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kittyandco · 12 days ago

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reblogging posts that make me cry because i'm in the trenches right now yet again reassessing my sexuality LOLOL my brain really couldn't have waited til AFTER my birthday tomorrow. these types of questions are not welcome right now 😭

thesis in the tags

#screw it i'm probably ficto idgaf anymore i probably always have been. idc idc i'm tired of being wishy washy about this #i can't cling to ideas that never served me and that i never agreed with or cared about. it's time to let go and just be happy #i've never in my life imagined a future with anyone real. it would always turn into me imagining one of my f/os anyway #i've never understood any of it and i've always been SO connected to my f/os (since age 8 LOL) that i don't even need a romantic partner #i have so much trauma surrounding it too which doesn't help. but even outside of that i just never really got with the program #i can't keep going on the 'what if' spiral. girl. you know where you're at. you can't torture yourself like this anymore #i've literally been thinking about this since 2019 #i've done a lot of this over the last 2-3 years. shedding things/ideas that just don't align with Me. that includes this #too weird and too sentimental to squeeze myself into something i can't get behind #i love romance and i believe in love/connection. deeply. but unless a miracle happens i'm probably never gonna want a 'real' relationship #& I'M MORE THAN OK WITH THAT I ALWAYS HAVE BEEN. i just never could decide if it was Enough to go all in. but many years later here we are #i just need my besties and that's all. and i love y'all. you know who you are #anyway. GOOD MORNING #meows

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