#i ordered one other candle that hasn't shipped yet

[leyhunter]

Handmade Zoro candles from Etsy! The left is in an upcycled soda can (I've had the soda before too and it's pretty tasty). The right is a woodwick candle and I think I'm gonna burn that one first. Can't wait for the jar to be empty...

[thegeminisage]

it's early i know but kirk or sisko

EVIL QUESTION! sisko makes me happy every single time hes on screen. i always look forward to seeing him. he's a great dad and he supports his people - i think i've only seen him come close to dropping the ball a few times. he's the antithesis to (almost) everything that drives me nuts about picard so it's very cathartic in that regard. plus our fucking introduction to him (picard killing his wife, "you exist here") will be imprinted on my neurons forever. possibly the best intro of any star trek character yet excepting every single time we've seen spock.

so far though i haven't seen sisko struggle as much as kirk does, excepting of course re: his grief. i'm sure this is because i'm in the middle of his first season rather than say past the end of his run, but i also think the struggle helps make kirk interesting. sisko hasn't had his mirrorverse "not on my ship" moment for me yet, or any equivalent. they haven't unintentionally close encountered him nigh on a dozen times. most of his dilemmas so far have been ethical ones, not ones where his life and other lives are in physical danger. and, for all it was brought up in the first episode that the death of his wife has permanently changed him and he is still struggling to live without her, we don't actually SEE that struggle - jennifer has only brought up a couple of times. i have total faith that all of that is on the way, i just haven't got there yet. because we're watching in release order and ds9 never aired by itself we will always be flipping back and forth to either tng or voyager between it. it'll be a slow process.

also, there is the simple fact of attachment. kirk was the first trek character i ever fell in love with. my entry to this series were the aos movies, and while i liked spock a LOT in those movies and still do, quinto's spock can't really hold a candle to nimoy's - he can't QUITE capture what makes spock so important and unique in the same way. so in my very, very, VERY first encounter with star trek, i imprinted on dead dad guy. kirk, let alone aos kirk, is no longer my fav (tos kirk is superior to aos kirk any day) but put him against most people who are not spock and he will probably win.

that doesn't mean sisko isn't really great though. full ranking coming at the end of s1 but rn odo kira and sisko are def my top 3.

[jeanie-g]

you rock btw :)

for the spotify wrapped thing, could i get #94 (if it hasn't been taken yet; the back up is #58 if it has been)

Jamie and Trevor (must keep those two alive lol

YOU rock! 💖 we the people have the responsibility to keep this ship alive! (also i have a happy tzjd fic on deck i PROMISE)

[#58] Taking What's Not Yours (TV Girl)

And as the smell on my pillow fades / Her cigarettes might stay like a Roman Colosseum / A dry and worthless monument to our love

Jamie had to pack quickly, was the thing, so Trevor couldn't expect him to remember to take everything.

It still didn't make it hurt any less when Trevor entered his bedroom after saying goodbye and spotted Jamie's mug on his end table. It was red, with this lopsided smiley face and a caption that read, sunny side up.

Trevor had his own mugs, but he remembered when Jamie brought it over, claiming it was his favorite. He was spending 90% of his time at Trevor's apartment anyways. Why not make it official?, he'd said.

Trevor's mouth went dry. It still had the teabag in it.

He didn't know what to do with it at first. Jamie was already on the plane, so he couldn't return it. He could've mailed it, but what if it got lost or broken?

Trevor resolved to store it in an old Amazon box he'd set out for recycling. Then, he shoved it under his bed and forcibly pushed it from his mind.

That wasn't the end, though. More of Jamie's things kept popping up over the next few weeks—spare phone chargers or skate guards, bags of branded chips Trevor would never buy. It struck him like a viper every time, making his brain stall and restart, reopening the wound of the trade when it was just starting to scab over.

One rare rainy night, digging through his closet to find his umbrella (he was pretty sure it was still in its original packaging), he happened upon one of Jamie's toques. It was never cold enough to wear it in Anaheim; he could've probably used it in Philly. Without thinking, Trevor brought it to his nose and smelled it. The sweet tang of Jamie's cologne still clung to it, and Trevor sank to his knees and cried.

Whenever Trevor found one of Jamie's belongings, he just put it into the box and moved along. He even took the care to wash it if it was dirty—a crewneck or a dish. He even kept the dented lid to a candle Jamie bought for airing out the room of sex, even though the candle itself was missing.

He was still finding things months in, however small and insignificant, in the nooks and crannies of his apartment—receipts from In 'n Out with his regular order on them, half-drained moisturizer samples from when he got really into skincare, the cut-out tags of shirts because he hated the way they itched his neck.

In all this time, though, Trevor never reached out to let Jamie know. He couldn't bring himself to. On late, lonely nights, he thought it was because they were the only pieces of Jamie he had left, the only proof that what they had was real at all. On other, more bitter ones, Trevor convinced himself that he was just waiting for Jamie to ask for them back.

But if Jamie ever missed his dog-eared copy of Watchmen or worn-in pair of moccasins, he never told Trevor as much—though he didn't tell him much of anything these days. Because of all the things he left behind, haunting his apartment like a hundred little ghosts, Trevor felt like the biggest one of all.

Jamie had said forever at one point. It felt like a million years ago, and Trevor knew he had to let it go, but he couldn't. He was weak when it mattered.

So, Trevor kept the box under his bed and told no one. He dusted around it, but wouldn't look inside. He kept it pristine, just in case Jamie ever came back.

[telli1206]

Just gonna go with my faves here and you can pick whichever one hasn't been asked yet: Jaylos, Rotten OT4, Marlos ❤️❤️

@fuck-you-i-am-spiderman‘s Marlos is AMAZING, but I’ll give it a shot 😉

Who would be the big spoon/little spoon?

Mal resists spooning - she hates looking soft and vulnerable. She secretly does love it, though, which Carlos is very aware of, so he begs her to spoon, for his sake, because he needs the comfort. Especially when he knows she’s actually the one that needs it. Then she fakes reluctance and agrees, letting him cuddle around her, and he strokes her arms soothingly and kisses into her hair. As much as she fights it, she almost always falls asleep in Carlos’ arms as he soothes her.

Who would wake up first? 

Carlos, always. Even though he enjoys sleeping in, Mal could literally sleep the day away if you let her. During the week, it’s not too hard to wake her up for school. A bowl of fruit (mostly strawberries) and kisses on the cheek usually do the trick. But when Carlos has to get her up on weekends for Tourney practice or games he has to pull out the big guns. Strawberry pancakes with whipped cream (and intense, whipped cream-laced kisses), are too tempting for her to resist. Of course, getting her out the door and away from Carlos’ kisses presents an all new problem...

Do they have nicknames for each other? 

In public, Carlos sticks with M, Baby Dragon, and his little Fireball, but behind closed door she’s always Hot Stuff.

Mal tends to call Carlos Pup or Q in public (short for Curly Q), but she also loves to refer to him as her cheerleader at games, and Sweet Cheeks after games, because that cheerleader uniform hugs him in all the right places.

How do they apologize after an argument? 

Carlos gives Mal footrubs and feeds her chocolate-covered strawberries until she forgets what they even fought about. Mal gives Carlos scalp massages and plays gently with his hair until he’s calm and relaxed, then gently tugs it back to give him some deep, biting kisses.

What would they be like as parents? 

Carlos will be the always doting father, helping with studies and making sure that the kids are eating healthy, balanced meals (with a fair share of chocolate, too!). Mal will be their playmate, ever in charge of activities and getting out all their energy. But both share in the  soft, caring moments, like giving baths with shampoo hairstyles, kissing booboos and reading bedtimes stories complete with character voices and sound effects.

Who is more romantic? 

Carlos, and he always does it when he knows Mal needs it the most. If she gets hurt in Tourney or struggles on a test, Carlos makes sure to set aside a night to pick up fancy takeout, set up candles and pillows, and put one of the sappy romantic comedies that Mal never wants to admit she loves. And at least once a month he has Evie design a new fancy dress for Mal so he can dress her up and take her out to eat on a proper date, where he holds her hand, opens doors for her and tells her repeatedly how beautiful she looks. Mal snorts and rolls her eyes at first, but she’s always swooning by the end of the date, snuggling under Carlos’ arm and interlacing their fingers.

What sort of gifts do they get for each other? 

Mal likes to get things that Carlos can wear to show that he’s hers, like jewelry with M’s on them (cufflinks, rings) and small items of clothing in purple, like socks and pocket squares. She even ordered her team Tourney sweatshirt and jacket a little oversized so he can wear them too.

Carlos loves making Mal feel beautiful, so he works with Evie all the time to help design clothing for her. They even incorporate little bits of red, black and white sometimes so she’ll think of him when she wears them. He also loves gifting her with jewelry for special occasions, and recently got her a slim gold ring with imprinted purple and green scales across the band.

Who gets jealous easiest? 

Mal, because Carlos can be utterly oblivious to other people flirting, and she loves to stake her claim on him. When she sees a potential threat, she’ll march right up to him, grab him by the collar and pull him into a rough kiss, trying to making it passionate enough to make the other person feel awkward and walk away.

Who gets more excited for events e.g.. Birthdays, Christmas? 

Carlos, because he gets really into decorating and gifting. He also spends a ridiculous amount of time picking the perfect gifts and decorations, and Mal loves to coo and praise him for his work.

Who is the most adventurous? 

Mal. And as much as Carlos loves it, it’s also his biggest source of grief. His little dragon is always down to try anything, and as much as he enjoys sneaking out of the dorms to catch a late night movie, borrowing a golf cart from the nearby course to go off-roading, or sneaking behind the bleachers after practice for a quick makeout session, he draws the line at activities that are detrimental to his health, like her cravings for gas station hot dogs, or trying to make their own bungee cords to use off the roof of their dorms.

Who is the most protective?

Mal. She’s seen what Carlos has been through and wants to protect him at all costs. As much as he loves that about her, he does try to stop her from causing physical pain to any of his tormentors. 

What would they have been like as childhood sweethearts? 

With Mal trying to establish her street cred, she wouldn’t want people to see her being lovey-dovey and soft, so they would keep their love private. But her and Carlos love to sneak sweet moments when no one is watching, like holding hands when the hall is empty, or touching under the table at lunch. They sneak time alone at the tree house once Mal has sufficiently wreaked havoc, establishing herself as a bad girl, all the while ending her nights cuddled in Carlos’ arms on his couch.

Who uses all the hot water?

Carlos thought he was bad, but Mal is a mindless waster of water. She leaves the water running when she brushes her teeth, doesn’t turn off the shower right away when she gets out, and takes baths with the water up to her chin. 

Who would accidentally set the kitchen on fire whilst cooking? 

Both. Neither are good cooks, so they’re masters of ordering takeout and eating cold pizza for any and all meals.

Who initiates sexy times the most? 

Carlos. It’s not that Mal doesn’t want to, she just gets absorbed in Tourney and sometimes forgets how much of a release it can be for her. But Carlos whispering in her ear, dragging his hand against her waist, and dropping random kisses on her neck always reminds her and prompts her to find an excuse for them to retreat back to the dorms.

Who is more dominant? 

Mal, because she was raised to be, while Carlos was raised as just the opposite. But she’s so weak for Carlos she would never do anything to establish that dominance. So she really only looks like the dominant.

What would they do if the other one was hurt? 

Both would immediately freak out and have to help the other. But while Carlos would want to hold and comfort Mal immediately, first Mal would be on a rampage to find out who hurt Carlos, ready to dish out punishment. Once that was taken care of, she’d be at Carlos’ side to cuddle and kiss his pain away.

Who gives nose/forehead kisses? 

Carlos. He loves the cute little scrunched up face that Mal makes when he does it. And she always gives him a half scowl/smile that is nothing less than adorable. At first he only gave those kisses in private, but she started liking them so much they soon became her reward after every Tourney game.

What their biggest fight was/will be about:

Carlos could never really get angry at Mal, but he does get upset when she refuses to be romantic or loving with him. He doesn’t really need the assurance or affirmation that she cares, but he doesn’t like to always be the only one public with his affection. 

BONUS #1: Song to sum them up? 

Idk, honestly. Maybe “The Rock Show” by Blink 182.

BONUS #2: A head canon?

I’ve said it a few times in here, but Carlos would use his design skills and background to help Evie make clothes for Mal. He would especially be in charge of her more feminine outfits, so she can see how beautiful he already knows she is.

BOTTOM LINE: Do I ship it? 

Absolutely! I love this tough/adorable/sweet/soft duo. 

Note: it doesn’t necessarily have to be a romantic ship!