without. It just comes naturally.

6. What is the first thing you notice about people?

Just the overall vibe I guess. And whether I like them or not.

7. What is your eye colour?

It says blue-grey on my ID but I've been told they're actually more green-ish and I kind of agree.

8. Scary movies or happy endings?

Happy endings. I don't like scary movies, I think they're ridiculous.

9. Any talents?

Hm. Well...my dad jokes are pretty good🤪 but apart from that...I guess I'm quite creative?🤷🏻 I speak 3 languages fluently? I can touch my tongue to my nose? Idk xD

10. Where were you born?

In some small town in northern Germany. Fellow Germans will probably know it for one (1) big tourist attraction but I'm not going to specify it here.

11. What are your hobbies?

I play theater. I play several musical instruments (bass, flute, ukulele, kalimba and some more but I'm not as good). I like taking pictures and editing them. Sometimes I write fanfic and/or poetry. And I like to relax in my bean bag🥴

12. Do you have any pets?

I have a cat but I haven't lived with her in 3 years. (Due to an allergy🤧 and me moving out of my parents' house.) I visit her from time to time tho!

13. How tall are you?

It used to be 1,68m on my ID but I recently had to renew it and now it says I'm 1,71m...I think I might actually be smaller than that though🥴

14. Favourite subject in school?

Always all the languages. Never any of the sciences. I loved music class as well. And all the school bands I played in. I miss that.

15. Dream job?

Please, that is the WORST question you could ask me right now😩 I feel a little lost. I'm currently studying to be a translator but is it what I really want? I don't know ;-; I miss working at the kindergarten lately. But I don't know if I'd wanna do that full time either. I'm so insecure and I hope I'll figure it out soon.

Phew. This took me almost an hour. Well. Let's see if I can fall asleep now. 1½ hours left until my alarm goes off. Good night😴

No pressure tags: @daughterofhecata @miaisreadytorun @bistdueinbaum

[pedroshotwifey]

Happy Valentines day my love!! I wanted to send you a love letter because I seriously adore you so much!! I swear you're the friend I've been waiting my whole life for! I haven't been this comfortable with someone in a long time. I don't really even get anxiety when we talk anymore 😅😂

You are literally my number one supporter and your words of encouragement are a huge reason I've been able to be so consistent and frequent with updates lately! Thank you for always being willing to listen to my insane ideas and for encouraging my madness, especially with Sunshine. You give me the confidence to think I could actually make it as a professional author and I can't tell you how much that means to me.

I think you're such a talented writer and it's crazy to think I inspired someone with that much talent, I know you're going to go far! And I'll be there to cheer you on every step of the way!

Here's some chocolate and flowers 🍫💐

Will you be my valentine?? 😘💕

What?? Who's crying?? I'm not crying?? Something in my eye... 😭

Kew I can't even tell you how much you mean to me!! Right back at you with you being my #1 supporter, I really don't understand how I got anything done before you! I'm so fucking honored to be your comfort person, and I really hope you know you're mine as well! Just knowing that you don't have to stress over talking to me makes me so happy 🥹

I truly believe that I can tell you anything, and that's so important to me to have. Thank you so, so much for being here for me and all my bs! I swear to you I'll still be there cheering you on when you publish your first book, because I know you can do it! Doesn't matter how long it might take, I have full faith that you will be going places with your writing!

And I'll be your valentine any day of the year!!

Here's a massive fucking teddy bear bc I'm extra like that 🧸

[saltymongoose]

Hoi, it's me Smilex. I wanted to thank you personally for that kind message in the reblog chain. I haven't been all that confident about my writing lately because I'm migrating to a new fandom (that's always scary in the beginning you know?) And I'm rewriting old stories that are cringe lol. Also there seems to be something wrong with the tagging I can't see my works in the tags I added. Or maybe people just don't like me that could be a possibility as well. That little message in the chain made me feel better, I'm happy to be your mutual, even though we don't communicate all that much lately. And I'm gonna try and post a new story or headcanon real soon.

Thanks again. Kind regards.

Of course, you're more than welcome! You deserve all the compliments and more, and I'm glad it made you feel better about your (excellent) work. I've really enjoyed reading all of your writings, even including the stuff from fandoms I'm not involved in. And I get that going into new fandoms can be kind of scary too, that's kind of how I felt when I started writing for Madcom lol. 😅

As for the visibility issue, I searched you up and your blog doesn't come up in the results (writersmilex, specifically), so I think there is a possibility you may have been shadowbanned on that blog. I would send tumblr a support ticket or two for this since I can see no reason why they'd do that. This would explain why none of your work appears in the main tags though, since all your tags would otherwise be functional for sending them to the results. It's an issue with tumblr, definitely not your writing or people's opinions on your stuff.

Anyhow, I'm happy to be your mutual too! :) Even if we don't talk a lot, I appreciate it when we do, and I always look forward to seeing you on my dash. ❤️❤️❤️

[evelhak]

Personal rant coming.

Lol I ran into a high school friend of mine at Finncon today and they didn't remember who I was which isn't news BUT we were not aquintances or something. We were in the same core friend group. The things we did together include

in-depth literary discussions

sharing our writing processes

me beta reading their nanowrimo novel

them using me as a nearly daily hugging tree

them sometimes having their head on my lap while lying on a bench and me petting their hair

Sure we haven't seen each other in a long time but. Still. I went to say hello to them and they looked at me really confused, then after a while asked: "Were we in the same Mesopotamia larp?"

It's just. I'm used to it BUT in my adulthood I have grown into myself so much and can now present myself with so much more confidence and extroversion that this doesn't happen that often to THIS scale. Like, not all, but a good number of my author colleagues have remembered me after the first time of meeting me, because I do a lot to try to create something memorable, like my outfit matching my colourful book cover down to my very visible make up, hair accessories and even my nails. I'm trying to brand myself because I know that naturally I am just that forgettable so that someone who hung out with me daily for years in the ways mentioned above can still forget me even though they remember everyone else in the group.

It's just that when you think you've been doing so great lately, this kind of reminder, even though it's technically from the past, when this was more frequent, feels a bit like a punch in the face. 😅

Especially when I would have still known to go straight towards the Mesopotamia larp if I knew that person was around somewhere and I wanted to look for them. I remember cleaning this person's living room floor from orange peels because they were just that bohemian. I remember a dress everyone said would look amazing on them but wasn't at all their style. I could still draw that dress if asked. I know that they see what they read in so much detail that it feels like a movie and I remember their grammar quirks and fascination with describing pillars. I remember their questions in philosophy class, their enthusiastic debates, and their need to annoy people who weren't as happy and positive as them.

Yes I know I retain way more information about people than an average person but still the contrast between paying so much attention to people while most of them pay zero attention to you just hits sometimes even though I don't usually care and I like my peace. Maybe particularly because I just happened to be at an event where my main job is literally to be fucking remembered. And possibly also because I recently saw some other high school friends and we were reminiscing about a place we all used to go to together and I shared some memory about it and people were like... "Oh, you were there too?"

Obviously my KnB brainrot is still so bad my immediate question was "Can Kuroko top this?" It would be kind of like if ten years after high school Furihata didn't remember who Kuroko was. 🥲 Which is an incredibly sad thought so I will definitely not project these experiences onto Kuroko lol who wants to write about something like that in their fic. (I know, I know, some fans do live for angst but I definitely don't.)

I think it's because the entire weekend was otherwise great that I wanted to get this mild punch in the face out somewhere. 😅

[cdmagic1408]

✨ Hey gang! ✨

Just gonna vent here for a second...

I'd most appreciate it if you took the time to read it ⬇️

I haven't been feeling my best today...

Some days (like yesterday) I feel super happy and good, like everything's going my way 😄🙌

Then other days (like today), I feel humiliated, and that what I'm doing isn't worth it... 😔🙈

I want to put myself out there, but I also don't want to be seen as desperate either.

And if I do seem desperate, I'm sorry...

All my life putting myself out there has never been easy for me. I guess it makes me feel scared. The first thing that comes into my head at the idea of it is getting laughed at and people pointing their fingers at me. And having them think that I'm weird and not interesting 😢

But lately, I've been feeling more bold in wanting to show who I am to people. And I've been wanting to do that with this fanfic I wrote.

Since late August/early September, I've been feeling a lot more confident in myself in what I can do and I've been feeling nothing but love from all of you and others! 🥰

But inevitably there are those people out there who try and make me lose my confidence. People who just don't get it and NEVER will get it. And people who say things and just want to get a reaction out of me. Those are the people that I feel like are calling me weird and are pointing fingers at me, even though they don't know the true person they are pointing them to 😞

It's days like that that put me in an utter state of melancholy...

But I don't want to give up. And I am here to tell you right now that I'm not going to give up! I'm going to keep moving forward with what I'm doing 😎

Because deep down I believe what I'm doing is right. I am standing up for what I believe is right. Because I believe in this film, I believe in Ian and Barley, and I believe in myself.

And at the end of the day, I don't care what those people say. They're jerks. And the world is full of jerks. And the world is full of people who don't care.

What truly matters is the people who DO care and the people who see me for who I am. And I want to thank those people for believing in me too 💗

I don't want to say that what I have spent the last year and a half writing is who I am entirely. But it is a part of who I am, and who I've grown to be. I've learned so much from making this happen that in some ways I feel like I'm going through my own character development 📈

It's been risky, but what was it that the Manticore always said...you have to take risks in life to have an adventure?

Well this has been an adventure! And an adventure that's made me feel like I am moving forward. So as long as that's the case, what do I really have to lose? 🙂

Wow...here I am referencing the Manticore and her greatness when she's finally about to make her appearance in IYTM! 😅

It's fate I tell ya! FATE!

So I guess this is the part where I say thanks for listening if you've managed to read this far and that Chapter 20 will be out this Friday!

PEACE! ✌️

[ashes-in-a-jar]

Tag game!!!

Tagged by @bluejayblueskies <3 <3 <3

1- Why did you choose your url?

My online name is Ashes and the jar of ashes felt appropriate given it being a very romantic gesture in some social circles ;)

2- Any side blogs?

A bunch of side ones for various fandoms mainly for my own filing and safekeeping (things I think should be shared more I reblog to this blog for traction). Also I have an art/writing reference blog and cool random stuff blog and of course the @jonsimsandcats blog (with another friend)!

3- How long have you been on tumblr?

Around 14 months! I'm here very late comparatively 😅

4- Do you have a queue tag?

Nope! I queue things sometimes so as to not be overwhelming but I don't know what to have as a tag for it (or why I should have one for that matter if anyone would like to enlighten me)

5- Why did you start your blog in the first place?

Wanted to find more tma artists and content and maybe request some art I had in mind but couldn't draw myself? I realized pretty quickly that's not how requests work but stayed for wonderful art and speculations and friends I made since :)

6- Why did you choose your icon/pfp

My charcoal art from a few years ago that felt appropriately fitting for a tma blog xD

7- Why did you choose your header?

My favorite bit of tma art i made that I'm very proud of!

8-What’s your post with the most notes?

The There are many disadvantages to being an Archivist one but only because it breached fandom, around 6k I think.

9- How many mutuals do you have?

Not sure actually! Maybe 20 maybe 60 I can't really tell. I also follow alot of side blogs of people for art who might or might not be following me but who knows.

10- How many followers do you have?

I'm almost at 1,234 and super excited about it!

11- How many people do you follow?

About 300 and even though I do follow and unfollow quite easily it doesn't deviate from that much

12- Have you ever made a shitpost?

Define shitpost xD

13- How often do you use Tumblr each day?

A fair few! During breaks at work I like to scroll through the tma tag and queue posts and sometimes go though my feed to see if anything interesting is afoot in the world 😂

14- Did you have a fight/argument with another blog once?

A specific blog? No, not arguments. Discussions yes but I try to avoid aggressive people and being aggressive with strangers (and people in general!). I do sometimes get some suspiciously angry anons but I never engage unless I feel what they have to say is valid.

15- How do you feel about “you need to reblog this” posts?

Don't really care for it? I curate the people I follow very much so I don't get much of those kinds of posts which I think is good?

16- Do you like tag games?

Really really depends on my mood. Jay caught me at a perfect time to want to write something <3

17- Do you like ask games?

Same answer as above! I sometimes reblog them if I feel I have the energy and confidence to answer but sometimes I'd reblog and the amount of asks I get is too overwhelming or my mood would suddenly change so I just shut down, sorry to anyone I haven't answered in the past 😅

18-Which of your mutuals do you think is Tumblr famous?

All of them are tumblr famous in my heart ♥

19- Do you have a crush on a mutual?

Does the previous question answer this?

Tagging @m-e-w-666 @spider-plants @bagginshield @artificialdaydreamer @wordsintimeandspace @hihereami only if you want, no pressure! (or anyone else who sees this and wants to)

[swanimagines]

Hi Jenni!

I've been scrolling through your blog and I just wanted to say thank you for letting me be part of your fandom family. I'm so glad we're friends and your blog is so beautiful! I also hope that you are doing well. <3

I was looking at your platonic crushes and when I saw Frodo Baggins (Lord of the Rings) and Zack Addy (Bones), it warmed my heart. I rewatched Lord of the Rings a few months ago and I forgot how phenomenal that series is. Frodo is such a sweetheart. My mom and I are rewatching Bones and Zack is adorable (platonically).

Peter Pan (Jeremy Sumpter) was one of my childhood crushes as well. Now I just think he's cool.

I'm so glad Scott McCall (Teen Wolf) is one of your favorites, he's such a sweetheart as well. I feel like he'd be the perfect best friend.

Ooo I absolutely love pizza! Its my favorite food too!

Your guinea pigs are so cute!

Lilac/violet is such a pretty color! Actually any shade of purple is pretty to me.

Lately, everytime I fall asleep I've imagined being in different fandoms (mostly Titans, and Teen Wolf) and just hanging out with the characters, and it's made me feel calm.

Aw Kit, no problem!! I love having you in my fandom family!

And haha well you've read my about page through very carefully XD Love to see it. Putting my answers under the cut because I don't wanna clog dashboards.

I had violet hair a couple of years ago actually, it was like cool-shaded violet but when you ruffled it a bit, it turned bright violet and had blue streaks underneath, it was super cool 🤩 I'm pretty confident the hairdresser was a magician because hoooly hell it was amazing. I just told her to use my hair as a blank canvas and she did.

Haha yeah, I've liked the whole main gang during these 3 seasons I've finished. The first episode of the 4th season has been waiting for me for a month 😅 I just get episodes when I can't really concentrate on watching anything and this time it has been replaced by writing everywhere and with anything.

Omg but pizza always brings this one authentic Napolitan restaurant to my mind which was the best restaurant I've ever visited. It was held by a man who really was from Napoli and he was so nice and told great stories about Italy and FOR MY BIRTHDAY HE MADE TIRAMISU FOR ME AND MY FRIEND AS A SURPRISE??? I had told him a few weeks prior that I'll be coming there that day to have a birthday lunch with a friend and then he remembered and just made tiramisu for me as a gift 😭💕

It's just that the place was so tiny and remote from everything that it ultimately went bankrupt.

And haha, I've imagined those little scenarios since I was like... 8 or 9, I think? I haven't fallen to sleep hugging Dami (my stuffed toy dog) for months now though since I imagine it's Kaz so I sleep as far away as I can from him to respect his boundaries, but it still somehow calms me to know that he's "there" in case I get anxiety or something and at times, when I'm alone, I really "believe" it's really Kaz and I'm in Ketterdam, I hear people shouting at the street below my window and find myself thinking that hopefully Kaz won't wake up because he fell to sleep easily for once, but at the same time I know it's just my imagination and if someone came to me while I'm having that imagination bubble, I'd come back to my senses immediately so it's not like I'm drowning into some dream world and losing touch with real world and it's been this way for like 10 years.

It's an amazing feeling, training your imagination goes great lengths.