#i probably need a walk but ��🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️🤷🏻‍♀️

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Ok y’all. I gotta vent and ask for some guidance 🥴 Out the gate, this is a personal post that has exactly 0% to do with anything fandom/fanfic related. This is literally just me talking to y’all to see what y’all think in regards to a situation that’s come up in my personal life lol Feel free to scroll on if that doesn��t interest you 🫡

If y’all remember, I opened up a while ago about my friendship breakup that felt like an actual breakup because of it having a lot of mixed signals, flirting,co dependency etc and then she just ghosted me on my birthday because she had traded me for a new friend. I’ll put the other post here so I don’t clog up this one lol ANYWAY. I didn’t block or unfriend them on fb because I didn’t want to create more of an issue so I just unfollowed them so I didn’t see them being all lovey dovey and hanging out constantly because it hurt. The other day she picked up a shift while I was working, I saw her and she saw me and wanted a hug. So have her one because 🤷🏻‍♀️ Idk. I miss her and I love her you know? I thought it was a little odd but oh well. A small part of me was hoping that she missed me too. But my work mom still has them on fb and can’t stand them because of the whole debacle. She just stayed to get any tea I guess lol Well apparently the girl my ex bestie traded me in for has moved away a fair distance. Same state but like an hour away. And my ex bestie doesn’t drive. And my work mom was like watch her reach out now that her drinking buddy is gone and that’s why she hugged you so long the other day and I was like probably not idk

WELL.

She hasn’t interacted with me on fb in over a year. Not a like, not a comment, nothing. Me either admittedly. Tell me how I shared a post this morning tagged some girls from work and she commented not once but twice 🧍🏻‍♀️

So on the one had I feel happy because I missed her so much and even just a little interaction feels nice and also that she misses me. I think what hurt so much was that it was like she didn’t give af about losing me. Like losing her fucked my life up a good bit and for her she was just business as usual. But also obviously I feel upset that now that my replacement is gone, she’s coming back. Because it makes me feel like shit too. Like she doesn’t actually care that she hurt me, she’s just lonely. But bitch I’ve been lonely too because of you.

It’ll never be like it was of course but is it stupid of me to feel kinda happy about this? Should I just see where things go or should I not let there be any rekindling? Feel free to drag me lol I know I’m sensitive but sometimes I need tough love too because I let people walk all over me when I care about them sometimes. So any advice would be greatly appreciated. I’m an only child as y’all know so y’all are like my sisters so 😐💕 let me have it real lol