#i literally can't stand this anymore im so sick of being her roommate she's so fucking messy and disgusting and never does anything and

[floralbfs]

me: *irons a shirt and is abt to iron another one*

me: oh this one is a bit dirty ill put it in the wash :)

my sister: *leaves my ironed shirt (WHICH I PUT IN A FUCKING HANGER) on a chair and puts like ten thousand things on top of it, crumpling it again*

me: :(

my sister: *leaves my newly washed shirt right at the bottom of the laundry basket, effectively crumpling it into oblivion*

[grethan-allmance]

So, I was sent this. Shown this? I was kinda, 'why did she reply??' As my immediate reaction. Like in this *global* pandemic, there literally isn't a good justification for international travel, no matter how she tried to justify herself. 'The country allows me, so it has to be fine.' Ha. People with enough brain cells to rub together and understanding should know it was more like 'strongly advised against, do insist under your own risk and the risk of people around you.'

The comments in that post said she handled it 'beautifully', and I'm like 'no, fuck no, that was bad. She was practically saying 'Sorry for your loss, but I didn't do anything wrong.' That's basically it. The travel itself is already wrong thing to do in this kind of climate. Meeting your bf is not a good enough emergency to risk of more spread. If someone isn't sick or dying, then it's not good enough reason, period. Like, nada. 'I feel so stifled', 'I miss my bf', 'I need to travel', I, I, I. Like, this kind of thinking is why this pandemic last so fucking long. Gosh, this is something that actually affects other people. The fucking selfishness because they can't stand doing what other people also has to go through, do go through, managed to go through, under the name of protecting other people close to them is so mind-blowing.

If you've been following me, you should already know I had no specific dislike for K, at all. I didn't. This isn't out of hate. If Ethan got his visa and gone through with it, then I'd want him on blast too. I didn't even like when they go back to Jersey and risk the exposure to their Mom or to their grannies, considering LA is one of the high risk places, but at least the place they live at in NJ doesn't look like it's packed like in the big city, and maintaining social distance should be easier. But, international travel seems like a really bad idea. If nothing happens, then that's great. But I wouldn't consider the risk worth it though, tbh.

(In the little corner of my dark mind, another of my reaction was murmuring 'if Grayson ends up getting it, then they'll actually be sorry'. I hope that doesn't happen though, seems like if he gets it, it won't be a light thing, considering his pre-existing condition.)

Also, on another thing, the twins get so paranoid over Ryan interacting with fan, so much they end up cutting him off. Now, maybe they didn't actually cut him off completely, maybe just realizing their friendship is better with that little distance that comes from not actually living together. Maybe they're still bff, and they just realizing its healthier for their relationship to not be roommates, considering they all have Issues. Now that there's this, I do wonder how the twins will react.

In one perspective, she seemed bullied and was trying to defend herself im grace, and perhaps nothing to feel mad/betrayed about. In another, she's actually in the wrong and she comes off like a Karen and perhaps that's something to be disappointed about. Or in a more hateful mindset, she replied to a dm she could've and should've ignored because now she has the sense of having 'clout' for being known as Ethan Dolan's gf, and thus, ignites the paranoia of the paranoids who constantly on the edge of the fear of being 'used' for clout.

*sigh* yes, I'm ranting again. I just have very strong opinion on travelling in pandemic, alright. I was so fucking set to go see my parents last month, since the case in the city I'm stuck in is declining, looks good, seems like the case will be over soon in the city. My mom has been taking care of my grandma (she can't walk anymore) and it has been tiring for her and the only other person in the house is my dad and I worry so much since without me, he's the one doing the groceries and he has heart issues. I did the whole round of tests and two weeks isolation to make sure I'm not gonna bring anything unwanted. But, because of one person, turns out there was a whole family that got infected, they infected their neighbors and when they went to the market, possibly infect more people, and since they're somewhat close to my area and now the numbers spiked again, I can't fucking risk it and cancelled the flight on my own. The full refund was nice, but it would be nicer if people could just not be selfish so the pandemic can be over faster, y'know?

So yes. I have very strong opinion on this.