#i love my demi-pan girl she has lots of love and lots of rage and lots of uh ... mascots ! yea.

[brawlqueen]

Stolen from: very talented : @sins-of-the-sea / @immy-ooc ! 🐇

USE LETTERS FROM YOUR MUSES FIRST NAME TO DESCRIBE THEIR PERSONALITY.

Mature

Intelligent

Zealous

Unafraid

Kind

Independent.

tagging: @zelotae @nostomannia @godfrey-industries @bonescribes @dnangelic @thebreakfastmuses @musekaiplex @psychcdelica @hopefromadoomedtimeline @saizansha @shatteredwastes @stellarhistoria @nulltune @auburniivenus @sheyearns @sinplly @cosmicdreamt + anyone who wants to !

[bloom-berri]

LEO/NEED HEADCANONS !!

for some context before the headcanons! These are ones I wrote down a while ago when i was finally first reading the stories and I did these after i finished their main story; so if they aren't super accurate to things up-to-date then thats proobbaabbllyy why, so bear with me! (Though i forever stand by disabled saki)

Random Leo/Need headcanons :

saki ofc got really sick and was in hospitalized for a few years, she was left very physically weak due to this so they gave her crutches to help stabilize herself so she can keep balance when walking and standing. She thought the crutches were too dull, boring, and ugly so before she went back to school she decorated them with stickers, ribbons, paint, and whatever else she could add without making them useless. Occasionally she'd redo all the designs just cuz she wasn't feeling it or didn't fit her aesthetic of the day and she'd just change it whenever she felt like it.

shiho maybe has bpd... it was my first thought when reading but I'm not 100% sure yet, she often pushes people away even the ones she cares for most. At times she can be really rude to them and say hurtful and blunt things, but other times she can be really genuine and kind to those closest to her. She has a habit of lashing out at people, often arguing with saki and honestly anyone who pisses her off in the slightest. This one I'm not sure about cuz it could be something else this is just my first thought

honami has social anxiety !!! She cares about what people think of her to an unhealthy amount, she always assumes the worst in social situations and that everyone will hate her if she makes one mistake, even if she seems to talk to people okay it makes her really anxious unless it's people she's really comfortable with

ichika has miku merch and she hides it under her bed whenever people come over... she pretends to be a casual fan, she is not though, she is drowning in her fixation

shiho likes her hair short cuz it's less to take care of, girl has places to be she can't spend to much time worrying about taking care of her hair

aannndd some sexuality/love headcanons: Ichika - aroace (make demiromantic) I feel like she'd be the type of aroace growing up trying to have a crush and thinking liking someone as a friend is the same as a crush and later thought something was wrong with her cuz she has no desire to kiss or really anything romantic with anyone; but hey who needs bitches when you can listen to hatsune miku Saki - questioning but most likely bi/pan with female preference she missed a lot of the important self discovery years since she was stuck in the hospital so she's figuring it out now and wants to try dating to get the full high school experience Honami - unlabeled or bi/pan with no preference if she loves someone then she loves someone! Never really thought about gender or anything In her people pleaser arc I think she was a bit of a hopeless romantic as well to cope with essentially leaving her best friends so she would use Love as a way to fill that hole (and since they're in an all girls school everyone just thought she was a raging lesbian) Shiho - Lesbian, demi-aroace (probably on the nonbinary spectrum too!) takes a lot for her to fall for someone considering how closed off she is and the fact that she doesn't really like people (I just can't see her with a man)

[modernday-orpheus]

TUMBLR IS A HELL SITE FUCKING CONFIRMED, FUCK TUMBLR AND ITS HOMOPHOBIA, FUCK TRANSPHOBIA, FUCK ACE AND DEMIPHOBIA, AND CERTAINLY FUCK PANPHOBIA

People are bitches and I'm MAD ABOUT IT

I requested a moodboard from this account and I said

"Hey! I'd like to request a moodboard for a pan/demi transguy named Charles (maybe with some Ocean Eyes by Billie Eilish vibes if possible?? If not that's fine) and I love your work!!! I'd really appreciate this!!!!!"

Instead of maybe just not filling the request, not filling the pan/demi part and kindly explaining why, or simply saying they weren't comfortable privately, or any kind or mature way they could have handled this, this person responded PUBLICLY with fucking EIGHT WHOLE ASS PARAGRAPHS about how demi isn't apart of the LGBTQ+ community, and about how being pan is transphobic??? "it is transphobic because, when it was made, a lot of people said it was that they could date trans and nb folks. I have seen that take on pan for a long time and it only just started to be denied recently. So, historically, it is a transphobic identity as well as, self explanatory, biphobic because it implies that bi people can't date trans people and trans people aren't their chosen gender." COMPLETELY FALSE HISTORY OF PANSEXUALITY, IT HAS NEVER BEEN ABOUT TRANSPHOBIA, IT WAS ACTUALLY FUCKING BISEXUALITY THAT WAS ROOTED IN TRANSPHOBIA BUT WE'VE FUCKING EVOLVED NOW IDIOT SO BI (AND EVEN IF PAN WAS AND I'M WRONG, LIKE I SAID, WE'VE FUCKING EVOLVED) ISN'T EVEN LIKE THAT ANYMORE CHECK YOUR GODS DAMNED FACTS

I'M FUCKING FURIOUS AND SOBBING RIGHT NOW

They also said that "any "trans" person who identifies as pan isn't really trans, they're probably a Trans-trender or some fake form of nb and should not be welcome in trans spaces or given their "proper" pronouns, because their whole identity is rooted in transphobia. They don't deserve any respect in my opinion. "

Like BITCH! FUCK YOU! I EXPERIENCE DYSPHORIA EVERY GODS DAMNED DAY! AND YOU'RE GOING TO TELL ME I'M NOT TRANS BECAUSE I'M NB-INCLUSIVE? FUCK THAT NOISE

Okay but do they seriously not hear how fucking transphobic it is to say shit like that???

I am a boy. I am a man. My name is Charles Ryland. My pronouns are he and him and his. My dysphoria is real. Nothing else about me changes that. The skirts I still think flatter me? Don't change that. The makeup I never stopped loving to apply, that I never stopped looking gorgeous in? Doesn't change that. Being Demi? Doesn't change that. Being Pan? Doesn't change that. And a transphobe's opinion most CERTAINLY will never change that. Fuck you for saying I don't deserve respect. Fuck you for saying I don't deserve my pronouns. Fuck you for saying I don't deserve my name. Fuck you for saying I don't deserve my identity.

I deserve to live happy and dysphoria-free. Every trans person does. We should all get the basic human respect of being called our preferred pronouns and name.

For me, this goes beyond this one imbicile. This goes further, this hits different, it hurts me deeper than that. I have been told my whole life in not allowed to be trans, it's not real, it's not valid. The most recent time being when I was outed to my mom. My Tumblr is my safe space, it's where I can be me. I don't get to be called Charles every day, I have to here "she" and "her" and "little girl". I have to live another person's life. I have to live C's life every day. (No, I'm not giving you my birth name, fuck you.) A lot of trans people have to live like this. Many have to suffer through their safe space being invaded, whether it be social media or pride (no cops at pride just me and my rage) or anywhere else. I'm just. Sick of it.

Fuck transphobia, fuck panphobia, and fuck ace/demiphobia.

[littleangelicboy]

For BPD thing: ALL THE ODD NUMBERS

1) Self-dx or Professional dx?-Self-dx!!! -I'm too young they won't professionally dx me-I'm crying 3) Do you have an fp? If so, who are they?-Yes I do and it's literally hell!!! -They didn't do anything wrong -My brain is just constantly screaming -But!!!! They probably already know bc I probably told them and forgot -Or I didn't bc I was worried I'd be too much -But um... -Not surprisingly -It's Hazuki -haha haha haha yay5) What do you do to have a sense of identity?-convince myself I'm the best and no one can top me -and then get pissed when someone tops me-and then I split -and then I cry -that's practically the story of how I almost quit orchestra lol 7) Do you have traits of other personality disorders?-Yes!!! Mostly PPD and DPD -I'm so paranoid it's not okay -at all -especially with food -the real reason why I'm skinny -I don't eat bc I think my beans are actually secretly bad things 9) Are you LGBT+? Has your BPD affected this in any way?-Yes!!!! I am!!! I'm pan??? Maybe??? And asexual??? Maybe??? And a demi-boy??? Maybe???-But it definitely has -Bc I get an fp that's a girl and suddenly I'm like 'God girls are amazing!!!!' -But then I think about actually being in a relationship with a girl and it's like 'ehhhh' -Boys are great tho I fuckin love boys -right now -also it's kinda hard to say I'm ace when I'm hypersexual so it's like!!!!! -what are you doing?!?!?! -also am I a boy??? Probably-But am I a girl bc my fp likes girls??? idk -am I both??? Most likely -anyways yes 11) When did you first start having symptoms?-shit idk...-I was always extreme since I could remember -and would always have a crush I would devote my life too -But like... -Shit what age are you allowed to be like... mentally ill???-Anyways probably a long long while ago -But I really noticed it when I learned about it after I got away from @ ykwya so :/ 13) Do you ever split on yourself?-consistently -one moment I'm the best in the world -and the next I'm nothing and could shrivel up and disappear and no one would notice15) Do you get jealous often? What makes you jealous?-Yes I do!!! -I'm always jealous of SOMETHING-and jeez pretty much everything -I'm not even kidding -someone complimented my fp and I was seething with jealous like what a fuckin child -But I also get sad jealous a lot -I got sad jealous a few days ago and like cried for five minutes -then my fp texted me and it was okay 17) What emotion do you hate the most and why?-Jesus it's a tie between anger and jealousy -Bc on one hand before I even knew my fp was my fp I was jealous all the time -and thought I was abusive for it and God it was the worst -But like...-anger is really bad for me and I'm killing my hands bc of it -whenever I get angry bc of the stuff at home -I end up throwing a BPD Rage Tantrum and beat the shit out of my wall-But honestly it only leaves my hands tingling, my fingers kinda numb, and bruises on my legs so :/ 19) What do you do when a relationship ends?-jeez I don't have much experience with that -the only relationship I've really had that ended was with @ ykwya -and I didn't take it well -and a year or two later I'm still not taking it well -so you can only imagine 21) Are you a quiet borderline?-usually usually -I don't really go out of my way to make life hell for people -I more so internalize that shit until I'm about to burst -and then... uh... do stuff bc I'm bursting!!!!-yeah... I don't harm others per se... if I'm mad I'll hurt myself... -no matter how much I hate someone I just can't hurt them bc of my stupid ass empathy for all 23) Do you have mood swings that aren't caused by anything specific?-hm...-I feel like it's always caused by something -even if it's small -or barely related 25) How often do you dissociate? What are your usual symptoms?-that's a great question I would like to know the answer to too!!! -um mostly memory loss I guess -Or time skips -like I honestly didn't realize it was 10:42 a few hours ago bc I checked five minutes before and it said 9:05 so :/// -But also sometimes I can't remember what happened literally seconds before -Or what I said seconds before -and that's Scary!!!!!!! -like Really Really Scary!!!! -I try to play it off as like 'haha forgetful me' but like... it's scary and my voice gets a little shaky 27) Are you on any medications?-I'm on a bunch of medicine bc I am sick -But for mental illness -NO!!!! -Partly bc I was a bitch and decided not to take them bc I was pissed and split on my doctor -Partly bc my anti-psychotics made me fall asleep in class and I couldn't take it -and Partly bc I moved out of state and can't get them AND I STILL DON'T HAVE A FUCKIN DOCTOR OR THERAPIST DESPITE MY EVERYTHING GETTING WORSE -AND I DON'T EVEN THINK I'M GOING TO A THERAPIST -BC APPARENTLY A THERAPIST WON'T BELIEVE THAT I HAVE REPRESSED MEMORIES -AND I'M PISSED -But um yeah -nothing for mental illness -I have to take meds for my tummy tho-that's the only one I remember -if I don't take it everyday I get sick and it's not fun at all 29) Do you ever have hallucinations? If so, what are they? -Not visual -never visual for some reason -But I always hear someone calling me -like a family member -even if I'm home alone or that member isn't there -9/10 times its my mom and sometimes I hear it even while playing music -and it freaks me out bc my mom always says she didn't call me -and ahhhh it sucks {Thank you so much!!!!! ❤}