#i mean it's not like anything is gunna even come out of this bc i'm like...93% sure she's straight

[dogfags]

for the past couple weeks I have tried multiple times to sort out this kind of. thought cloud I'm stuck in. but I can't properly journal out my feelings bc I can't exactly put words to them. I keep trying to get my feelings out with words and it's impossible. so I resort to trying to organize them in pinterest boards and playlists bc those things are more abstract but still help me think through stuff. but even there I'm sort of at a loss. I guess I am coming up on a sense of self for perhaps the first time in my life? and it is so strange and foreign to me that I'm having a hard time. putting it together. for sure it'll take more time. but holy shit it just feels like I am having all these like. epiphones about myself idk how to spell that word whatever. it feels like I'm getting closer and closer to a sense of self. which I have never ever had in my life before. I have always felt like a weird amalgamation of traumas and I have these identity crises every other month wherein I try to reinvent myself and become someone new. and in so doing I have completely just. erased any kind of sense of identity I could have had bc I'm constantly just changing it so nothing I am ever feels permanent. every trait is just temporary and mutable. but last summer, almost a year ago I was finally diagnosed with bipolar disorder and put on mood stabilizers. and after 3 months I started having these like... come back to earth moments where I'd finally be like wait, this isn't me, this isn't what I want. and I'd change it. and slowly I've been doing that with different parts of myself and my life. and then it all kind of came to a head when my ex cheated on me and we broke up and they were gunna attempt suicide and the gun and the hospital and just all of that SHIT happened and then I very suddenly decided to move out bc I couldn't live like that anymore. and then I started seeing my now bf more and more.. and just like wow. it's crazy how drastically my life has changed in a couple months. I mean in January I was in a shitty relationship I didn't see going anywhere with a loser who treated me like shit. I was living with this person and my old roommate and not doing much of anything for enjoyment except scrolling mindlessly through Instagram reels. I used to go to punk shows all the time and one of my epiphones (literally how do you spell that) was that I didn't actually enjoy going to shows that much and the people there weren't really my crowd and I don't want to drink or smoke or any of that. so I stopped going to shows but I never replaced it with something to do enjoy doing. but now... since I left that house and went no contact with my ex and sort of distanced myself from that whole friend group I have been more capable than ever of like, finding myself and who I am and who I want to be. I moved out completely within a week of deciding to do so for my mental health and even though I'm still working these 65 hour weeks and YES my job sucks and makes me wanna die I am still so much less stressed and I am not in literal agony. I used to be so confused with who I am. I used to struggle so hard to see myself as a human being. I was in a near constant state of dissociation due to the horrible trauma I've been through + my dysphoria + bipolar disorder + shitty relationships. Its like I'm waking up now. I keep having these moments where I pause for a moment in reality and I'm like holy shit I'm HERE like I'm alive and I'm present and i am experiencing this moment in this moment. it's just wild to me. i think this is a real turning point in my life. like fr a brand new chapter. a fresh start to everything. I left so much behind and for a while it left me feeling like an empty husk but now I am just starting to see the new little sprouts of life in myself. I'm not having an identity crisis I'm having an identity rebirth.

[deutoplasmic]

RIGHT TAKERU IS SOOOO,,, like if you do kiss him youre just gunna feel him smile into the kiss,,, pull you closer, maybe push you up against a wall,,, swear that hes addicted to you and that youre not gunna leave this shack without being addicted to him too 😶 (little does he know youre already addicted to him) he would be so INTENSE ESPECIALLY AFTER CENTURIES OF TENSION AND ITS JUST UGHHDHDHDJD
OMG IMAGINE. im totally not stealing this from 我们的少女时代 but raising an abandoned baby dreepy with him,,, and it becomes y/n’s strongest pokemon because theyre a ghost type gym leader OMGPMGJFKFKFK AND APPLETUNS ARE MY FAVORITE i literally picked up pokemon shield over sword just to get it LMAO and thats valid!!! i only know paradox pokemon well because i watch wolfeyvgc and he talks about their competitive viability (i absorb none of it!! but its fascinating bg noise) AND THANK YOUUU 🥺 you draw so well too 🥺🩷

LMAOJDJDJD LOSER RUKI PLS 🥺🥺🥺 he would be overjoyed if you asked him out,,, although his rapidash wont be happy with him for outing its crush on your rapidash

AWWW YES HE WOULD LOVE LITTLE SILLIES,,, and gible always getting copious amounts of honey LMAOOO masaya might even sneak some honey contraband into kyo’s bag for gible later

LMAOO OMG OUR BRAINCELLS!!! and omg yea junki is the type to eat poffins anyway 😭 like loudred is his BEST FRIEND FOREVER SO THEY HAVE TO EAT THE SAME FOODS!!! its great but you always add extra padding to your walls because their busking is great but your shop has breakable glass LMAOOO

UGHHH KYOSUKE IS SOOOO!!! like he just enters your shop and empties an entire bag of berries onto your table and he and gible flash matching toothy smiles,,, he tips his deliverer hat to you each time he leaves too UGH HES SUCH A CHARMER

HEALER KOSHIN IS SO CUTEEEE HE’LL DO HIS LITTLE DANCE WITH CLEFAIRY WHILE IT USES MOONLIGHT AND EVERYONE FEELS BETTER!!!! and omg dragonite trainer ken,,, IT MAKES SO MUCH SENSE and hes probably the one whos actually trying to become pokemon champion challenging the gyms and all,,, the ash ketchum if u will

LMAOKDJDJD POOR TAKUMI BABIE,,, its ok youll fall for this y/n too. simp. (affectionate) and i loVE YOUR WRITING ITS SO *chefs kiss*

😦😦😦😦😦 oh my days . my only reaction to this . they're oh my days oh my days oh my days. i can hear him in my ears.... it's just you and him........ im going to have to put this being officially the furthest they go bc i'm not comfortable with anything more silly than that but AHHHHH the the the the . i . takeru what what what

KILLING MYSELF youre like fengfan how do you raise dragon pokemon i need help and he's like . well . why don't we do it together that way we get both the ghost and dragon expertise and you're like waittttt what.... and THEYRE SO CUTE omg little apple pie dragons so cool ....... so valid tbh i hope you ended up catching/evolving one 🙏 and omg .... i get what you mean ...... i think i watched an hour+ long vid of his once and it was actually pretty interesting......... and THANKS... imagine me clutching my chest and collapsing on the ground

he'd be overjoyed bc he wouldn't have to do it himself too LOL and yeah no his rapidash has to spend a bit of time over at your place whilst they cool down lmfao........ ruki dumps little cool things on your doorstep and speeds off without showing his face bc he fears he'll do smth embarrassing if you're right there in front of him

masaya always says that "this is the LAST one!!!!!" and then kyo shows up with like a gothita and well it just so happens that masaya has an open heart and open home LOL and absolutely!!!!!!!! every time kyo comes back around masaya's like so did gible enjoy this one and kyo's like you need to stop spoiling it LMAO

LITERALLY like if loudred can eat it then HE CAN TOO!!!!!!!! ALSO THINKING IF JUNKI STUMBLES UPON A NOIBAT. they have group singing lessons together. and then at some point it just becomes "part of the family" or smth idk junki doesn't know either 🤣 but YEAH LOOOL they shatter your windows once and you've learnt your mistake

TIPPING HIS HAT DO YOU WANT ME SIX FEET UNDER oh my god the matching snaggleteeth it's over it's SO OVER he usually has "spare" trinkets lying around and gives them to you bc it would be a waste otherwise ......... one morning you discover that one of your poffin makers are broken and you absentmindedly tell kyo this when he comes around for early deliveries and well . by the end of the day . he's managed to source another functional one and refuses any payment you shove on him!!!!!!! omg you probably have this thing where you sneak a few coins on him and he does the same just somewhere in your shop ......

I CAN SEE IT I CAN SEE IT FRIENDSHIP TRULY IS MAGIC ......... he stays at sho's place for an internship once and god they're probably the most wholesome establishment for a good while. YEAH omg he is the ash ketchum of this universe. he prolly picks up a bunch of friends along the way and they help him become the champion................

he definitely will be in the end LOL near death experiences are bonding experiences. he thinks you're so cool and you just laugh and pat him on the back. also thank you omg............ you're so nice 😰🙏

[queenofallimagines]

Hey, I gotta say, ur blog is so damn funny, like I can't even😂😂. I'm a black girl myself and most of them I could relate and I really appreciate what u do for writing black girls for the bnha characters. So I saw ur headcanons for the soca dancing, and I was wondering if u could do aizawa , dabi, and overhaul (if u read the manga, if not then maybe shigaraki). Thanks boo😊❤

🥺🥺🥺 omg thanks sis like honestly I had to do it BC I c a n t relate to “I put my long blonde hair into a high ponytail and put on a green dress so my blue green eyes popped”Like *stares in negro* fanfics need seasoning so as always black women gotta do it ourselves

Song:humble-Kendrick Lamar

Aizawa:

- oooooo this gon be a good one

- You’re a fellow teachers at UA

- This sleepy cat man stays late at school to grade papers

- This night he’s not alone

- He hears music he has never heard before

- Sees your classroom door open

- You guys are already dating so he’s no stranger to getting frisky

- Walks in and shooketh

- He’s never seen you move like that

- Wow you are really flexible

- The way you dance got him feeling some type of way

- Walks over and puts his hands on your hips

- “Hello kitten”

- Once y’all start dancing it’s over

- He’s actually really good like not stiff at all

- But not Dominican about to knock you over lmao

- He def makes sure you feel it

- Then things heat up

- He’s tryna bend you over the desk

- Teasing him isn’t a good idea probably

- “You started this; so I’m going to make sure you take responsibility.”

- Hands all over you

- He’s demonstrating his stroke game

- It’s deadly

- Whew

- Turns you around and starts grinding right on you with you in his lap

- He turns it into a strip tease omg

- He about to show you heaven

Dabi:

- if Aizawa was horny then whew

- This ones a mess

- You’re doing recon at a nightclub that’s being scouted out by the yakuza

- It’s a underground African club

- You def don’t care about the mission

- You gon get some jolof rice and relax

- You dancing your ass off when he spots you

- With all the lights and you smiling shit man

- You’ve never looked more hot

- Can’t help but talk over

- “Gunna teach me how to dance doll face?”

- You pull him behind you and start dancing

- Stiff as hell

- He don’t mean to be

- He can’t handle all that ass

- You start guiding his hips kinda

- He’s getting better

- The alcohol loosens him up a bit

- He’s wobbly as hell

- He’s going slow and hard

- You can feel his dick man

- He’s just shut talking all the while

- “You’d look just as good taking it.”

- “Wonder if this angle could make you scream.”

- Biiiiih

- Oh hell nah

- You gon pull his stupid ass into a room and show him mamma ain’t raise no bitch

Overhaul:

- Okay first off I can’t stand this bitch

- I got nothing good to say about him lmao

- But you were minding your own chilling with the league

- He comes in to talk to shiga but he finds you

- Dancing behind the bar not caring

- “You gunna stare or talk bird brain?”

- He’s annoyed BC he has no sense of humor

- Asks where everyone is

- You shrug “mission I didn’t want to go on.”

- In his mind he’s already writing you off

- “What is that nonsense you’re doing?”

- Skrrrrt okay

- First off bitch “wouldn’t you like to know you walking foreskin.”

- You continue to dance BC you don’t care

- Grabbing a bottle of henny(I AM NOT SORRY FOR THAT LMAOO)

- He comes up behind you and grabs a fist full of your ass

- You are Shocked

- Before you can say ANYTHING he pulls you closer and stars moving

- And the fight begins

- Y’all start getting rough and it’s basically a competition to see who can hold out the longest

- He looses

- Slams you against the bar table

- “I’ve had enough of your games; I’m going to show you something even better.”

- Not gunna lie the dick is Lowkey bomb

Shigaraki:

- lmao I had to do our resident virgin gamer

- You and the rest of the league are getting lit

- Toga doing shots

- Spinner milly rockin

- Twice is hitting the dab

- You and dabi dancing

- BC lets be real he’s the one most fit for this BC y’all flirt

- This walking hanjob walks in and is like?????

- “You threw a party,,,, without me.”

- Togas like we didn’t think it was your thing

- He tries soo hard lmao

- He’s drinking shit he don’t even like

- Then out of the corner of his dry ass eyes he sees you

- Throwing it back for dabi like a real one

- He shatters the glass

- “What’s your problem chapped lips?”

- He just glares and pulls you away while everyone is like meh

- “Teach me how to do that.”

- ???? Dance???

- You scared BC he y’all and lanky you could break him with all that

- He’s not afraid tho

- When you throw it back he don’t move

- Literally like twerking on a brick wall

- “You know you have to move right.”

- Moves the tiniest amount

- It’s kinda annoying

- Grab his hands put it on your waist and make him move

- He gets really into it

- Hard immediately

- Grinds his hard dick all on you

- Tried to fuck You on the couch

- You gotta pull him away

- Y’all continue I’m his room

[survivor-kuwait]

Episode 4 - “I'm tryna figure out this vote like magnifying glass emoji." - Matt S

So naturally I’m panicking because I’m so sure I’m going to warzone, and the last thing I wanna do is be the swap vote out. I’m enjoying the Ma’an Tribe and just being able to talk to people, especially Kait and Owen. So far I only have individual conversations but maybe tribal will actually allow me to make alliances. I hate saying that cause I would never ask to go to tribal unless I really had to.

Challenge update. I think i have decent scores. Will they keep me from the bottom 5? Who knows but im trying my best. Im trying hard in the first game because i think thats the lowest score. Also FUCK multitask. That is very hard. I just want to be safe this round and figure shit out with Nehe, Stephen, and Trace. I have a little rant about Nehe coming up soon. 🤭 Oo I wanted to scream to Renee not to say anything till the votes were read. I knew she was gunna say something when it was a 3-3 tie and she unmuted. It was a big MOOD tho. I just hope she is able to stay safe. I do trust her a lot.

So we recently switched and I still don't know who is on my tribe lol. I am still with Kait which is great! I am with Owen, Stevie and Madison who I spoke to briefly, Matt who I just met, Chloe who I have always wanted to meet, and some new faces such as Timmy, Renee, and Jacob. I always love a tribe with a bit of everything.

Hello diary room how are you? I am making money moves. Connecting to my “tribe” members. Even Trace. The only bitch i don’t care to be friends w is Maynor bc he stinks of Renee’s brainwash. As we all know, Renee hates me and wants me out etc etc. I am doing what I can to protect myself if I end up going to tribal. All i can hope for is that, if renee is at tribal, maynor isn’t as I would have 4 who would have my back from my tribe. That’s 5 votes. If I can get Matt or Madison or someone else on the other tribe to come with, it’s Au Revoir René. I don’t think I’ll be immune as I only had about 3 hours to work on these 5 flashgames but who knows. I trust Adrian. I hate to say that but I do! I quite like Ian and want to trust him but it’ll take time. I believe Devon has my best interest at heart. Okay that’s all for today x

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Just played Axon and I hate this game soooooo much. I play Minecraft all day and spam click all the time but this game is gonna give me carpal tunnel I sware. My arm hurts so much. I guess it’s time to go to multitask

I have been trying to beat my scores in these flash games and i cant. I dont think they are good enough to keep me from the bottom 5. I’m really nervous to be in warzone with people i havent worked with before. Jshdiw i hope i couls find that idol tonight. Ill feel better if I have it in my hands. Nehe rant. So like he said he was down to work with me and have my back. And once again for some reason has happened again. He lied to me about voting for doodle (also willing to do Stevie) because he voted for Renee, my partner! His reasoning was cuz he told me that he was told thats were the majority was so even tho he told me he trust mr, he didnt believe me when insaid that it was going to be doodle when it switched. He still wantsbto work with me so thats good and i have leverage i culd use because he told me he wanted trace gone so i could throw him under the bus if i feel like i cant trust him. Idk if i should be upset about this cuz ppl liebin survivor but in this twist trust is way more important now than in a regular season.

Immunity or tribal it doesn't matter the game presses on. The benefit of immunity is to just build relationships with people without the risk of going home or burning my idol(side note fuck all you bitches when you inevitably turn against me an make me burn my favorite piece of jewelry). Corey has really grown on me, talk game of thrones with me and I'm alliance putty in your hands! I was happy to see Maynor again, I feel there is something there that can be fostered,  Cullan is a bit of an ignima to me still. I'll crack him though one way or another. Trace and I have begun chatting so I'm still up in the air on him and really most my tribe and people in this game. I honestly expected to be on the low end of scores for this challenge but I wasn't? Idk, double elimination means retrograde and please, please don't let it be Chloe vs Willow, I want them both to stick around and be valuable allies. If they can't keep the votes off them then as Walder Frey once said, " I'll find another."

This warzone where 2 people are leaving is just not cute. I was not happy when I saw that. I knew I was going to be here because I did each of the flash games like once or twice and called it a day so I knew I was going to be here and I accepted that. When I saw who else was there I thought "okay, I think I can probably find people to vote with and stay safe this time around" and then BAM it's a double elimination with the vote and it totally changes the strategy of the vote. Could be more difficult to navigate. All I know is that I need to step up my social game because I haven't chatted much with people and I need to start building relationships so if I end up here again I have people that have my back. I am just struggling with the idea of working with Nehe. Longevity I don't think I want to do. Short term, sure. But I don't think I want to deal with that for the whole game. Been there, done that and I am over it. I was talking to Adrian last night and my god that was an infuriating conversation. Adrian had no idea how the warzone was operating because he hadn't been there and I just wanted to say "sis, read an effing post you lazy ass and it will make sense" It's not that hard to understand, it is just different from normal. I just hate when people don't know things because they don't want to read a post. Going back to this double elimination tribal; it is really hard to choose two targets. Being on tribes that don't seem to matter because we get scored individually makes it almost a moot point to target people for poor challenge strength because it is a pretty individual game. I guess that would be incentive to get out strong challenge performers but all of those people won so again, not a good strategy. Also everyone has just encountered different people and no one is being put together with the same people as someone else so there are a bunch of different dynamics between players, more varied than normal because we aren't forced to interact with the same people for an extended period of time. These votes have just been a lot more nerve wracking than votes normally are and making it out alive feels like more of a feat than normal. I'd say I like the extra challenge to step up the strategy because it's different, but I honestly don't. I don't need this extra anxiety about votes, no thank you. I just hope I survive this!

New tribes yay... I miss maynor and it’s overwhelming to actually be forced to talk to more than one person lmao. But other than that it’s good and I’m safe and immune and so far everyone here seems cool... even if I can’t trust anyone because of those 3 votes I got last tribal!!!! Doodle and Stephen and maybe nehe better watch OUT

Now that the game has finally sped up a little bit, I'm excited because I feel like I can actually play the game more. I am also ECSTATIC that I am not at this double tribal thing, because that sounds stressful and I know that avoiding it completely was the best case scenario for my game right now. I really really like Corey. Him and I have hit it off and I can see us working together really well deep into the game. I'm glad that he is safe this round too because he is probably the person I am closest to on this tribe of people I am kind of afraid of. Ian came to me and started talking as well, but something just doesn't sit well with me about him. He blew everyone out of the water in the challenge, so that will have to be something I need to think about down the line when I decide who I want to vote out. Nehemiah talked to me a lot before he went into the war zone, trying to apologize to me about voting Renee. He made it seem like I was withholding information from him which could not be further from the truth. Classic erratic Nehe again making shit up and trying to pin it on me. I want his ass out and I want it out soon. I feel like I finally have some footing in this game. Timmy and I are tight, Corey and I are tight, and I made good relationships with Renee, Madison, and Owen in the last war zone. Hopefully if I do end up going to the war zone again I'll be able to have at least a few people to work with, because right now I don't feel very comfortable on my tribe if this game were normal and we voted each other out.

I am feeling FUCKEN PAN-tastic!! I was working last night so just read the post quickly and it said I was in the Warzone. I felt really sad and nervous but there was an error and I was actually immune. I was so happy that work didnt suck. It was a double too so Im super duper happy that I didnt end up going to tribal. I need to talk more to Ian because Me and him are talking most than others. Im also talking to Trace since he is Timmy’s partner and I want to work with him. Ive been talking to Corey for a bit. I need to make stronger connections while im safe so I can rely on them to want to work with me in the future warzones.

I am so happy to be safe this round! I'm kind of just glossing over the tribe swap because it's barely like we're on tribes since we're competing against them. Just hoping it's 2 from the other tribe gone so that way we still have 5 people to be safe. But also it'll probably be 1 and 1. Either way someone is coming back because retrograde is activated every round 2 people leave so that's going to be interesting. Them and Nehe can start a club...unless it's Nehe again lol. Honestly let it be Nehe again because it means he won't win in the end. Like who would vote for the person who was voted out twice, once has happened, but twice, idk if people would respect that. It would be he hasn't been playing a good game since it was easy to take him out. I'm just excited that I don't have to attend tribal and I can talk to people without the stress of making plans. Matt and I have been talking and he's pretty cool. He is definitely someone I can see myself working with since he's easy to talk to so far.

Well this twist is proving chaotic as it was intended. It appears we have a split but who the hell onows with this round. I do feel a little vulnerable with short repossess from some. I mean anyone could go home tonight.

i will write something longer when I'm home but I'm shook???? that I won the flash game thing. Matt is my fave and I hope my boring Scorpio person goes home thx

Do I trust that these people are gonna give me the correct information when its only 15 minutes before tribal? Not for a fucking MOMENT! But I haven't heard my name and people are like swimming between 2 names and I love both of them equally. Like this is sooooo hard. No me gusta.

I got meself an alliance AND I somehow still haven’t gone to tribal... why am I more stressed now than I was before??? I think the fact that the game is becoming super real is what’s making me really nervous, and as much as having a solid 3 with Owen and Kait makes me extremely happy, considering I trust them more than I’ve trusted an alliance in most games, there’s still so much game left to be played, and I remember in Solomon getting swapped away from my allies and it screwing me over.... I’m shaky!

Oop. Tribal is going to be soon. I wonder who the two that will be going. I just hope it isnt someone Ive been talking to. 2 people will be leaving so i think its going to trigger retrograde and one will be back.This warzone is really messing up strategy in this game.

I missed two round confessionals which suck but to quickly basically sum what y’all missed. I formed the voters pact that plan was throw challenges to get to the warzone but that in it self failed cause they didn’t all throw and then doodle was voted off the next round. I also kinda got lied to about the vote so like boo. This round  in the warzone I kinda like this batch and it’s now how do we navigate the double vote out thing. I have a personal vendetta with Adrian cause I don’t trust him and Chloe is basically a non factor . So the plan since last night was always to go for those two it was just how do we go about it. I decided to make a group of 5 because it made it easier for them to willingly “choose” who they wanted to vote. And thankfully we lead them into voting chloe and Adrian. Now it’s just navigating who votes who and if the plan stays the plan. Fucking Devon is chaotic switching shit. He tried to switch the vote to willow to succumb to Thomas but who gives a fuck what Thomas is voting. I just care about the finale vote tally. I’m afraid definitely if it’s gonna be me for the fact that I don’t want to go back to the retrogade but it can easily be me. Like personally I feel like I’m always able to get people to groove in the direction I want but then I let them mingle and shit happens. I always make sure to have a hand in with everyone sonthey don’t want to turn on me but really the people I truly trust is stevie, Devon and maybe Stephen. Stephen is weirding me out shady vibes but we’ll see.

Immunity never tasted so good! I need Adrian to be safe. I need Madison and Jacob to be safe bc I think they’re at tribal? I would like Renee and Maynor gone but they’re both safe boo hoo. I am socializing w everyone. I love Trace, Adrian, Ian. I would like Cullan gone sooner rather than later as he is hard to socialize with but I like his partner, Willow. That being said, I think everyone likes Willow. Her leaving wouldn’t be the worst thing tonight but I do stan.

I have no sins I’m literally just sitting !!!! Kisses!!!!! Made an alliance with Matt and Kait. But you know how this is gonna turn out....? Kait and Matt are gonna get closer and at some point she will pick HIM over ME!!!! Heksjd this CYS flashback. But for now I like them. Glad that Timmy and madison are on my tribe even tho Timmy considered voting stevie.... speaking of Stevie zzzz boy rlly almost didn’t save himself Lol. But yeah I’m happy the game has shaken up and I’m excited to see what happens at this tribal. I need to really step my social game up tho so I have numbers when I’m down in that bottom ten

I’m tryna figure out this vote like magnifying glass emoji

It sucked thay Willow went. Hopefully she is able to come back because I feel like i had a good connection with her. Madison and Stephen survived so that was good. Right now Im hoping that i can be part of the live challenge. So I have hit M4 N4 O4 P4 and Q4. Im hoping R4 is the last one and i get something tonight at 11:30pm. I keep forgetting to do a reminder for idol guess so it keeps going back further n further.

so happy we voted out two girls, no offense but this warzone twist makes it impossible to backstab nehe and co. effectively. Its fine, hopefully itll be over soon and I can vote his ass out. No offense to the guy but he just very controlling.

Willow, nothing against you, but I really wanted you gone. I hated that you made it to FTC of another ORG without anything besides an idol play and I can say I am not fulfilled. Sadly, Chloe went to and it sucks because I always wanted to play with her but sadly it was short lived, for now. Hopefully Chloe wins her way back into the game!

Of fucking course it's Chloe and Willow in the retrograde. Bastards are voting off the people I know for sure would mess up and leak it to me if I needed to play my idol. I told Corey about how Cullan is short with me and he confirmed he is short to him as well, it must just be how Cullan is. That's fine and all but makes it hard to get a read on him. Corey and I continue to get along from my perspective, more good news, I did not fuck up while I was completely wasted last night and tell someone about my idol. I have a bad track record of getting drunk and laying all my cards on the table to people. I'm not only playing against everyone in the game but also drunk Ian, and that guy is a prick.

I did my next hit and it sunk the ship!! It’s my first time actually finding something in these idol searches. It may not have been an idol but a vote steal is a good item to have when you just need that one more vote. Im not going to tell anyone I have it. Its going to be a secret until it is used to take a big target/threat in this game.

so far in this game im just working on building my connections! i havent gotten a vote yet which is good but i want to try and not go to tribal as much anymore bc eventually i will become a target. i feel as though my best alliance is with madison obvi since we started together and are good friends. other than that im glad adrian stayed because she is someone i could see myself working with

Fuck this I’m tired and my fingers hurt and ugh

Im waiting to found the retrograde duel and hopefully willow is able to come back because I have some part of connection with her. That is all for today. Oop. Bulbasaur in detective Pikachu was the cutest!!

I got voted out bc I had a busy 2 days and I don't think my score for retrograde is very high goodbye

[justareallyboredfangirl]

S OOOooooooOo Racquel and David aren't together anymore...and i am a horrible selfish person