#i love sticking my hand into alabaster's head and mucking around

[bvckbiter]

Can you please elaborate a little bit on the gifted child Alabaster thing? I need it for my poor, burnout soul

imagine you've felt abandoned and misunderstood your whole life, only to find out that it's due to an inborn quality that you have no control over

with this new knowledge in mind, you find a community that hosts more people like you, except you're still not totally 100% accepted because of some stupid rules

you want to prove yourself, even with your oddities and peculiarities. you work hard, develop your specific field of interest and expertise until it's the only thing you do. you breathe it, sleep in it, dream about it, wake up still mumbling the last dregs of thought you had about it from the previous night.

unexpectedly, you become an exception among your newfound family, who are a faction wanting change for the better. you believe in their cause, and if there is a purpose for your talent, this must be it

your mother, your friends, and even other beings you can't imagine subordinating themselves to you are now subject to your every command. because you're good at what you do, and you worked to be good at what you do.

underdogs win in movies, right? messiahs have purpose. everything you've suffered and endured must have had a purpose.

and heroes never die.

except they do, and it turns out your strength hardly matters in the grand scheme of things - in the grand scheme of a prophecy, where some punk whose birthright has been handed to him by his father waltzes in and kills the champion of your cause.

underdogs win in movies, right? you can't be caught throwing your hands up unscathed; otherwise, what good is all your power in your hands? it would mean that you're worthless.

except you didn't count on losing. losing makes you worthless, too, and you've lost everything: your cause, your friends, your siblings...

you still have your power, though.

but what good is all this power?

heroes never die, but you get closer and closer everyday.

what good are you?