#i needed to finish what i started because now i'm drowning in the jimin flood

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White Day, Pt. 3 (and 4)

He really dialed it down for our third date of the evening. It was après ski night in his purple ski jacket and wooly white beanie. He said he was trying to create a ski lodge vibe. So cozy of him. The crackle and warm glow of the wood wick candle adds to the ambience.

He pretended his drink was warm mulled wine and mentioned that Yoongi made something called “Devil’s Mulled Wine,” which sounds yummy.

He kept the playlist very low key while aiming for a “winter” vibe. 

He opened the good stuff (the bottle of Talisker) and poured himself a fresh drink and launched into Falling. I adore him. Fun fact: LOTTE Trevi Sparkling Water Lemon Flavor is sold out. I bet he was ticked off when he found out. 

Anyway. I think playing Falling right off sort of set the tone for the next 40 minutes. It was very subdued and chill. He promised not to make the mistake again of falling asleep.

He unzipped his jacket and teased us a little. (!!!) 

As the music kept progressively getting more and more subdued he decided to conduct a meditation session.

No, JK, it’s dark, turn on some lights so we can see you. 

Then the last 10-12 minutes he got REALLY quiet. And yes, I thought I saw a tear rolling down his left cheek. WHAT WAS UP WITH THAT? Why so contemplative? He brushed it off trying to say his nose gets runny when he drinks. Since when? This ain’t our first rodeo, JK. You’ve drank/drunk more than you did this night on previous lives and a runny nose wasn’t an issue then?

He was definitely in his feels for some reason. My heart goes out to him. He said he was fine. I trust him. But I hate that something made him emotional. I am a fixer and I just want him to be happy. 

He sucked down the last few gulps of his drink and with his teary bloodshot eyes he bid us good-bye. 

And then he came on live AGAIN! His excuse was he didn’t say a proper good-bye. Then what was all that waving and “annyeong��� at the end of our Date #3 just now?

And then we sort of get the idea and understand where his frame of mind may have been dwelling. 

Oh, Kookie... the reality of it all. With Hobi about to leave any day now, I’m sure it is really really REAL for him as well as the others. 

We are so blessed to have the privilege of getting to know him and them through these live broadcasts, even if we only see a fraction of it all. I love him so much and I hope he truly believes and trusts that apobangpo is for real. We will be here forever, Jungkook.

He sweetly reminds us to watch for Jimin’s MV teaser going up at midnight. 

And then he really signs off for the evening. Sweet Kookie. I know it’s hard for everyone to keep moving forward and do what has to be done. It is understandable that he seems like he’s at a standstill. We all want to freeze time and just live in the best moments forever. We will all be fine. It won’t be easy but we’ll be fine.

He said he’d be back next time. I hope Bam will be back with him, so he can at least have him for company while he spends time with us again.