#i really thought it'd be a sad ending i'm so SO RELIEVED NOW

[unholydeukae]

heyy!! hope you guys are doing well

I'm missing yubin right now, and I'm sure she'd have been missing her girls while they were on tour as well. Maybe something with them communicating long distance, Yoohyeon calls her one night (so it'd be morning for yubin), and somehow Yoohyeon finds herself frustrated and needy and it ends up with Yubin talking her through it over the phone while trying to ignore how painfully hard she is herself. Finishes with Yubin listening as Yoohyeon falls asleep on the other end.

hope this is okay!! tysm!

Hey!! I really liked this ask and had a lot of fun answering it, so I hope you enjoy what I came up with :)

Yubin was still in bed and scrolling through the fans’ pictures and videos of the concert that ended a few hours ago when her best friend's contact name appeared on her phone's screen. Smiling, she picked up, looking forward to hearing all the stories from the last two days they spent in Brazil.

“Binnie!!” Yoohyeon's voice was excited and Yubin felt relieved - a small part of her was always worried that something happened while she wasn't there to take care of the girls, but Yoohyeon didn't sound like something was off.

“Hey princess,” she answered, “how was the concert? I saw some videos, you looked so pretty today.”

A light giggle could be heard and Yubin knew immediately that the girl was blushing slightly.

“Oh, well, I liked the outfit, yeah! I think we all looked pretty cool and the fans liked it as well!”

“I'm glad they did, baby, but I still think you looked stunning tonight, so no need to be shy about it.” Yubin could hear Yoohyeon shuffle around on the other end and grinned when the girl made some clearly flustered noises.

“What was that, puppy? I thought you wanted to tell me about the concert?” she teased, very aware of the effect the pet names had on the older girl.

Yoohyeon cleared her throat before she answered, “It was really fun! We did Silent Night so many times, I felt like I was dying - I was jumping around so much, my legs still hurt. Oh, and the fans screamed your parts so loud, it was really touching.”

Now it was Yubin's turn to slightly blush, she was always happy when InSomnia evidently liked her raps a lot.

“That sounds so good, I'm really sad I couldn't be there with you guys…” she trailed off, wishing she was with the rest of her members. Well, she specifically wanted to be with one of them right now, if she was completely honest, but there was no need to say that out loud.

“Mhm…” Yoohyeon murmured, then added, “I wish you were here, too…” so quietly that Yubin could hardly hear her, but the needy tone of her voice was unmistakable.

“What did you say, baby?” the younger girl asked - if her suspicion was correct, Yoohyeon would most likely bury her head in her pillow now and refuse to say anything.

Rustling could be heard through her phone's speaker and Yubin could make out a muffled “Nothing…”. She grinned to herself, knowing exactly where this would be going now.

“I thought you said you wanted me there, princess, is that not what you meant? Well, if I misunderstood you, then it's probably best if I hang up now, I don't want to keep you from sleeping.”

More shuffling and Yoohyeon's voice was clearer again. “No, no, don't hang up!! I miss you so much, I really wish you were here right now… I couldn't stop thinking about you all day today.”

Yubin tilted her head, even though the other girl couldn't see it. “Is that so? What did you think about, baby?” she asked, her tone slightly teasing.

Groaning, then it was silent for a moment. The younger girl looked at the black screen of her phone and waited. Just when she was about to repeat her question, Yoohyeon said something.

“Was thinking about us cuddling, I miss feeling you close… Miss touching you.”

“Oh, I miss you too, darling, we'll cuddle so much when you're back here. And you miss touching me, hmm? What a coincidence that I miss touching you as well, don't you think?”

Yoohyeon let out a loud whine at Yubin's last sentence and from the sounds coming through, the latter knew that she was shuffling around in her bed, trying to decide if she should continue or not.

“Use your words, baby,” Yubin said softly, “you're winding yourself up like that.”

More whimpering, until a quiet “I need you, daddy” made the younger girl close her eyes and silently suck in air. Her dick had been semi-hard since the first whine but now she felt blood rush straight to her core.

Not letting Yoohyeon know how much her words affected her, she answered, “Oh, I know, princess, I know… what do you want me to do?”

Yoohyeon seemed restless again and for a few seconds, only whimpers escaped her throat. She knew that Yubin would not do anything unless she said out loud what she wanted, but finding words was hard when she could already feel the wetness in between her legs.

“I…” she started, trying to phrase a coherent sentence, “I need you, please, need to feel you so bad.”

That wasn't really the answer Yubin wanted, but she couldn't blame the girl - it wasn't like she was in a better state, she could just conceal it better.

Deciding Yoohyeon could need some help, she asked, “Are you a messy puppy already, hmm?”

She could hear her whine, then a breathless “I think so, yeah."

Nodding, Yubin said, “Well, why don't you check for daddy?”, not surprised at the moan that sounded through her phone's speaker a second later.

“So?” she asked, satisfied when Yoohyeon's voice was dripping in need as she answered, “I'm a mess, so wet already…”

Yubin took a deep breath in, forcing herself to ignore her now fully hard dick throbbing in her boxers.

“I knew you'd be, you're such a needy puppy… do you wanna taste yourself for me, princess?”

Yoohyeon whimpered when she slipped her fingers in between her lips, greedily licking the wetness off of them. “Tastes so nice…” she said, hoping for Yubin to allow her to touch herself again.

“I wish I could taste you right now, baby, run my tongue around your clit, slightly pushing inside your soaked little hole… you'd like that, wouldn't you?”

The older girl swallowed and pressed out a “yes”, words becoming more and more difficult for her. “Touch, please,” she managed to get out, hoping it was enough for Yubin.

“Why don't you touch yourself then, princess?” the younger girl said, knowing that Yoohyeon was dying to do so.

She heard the blanket rustle, then a sigh and a loud moan, although it was quickly toned down - Yubin didn't know if the other members’ rooms were close enough to hear Yoohyeon, so she didn't say anything about it, no matter how much she loved hearing the older girl’s sounds when she touched herself.

“Feels so good…” Yoohyeon whimpered after a moment and Yubin wished nothing more than for her own fingers to be the ones in between the girl's folds right now.

“Yeah, does it? You're such a good girl, touching yourself for daddy…” she praised her, knowing the effect it would have on Yoohyeon.

Yubin could hear another swallowed moan and figured it was time to push the girl a bit further.

“You're doing so well, baby, I wish I could feel how soaked you are for me,” she said, - whimpering was the immediate response.

“Want more, please,” Yoohyeon whined, and Yubin had to close her eyes again for a moment to refocus her thoughts.

“What do you want, princess? You know I want you to use your words.”

She could hear panting before the girl managed to say, “Need your dick, please, daddy, need it so bad…”

Yubin couldn't stop a quiet “fuck” from escaping her throat. Trying to compose herself, she said, “God, I bet you do, you'd feel so tight around my cock, wouldn't you, puppy?”

Yoohyeon moaned and slick sounds told Yubin that she started fucking herself.

“What are you thinking about right now, baby?” she asked, so close to giving in to the temptation and jerking her dick to the girl's lewd noises.

“I…” Yoohyeon clearly struggled to find words, “I'm thinking about… about your dick filling me up from behind.”

“Fuck,” Yubin let out, louder this time. “You'd feel so nice around me, so stretched out by my thick cock, wouldn't you?”

Hearing the older girl whimper and pant like that killed the last ounce of self-restraint she had. She turned halfways on her stomach, just so that her dick, that was still trapped in her boxers, lightly touched the mattress.

“Need you so deep, please, daddy,” Yoohyeon moaned and Yubin couldn't help but slightly buck her hips against the bed, wishing the older girl was lying under her.

“I know you do, puppy,” she pressed out, “I'd fuck you so well, you wouldn't be able to think anymore, would you?”

“God, yes, I…” Yoohyeon trailed off for a moment, before she continued, “I think I'm getting close, please…”

Yubin couldn't stop her hips from moving according to the slick sounds she heard from Yoohyeon's end. Groaning, she asked, “You're close? Are you gonna cum for daddy, princess? Want me to fill you up with my cum as well?”

Yoohyeon almost cried out, her voice shaky when she begged, “Please, please daddy, breed me, I need your cum in me, I'm so close, please…”

Forcing herself to shift her focus completely back on Yoohyeon, Yubin said, “I'd fill you up so well, you'd be throbbing around my dick, wouldn't you? You can cum, baby, I want to hear how good you sound when you fuck yourself for me.”

The older girl's panting got faster and more ragged while Yubin kept going on about how good she looked stretched out on her dick and how well she was taking her.

With a choked moan, Yoohyeon finally came undone and Yubin immediately switched to showering her with praises.

“You're such a good girl,” she said, “you did so well, making yourself cum so hard for me, you did such a good job, princess.”

Yoohyeon kept panting but seemed to come down from her high, more whimpers falling from her lips again.

“Are you okay, baby girl?” Yubin asked, wanting to make sure she was alright.

Only unintelligible sounds came through her phone's speaker, so she asked again before Yoohyeon eventually calmed down enough to murmur, “I'm okay, I'm just… exhausted, fuck, intense…”

“That's okay, puppy, no worries, you did so great,” Yubin responded, her voice soft and caring. “Are you tired now, darling?”

“Yeah…” Yoohyeon's voice was hardly more than a whisper. “Sleepy… need cuddles…”

Yubin's heart melted a little. “You'll get all the cuddles you want, baby, and head scratches as well, hmm? Does that sound good?”

“Mhm…” the older girl's voice trailed off and just a few seconds later, her breathing had evened out completely.

“Baby?” Yubin asked tentatively, but wasn't surprised when she didn't get an answer anymore.

Turning until she laid on her back again, she got lost in thoughts for a moment, but her still painfully hard dick brought her back to reality quickly.

Sighing, she muted herself on the call - she knew how much Yoohyeon loved to stay on call over night if they couldn't be together, so she didn't want to hang up, but she definitely didn't want to wake her up by getting off either.

She placed her phone on the nightstand before wrapping her fingers around her cock, thinking about how good Yoohyeon sounded when she got off for her…

[yuseirra]

oh.. So I just found 16 IS the final volume good god... So that volume would have both my favorite chapter of this series and the worst chapter(s) of ANY PIECE OF MEDIA I'VE EVER ENCOUNTERED(this is a personal take) in the same book oh god no....I thought it'd be separated into two volumes, there is no hecking way I ever want to set my eyes on the later chapters of this series, it feels so terrible!!! I was thinking I have to look up some reference to draw that fan comic series I'm drawing because there is a character design I need reference of (yes.. Sarina in 163) but I have to brace myself for even that. The later chapters hurt. It's made me suffer but in a very hollow and meaningless way for me, things felt very unnecessarily cruel. I hated it.

I was; thinking of buying the one w 154 in it and making it my last(I have all the physical copies so far) but goodness.. Hahaha

I bet the author knew splitting the later chapters as separate volumes would be bad on the sales. I get that, but this is the worst!!! I learned the existence of 166.5 too and hahah, I only happen to read the outline but it's so bad...omg akane's into occult??? What.?? I'm glad Kana went to hollywood but seriously??? Is this a joke? and Well I'm glad Ai's not there, glad she's not ruined, I'm actually pretty sure my.. What I've been making out of this series could be better in some aspects, oh I'm ACTUALLY relieved they don't discuss my favs in the added content too! What a relief!!

This comic is, I'm so sorry to say this, but it's so dumb!!! And rude!! Goodness!! Ugh!! Oh I'm.. I..; I'll def give at least a few characters from this series some sort of better closure in my fanwork, I sound so entitled rn I'm sure but, it's TERRIBLE... The original piece is badly written!! Wow, this series had the most ugliest and unfulfilling ending I've ever seen and I'm really sad about that. I devoted a lot of my passion and time and love thinking about it. I wonder what the author has on their mind but l'm sure they know what reception their work would have, it's not their first work either.

I felt really distressed reading the final few chapters of this piece but maybe it wasn't even worth feeling that grief over, I felt really distressed. It actually hurt;;;because it handled a lot of these emotional pain and certain subjects really bad. Things felt so helpless and awkward, I've never been this disappointed about something I read and that is a lot because I had a lot of let-downs. But maybe it wasn't even worth clutching my head over trying to make sense and devote my efforts into deciphering and analyzing things after all. But oh I'm so glad they don't discuss anything about Hikaru and Ai even in the added content in the volume(seems like it?) They don't- I'm sure the writer holds a lot of love towards Ai, I think she's the best written character in this piece(look what happened to Aqua; I can't even say he's written so well anymore and I liked him a lot before the final arc!!)-give them ANY justice

I can chill and do whatever I want w them now omg, idk about Ai but I think I can write Hikaru better, how are they even going to make the anime's third season with this mess I can't???;

I actually wanted a physical print of 154 but I don't want to have those later chapters on my shelf, it feels terrible to read them. It's just unnecessarily painful and it got engraved to my brain in the worst ways, I just don't know why the author would do that, I wanted to love their piece so I kept hanging by and it was so ugly.

This is a very personal take and I know it sounds emotional and all and you may not agree with me!! but I feel this way upon having learned these things. Incredible.

I'm so conflicted. I did want 154 but am I going to risk getting the book for the sake of it. The cons are way too strong. Hikaru I'm so sorry for what they formed of you as a character, the writer ditched you. I don't blame the artist, I blame the writer. The art IS good. It's ridiculous, but maybe it's safer that way. I hope they don't have anything to do with that character ever again, and Ai as well. I'm thankful they weren't ruined any further. Not in a sarcastic way, I'm sincerely relieved. What a piece this is.

[shellkissed]

please could i request a sky lakota-lynch fic! please just any type of fluff, maybe going on a date then ending up in bed cuddling? tysm🩷

Authors Note: Absolutely! I love sky so so muchh.

Date Night: Sky Lakota-Lynch x fem!reader

"y/n/n" - your nick name

It was Saturday, and Sky was home. Which was rare for a broadway actor but he had requested the day off work today to just rest. So, I decided to surprise him. With a date. We haven't gone on one in a while and with the musical finally getting the recognition it deserves, I thought it'd be nice to celebrate and also relax a little bit. Sky was currently sitting on the couch of our apartment. For the first time in a while, everything felt peaceful. Despite living in the bustling city of New York, it felt oddly calm. It's still warm outside, so I thought we could go take a walk in the park, maybe get coffee and whatever else we find. It's not the best date I came up with, but it works. I walked over to where Sky was sitting, and got ready to ask him. I was nervous, I don't know why.

"Hey Sky?"

"Hiiii y/n/n, what's up?"

"Well, I know you've been super busy with the show and everything and this is like your only day off for a while... I was wondering if you wanted to..go on a date? You don't have to say yes of course cause I know your so tired and everything and you-you work so hard so I can't blame you and I know being on broadway is really draining-"

I began to ramble, something that I did when I was nervous. I don't know why, but I kind of felt bad for asking Sky if he wanted to go out on his only day off. I continued rambling until Sky cut me off.

"y/n/n stop, take a breath." Sky said, standing up from the couch and walking over to me. I nodded my head, taking a deep breath just like he said.

"Yes, I'll go on a date with you." He replied with a soft smile, which caused a soft blush to rush to my cheeks.

"Okay, okay!" I replied, now excited and relieved that he said yes. We quickly got ready and made our way out the door, hand in hand like always.

After about 20 minutes of walking, we made it to our favorite coffee shop. Sky ordered for me like always as I stood behind like always. We sat down at a table and started talking.

"It's been forever since we went out." Sky said, a soft smile on his face as he reached his hand across the table and placed it on mine.

"I know, I miss doin' stuff like this with you. I miss you." I said, giving him the same smile in return as I squeezed his hand.

"I know, I miss you to. I'm sorry, I wish I could do more." Sky said, now feeling bad for not being able to take me out as much as he wanted to.

"Hey hey, stop. None of that. Its not your fault Sky, I know your a busy person. Your job is important, but it's also draining. So I wouldn't mind if you wanted to just rest." I replied, immediately stoping him from beating himself up over it. Sky gave me sad smile, and I leaned over to give him a kiss on his forehead.

"It's okay, you have nothing to be sorry for. Besides, I love watching you sing."

Soon enough, our orders were done and we left for the park. Once we got to the park, we sat on the bench and talked for what seemed like hours. We laughed, we smiled. We made each other feel loved. Once the sun began to set, we made our way home. Once we were home, I kicked off my shoes and took off my shoes, before laying down in our shared bed, feeling tired already. Maybe a nap would do. Sky followed suit and soon plopped on the bed next to me. He pressed himself against me and wrapped his arms around me, spooning me like he did almost every night. I felt his lips press soft, chaste kisses on my neck. I sighed in peace as I let his love and the warmth of his body take over me.

"I love you," Sky whispered, still kissing my neck.

"I love you more Sky." I replied, a soft smile creeping it's way onto my face.

"Not possible." He whispered back, causing a soft laugh to escape from my lips before we calmed down and soon enough fell asleep.

Authors Note: Yayyyy! My first fic ever!! Sorry if this isn't very good, I'm still getting used to writing but hopefully as I start to write more I'll get the hang of things. I hope you enjoy, sorry that it's short!

[tobyfoxmademeascaly]

Dawntrail Part 25 (Finale)

something something if you die in the game you die in real life

welp. Nothing left to it, right?

oh, it really is Disneyland.

man. Between this, Amaurot, and the Dead Ends, the devs REALLY know how to make these final dungeons as impactful as possible. The look on my face when I lapped through the town the second time and it was a war zone.

for the whole world to be annihilated in lightning, losing everything outside the barrier... no wonder the alexandrians didn't handle the grief very well.

too bad they've made it everyone's problem on a multiversal level.

Okay that is WAY better of a design than the Shapely Woman But Freaky that I was kinda expecting

... also is it just me or does the final trial boss' voice sound like the last boss of eden.

ohhh azem stone pretty

"oh you think youre the only one with the interdimensional powers? lol. Get azem'd"

hey what's with that weirdly azem-like solar system on top of The Cup

ah well. can focus on that later. time for the finale.

all this for a people we've just got done getting rid of. It'd be funny if it weren't so sad.

Oh? What's this?

WUK LAMAT WITH THE STEEL CHAIR!

GO KITTY GO!

GORGEOUS phase two backdrop.

... Feeling that Legatus Down comic rn. I'll leave you two to your heartfelt moment i'm just relieved that this woman will cause me indigestion no longer.

without context this looks like the aftermath of girls' (plus graha) night in Las Vegas

and that's the ending!

oh? sequel hook?

wait what about the soul cell resurrections. that seems like something big that would change without a steady supply of life force. do animals work for resurrections?

NOO HIS TACO. TAKEN FROM HIM IN HIS MOMENT OF VICTORY.

(Estinien Voice) for the love of GOD, boy. PLEASE help me.

of all things. the decision to put Gulool Ja Ja's voice credits over the carving of his successors is getting to me. He still lives on through them indeed.

ohhhh beautiful city. I love you tuliyollal.

awww childhood photos. Zoraal ja is getting smote by his dad but that's just how Gulool Ja Ja bonds

and one last BABY LIZARD ADOPTION

hey what the fuck does that mean

And that’s the end! There’s a bit afterwards with the Arcadion opening but Image Limit.

I’ll be posting a Postscript with my thoughts, eventually, but for now? I’ll just leave it at this: It might be a bit rough around the edges, but I think the next arc of the msq is in good hands!

[sunsetwaltz]

[Rough Thoughts on Finale - General Spoilers]

FIN at around 110h. (Minus an hour or two spent in photo mode or leaving the game idle lol)

And I'm STILL missing 2 achievements 😩 At least only one of them requires more exploration.

Warning: Mainly negative impressions below.

More than anything, I think I'm relieved the game's finally over for me. Unfortunately I stumbled on a number spoilers on the way (my fault tbh), so things didn't hit as hard as they could've. It's fine; I just wish the music had been more intense and emotionally stirring. The scenes could've really used that extra oomph - the voice acting and visuals alone weren't enough imo. It's a bit sad when the "best" part of the music was the recognisable DAI tracks.

Although the final fight(s) and ending were more definitive than the Inquisition's (base game) finale, I felt kind of...idk ambivalent as I watched the last scenes roll? Like "That's it? Hmm. I see." I couldn't muster the joy or celebratory mood or even bittersweet feelings I'd expected to come with closing a nearly decade-long chapter.

Honestly it felt a little surreal. My whole playthrough had been laced with an undercurrent of (unsurprising) disappointment and "it could've / should've been like this" thoughts, so maybe I should thank my stars the ending didn't bring any more disappointment.

Part of me can't help but remember the emotional reactions I had after finishing DA2, DAI / Trespasser, ME3 or even other games like FFXIV (incl DT). Now those games had elicited strong emotions. They had higher highs and lower emotional lows; any disappointment I had with those games was felt more keenly because the journey had been full of surprises and many joys. Whereas with DA:V, my journey has mainly been like a steady line? There were things I liked in DA:V and everything else was lacklustre tbh. It was missing the emotional rollercoaster and adventure I'd craved from Thedas :/

Don't get me wrong I did enjoy playing DA:V - I wouldn't have continued otherwise. But would I recommend this game at full price? No. I don't regret playing it but I can't in good conscience suggest someone else do so when at its core DA:V is missing the essential "DA" ingredients - compelling nuanced writing, world building and party characters.

DA:V may borrow names from the DA world of Thedas but it doesn't feel like Thedas - these names feel little more than set dressing or props. Like many have expounded before me, by "playing it safe" with the writing the devs stripped away the immersive things players loved about DA. Too many times did DA:V's script feel too superficial, too casually modern and too insincere(?) in regards to the previous games' established worldbuilding. Quantity over quality, new player experience and cinematics over roleplaying seemed like BW / EA's main priorities. Y'know instead of the DA fans who have been waiting ages for this game after being left on a major cliffhanger. Everything elf-related (incl. the veil jumper Rook experience) felt like a "token effort" at best; I can't imagine how much worse it'd be to play as a qunari or LoF.

I could go into the specifics of what I liked vs. disliked and properly discuss the major story beats (or even Act 3 alone), but I'll stop now. Time to head to bed and maybe later I can think about watching the game's other possible endings(?), romances, etc. It'll be interesting to see the other choices - and if Neve still feels like the game's deuteragonist (or the devs' pet favourite) when she's not y'know "chosen".

TL;DR I'm annoyed some of the appearances / transmog are bugged (i.e. locked despite having completed the requisite quest, etc). I hope they actually fix it and add a golden nug feature too 😔

[fenimores-book-nook]

Hello again, Book Nook!

January 13th, 2025 ~ Monday

Hello and good whatever-time-it-is-that-you're-reading-this! For me, it'd be good early-evening. I'm at my cozy little desk in my cozy but not super warm room, writing to you, with the sunset outside my window. :) I live in an old farmhouse so it's a bit drafty; I've got my little heater warming up my feet as I type, though!

Wow, it's been a bit since I've written to the Book Nook! (Or as the Book Nook? However you want to look at it.) So, it's a welcome back for me as well as you! Unless you're new here and this is the first post of mine that you're reading; in that case: welcome! I'm glad you're all here! This post is definitely going to be an updates post. Because 1: I haven't written on here in over a month. And 2: I can't really think of much else I feel like writing currently. So here we are, hope you enjoy!

Let's see...Merry Christmas and happy New Year! It's crazy that it's already 2025. That doesn't feel like a real year. I heard just the other day-I think my pastor at church said it yesterday, actually-that it sounds like this weird futuristic year. Like a sci-fi movie would be set in the year 2025. It kinda does sound like that, huh? 2025 has been an interesting year so far. We're only two weeks in, though, so nothing too exciting has happened. Well...I quit my job of three years and I'm taking a month-long break to reset and take a breather. So, those things are pretty big life changes. I don't think I've really given myself the benefit of the doubt and thought of me going through a big life change. The cafe bookstore I used to work at is closing this week, actually, but my last day working there was December 31st. Lemme give you some backstory...

So, for a few months, my work crew and I had an idea that the shop was struggling but we hadn't heard anything from our boss. And by the time we did, we all knew we were closing. It was kind of a weird and crappy situation. (I am so glad I'm not dealing with all the stress of it anymore!) My decision, in a nutshell, went like this: thought we were closing - was going to stay until we did. Was told we aren't closing - was going to leave at the end of the year. Was told we are actually closing in the middle of January - was going to stay until we closed. Thought about it a lot more - decided to leave at the end of December. It was a lot of back and forth. After saying I would just stay until we closed, that choice didn't sit right with me. Because before, when I first heard we might close, I thought of what God's plan for me was. I knew I wouldn't stay there forever and I knew I needed a better paying job, but I just didn't know when it would be that I'd leave. So when this happened, I thought of it as God closing the door on a chapter in my life and opening a brand new one for me to walk through. You know how relieving it was to hear that from Him? I had been praying about how I didn't know what to do and just wondering in general what God's plan was for me, for a very very long time. And then I felt this so strongly. It was sad, yes, for something that had been such a big part of my life for so long to be over, but it doesn't compare to God revealing a step in your path to you. It's a sort of reminder that yes, He is always watching out for you and yes, He will absolutely answer your prayers in the perfect time. <3

I know that's why the choice to stay until we closed didn't feel right. Because it wasn't when God was telling me I needed to leave.

So I've been taking a break from what most people think of "normal life" as. You know, having a job and whatnot. It's quite a bit different in my case since I do still live at home, so I have the resources and ability to actually not work for a bit. And honestly, now that I'm thinking about it more in that way-I'm so grateful that I live where I do and with the people that I do right now. I've had trouble with not feeling like I'm "as adult" as my friends or the people around me/around my age just because I live at home and they don't. Or I chose not to go to college and they did. And absolutely no hate on any of those choices. I think it really just varies person to person. And truly, it's because God has created all our paths to look different from one another. Sure, you can say that some peoples' paths look similar, but there is no one path that looks exactly like another's. And I think that's so beautiful.

All of my gratitude belongs to Yahweh (another name for God :) ), every little bit of it. It's because of Him that I'm able to sit here in my cozy and-now-warm room with the sun lowering so the stars and moon can shine beautifully outside my window, writing this. That I'm able to take this much needed time off working, focusing on Him and learning to allow Him to reset my heart to point to Him and only Him, and to take control. Because my whole life belongs to my God, my beautiful, kind, and loving God. I love Him. I love Him so much! <3

"There is nothing you can do to be closer to God, for God is already closer to you than you are to yourself. You can only grow to become more aware of God's great love for you and be that love for others."

(From a post I saw on Pinterest)

I love that quote SO much. Because, yeah. YEAH. :,))))

Another quote that I had saved to my Jesus board on Pinterest caught my eye before I closed out of it. It says: "The cure to a lonely heart is to be alone with Jesus." It's another one that I really love, but also one that I don't think I really felt the gravity of until now. Lately, I've felt quite a bit lonely in my walk with Christ. I want more community with people who love Jesus like I do and with people who can understand my stage of life. I will say, over the past several weeks, I've found to be more content and grateful for the connections through Christ that I have. I would still really like to attend a group-kind of like a smallish Bible study group situation-but there's one that I'm planning on attending with my sister this week! I've been meaning to and I haven't because of a mix of: it's a bit of a drive, excuses so I wouldn't have to try something new, and also the weather being actually bad. (Like, snow/ice-storm bad. It's better now, though!) Trying new things is really scary sometimes! Like, a lot of the time. Most of the time. BUT. There is a reason for every new opportunity God puts in each of our lives. If we think we've missed out on one, He's just going to put another one that you need in your path. God is all-powerful like that! His plans for us are to prosper us, not to harm us. <3

That quote I was talking about, really speaks to me right now. I'm beginning to understand that it doesn't mean that when you feel lonely, you are alone. But really, to spend time with Jesus and to bring your loneliness TO HIM, is when He shows you all that He put in your life for you to not feel lonely. But also, feeling lonely isn't bad; feeling, is not bad. You just gotta bring it all to Yahweh and learn that you're made up of parts that He formed with His own hands. You're His masterpiece.

I took a scary step and was vulnerable with people close to me because I felt God put it on my heart to let them know that I'm struggling. After all, He puts certain people in your life for certain, yet beautiful reasons. You know what I found when I took that step? Just love and acceptance with how I've been feeling. I knew I was going to receive love from my friends, but it was the step of actively sharing something difficult that's been on my heart that was hard for me to do. And this was recent, y'all. Like, fifteen minutes ago-recent. I felt God telling me something while I was writing. <3

So, all that to say it's been a good start to the new year, I think. Yeah, I've already had a good share of ups and downs, but I've never been closer to God than I am right now. And that's extremely noteworthy. That's all that really matters: Jesus.

I hope you understand just how loved you are by the Creator of the universe; it's literally too much that our human minds can't comprehend it all. God loves us all that much. Isn't that so amazing?! I hope you have also enjoyed this update of mine, I'm realizing why I started doing these in the first place; they're enjoyable! I like writing about what Jesus is doing in my life. :)

I hope you've had an amazing start of 2025 and it just gets better from here. But that you'll also see how God is working every second in your life for you to live your best life with Him!

Love,

Thalia <3

[luckyscorpion]

logging back into this website to vent after experiencing yet another cannon event this year......

the fucking DAY i had yesterday yall .... i drove 3 hours to go visit my long distance boyfriend and exchange christmas gifts. so i get there, we exchange gifts, and he says he wants to have a conversation. then dumps me. so we go back and forth for what felt like forever but it was like, 2 hours of crying and trying to reason with him. i had just given him some dope ass gifts that i probably would've given to my friends, or kept for myself if i knew he was ending things with me that day. christmas is in 4 days lol. i ended up getting back to my car and i say goodbye to him. i wanted to slap him in the face. i probably had a bit of an attitude and i was rushing to get away from him. so i get in my car, and he's standing on his porch, just watching me and crying his eyes out. i was done crying at that point, i was just pissed off. so i sat there for a second before driving away, pulled out my phone and blocked him on everything. then i drove the 3 hours back home. as i drove i called my sister, and 2 of my girlfriends to cry and vent. i also drove in silence like half of the time. then i listened to sad music. it was a horrible experience.

what's also crazy is, he made it seem like he still expected me to sleep with him that night and stay there with him.. he kept trying to hug and kiss me, put his hands on me, sit closer to me. and he mentioned just not wanting a "serious relationship" which gave me the vibe he was insinuating he wanted to be fwb instead. out of frustration during our long conversation i mentioned how i brought a red lingerie set because i wanted to surprise him with something romantic/sexy. basically i said like "oh great now that set is going to waste" and he said "you could still put that on" and tried to be funny. it's just a reminder that he doesn't really give a fuck about wanting a relationship with me and just wants to sleep with me.

i could barely eat or sleep last night but today i feel lighter. that situation was fucking horrible but i feel relieved that it's over now. i feel like i had finally reached the threshold of how much bullshit i can tolerate from one person. like, how the fuck are you going to have me drive 3 hours there and then 3 hours home, on one of my only days off of work, when you know you're going to dump me?? he could've just facetimed me. or like, drove to see me instead? the disrespect. the inconsideration. what a little boy. i've had enough.

of course this morning, the very last of his christmas present came in the mail. it's 2 little custom keychains i had made with pictures of us on it. (they're adorable) i thought it'd be cute for his house key or his car key, bc he just got a new car. idk. so tomorrow i'm going to the post office and sending the keychains to his house. he was petty and made me drive 6 hours in one day just to get broken up with. so i'm going to be a little petty back and show him the adorable thoughtful gift i got for him. he's blocked on everything and it's going to stay that way forever. i think blocking him was necessary. i can't let someone that treats me like that have any access to me. so i don't think i'll ever see him again. especially once i stop going to shows, theres no way we'll ever cross paths. and i can move on with my life finally...

[carmendeisystem]

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i actually did that thing we used to do as a kid on accident... i didn't know we could still do it. i just spent 4 hours working on a present without getting distracted once... nobody liked our presents back then, but I think he'll like it. i think... he'd like it even if it was ugly. i don't want it to be ugly, but it's relieving to know.

we told him about how our father scolded us back then when we asked for ice cream after almost staying at a mental clinic. i really wanted to eat ice cream together. he was off work for once to take care of me. everything was so scary, but i thought it'd be okay if we just had a bit of fun together once. but he called me a liar and told me i manipulated him. my stomach still hurts if i think about it...

but my brother said he'd try all the ice cream flavours i want together. and that he'd like to try mochi together, too. i've never had the ones with fruit inside, so i really want to share strawberry mochi with him. or any mochi at all... i want to eat mochi and ice cream and hold hands and smile together.

i think he was really lonely. i was really lonely, too. can we really be together? it feels just like a dream.

i don't know what to do. waking up now, I feel like I'm not supposed to be here. I was supposed to die a long time ago. back then, we had to constantly try and survive. but i wasn't really made for anything after that. what do I do now? it's like I spent my whole life with the whole world ending and now I wake up and everything's so peaceful. it doesn't make any sense.

but i really want to be with him and make him happy. when i said his name, he smiled at me like he's the sun. his smile was dazzling like starlight. i'd do anything to make him smile like that again. it hurts a lot, but I want to be awake so i can see him again. i can't disappear now. I don't want to disappear ever again, because he'd be sad. i want my brother to be happy forever.

and, i actually have a lot of things i want to do. i... i don't know if it'll last. soon i might feel like i want to do nothing at all again. but i hope... i hope that's okay. i hope i can make him happy even if i can't do anything at all.

brother, what did you dream of in your wildest dreams? what did you wish for when you felt no one was listening in? i want to know what made you so lonely. i want to chase it all away for you. i want to protect you, too. i'm sorry you had to cry all alone until now.

i should sleep... take a nap... i don't want to though. i want to stay up and see him, but he's gonna worry. i'll at least try.

[aikoiya]

Curse Shoulder Spirits AU: What if whenever the Cursed Monsters fall asleep, they sometimes see the memories of their own Spirit, when he/she was still alive… Including when Monster Criminals get away with hurting other Monsters, because they are not human aka not the ‘true enemy’… How would Undyne + Alphys + Sans + Gerson + Doggo + Asgore all feel about seeing that their Race and Kingdom isn’t as ‘perfect’ as they think it is? 💔💔💔

Oooo... Now, I like that. It also isn't done intentionally.

Perhaps as time progresses, they also begin to feel what they felt emotionally at the time & even later, a couple of their thoughts?

Well, Sans & Undyne might initially think they were lying, but they could absolutely find evidence in the real world. The problem comes with whether or not they'd accept it.

Though, I think that Sans would get the brunt of it considering Justin actively went out & searched for it. Like, maybe the others saw a couple here & there, but Justin would've seen those sorts of things near everyday, multiple times a day. He also actively investigated those individuals' guilt.

As such, Alphys, Undyne, Gerson, Doggo, & Asgore wouldn't see it as much or as flagrantly as Sans would. Though, I do think that for most besides Undyne, just those couple would be enough to show them that monsters weren't as spotless as they thought.

Though, I can't help but think that Gerson & Asgore would've already had an inkling of this & it might just end up being a sad confirmation for them.

Alphys, though? I think that she'd feel surprisingly... relieved? Because it'd be proof that she wasn't the only monster who does rotten things. Like, yeah, she'd feel sad, but it might actually make her feel less guilty. Which isn't a good thing. But that's just me.

Another issue is that I don't remember much of Doggo's character, so I'm not really sure how he'd react.

I do think that since Toriel is being haunted by them, just to a lesser degree, then she might get small flashes of their memories.