#i promise i'll stop spamming at some point
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
The grocery store played When She Loved Me and I'm instantly back in Revan/Exile hell
#just she and i together like it was meant to be#furiously ignoring canon to ship unrequited love between two idiot women#UNCONDITIONAL DEVOTION!!!!#BUILDING YOUR SENSE OF IDENTITY AROUND SOMEONE ELSE SO WHEN THEY'RE GONE WHAT'S LEFT-#i've shipped this for at least 12-15 years ish and what do i have to show for it#a heart rent to pieces and a playlist of 12 songs#ooohhhh this relationship dynamic is why i've been low-key obsessed with Suzalulu for 10 years too#when you don't know where they end and you begin#where love ends and hate begins#ahhhhh#i promise i'll stop spamming at some point#when i hit post limit :^)#this is my personal tag#ch: tyril naris#ch: sera kast#AND MUTUAL PINING
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Lost cause
Sukuna x reader
Sukuna and Y/n has been distant for some time. Talks and time spent together become less and less.
genre. fluff to angst (idk), established but toxic relationship, 18+
tags/warnings. boyfriend! sukuna, profanity, smoking, alcohol/intoxication, talks of depression. minors dni.
notes: This is just straight off the dome, unedited. I just had a plot and rain with it. Hope it doesn't make you cry.
You were tired
It was 8:51pm, you hadn't heard from Sukuna in two weeks really. The last messages you got was him saying
Bro stop spamming my messages. We will talk soon I thank you for checking in but I'm not in the right headspace rn, I'll talk to you soon
Thank God you can see notifications on your screen so you won't have to open his messages. You left it unopened. This is how things were between you two right now. You'd barely speak then hang out once a month, talk a bit then he's MIA again. You knew Sukuna had shit hard. Family passed, taking on a lot of responsibilities that aint his own. You knew that somewhere deep down he cared, or maybe you wanted to believe he still cared.
The I love yous over the months were less and less, you went from babe and baby to just a simple bro. You felt iced out of his life. You kept your promise to be there for him but it's like he was failing on his.
You laid in bed contemplating calling him but knew he most likely won't pick up. You contemplate smoking a blunt or just drinking altogether to ease the pain you felt but you thought "what's the point." You wondered if to pray for some sign he still wanted this and much as you did.
Your mind played on a conversation you guys had last month where he told you he still wants this relationship and still wants you. He said, "I stay away when things are hard with me mentally cause I don't wanna bring that shit to you." You laid in bed replaying old voice notes to hear his voice. You closed your laptop and turned off your wifi on your phone just so you won't be tempted to call him.
You remember the moments you'd talk for hours on end. He would always show up when you needed him most but these days it felt like you were showing up for yourself more than he was. Some days you felt tempted to end things other days you felt the love come back.
You remember another conversation you had with him after an argument you had over something, and he said he's worried that you're losing feelings for him. You didn't confirm or deny it.
It's now 11pm
You already texted Sukuna for the night, and there was no answer. Your messages were unread. You saw a text message came in. It was Sukuna it was just a voice note saying
"Hey there, good night. Still not in a good space mentally but as you know when things get tough you gotta keep going"
You listened to it, missing the sound of voice so much, it almost moved you to tears. You felt like confused on whether you should keep trying with him and being patient or just end it. You simply responded
"Thanks for the motivational pep talk and you're happy to see he's a bit better."
After that, it was back to radio silence with Sukuna again. You felt like your world was falling apart. He was the one who chose you. He pursued you, so why was he acting like this. He kept saying he cared, but he's never around. The stuff you know about his personal life is tough and you get why things are a certain way.
You were tired of always feeling like you were putting in more than you were getting, wondering if you were just being played or used. Tired of conversations so you decided to just live your life and whatever happened between you and Sukuna happened.
He was tired
Sukuna was tired of always making you feel like you meant nothing. There was no one else for him but you. His feelings for you overwhelmed him. All he could think about was you. He needed a moment to clear his head and all it made want was you. He won't deny the time away from you helped him. He was scared to come back around. He knew you weren't one to tolerate shit. He wants to be better not only for himself but for you. He hoped this time away helped you as much as it helped him.
He saw your texts, your missed calls. He was avoiding it, fuck, he was avoiding you. Maybe he was avoiding the emotions you made him feel. He still remembers how your lips felt when you first kissed him. How soft your hands were in his. How the shade of baby blue on your nails when you first met warmed his heart.
He was scared to lose you. He felt like you were done with him. He wasn't done with you. He wants to be better. He hates pushing you away. He knows it's his trauma and his pain from his fucked up life.
He hates that it's ruining everything he wants. He wants you, only you. You're the only one he gets emotional with. You're the only one he talks to on a deep level. He knew from the moment he heard you in the background some months ago when he called Toji. Your voice alone, let him know you were his.
He wants to fix things but he feels like you're done. He sees the signs. He knows he should be doing more but right now, his life and his mind is overwhelmed. He still loves you but he isn't sure if you still love him.
Sukuna finds himself outside your apartment, dreading this moment. He decided to try to fix things. He runs his hand through his hair then knocks on your door.
Your door opens and it's Sukuna. You were shocked to see him there. It's 10pm. You sigh and said "Oh you suddenly remember me?"
Sukuna face paled just a little then he sighed. " y/n, can we talk...please."
You study his face expression, you want to hear him out but decided against it. You told him frankly "Sukuna it's late. I think you should just head home." Sukuna felt tears sting the back of his eyes. There was no love or anything he remembered in your eyes. He panicked " y/n please, I just wanna explain what's been going on with me."
You sigh and close the door in his face. Sukuna was shocked he never got that reaction from you ever.
Were you done with him for real Did he not matter to you anymore Did he spend to much time away Did someone get into your head
All these thoughts were racing through his mind. He fished out his pack of cigarette from his pocket and lit one up. He stood at your door for as long as it took him to smoke three cigarettes back-to-back before he realised he should just leave.
He headed down your complex's car park and hoped on his bike and headed home. He walked into the usual. Mom and Step dad on the their phones. His little sister on his laptop. His twin brother studying trying to use education as a way out of this hell hole they all lived in.
He sat alone in his room, thinking about how he fucked up, the one thing that was good for him. He found himself outside sitting on the wall in his family back yard scrolling through old messages between you two. He saw how his I love yous became less, how you'd express how him being hot and cold upset you. He saw everything. He saw you lashing out on him cause of your own issues as well. It made him feel sick.
He approached you first and he couldn't be consistent. He started hating his life. he mumbled to himself " If shit wasn't so fucked him in my life I'd have her. I'd give her everything she wants."
he remembered an issue you both had where a former friend/ fling of yours was trying to get with you. He remembered you showing him the messages and the emotion seething through him. He remembered the fear that he might lose you to someone else. How can a guy say he knows you better than him, knows what you like what you love. That's his role. He begged you for the guys handle to have a word him with him. The guy paid Sukuna no mind.
Sukuna realized he has no pictures of you and him together. NONE. all he can do is look at the pics you sent him randomly and feel sick. Why the hell was he doing this.
He found himself back in your messages sending a long voice note.
You were pissed off at Sukuna having the audacity to show up at your door. It's been almost a month of almost little to no contact. You decided to send him home and get back to your own devices. You were scrolling on Tik Tok when you saw a message from Sukuna. You clicked on it, planning to leave him on read and saw it was a voice note. 7 minutes.
You were curious so you pressed play. The first thing you noticed was the lick of his lighter and the usual inhale. His voice sounded a bit shaky y/n. You...You, there's shit I've done that I didn't mean to do. I wasn't aware I was doing this shit. I've just been treating you based off my past experiences and that's how I usually am with people. I tried to handle you different, well they way you would want me to..... for the most part. I dont have the type fo conversations we have....had with anyone. I dont sit down one on one and talk to people the way I do with you. You heard him flick his lighter again and inhale then exhale. then he continued People around see me different than how you see me. They see me as positive and serious. The way Im with you. I don't be like that with anyone. If you get what I mean. I won't lie y/n you're difficult to deal with, fuck even Im difficult to deal with. I know you're way more sensitive and I can't deal with you, the way I deal with others in my life. Dealing with you sometimes, it's complicated for me, highly so but it's also new and different. Im still trying to learn you in that way. I've never had anyone like you before y/n. I can only do so much from what I know and try to understand your old world and how things are from your perspective. Im being honest it is difficult for me. Sometimes I need to take a step back to try to understand and if I can't, you make me understand. You heard Sukuna sigh then he continued on again.
Me working on myself and bettering myself for you and like my future with you would be an amazing thing. I understand that you gotta work hard and grind to get that shit as well but everything I do is for a reason. I don't do shit to spite anyone or hurt anyone especially not intentionally. I may be rough at times but I got my reasons. Im only human. Im always....Im used to thinking people are attacking me and I always push people away. Idk why I do. I don't know if it's ptsd, I don't know if it's self harm. I don't know if there is something I don't like about myself that causes me to act this way and push people away. I don't know if it's just that I can't accept certain things about people and certain things about myself. I try to understand a lot more every day and that's one of the reasons why I wanted some time to myself.
I wanted time for you for yourself as well to think. I wanted time for me to think. You told me when we met, I met you at an awkward time and from there everything was like a rush. I just wanted to take a breather. I wanted to live in the moment of life. hopefully this mini break which was partially intentional. I wont say it was fully intentional only partially. I felt like I didn't have a choice. I mean in a way I did and I didn't because I know couldve gotten help but at the same time y/n I didn't wanna use the time I had to just drop everything and come online and be around when I wanted to just grind and try to get shit together. I just needed that space for myself to think and comprehend things and I hoped it worked for you as well. I didn't do any of this to like really..... I won't say it's all your fault. I wanted some time to recuperate my mind. you know, there is multiple reasons why. That's why I came overI wanted to have a talk with you. I'll you sometime...if you want that and we could discuss a lot of things. Im only human.. I dont know if anything I said made sense to you y/n....
The voice note ended. You didn't know how to respond to him
He then sent you a gif with the caption this be us fr
You just stared at your screen not knowing what to say. Sukuna's words confused you. You decided to at least sleep on it and think.
#black tumblr#black reader#jjk x black reader#sukuna angst#sukuna x reader#sukuna x black reader#sukuna x female reader#jujutsu kaisen
94 notes
·
View notes
Text
"Is the Berlin Interpretation still relevant?" Part 10 - Results
So, I guess I should finally explain what I'm talking about. I promise I'll stop spamming these tags now.
The Berlin Interpretation of Roguelikes is a genre definition that was made at a roguelike dev conference in 2008. It was a handful of people who were inspired by Rogue to make their own procedural death labyrinths. This was just before Spelunky. It was before The Binding of Isaac, it was before FTL, and it was before Risk of Rain. In other words, this interpretation was made right before the definition of a roguelike radically changed. Before these genre fusions, roguelikes were mostly games like NetHack and Angband, games that were directly inspired by this RPG from 1980. They were roguelikes, because they were "like Rogue."
But let's talk about what this interpretation is actually doing. It is not, in fact, a set of rigid guidelines of what features a game needs to be part of the genre. It is a set of high and low value factors, that a game may not have all of, but the more it has, the more it is, well, Rogue-like. There isn't a game that purely embodies each of these factors, because there's doesn't have to be. Even Rogue isn't fully faithful to this interpretation. It's just that if your game has enough of these factors, then it's clearly working in the same design space, and part of the broader conversation. That's all it was doing.
So is it still relevant? Well, kind of, but not really. Sure, permadeath and procedural generation are still important to people, but for it to be turn-based and grid-based aren't necessary anymore. And I guess for the later polls, either people got tired of me posting these in their tags every day, or they just don't have an opinion one way or the other, because their vote counts didn't even hit the triple digits. It seems like complexity, resource management, and exploration/discovery are still important, while non-modal gameplay and hack-and-slash aren't as much. But I hesitate to give these results the same kind of credence because of how many people from the earlier polls didn't vote on these ones.
It seems like, these days, the roguelike isn't really about its base mechanics. It's a structural genre. You can graft any base mechanics onto it, as long as you start a new run after you die, and each run is made unique by randomness. It seems pretty straightforward.
Okay, what about Mystery Dungeon?
The Mystery Dungeon games these days are mostly known for being Pokemon spinoffs, but the series goes back to the 90s with games like Shiren the Wanderer. These games are directly inspired by the original Rogue, complete with grid-based movement, item discovery, and heavy resource management. It's more "like Rogue" than a lot of modern roguelikes. But because it's structured more like a Japanese RPG, with checkpoints, persistent progression, and a full-blown story, it would probably nowadays be called a "roguelite." Even though it precedes that term by decades!
I'm honestly really surprised that Mystery Dungeon doesn't come up more in discussions about roguelikes. Like, it's a really obvious point of contention, and one that's worth talking about. But only one person in my replies actually mentioned Mystery Dungeon in their thoughts about permadeath. I suspect it's because most of the roguelikes people are invested in these days are indie PC games from the West, while Mystery Dungeon is a Japanese series on console and handheld. But I can't prove it.
Speaking of roguelites though, we have to talk about that term. I don't think that "roguelite" is an inherently elitist term, or that it's useless as a label. it clearly serves some purpose in conversation, even if I wouldn't use it myself. I don't want to prescribe my definitions of terms from on high. I want to understand how people are using these terms in daily practice.
And it seems like it comes down to two definitions. One is the Berliner standpoint. It's less common, but it sees some use. Basically, if you're not making a grid-based dungeon crawler, you're not really making a game "like Rogue," are you? Genre fusions like Risk of Rain and Slay the Spire play completely differently from the roguelikes of old, so it feels weird to just call them roguelikes. This is treating it as a mechanical genre, defining roguelikes by dungeon-crawling in the same way we define a shooter by shooting.
The other definition is a broader one, defined by two key features: procgen and permadeath. This is the most common one in modern conversations about roguelikes, because it takes it as a given that these genre fusions are what roguelikes Are. By this framing, a roguelite is any procgen game that features persistent upgrades. Something like Rogue Legacy, where your progression isn't just you as a player, but your character growing more powerful. Permadeath and procgen serve a very specific purpose in conjunction with each other, and there is a sense where either of these factors being diluted misses the entire point. But plenty of people don't put stock into the like/lite distinction, because they don't see it as mattering. No definition here is wrong, they're just all operating under different beliefs.
(sigh) Look, genre is a lot like gender. In fact, in some languages, they're the same word. It's vague, it's arbitrary, and it doesn't make sense if you squint too hard. But it's important to people, either to describe what they're doing or to understand what others are doing. There's never going to be a strict, clear definition of roguelike that perfectly covers all cases, because that's just not how genre works. Roguelikes are what we mean when we talk about roguelikes. It's very easy to poke fun at a genre label like this, but it's a lot harder to understand what it's doing, and what it means to people. That's the conversation that really matters here.
Is the Berlin Interpretation still relevant? Not as much as it used to be. But your interpretation is what's really important.
#roguelikes#game design#nethack#angband#dwarf fortress#pokemon mystery dungeon#mystery dungeon#shiren the wanderer#Tales of Maj'Eyal#ADOM#minesweeper#slay the spire#dead cells#the binding of isaac#risk of rain#hades#ftl#darkest dungeon#into the breach#spelunky#rogue legacy#vampire survivors#cult of the lamb#one step from eden#dicey dungeons#dungeon of the endless#minecraft#prey#brutal orchestra
85 notes
·
View notes
Text
Soooo this has been in the works for a while. Some fun and self indulgent and silly au that I actually got way too attached to!!! To the point I've actually got a whole outline of a story for it! Going to put it in under the cut :^]
-
For context: I haven't really decided if this is a completely parallel universe where kris and susie and everyone else has any input on the world. Or if its simply just a year or two early to main storyline stuff. Idk, still thinking, I'll figure it out eventually.
Story time now though! Just as they are in their actual canon story, arrfs is from space! An alien trying to integrate into the Lightner world. Despite pups best efforts over the years, she still manages to wind up without a friend. I'm still heavily workingshopping what exactly their Lightner life was like or how exactly they stumbled into the dark world, all I know is pup gets there somehow!
Once arrfs DOES reach the dark world, pup is absolute terrified. Not only is there no one to tell them what's going on or where they are, but there's also no one to face the unknown with her. Unsure what to make of the change of clothes and new surroundings, pup treks on until- just as she does in the actual deltarune canon- queen pops up out of nowhere to capture her!!! Arrfs instinctually turns into a little tiny worm as a way to hide and defend pupself and queen just accepts it, going "Oh shit lol they disappeared woah. Okay bye."
Skipping ahead a bit bc otherwise we'll be here all day (and also bc I mainly have the meat of this story planned out rather than anything prior)! Arrfs stumbles around cyber city lost and confused after a close run-in with some ambyu-lances. That is, until they find themself in an alleyway. And who else do they find there other than spamton g. spamton himself!!! Instantly picking up on the fact that pup is a Lightner, spamton attempts to lure her into buying one of his wares so that pup may learn to trust him. Which quickly goes south when he realizes that arrfs doesn't have a single cent to their name. He frowns, instead offering her a place to relax. A place to stop running from every Darkner that attempts to approach them. This lands arrfs in spamtons shop, of course! While it seems like a friendly offer, in reality it's mainly offered so that spam has more time to think up a deal. One that would really hook arrfs and ultimately benefit spamton himself.
But then it hits him. This Lighter is lost and confused with nowhere to go and no one to turn to. If he were to hire them with promise of a roof over their head and a place to stay (however low quality and surrounded by garbage it may be), they would not only be a much friendlier face to lure his customers in, but would also come to trust him. THAT'S how you hook a customer and make them into a returning one. That's his ticket into getting into the basement. And to his surprise... arrfs jumps on the idea! Pup's very desperate to get a controlled grip on this world, and most of all, really just to find a friend after all these years. Blissfully unaware of the real nature behind the deal, she seals it.
I'm still working on the exact details of how the rest of it plays out, all I know is that the two actually do wind up becoming genuine friends! Spamton initially was in it for himself, sure, but instead he finds himself so comfortable with the first genuine friendship he's had in years. He fufills his goal of enabling arrfs to be completely trusting of him, but he never figured he would be so trusting of them as well. Not to mention that with all of arrfs help, they've pulled together a bit more of a stable income. She's even encouraged him to create his own art that sells for a much higher price than his normal wares. He almost wants to delay getting his hands on want he wants down in the basement out of fear he may lose all the good he's found. Almost.
And that's what I've got so far! I think it's fun!
-
Extra design notes!!!
I know I stylized black and gray as blue on spamton btw but that was just the fit the blue theme on the rest of this. Arrfs' cloak is actually just that color blue!
Arrfs is surrounded by butterfly themes in the dark world! I figured that since their themes are mainly focused on grubs and caterpillars outside of the au just as a normal sona, butterflies would be a cool approach to show some kind of change! That's also the shape of their cloak- butterfly wings!
#spamton#spamton g spamton#deltarune#self insert#technically. bc arrfs is my sona after all#my art#oc tag#arrfs#if any of this seems a little cliche or smthn thats okay bc its still a wip but also its simply just for fun so it doesnt really matter ^_^#ref sheet#lightner arrfs au#utdr
82 notes
·
View notes
Text
BYUNEJOO ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY 𐦍
i can’t believe it’s been one whole year since i’ve been posting here! i won’t get emotional, but i just want you all to know that i am so grateful for you. each and every one of you. writing has been a joy of mine for many years now, and i don’t think i’ve stayed in a fandom writing space as long as i’ve stayed in lunéblr. i know that i don’t post as often as some people, or even as much as i would like, but i’d like to thank you all for sticking with me this past year.
now, on to the main point of the post. the byunejoo one year anniversary event. i have cleared my inbox (don’t worry, i saved all of your asks!) to open them up again for business (and don’t worry, i will write them this time). read below for more information.
rules 𐦍
choose one or two prompts from the list provided below, one or two tropes & aus, also provided below, and one member from the legal line. that is k to jo on my blog.
do not send anything for anyone in maknae line. you will be blocked.
i do write dark content, however i will not write age play, abuse, scat, vomit, race play, master/slave, or excessive physical descriptions (no hair color, eye color, skin color, body type, etc.)
please specify whether you’d like the member to be a dom, sub or a switch.
please be patient and please do not spam my ask box for your request.
please send only one request per ask. i only accept requests through asks. please don’t comment them or send them through dms.
do not kink shame, i will not tolerate that. if certain aus or prompts aren’t your taste, that’s fine, you don’t have to request them or read them. all prompts will have warnings in place to read before the drabble.
prompts 𐦍
please only choose one or two prompts below. inspired by @melobin’s 2k prompt event.
mark me. make me yours.
you can't expect me to do all the work. i want to see what that pretty mouth of yours can do.
please. make me feel good. no one else can like you.
you keep your hands where they are or i'll tie them up.
i'm waiting for your permission to let me have my way with you.
i'm simply enjoying the view. it's not every day i get to fuck someone so pretty.
i can’t pull out when you wrap your legs around me like that.
i don't care if someone sees us. i need you, now.
let me come in you, please. i want to fill you up.
that really does make you hard. i can feel you pulsing inside me.
i'm sorry, what was that? i can’t hear you over all that noise you’re making.
begging is a good look for you.
you taste like heaven.
you're fucking gorgeous like that, spread out like a good boy / girl who just wants to be eaten.
let me stay like this in you for a little bit.
look at that pretty expression. i always knew you could make one.
no need to rush—we have all night.
is that how you usually get out of these situations? by fucking your way out of them?
i love that no one else has seen you like this, that no one else has felt you before, been inside you. they don't get to have you, but i do.
i want you to teach me how to make you feel good.
i’m feeling greedy.
you talk too much. how about we use your mouth for something else?
could you be any wetter/harder?
i’m gonna fuck you so good you forget all about that bastard.
go and lock the door for me. i don’t want anyone to walk in while i’m balls deep/you’re balls deep.
i never knew you liked being spanked.
don’t stop. even if i beg you to.
your boyfriend/girlfriend/partner doesn’t need to know about this.
i want to make this perfect for you.
oh, you’re not wearing any underwear. trying to tell me something?
are you gonna keep playing with it or are you gonna put it in your mouth at some point?
do you trust me?
show me how you do it when you touch yourself.
am i going too fast?
let’s find out what you like together, alright?
i promise i won’t hurt you.
i want to fuck every last thought out of that pretty little head of yours.
i can’t wait to take your innocence.
just the tip, i promise.
friends don't fuck.
need to fuck a baby into you.
want him to join us, baby? ( please specify who the second member is )
i wanted you to be my first…
i missed this pussy/cock.
i know we agreed we wouldn't do this again but please, i need you so bad.
i don’t want you like a best friend.
i wanna fuck you in front of a mirror so you can see how good you take it.
i’ll be a good girl/boy! i'll be good for you!
i wanna fuck you slow with the lights on.
don't be so gentle with me. i don't break that easy.
i cleaned the kitchen today so i’d have room to fuck you on the table/counter.
use the new toy i bought you. let me watch.
i got reasons why i’m gonna love you better than your man right now.
i’m gonna suck on your cock/pussy until you’re trembling.
let me show you who the boss is.
i know it hurts, but be a good girl/boy and take it.
i just broke up with my ex.
i didn't know somebody could cum that fast just from a few fingers.
you call me late at night when i’m not the one you want.
that's right, baby. say my name. let everyone know who this pussy/cock belongs to.
tropes & aus 𐦍
please only choose one or two tropes & aus below. please specify who is which role.
academic/university
arranged marriage
babysitter/nanny
best friends sibling
best friends parent/parents best friend (aged up)
billionaire
bodyguard
brother's best friend
camgirl/camboy
camp counselors
childhood friends
enemies to lovers
exes
fake relationship
friends with benefits
enemy/frenemy with benefits
hunter/prey
hybrids
infidelity
maid/butler
model
monster
neighbour
office/coworker
omegaverse
rivals to lovers
rockstar/idol
roommate
royalty
sex worker
single parent
stepcest
street racer
sugar daddy
tattoo artist
teacher/professor/tutor
vampire/werewolf
vacation/staycation
wedding planner
yandere
example prompt “may i request prompts 29 and 17 with trope 2 for euijoo? virgin!reader and no power play, please”
all credits for prompts go to nightprompts, thelonelyempath, sxcret-garden-archive, delusionisaplace, of course melobin, and a few song lyrics.
#&team smut#andteam smut#&team hard hours#andteam hard hours#&team hard thoughts#andteam hard thoughts#&team k smut#&team fuma smut#&team ej smut#&team nicholas smut#&team yuma smut#&team jo smut#koga yudai smut#murata fuma smut#nicholas wang smut#wang yixiang smut#byun euijoo smut#&team euijoo smut#euijoo smut#nakakita yuma smut#asakura jo smut
33 notes
·
View notes
Text
high school sweethearts ʚ♡ɞ han jisung
han jisung x reader. genre — fluff. about — in which you and han jisung are polar opposites. note — wrote this to motivate my han biased friend to do her fucking assignment. @ariesfiey love u. also this is set in malaysia!!!
han jisung is insufferable.
for one, he doesn't know how to shut his mouth up. he babbles and babbles, to the point where you'd feel like plastering his mouth together. he chirps every morning he walks into class, all toothy-smiled. it makes you sick. how could someone be so handsome happy to go to class?
he greets everyone a good morning — in a sing-song tone specially for you. every morning you'd give him the same response. something along the lines of: "my morning is ruined because of you." he never takes offense — simply sticks his tongue out at you and skips away.
he won't stop bothering you. he bothers you for answers of yesterday's mathematics homework, to back him up for being tardy, to let him copy off you for that one important malay language test. jisung asks you all of these while waving a lollipop in front of your face — "this is all i have right now but i promise i'll treat you to one plate of roti canai and a mug of grape-flavoured extrajoss after school."
sometimes jisung texts you late at night to ask you for the homework. it doesn't matter how long you ghost him. he will spam you until he sees "y/n is typing. . ." at the top of the screen.
he can't seem to quit it with his ridiculous jokes either. he'll repeat a knock-knock joke over and over until you laugh — or at least crack a small smile. he's the cutest most annoying when he receives a reaction out of you too — he'll turn smiley and overly happy for the rest of the day.
he wouldn't quit the staring. the boy would stare at you with googly eyes in class, spacing out while he admires the side of your face. he'd think about how pretty you are, not realizing the teacher calling out his name until a chalk flies and hits him on the forehead. he'd sheepish smile then, muttering an apology and pretending he didn't notice the deathly glare you'd send him.
han jisung is insufferable, but he's your favourite insufferable person in the whole wide world.
the raven's a polar opposite of you. you, the class rep, the honour student — and han jisung, the class clown, the tardy boy. many people would say that the combination of you and him doesn't make sense but your classmates would disagree. you compliment each other, like the way stars would decorate a dark sky.
you're always early to class. the first one to enter, when he's the last. though that's how it works with the two of you, you always find a surprise under your desk the first thing in the morning. jisung makes it a routine to slip a note, a bar of chocolate — anything under your table everyday before he leaves the class.
your seat's at the front while his is at the back, making it hard for him to poke your waist with a pencil all the time but it's okay. he uses it as an opportunity to stare at you or to fly a paper airplane to you. jisung has mastered the art of making paper airplanes — learnt how to make it fly straight to your direction. he has a pink pen in his pencil case too — specifically to write notes on the paper airplanes for you. there are times when he'd simply pass a note around until it reaches you. it's risky — there's always a potential the teacher will catch him but again, it's okay. it's okay as long as he gets to catch a glimpse of a grin on your pretty face.
you're constantly the victim of his antics, and it's embarrassing. it's embarrassing how he'd show off the passport sized picture of you in his wallet. he'll flip open his leather wallet and showcase the picture around the classroom like some type of trophy. everytime he puts his phone on his friends' table, he ensures his friends will see the polaroid of the both of you in his phone case. the action would earn whistles and you'd turn beet red, mumbling for him to stop. how could he when he merely wants to show off his pretty darling?
han jisung is insufferable, but at the end of the day, he's your high school sweetheart.
taglist (send an ask to be added!) — @zoe8stay , @starlostseungmin , @bakugossanity , @hwajin .
#han jisung#han jisung x reader#han x reader#han jisung x y/n#han x y/n#han jisung oneshots#han jisung imagines#han jisung imagine#han jisung fluff#han fluff#han imagines#han oneshots#han imagine#han jisung scenarios#han jisung scenario#han jisung fanfics#han fanfics#han skz x reader#stray kids x reader#skz x reader#skz fluff#stray kids fluff#stray kids oneshots
386 notes
·
View notes
Note
I am so sorry I promise I’ll stop spamming you about Bishop now (maybe.)
Do you think Bishop could ever be in a healthy relationship? What would the dynamic be like with evil Bishop versus Fast Forward Bishop?
And no I don’t mean Stockshop. 😭
Oh no worries at all I'm enjoying your questions!! Please feel free to spam to your heart's desire. Sorry it took so long to get around to this one, I have admittedly not put much thought into Bishop in romantic scenarios, so I had to think on it a bit!
So, could Bishop ever be in a healthy relationship? Short answer NO. NOT AT ALL LOL
Slightly longer answer, there is some potential depending on how you like to interpret Fast Forward!Bishop. I think it's impossible for Present-day Bishop to be in any sort of healthy romance (and I'll go into way more detail than neccessary about that below 👍) but if you take FF's presentation of the character at face value, there's certainly a possibility.
So long answer, Bishop is one of the single most self-centered, unexamined people to walk the damn earth. There are a lot of factors that go into why he would be just, the absolute worst in a relationship, but the biggest issue is he doesn't give a shit about anybody but himself. If we throw everything else out and consider a hypothetical where he enters a relationship for the relationship's sake, he is not capable or willing to see things from a partner's perspective. In any disagreement he will be unwilling to consider he could be wrong, and will go to great lengths to ensure the other person concedes or backs down. He is a paranoid control freak who would not stand for anything less than being agreed with and obeyed, and he is perfectly willing to break someone down to achieve that. And in a scenario where, indeed, his interest is actually in the other person, we know he has a terrible possessive streak. As long as his interest holds, there is no out for the hypothetical partner. He is going to be emotionally and mentally abusive at best.
Moving more to the particulars of what he'd want a relationship for, it's worth pointing out that Bishop is very single-minded and relentless in his ultimate goal. I find it very difficult to consider a scenario where any single person would be considered worthwhile enough to distract him from that. We've seen him willing to sacrifice personal friends in-canon for the sake of his experiments, (if you ascribe to the theory that J. Finn was mutated on purpose to some degree,) so his work is ALWAYS going to come first. But that's the nicer option, because there is always the possibility that he would consider a relationship if it benefitted his greater goal (OR fed his ego tbh.) In which case, he's only in it for what he can get out of the other person, and the second they've outlived their usefulness to him, well-- I guess it depends on how much sensitive information they know, by that point.
But, okay! Let's consider President Bishop. He's certainly less likely to lure in a partner just to use them and then dispose of them, so he has that going for him. With him, there is a lot of room for how you want to interpret his "change of heart." You could take it at as presented in the show, or read more into his actions based on what we know about his past. Personally, I prefer the latter, but I'll examine both for the sake of thoroughness, and also for funsies.
So let's assume Bishop is being genuine in how he acts, first. In this case, I think there's a decent chance he could learn to be a good partner, though I don't think he'd start out that way and I doubt it'd come naturally to him loL. His job requires a lot of time and attention from him, and he is always going to prioritize it; he is, after all, "a bigger picture kind of guy." Kindness does not come naturally to him, so in times of stress he may default to meaner actions. However, he is also pretty effective in learning and adapting, so with good communication he probably won't make the same mistakes too often. In this scenario I think time constraint really is the biggest obstacle, given his job.
Now, assuming his Good Guy act is just a mask for politics? He's still pretty damn toxic. Bishop's tactics have changed, but his personality remains pretty similar. I'm not sure his pleasant demeanor goes that deep, once you get into more than small talk. It's a necessity for his job, but he still appears to be cold and utilitarian underneath it. He still thinks he's right about everything, and based on the insidious ways he phrases his own backstory to always shift blame away from himself, (even throwing Stockman under the bus, STILL, just to look better in comparison,) he's gotten a LOT better at making it feel like he is always in the right. What you've got is a Bishop who can lie, persuade and charm better, who also still doesn't care about much beyond protecting his territory and using the people around him. This presents us with a partner who, unlike 2000s-era Bishop, is far FAR more subtle with his abuse. And again, heaven forbid he actually genuinely has an interest in his hypothetical partner, because now he has galactic-wide surveillance and public sway on top of the immortality, and they're never getting away.
I hope that answers to satisfaction! Honestly while it's not my cup of tea it is really interesting to examine this facet of his character, so thank you for the question!!
#asks#I don't ship Stockshop anyway but if they were to be together it would be HORRIBLE#Bishop's already abusing the dude and he doesn't even like him#not uh. not that you asked. but#the way my friend Trauma characterizes them is excellent tho chef's kiss shoutout to that guy#I know there's been some new writers on the scene regarding this too that I've been meaning to check out! just haven't gotten around to it#Megaman has suddenly grabbed me by the throat#agent bishop#tmnt 2003#tmnt 2k3
16 notes
·
View notes
Text
UGH the URGE to just spam this acc with angst writing is INSANE. Sadly, I haven’t written a full-length read in a while, I’ve had college classes in the mornings and I get busy in the afternoons. So, my point is, HERE’S SOME QUOTES I CAME UP WITH OR WANT TO USE‼️‼️
Please only reuse w/ credit!
Most of these taken from irl because it was funny 😭
LET ME KNOW YOUR OPINIONS AND WHAT YOU WANT TO SEE WHAT QUOTES AND SUCH IN!!!
Quotes
•
"Of course you do, and you’re going to regret those bad decisions in the morning when you’re sober."
“What morning?”
•
“You ignore my requests like they’re food allergies at a foreign restaurant and you wonder why I wanna hang out with girls more.”
•
“I wish I could love you, too.”
•
“It’s because I’m in love with you.”
“Because you wha—oh my god, it all makes sense now.”
•
"Alright, alright, I’ll tell you. But you can't laugh, okay? Promise me you’ll listen without judgment."
“I mean unless you say that you managed to kill a god, I won’t laugh.”
“Gee, thanks for the vote of confidence.”
•
“My love…You— You know there isn’t any recovering from this, the medics won’t arrive in time, I-I’ll die. I deserve to be made fun of for being that stupid, but I don’t regret my choice…saving you was my goal overall in life, my purpose, and I succeeded..I can die happy, but you need to let me go, first.”
•
“And how am I supposed to believe you, huh? You wanna bring that fucking whore in to confirm that you still love me? That you regret fucking her over and over, and over, repeatedly, on our own damn bed??”
“[First Name], I—”
“It’s [Last Name] now, that’s what you’ll be referring to me as. No more pet names, no more first name. Goodbye, find somebody else to manipulate.”
•
“Dude, you literally shot me.”
“I was beat as a child, do you hate me, do you want me dead, I know you do, I understand—”
•
“I have a penis and it isn’t mine. ☺️”
“Uhh, what?”
“You heard me.”
“Where r u rn??”
“I’m w ur mom”
“Bruh”
“The party you told me not to go to.”
“Omw.”
•
“If you could have any superpower, what would it be?”
“😈”
“Uh oh? Please tell me you haven’t written an essay about this already and I happened to send that around the time you finished it.”
“I think I'd have the ability to persuade people. It's nothing special but imagine how much success you could end up having and also how many people you could befriend. I like having friends. ALSO you can stop any wars with just a "Stop pretty pls 🥺👉👈" like it's the best superpower. You could save the world with it basically, screw pollution”
“Dear god, keep going. I’m interested.”
“People who wanna fly are confusing, like, go skydiving or something like that, pull a hiccup from HTTYD. And why obtain invisibility when you can just tell people you aren’t there?”
“Wait, you’ve got a point.”
“Somebody asking why we’re stalking them? Hit them with the ‘NUH UH! I’M NOT EVEN HERE, BABY! I’M A HALLUCINATION!’. That’ll win.”
“Oh my god you’re onto something.”
“Someone trying to end the world? Nope. ‘Pretty pls be a good person 🥺’ them.”
“How long have you been thinking about this?”
“Since you asked.”
“YOU THOUGHT THAT UP THAT QUICKLY???”
•
"What if he thinks I'm being dense?"
"Then he'll stop liking you. Problem solved."
Ideas
•
When they're constantly assuring as they lay dying, "I'm fine, I'll be okay, don't worry about me, l'll live." But their final words, whispered, barely audible,
"I don't want to die."
•
“I’ll be there for you”, “I’m sorry”, “I love you”, over and over again. “don’t hurt yourself”, “We need a break”, “I need you”, All of this, but you never mean it. Never. Not when I need you, your mistakes are a record on loop, your love is as present as my father. You don’t care if I hurt myself, especially because you hurt me. Can this break last forever? You need me to do as you say, you don’t need me there.
•
If HS!Gojo had a crush he’d confess like this:
(Texting)
“Let’s go on a date, do you like sex? Lol. <3”
•
Chr picks up a completely dry and closed jar of salsa.
“Salsaaaa…”
Something drips on their toe.
“Is…Is it wet?”
Frantically checking the jar for water droplets or cracks. Nothing.
“Excuse me???”
Confused.
“WHY???”
Concerned.
•
Father telling small adopted demon child to stay behind while they search for a plushie.
"Perhaps you should stay here, honey. This is no place for a child anyways. I'm sure we don't want you getting kidnapped by some kind of murderer, do we?"
"👹" Foaming at the mouth.
"Dear god, what have I done?"
•
Two characters arguing in a group chat over who’s hotter and it turns into an argument over who would be a better boyfriend to you. This is how you make your grand entrance.
“What did I just stumble upon at this very unfortunate hour. I wish to die.”
5 notes
·
View notes
Text
Welcome to my blog! Here are some boundaries and guidelines.
-I do not want criticism of my works or posts. Nice comments are great and make me happy though so go nuts with those if you feel so inclined.
-I subscribe to ship and let ship. I am also capable of holding multiple conflicting opinions in my brain. If I reblog or post something you do not like, feel free to unfollow and block. If you decide to instead engage rudely with content you don't like, I will do the unfollowing and blocking.
-Totally open to asks*, including questions, comments, prompts, and conversation, but can't promise I'll answer them. If they're rude or mean I might publicly shame you or just delete and block depending on my mood. *If you send requests of any kind asking for money I will report it as spam and block you.
-I do really like my fictional characters, but they are just that: fictional characters. If you find yourself getting very upset about something said about them to the point you are being a dick, maybe take some deep breaths and log off for a bit. It's not that serious.
My fics:
Your Gentleness is Nauseating (Please don't stop). Stolitz, M, 2.7k words, complete
Hurt. Stolitz, E, 7.3k words, complete
Their Kink is Vulnerability and Communication. E, Stolitz, 13.4k words, complete
On Cloud 420. Stolitz, E, 7k words, complete
Down Hard. Stolitzarozzie, E, 9.8k words, complete
Bring Me Down Gently. Stolitzarozzie, E, 10.4k words, complete
Sex Shop AU and Everyone is Poly Cuz I Said So. Poly af, M-E, ongoing series
11 notes
·
View notes
Note
Honestly for me, sadly, it's the fandoms that have ruined other actors for me. Orrr more specifically, an actor (TC I'm sorry!). I was on twitter once a while back and pointed out the hypocrisy that his fans had when they needlessly dragged Tom in an extremely catty way that also made fun of his dyslexia. Two of those stans took issue with me pointing out this problem and continued to harass me, making new accounts to impersonate other people and to talk to me again. It was so disturbing, and these people were incredibly obsessed with TC to the point where it was just worrisome. I seriously concerned that they would try to hack into my account because of how harshly they spammed me with threats. It was just a big bummer of an experience because it was legitimate harassment (I reported it and at least two of their spare accounts were suspended, at least), but it put a huge, huge dampener on any kind of interest I had in seeing his projects or supporting his work.
And having kind of surveyed the twitter situation from afar for the past few years, I think the majority of the utterly rude hate for Tom does come from a bigger percentage of Tim's fans. With Tom, the toxic ones to Tim on twitter I can count on with one hand. But with Tim, the amount of his fans who truly detest Tom on an unreasonable level are really up there and it seems normalized among a pretty good amount of them (strictly speaking this is on twitter, I think the situation on tumblr is much different thankfully!). And the sad thing is that if I didn't have that experience with the harassment, I wouldn't have any strong feelings about TC one way or another, maybe I would have even come to like him. Now I can't look at him without thinking about the online harassment I received that honestly messed with my mental health for a bit. Stans that behave really inappropriately like that NEED to realize that even though they want to 'defend' their fave, what they are actually doing in some cases is turning others OFF to their work! Thankfully I have not been bothered since their accounts were suspended, and I certainly spend MUCH more time on tumblr than twitter these days which is so much more positive for my headspace, but I really urge fans of all actors to BE KIND most of all.
Thank you for the space to rant Destiny, and for your blog! It really shifted my fandom experience to find this corner of the internet, things are so much more balanced and reasonable on tumblr compared to twitter, it feels very healthy and fun to follow things here. I think the word count on tumblr makes a big difference, here it's more about deep thoughts than just quick one liners!
Wowww..... 🤯
First of all Anon, can I just say??? I am SO sorry to read what you went through with re: to Timmy's fans. I'll just say right from the outset that online bullying and threats are NEVER okay. 😤
Idk why some fandoms feel like they have to be so unhinged like this. 🥴 If it's getting to the point where you feel the need to have to bully someone or make threats towards them online, then hun....you need to either STOP stanning whoever you're stanning, or take some LOOONG breaks away from social media, because I promise you, it is NEVER that deep. 🤨
I don't even think Timmy (or any of these actors for that matter) would feel happy that some of their fans are attacking people like that online on their behalf. 😔
Thank you for sharing your story Anon... I am SO glad that you're now doing so much better now that you've left Twitter and stay mostly on Tumblr now. 🥰
In regards to your feelings about Timmy....I'll say that you're definitely not alone. I know some other fellow fans of Tom have felt completely turned OFF from Timmy simply (and largely in part) due to his FANDOM. I know not all Timmy fans are like this (of course not), but based on what I've been hearing from others, it seems that for some reason, there's a large segment of his fandom who IS like this towards Tom or Tom fans. 😔 Honestly? I think a lot of it goes back to the fact that they both auditioned for Spiderman. Maybe some of Timmy's fans feel threatened by the fact that Tom got the role over Timmy?? Idk.... 🤷🏾♀️
Against my BETTER judgement, I took a little gander at Twitter sometime after Ep 8 aired, and I just did a search on Tom's name in tweets, and BOY was THAT a mistake.... 😒🙄🤦🏾♀️ I totally understand what fans mean by Tom gets way more hate on Twitter than most actors in his age range. I even did a search on Timmy's name just for comparison.
Granted, I don't think Timmy is in the same fame/popularity bracket as Tom, but it was just interesting to see the stark contrast. While most tweets were about sightings, thirst tweets, pics, fan encounters, filming news, upcoming projects, and other random postings for Timmy, with Tom ,it seemed like a lot of the tweets were jokes/memes at his expense, film bros hating on him, random jokes regarding Tom and Zendaya, and just overall IMMATURITY honestly.🙄
It was very heartbreaking to see. 😭
I think the hate on Tom is actually very multi-faceted, and that's what makes it somewhat unique. I mean, ALL actors/celebrities get hate at some point or another...that's just an unfortunate part of the business. 🥴😔 But I think with Tom, the hate on him comes from SO many different angles, and I think that's why fans seem to feel it more.
There's the hate coming from:
Twitter Film Bros
People who hate on Tom simply because of jealousy and the fact that he's so popular and successful
Tomdaya Antis who don't like Tom and Zendaya together
Zendaya Stans who DON'T like Z with Tom
People in the GP who just don't like him for whatever reason 🙄
Spider-Man fans who ONLY like Tobey
Spider-Man fans who ONLY like Andrew
Spider-Man fans who ONLY like Tobey OR Andrew
Timmy Chalamet Stans who hate on Tom with a vengeance for some reason 🙄
Members of the gp who think he's too "ugly", "too short", too "WHATEVER....
People who just don't like Marvel films PERIOD lol
Immature fans/meme-generators who just use Tom's name for likes and clicks in order to be "funny" or go "viral" on Twitter 🙄
Have I missed anyone?? 😅🤣
Anyway.... I think THIS is why the hate is so prevelant...It seems to be coming from ALL angles, and I honestly don't know if any other actor (in our generation at least) has ever had to deal with this level of hate before....at least, not on a social media level. 😔 I'm pretty sure this is probably one reason why he got rid of social media.
So yea, it's very sad.... 😭 Why do you think I stay away from Twitter MOST of the time?? It's because, it's VERY negative, and I don't need that energy disturbing my spirit and positive vibes. 😌
I know I sound like a broken record, but I still urge fans to PLEASE stop going on Twitter..... Ignore that nonsense. People are immature on that app, and they run jokes into the GROUND.
We can't control what people say or do unfortunately, but if you DO see something that seems to really just cross the line on that app, definitely report it!
Anyway, sorry for this long dissertation Anon...If you made it this far, I hope you are now in a better place. 🥰
The last thing I will say is, please don't allow immature Timmy fans/or other fandoms to ruin you of enjoying an actor's work. You have to separate the actor from his fans. It might even be a good idea to just watch the work and ignore the fandom(s). 🤷🏾♀️
10 notes
·
View notes
Note
Hey Lisa, How are you doing? I haven't talked to you in so long !! I just finished like 2 weeks worth of exams so I wasn't on Tumblr a lot. :(
I have like 3 draft fics I have to finish, one is literally almost finished and I PROMISE you, I will tag u in it! I have some motivation to finish writing it after being brain dead from all these exams =_= Just letting you know, it's a newt fic. Endings are so hard to write about !! I don't know if it's just me but I can never find the right words to write about for it, like I would say one thing then have another idea for it completely. Any ideas on how to stop that lol?
Also I've been getting like these spam accounts following me and I don't know what to do, they all have like the same lady bikini photo and I'm worried if I click on it I'll get hacked or something 😭 has this been happening to you too? If so what did you do ??
Hope you have a good day or night Lisa <3
marly!! so good to hear from you. i hope your exams went well! i'm sure you knocked them out of the park :))
i can't wait to see the fics! take all the time you need, trust me i get how exams can wreck your motivation. i will be just as excited to read the fics now as in a week or in a month. and unfortunately i have no idea how to end fics either, usually i just use the same three sentences to close off every one of mine. a good 'all is well' or 'you don't know where this is going, but you know him, and that makes it better' is really what i do every time.
yeah the spam accounts are a little insane aren't they? i just keep reporting and blocking, nothing else you can really do about it. hopefully they'll slow down at some point?
hope you have a good day/night too! thanks for checking in <33
1 note
·
View note
Note
“I know you can manage it, you just don’t *have* to.” ((I promise I'll stop spamming you now 😅))
@abrushwithdeath
Remy looked up from studying the joint in his hand, but he didn't move from his seat. Hand pushed back some stray hair from his eyes, sleep tousled locks having fallen into his eyes from leaning onto his knees. "Dis pay back f'not lettin' ya hole up in ya feels, ain' it?" he missed, a wry pull at the corner of his mouth. "Ain' nothin' ya need t'fuss ovah. Jus' couldn' sleep is all. Need t'hit de sauna t'morrow or somethin'." He still leaned back, grabbing playfully at her to guide her into his lap, sighing through his nose as her weight settled against him. "How you figure I was up here anyways? Coulda been on a job f'all you knew." That wasn't really true. He might not divulge the details but he'd at least have told her he was going to be gone at this point. Maybe before him leaving without notice would have been the norm, but now...not so much.
#abrushwithdeath#v; mon coeur connaît le tien#;ask lady luck#;mobile#//here have this an enternity later
1 note
·
View note
Text
It was easy for Elijah to get carried away in talking about the studio, so much so that it had completely slipped his mind that the last time that Aslihan had stepped foot in the building was well over a month ago. There was a pang in his heart upon the realization that one of their last normal conversations — where they were truly themselves: carefree, together and happy — was talking about this very place, setting up a date later that week for her to stop by that obviously never happened. It had changed so much since then, the last photos that he took and spammed her phone with being buried deeply in his camera roll behind fresh new ones now. He wanted to show it off, to take her hand and drag her around the entire building to point out every little detail that just couldn't be properly captured in pictures, but he couldn't bring himself to do so. Things were still rather . . . unknown between them, to say the least, to no fault of her. Entirely because of himself, he still wasn't sure if it would be appropriate if he slapped another band-aid over their relationship and pretended like the elephant in the room wasn't glaring at them. Especially considering their lack of contact after their quick reunion as well, which he wasn't sure if it added more salt in the wound or not.
Clearly not, because she was standing here, but still. He was taken by surprise as she excitedly squealed and wrapped him up in a quick hug that he had to stop himself from melting into. A genuine smile poked through once they made eye contact again. Despite everything, he was glad that they haven't completely crashed and burned — that there were still some parts of them that would be the same, regardless of the pain they shared together. "Thank you, Asli, I . . . I'll let you know how it goes next week, of course. I hope that they can finish up too so that I can get to all the fun bits."
It wasn't a huge promise, but it was one that he could make right now. A small way of saying that he didn't want to disappear entirely anymore, one that had been teetering on the edge of his mind for a few days now. No, longer than that. Ever since he talked with Rachel and tried to absorb everything that she had told him, and ever since he plopped down on Leti's couch and pretty much heard the same. His eyebrows knit together in confusion as her demeanor changed, though, instinctively leaning back just enough for his eyes to trail over her entire frame. The first thing that he noticed was the way her expression twisted and apprehension shot through him immediately, no amount of distance between them able to take away how much he worried about her. She appeared to have recovered smoothly, like she didn't want him to worry too much, which didn't necessarily stop that from happening but left the second thing to notice all the more prominent. Her hand curving over her sundress, revealing a small bump that definitely hadn't been there the last time they saw one another in person. It made his throat close, mixed emotions washing over him momentarily as he thought about how that was his baby. His baby that had been changing her body, seemingly making her sicker and sicker the more that time went on. That she hadn't gone to a doctor for. "Asli . . ." he breathed out, bringing his eyes to hers again, more concerned with the fact that she hadn't gone yet than anything. "You should've gone to see her." There was no ill-intent with his statement, his words simply coming out of a place of concern; his tone was soft and gentle. "What if —" he stopped himself with a light shake of his head, not wanting to go down that road. "Baby, you can't put stuff off like that because of . . . because of me. Because I wasn't . . ." he sighed, trailing off that train of thought as he brought himself back to what was more important. "What've you been feeling? W-When is it?"
In spite of everything, in spite of the heartbreak, in spite of how she had no clear idea over how everything will end, nothing stopped Asli's heart from beating so happily at the sight of him. How his smile warmed her heart. How the way he looked at her eased her nerves for a moment. That maybe, just maybe, things will be okay. Maybe not today, maybe not tomorrow, but someday. Aslihan could not express just how much she trusted Elijah and believed in him. After all these years, she's learned so much about him and what was in his heart. She knew that he has so much love to give and light to bring into the world; While their baby hadn't been planned, she knew that he would be a wonderful father, the absolute best for their child. She just wished that he could see that in himself and believe in himself as well. And, unfortunately, she wasn't sure how long that could take. She wish she knew. She wish she could look into the future and see what will happen next, if she wasn't naïve to hold on to hope. Yet, she couldn't. All she could do is have faith in him, especially when he didn't and couldn't have faith in himself.
Nodding, her smile grew. The brunette looking around again. Admittedly, she's looked through all the pictures he had sent her before this past month happened multiple times and tried to walk by as discreetly as possible so that she could get a good look into the place. She knew how much it all meant to him and god, she was just so proud of him. It was all coming along so beautifully; It was marvelous how much has changed since she showed him the building. "They have, but so have you. This is your dream, after all. All of you have done such an amazing job with this." Her head snapped back to look at him, eyes widening as her smile grew. "Wait, what?" Squealing happily, she no longer could control herself and she pulled him into a hug. The professor laughed warmly as she pulled back slightly to look up at him. "Eli, that's wonderful! Here's hoping that that's the case." She shook her head at his words. "No, please, don't apologize. You know you're always free to ramble with me," she promised. Yet, despite the joyful moment, she suddenly felt a subtle, cramp-like pain. Her face twisting slightly as her brows furrowed and nose crinkled up a little, clearing her throat. Carefully, yet so instinctively at this point, she reached up to rub her bump. At first, it'd been hidden rather well thanks to her sundress. But once her hand was placed on the bump, it became completely noticeable. Sure, it was still rather small, but if she had been wearing a tank top, it would be obvious that she was pregnant. Hiding her pregnancy to all but Nathan hasn't been easy, but she's been able to do it. Now, she didn't want to hide anymore. "I'm... not sure, honestly. I've been feeling sicker than usual the past few days and... a-and, I've decided to call my doctor to set up an appointment. The one I was seeing when I was pregnant with Theo." Cautiously, she scanned his features. Bracing herself as she continued, "I haven't seen her since I found out about the baby. This will be my first appointment and I... I wanted to see if you'd like to come with me."
11 notes
·
View notes
Conversation
Orpheus: *has just been viciously beaten*
The Fates, harmonizing: hey it's a metaphor for your life! haha hope is futile, it'll always be this way because no matter what you do nothing ever changes so
Orpheus: Is it True? Is it Helpful? Is it Inspiring? Is it Necessary? Is it Kind?
51 notes
·
View notes
Photo
#scrEAMING#I just found these last two#didn't know more pictures like the first one existed#so now I'm happy#my favourite two gorgeous boys#I'll stop spamming at some point I promise#Dave Gahan#Alan Wilder#Wildhan#Depeche Mode
215 notes
·
View notes
Note
You're so good at writing Jevil and Spam! Any tips on how to get better?
Oh thank you! That's very kind of you! I just try my best is all !
Funny Opinions under the cut:
If I have any advice it would be to focus less on the character's "catchphrases" and moreso on the way that they speak
If you notice, I don't commonly use "Kromer/Big Shot" for Spamton or "I can do anything!" for Jevil
I feel like with a lot of Toby's characters, if you get too caught up on their most identifiable gimmicks or phrases, it can make you miss out on the specific quirks of their actual Voice, which can make it difficult to try and emulate in your own work
Just try and speak in the character's voice without using those catchphrases. Focus more on getting the feeling of their actual speech first, and then begin reincorporating them into their speech
I also try to make it a point to stick to what is explicitly presented in canon as much as possible. (This is harder with Jevil due to how little screentime he gets (@toby, you better show some love to my clown before the game ends) but still, I try to align as close as I can)
For Spamton specifically, I think it's important to keep in mind that he's like. Kind of a sleezy self absorbed asshole. I think a lot of fanworks tend to focus on the more pitiable side of his character and don't bring enough attention to the fact that he is willing to and does in fact do terrible things for his own personal gain.
You have to be willing to let Spamton be kind of a shitty, selfish guy. He's a victim for sure, but he's not an entirely blameless victim of circumstance. And I think if you ignore that, you'll lose a really critical piece of his character.
Also he's really vulgar. He says a lot of fuckwords. any spamton sentence can be made better by adding more fuckwords
WHAT THE [@%$!] DO YOU MEAN YOU [tootsie roll]!!! I'M TOTALLY [an entirely blameless victim of circumstance]!!!! I DIDN'T DO ANYTHING!!! I [promise]!!! I'M [innocent]!!!! IT WAS ALL THAT [Late Night Television]'S FAULT!!!
I... I... PLEASE STOP [taking the furniture out of my room]....
Jevil is harder. It's mostly just feeling it out personally, I feel like I don't have a super great grasp on it myself, but I stick to the general "mysticism" of his voice as a baseline. Until we get more Jevil Content I'll always feel like my specific interpretation is a little more off the mark than I'd like, but I do my best.
I always try and write his dialogue with the idea that he knows more than he lets on, (even me, the writer) but the logic he uses is entirely unique to him. The language he uses is vague and nonsensical, but that's not intentional on his part. He understands it perfectly, and that's all he needs. If you don't understand it, that's not something he concerns himself with.
UEE HEE HEE! WHAT A FASCINATING THING THAT IS!
MY KNOWLEDGE EXTENDS BEYOND YOUR VIEW, BUT IF YOU DO NOT KNOW IT, I CANNOT SAY IT. I WONDER, THEN, WHO IS TRULY TRAPPED. ME, BY YOUR VOICE, OR YOU, BY YOUR FOLLY.
UEE HEE HEE! I SUPPOSE IT MATTERS NOT !
But yeah idk! Just mess around! Have fun! Put the characters in stupid situations in your head and think about how they would respond! Go nuts! Go Crazy!
108 notes
·
View notes