#i like to think that's ernst's reaction

[ofoceansandtombsanew]

What are your thoughts on Frederick and Nichole?

Short Answer: I like them. I think the depth they will provide to Tamarack's story will be fascinating and I look forward to seeing them both grow as characters and begin rebuilding that relationship as parents as well as apologizing for being such lackluster ones.

Long Answer:

The Baumann family drama makes me unwell. It really is providing something we haven't really seen in the OL universe. We have family drama, don't get me wrong. We have Cliff and Kyra's divorce and co-parenting, and if you get the DLC for Step 3, you even learn about the full details of that divorce and the terrible foundations their relationship had.

We never get to see Baxter's parents but we know from his own words that they're not the best people. He also admits that if weren't their son, he would never be on the receiving end of the grace they've extended to him.

But we've never had something like Tamarack's family dynamic. We've got parents and grandparents in the picture! As a couple, Frederick and Nichole are solid. They chose one another, they just also less-than-intelligently chose to have a child before wrapping up their academic careers.

And I think some of the reason Frederick and Nichole are so divisive as characters is because of how realistic it seems. Dorothea shoving all the blame onto Nichole, Frederick finding his parents and keeping up with them a chore, Ernst's passivity all but co-signing his wife's views on their daughter-in-law and Nichole mixing up her priorities in her pursuit to prove herself to herself and the rest of the world. Then you have Tamarack wrapped in all of that when she never asked to be.

The independent but lonely wild child. The wild child that grows into someone with none of the confidence she had as a 10 year old. And who truthfully feels like no one really cares about her, especially not when she actually needs them (that is unless the player becomes a source of comfort for her).

It's one big mess that needs to be solved.

Frederick and Nichole interest me because of the way their minds work. They wanted Tamarack and wanted to have a family they felt would be better than the ones they came from. I think there's a lot of realism to be found in that. Plenty of people have kids whether planned or otherwise and go 'I'll never be like my parents!' only to end up exactly like their parents or maybe even worse in some ways.

But since this OL, we all know things are going to work out. Every other character with a bit of family drama gets a happy conclusion.

Cliff and Kyra are great co-parents.

Baxter is low-to-no contact with his family.

So I think we can all rest assured that the Baumanns are going to reach their own happy conclusion. It might not be perfect and realistically those who dislike each probably won't just start kicking it and being all kumbaya with one another. However comma, the end result will be something a lot better than what it was.

Tamarack's obviously never going to go back to living with her parents because the game is taking place squarely in Golden Grove but her relationship with her parents' will get better. Everyone in the Baumann family is going to grow in their own way and as a collective and I look forward to seeing that.

If everyone had super great families in the game, don't get me wrong we could still have compelling and moving characters but having varying familial dynamics makes the game more interesting and less static. Everyone's got their own thing

Aside from Tamarack having a gorgeous design, her family's dynamic is probably a huge part of why I can never give the girl a run where I'm mean. The most I do is click on a mean option to see what her reaction will be before rewinding to the option I actually want.

Like I said, I'm physically incapable of being mean to Tamarack, it's a curse.

Meme Answer: They're both hot. And complicated.

[the-ravenclaw-werewolf]

I would love see that! Tho I imagine some of the more dangerous ones are more far away. Tho like is villain organization also a part of this? Because I think it be interesting to see how some of them will reaction to how the other run. For example Shigaraki actually give the League of Villains more freedom and does treat them with respect. But someone like Muzan who is a control freak over Twelve Kizuki and willing to kill them off.

It would be interesting to see different teams of antagonists interact with each other. From arguing over their ideologies to trying to defend themselves (if they do at all) with their motives/backstory(s). Not the mentions the fights, like the Twelve Kizuki vs the League of Villains. (i.e. Toga vs Daiki or Dabi vs Doma)

Disclaimer:

However I, at first, tried to bring more than one villain from the same show since not all of these here are real antagonists, but then it would make watching these other shows pointless. And there will end up being more characters to keep track of. So I, and Entity, apologize in advance to all the normal people in this list.

(But whoever picks this up, it's up to them to do just 40 antagonists or pick just a few or more.)

(And remember, ALL of this is also subject to change since this just a bunch of ideas FUNINTHEEYEOFMADNESS and I came up together on the spot.)

🚨 THIS IS ALSO ANYONE'S MINOR SPOILER WARNING JUST IN CASE! YOU HAVE BEEN WARNED! 🚨

Title:

The Antagonist’s Role (Some Conventional)

or something else (In the title I’m trying to convey that these people are the antagonist to the protagonist, but some only fill in that role because of convention).

Synopsis:

Spin-off fic, (non-canon), where the Entity is feeling vindictive against the antagonists of the 40's stories, so it makes another dimension kidnaps the antagonists of the 40. It doesn’t want to take those who are innocent, but there will be an imbalance to the universes if it tries to take more than one from the same dimension, (excluding the 40).

Just like MCS (WE), it will be a reaction fic to their respective stories. However, since Entity wants to rub salt into the wound, the antagonist will also be reacting to what is happening with the 40 cast, showing that they are growing, healing, and all around just doing better than they are.

Characters:

Now some characters are obvious, but others are just antagonists by convention:

Cowboy Bebop: Vicious

Avatar: The Last Airbender: Ozai

Legend of Korra: Amon OR Unalaq OR Zaheer OR Kuvira

Ouran Highschool Host Club: Benio "Benibara" Amakusa (Everything about this woman wants to make me pull out my own hair!)

Death Note: Light Yagami

Black Butler: The Undertaker

Hetalia: Belarus (Listen… if RUSSIA is scared of her, then you need to run for the hills!)

Fullmetal Alchemist: Father

Blue Exorcist: Satan

Hunter x Hunter: Hisoka Morrow OR Chrollo Lucilfer OR Meruem

Kuroko’s Basketball: Daiki Aomine OR Seijūrō Akashi OR Makoto Hanamiya

Attack on Titan: Zeke Yeager

Danganronpa: Junko Enoshima

Free!: Rin Matsuoka (I know I shouldn’t do this to him, but he was an antagonist during the beginning.) OR Hiyori Tono (I still hate him for what he said to Haru!)

Kill la Kill: Ragyō Kiryūin

Haikyuu: Oikawa Tooru (I am not dissing him, I love his character! But he was the antagonist to beat.)

Assassination Classroom: The Reaper

Food Wars!: Azami Nakiri

One Punch Man: Garou

Erased: Gaku Yashiro

My Hero Academia: All for One OR Shigaraki

Mob Psycho 100: Toichiro Suzuki

Yuri on Ice: Jean-Jacques Leroy (I don’t hate him, but like some of the others, he is pretty much antagonistic to the cast of YOI.)

Kiss Him, Not Me: Takeru Mitsuboshi

The Disastrous Life of Saiki K: Kusuke Saiki

Miss Kobayashi Dragon Maid: Jida/Jii

The Royal Tutor: Ernst Rosenberg

Kakegurui: Kirari Momobami

Cells at Work: Cancer Cell

The Promised Neverland: Isabella OR Peter Ratri

Love is War: Oko Shinomiya

Fruits Basket: Akito Sohma

Demon Slayer: Muzan

Dr. Stone: The Whyman

Given: Ayano Kasai (I know she is not an antagonist, but she was a little antagonistic.)

Beastars: Melon

Welcome to Demon School Iruma Kun: Ami Kirio OR Baal

Toilet Bound Hanako-kun: Yugi Tsukasa

Jujutsu Kaisen: Sukuna OR Geto

SK8 the Infinity: Ainosuke Shindo/ADAM

Setting:

Instead of a mansion, the Entity makes a prison for them to stay in. There are three levels of the prison:

Level 1: Misplaced

These are characters where they go up against one of the 40/interact with them, but it doesn’t mean they are evil or mean, they just happened to be the antagonists of one of the 40’s stories. They are given actual rooms, their own bathrooms, good meals plus desserts, good clothes, and misc. items to entertain themselves. (Plus their own kitchen, gym, craft room, etc.)

(This will house:

Oikawa Tooru

Jean-Jacques Leroy

Ayano Kasai)

Level 2: Disciplined

It’s almost the same as Level 1 except they are the bad guys of their stories but they actually have shot at redemption. They will have their own room, but only with the bare necessities. They are still served food, but any desserts, misc. items, or any kind of reward will only be given if they actually work to redeem themselves.

(This will house:

Benio "Benibara" Amakusa

Belarus

Daiki Aomine OR Seijūrō Akashi OR Makoto Hanamiya

Rin Matsuoka OR Hiyori Tono

Garou

Takeru Mitsuboshi

Kusuke Saiki

Ernst Rosenberg

Kirari Momobami

Cancer Cell

Isabella (If you choose her)

Oko Shinomiya

The Whyman)

Level 3: DETAIN

There are the worst of the worse, monsters, villains, you name it. They will basically be treated like prisoners for their stay. All of them wear collars that not only block their powers but will shock them if they attempt to do anything remotely evil, violent, etc.

(This will house:

Vicious

Ozai

Amon OR Unalaq OR Zaheer OR Kuvira

Light Yagami

The Undertaker

Father

Satan

Hisoka Morrow OR Chrollo Lucilfer OR Meruem

Zeke Yeager

Junko Enoshima

Ragyō Kiryūin

The Reaper

Azami Nakiri

Gaku Yashiro

All for One OR Shigaraki

Toichiro Suzuki

Jida/Jii

Peter Ratri (If you choose him)

Akito Sohma

Muzan

Melon

Ami Kirio OR Baal

Yugi Tsukasa

Sukuna OR Geto

Ainosuke Shindo/ADAM)

All levels are separated by another floor, with Level 3 in the basement to Level 1 at the top. There is around the clock monitoring thanks to Indigo and they are allowed outside, but Level 3 are the only ones who are scheduled with times and such.

The ground level is where they’ll be viewing what is going on with the 40. And the Entity is much more involved. FUNINTHEEYEOFMADNESS came up with the idea that to the people in Level 1 it would talk to the occupants like an empathic therapist. Level 2 is a no nonsense tough love overseer with the same empathy. And Level 3 is where the Entity will be the jail guard/jester/tormenter, pointing out their flaws, the pyrrhic victories and just rubbing it in. And, for the more arrogant of the prisoners, it will showcase their reality warping abilities to prove a point.

To quote FUNINTHEEYEOFMADNESS, "I would also imagine that for level's 2 and three the entity would make the prisoners do prison chores, but only to prove a point and make them build character. As any real chore can be solved by their reality warping effects."

The prison island would even be surrounded by an Eldritch Abomination to replace the ocean and act as a deterrent to kept them from trying to escape, (not that they could).

Something like this:

The Eldritch surrounding the island is obviously alive, but it reacts differently to the people coming outside. For Level 1, it will act similar to a puppy and all round just be playful and helpful to them. With Level 2 it will act indifferent, not choosing to intervene but will do so if necessary. But if someone from Level 3 steps outside without permission, it will go into berserk mode.

Ending:

Since this non-canon, it's kind of opened ended, but this what FUNINTHEEYEOFMADNESS and I came up with:

They will all have their memories erased OR only Level 3 will have their memories erased, (to which they will get back when they 💀) while Level 1 and those who redeemed themselves from Level 2 will keep their memories.

As to their connection to the 40, there are two scenarios:

1. Those who kept their memories while contact them when they get the chance and apologizes/helps the MCS (WE) cast with their adventures.

2. Somehow, someway, the 40 finds out what the Cloaked Figure is doing, those who have the unredeemable villains would see this a fitting punishment while those who have antagonists who are still redeemable or who are just antagonists by convention would ask if the Entity is insane. (And might even ask Entity to allow those of Level 1 to come back with them to the mansion and Level 2 once they’ve redeemed themselves.)

Reaction/Interaction Excerpts:

And of course, how can a can this be a reaction fic with some reactions?

To their stories/the 40:

To quote FUNINTHEEYEOFMADNESS again, "I would imagine they would either be downtrodden, guilty or seething in jealously. Another good point, since the 40 story is about hurt and comfort, the characters learning from each other and making themselves feel better, the villainous 40 would be judged by their peers and criticized. This can range from insults, being appalled by each other's actions or just rubbing it in each other in a sense of hypocritical moral superiority."

To each other:

Level 3 would have those arguing who had the better plan, motive, who had the harder protagonist to deal with etc. Basically an ego measuring contest. And the other levels would want to stay far away from them.

Level 2 would have them defending their case on why they did such actions, even though most of them won’t buy it, and some would actually engage in nice conversations. Level 3 would just call them pathetic while Level 1 would attempt to be friendly, as long as Level 2 cooperates.

Level 1 are just confused about why they are there and want to go home. Reactions to each other may vary, but they would be nice and comfort each other while allowing themselves to relax slightly since they are living much more luxuriously then they had been before. Level 3 and the stubborn half of Level 2 would be glaring at them while the redeemable half of Level 2 would be glad that they are in good living conditions.

How they would interact:

Level 3:

Ozai, Satan, Ragyō Kiryūin, Azami Nakiri, Toichiro Suzuki, and Akito Sohma would all be complaining to each other of how their bloodline/family members are such failures and how they would want to exact their revenge for going against them. They still don't get along, but they bond over that.

Light Yagami would keep trying to argue that he is not a villain, that he is a god, and all that nonsense, and it's usually Sukuna OR Geto, who yells at him to shut up and threatens to strangle him, shock collars be damn.

Yugi Tsukasa and Junko, somehow, bond over how much joy it bring them to see others in despair.

ADAM and Hisoka (if you chose him) would share in how they are looking for the most skilled/strongest, but when ADAM learn that Hisoka is a... ADAM would request a restraining order against him.

Amon OR Unalaq OR Zaheer OR Kuvira and Zeke Yeager would indulge in their own ideas of equality and freedom along with their radical methods of how to achieve such goals, (Light wouldn't be in this since he sees them as criminals and not himself, talk about hypocrite.)

With every interaction and banter Undertaker would just be shaking and crying with laughter as he finds all of this to be hilarious.

Level 2:

Benibara, Seijūrō Akashi (if you chose him), Kusuke Saiki, Kirari Momobami, and Oko Shinomiya would all be fighting for the leadership role in the group, and some of them are willing to draw blood to get it. (But it's Isabella, again if you chose her, who assumes the leadership role.)

Kusuke would actually try to study Cancer Cell while Garou would also be demanding to fight him to determine who is the strongest. This resulted in the two being threaten by Cancer Cell on a weekly, to daily, basis to stop.

The Whyman would just watch the humans being stupid.

Level 1:

All three of them get along, even though both Oikawa and JJ has egos the size of a house, (though these two would share in their woes of how they are the best and yet always fall short to someone else), and the three would comfort each other if need be. And JJ, who is the oldest in the group, would unconsciously take up the parental role.

Conclusion:

It the same premise as MCS (WE) except that this centered around the antagonists of the stories and most of them are either getting treated like the scumbags they are or are getting redeemed.

I'm not sure if FUNINTHEEYEOFMADNESS or if anyone else is going to actually write this, but if anyone does, or if they just what to keep bouncing around ideas, I'll happily lend a hand and or ear!

[subtile-jagden]

A little something about Ernst und Gretha Jüngers relationship

(Anon, I hope you meant his first wife and not his second!)

Their relationship seems to have been based on mutual love but the power dynamic was very off. Ernst Jünger was a misogynist in the classic sense for the first half of his life and had a very domineering personality which influenced his marriage.

They became a couple when Ernst was 27 and Gretha was 16. This is something not super uncommon in this time but in a letter from Gretha, when she´s in her 30s, she admits that she was half a child when he married her and was not able to stand up to him properly.

Young Gretha had a passion for acting and worked at a theater. Ernst disapproved of that, he did not like her dancing and singing in front of other men. While he tried to portray himself as an anti-establishment type of guy he wanted his relationship (and later marriage) to be a very standard, “Spießbürgertum”-approved one. An acress as a wife did not fit into this picture, so Gretha quit. In letters to her he describes how he is going to mold her to his liking and help her be the person he thought she should be and that she in return will help him achive everything he wants.

He loved her but influenced by his view on women he did not take her serious. In a diary entry when Ernst was around 50 he wrote that he needed to get to an older age to appreciate the conversation and the opinions of women (side note: towards the end of his life he expressed the opinion that matriarchy is preferable to patriarchy. So he changed his views quite radically). This view was very much influenced by his father who advised him “that his future wife should be from healthy stock. She doesn´t need to be beautiful and shouldn´t be too smart, as he himself is smart enough for both of them”.

Gretha called Ernst “der Gebieter“ (engl. Lord, Master). Both in an sarcastic way as she knew he wanted to be the one in charge but also because she accepted it.

Ernst cheated a lot. In the early years of their relationship he apparently did not, even promising her in a letter that he would never betray her, that he thinks it is a terrible thing to do (as a reaction to the family finding out that his sisters husband cheated on her). But already starting in the early 1930s he broke his promise. Friends and his brothers teased him about his unfaithfullness, describing him as “loyal/devoted but not faithful”.

During WW2 he had multiple affairs (Gretha gave him a free pass: “What happens during the war…”). Until this time the cheating was purely physical. But while being stationed in Paris he fell in love with the German-Jewish emigré Sophie Ravoux, seriously considering leaving Gretha. Gretha learned about his feelings when she read diary entries (Ernst regularly sent them back to her for safe keeping). This caused a huge crisis in their marriage. Gretha felt betrayed and abandoned. Especially considering that Ernst was in the relatively safe Paris living the high life with his mistress, while Gretha was back home, which already got heavily bombed. She had already packed her things ready to leave him for good. While Ernst seemed to really be sorry and begged her not to go, he also did not seem to understand what Grethas problem was. In his eyes he fulfilled his duty as a husband: he provided for her and their children but was basically like “you have a roof over your head and food in your belly what else could you possibly want?!”. Gretha stayed and Ernst left his mistress (but later he kept on cheating regularly).

Towards the end of the war, when Ernst was at home again their relationship improved. When the news of their sons death reached them, it brought them closer together too.

Gretha resented that he moved the family around a lot, she did not like living in Southern Germany, she wanted to stay in the north. In the 50s she left Ernst for a while, going back to Northern Germany because, you guessed it, his continuous cheating.

Finally, a few words about Gretha:

She seemed to be a very strong woman but was also a push over when it came to her marriage. She had a lot of internalized misogyny, something that nowadays gets used inflationary but she is like the symbol for it. In a letter to Ernst she writes “You know that I don't think much of my own gender”. It seems to be a defensive attitude, she felt threatened by other women, rightly so since Ernst has always been a womanizer. She primarily blamed the women for his infidelity. She learned to stand up to him as she got older but still tolerated more than she actually wanted to.

When Greta got sick he took care of her and seemed very lost after she died.

[dancingisdangerouss]

Okay so writing this I’m not fully here atm so forgive me if this is weird, but can I request some headcanons of any of the EH characters comforting you after losing your best friend if possible? Just lost mine so Im craving some comfort- 🤪💀

Oh god I’m so, so sorry to hear that. Of course dear, I’ll do my best with the ones I know. I’m sorry for your loss, love (not sure if you mean by death or by losing the friendship itself, but grieving is involved in both. People forget sometimes that grief comes in a lot of different ways). It’s never easy losing someone you love.

Al:

He’s not the best comfort, namely because he doesn’t fully grasp the concept of loss. Judging from his reaction when he killed Max, he’s obviously upset but still kind of just like “oh no! Anyway…”

But he tries. He certainly wouldn’t want to lose you/have you taken from him. I headcanon that he and Max did also have a rocky relationship with some bitterness attached there, so that’s also a factor in him seeming so cold about his death.

He doesn’t like seeing you upset unless it’s something he caused (and even then, only if it was intentional). So he won’t really know what to say to offer comfort, but would definitely be a physical comfort.

Just like, letting you lay with your head in his lap while he strokes your hair, wiping or kissing your tears and massaging your shoulders. Holding you to his chest, silent as he lets you sob and talk about it. Even if he has nothing to say, he’ll listen attentively.

He’s…he’s also selfish. We know this. So I’m sure he’d somehow manage to eventually turn it into something to benefit him, like encouraging you to cuddle and cockwarm him on the couch, or indulging himself by going down on you because “it’ll help you feel better.” He’s an ass. 🙄

Ernst Toller:

Ernst would be incredibly sympathetic to your pain. He knows what it is to lose someone you love, and he’s dealt with existential questions and self-doubt.

He would offer spiritual comfort if that would be something beneficial to you, but he’s not the type of person to force beliefs on you if you’re not religious.

Ernst would be there for you in whatever way he can be, whether that be to be a listening ear, to offer words of wisdom/advice/comfort, or to just gently hold you in his arms while you cry.

Just a major softie.

Paul (Valley of violence):

There’s not as much known about his character, but we know he’s loved and lost, and no longer feels worthy of love or affection.

We saw how hard he took it when he lost his best friend. He would understand your pain, and feel comfortable opening up to you about his own, as well as his past.

Basically a support group/therapy session wherein you’re both getting mutual support for the things you’ve endured. Maybe even just sharing fond memories of those you’ve lost, then sharing a drink and watching the sun setting.

Arthur:

Arthur is wise (not beyond his years tho, he’s old lmao). He may not be empathetic, but he is very discerning, and would know exactly what words to say to make you feel better.

It’s always hard to tell with Arthur when he’s being genuine or not. Sometimes, I think he’s so deeply rooted in his own facade of himself that even he doesn’t know when he’s being sincere. So he’ll coo at you and be loving and soft and sweet, but you will never truly know what he’s really feeling.

Arthur does of course care for you, but his way of caring may look different from other people. He knows what “care” looks like and will emulate it, holding and rocking you in his arms, brushing a hand through your hair, etc. But it’s hollow love.

However—you sometimes catch him showing his own way of caring, keeping a consistent eye on you everywhere you go, ensuring you’re eating enough/sleeping enough/etc.

He may not have much compassion toward the dead (he shot our baby in cold blood and admitted to Khonshu he enjoyed doling out his punishments), but he doesn’t like seeing you in pain, so he does what he can to offer comfort, both in fake and earnest ways.

[palaquinn]

Tales from the Nightshade Clinic (Part 4)

“You are a madman, you know that right?”

“Bullshit!  I’m an uncertified GENIUS!”

“O.K. genius, explain exactly to me how in the hell your little idea would even work.”

“It’s simple, man.  All I do is carry around an epi-pen and have it ready to go.  I go into Magiannio’s, order the large order of garlic bread, garlic fettuccine, and a big old glass of red wine and have myself a little feast!  As soon as any reaction begins I grab the epi-pen and just shoot myself up and bing bang boom I’m good to go another round!”

Chester let his head fall onto the break room table while Ernst looked about triumphantly.  

“O.K. let's look at the problems here with that idea…” Chester began.

“There are no problems!  It’s flawless!”

“YOU DON’T HAVE CIRCULATING BLOOD ANYMORE YOU ASSHOLE!”

“Wait, what?”

“Blood, as in YOUR blood, is no longer moving around your body Ernst.”

“Oh bullshit.  I can feel my heart beating still!”  Ernst placed their hand over their chest and then paused.  They shifted the hand to the right, and then the left, up, and then down.  Chester looked on passively.

“Fuck I KNOW it’s in there…” Ernst scrabbled for his stethoscope and quickly began scanning for his own heartbeat.

“Seriously man.  How long have you been a vampire now?”

“No one told me my heart would stop!  Why would it stop?!?  Don’t I still move blood around?”  Ernst was on the verge of tears now as he looked up at Chester.  “I can’t have the garlic can I?”

A single blood red tear ran from his eyes as Chester shook his head.

“Just like I can’t have chocolate man.  It sucks, but for your health now you just can’t have it.”

“Man, I just want some pasta! Curse you, oh blight of undeath!”

“Stop being melodramatic.  You seriously didn’t know this stuff?”

“Not like the bastard that turned me gave me an instruction pamphlet afterwards!  I have no God damned clue how this works!”  

Bobbi stuck her head in the door of the break room.  “Y’all.  Calm it down.  We can hear you in the waiting room.”

Chester smiled and pointed at Ernst. “Genius over here is jonesing for pasta and trying to figure out his sudden aversion to garlic.  Any tips for the young and upcoming vampire?”

“Honey.  Please tell me how you’d eat it?  Hell, how you’d digest it?  Your stomach can’t handle material anymore.”

Ernst stood up looking shell-shocked “YOU MEAN I CAN’T EAT EITHER?!?”

Bobbi sighed, then looked down at the floor, shaking her head.  “You can try,” she offered.  “But you’ll throw it back up in about an hour.  Your body doesn’t…it can’t hold solid food anymore, sweetie.  Just can’t.”

“Yeah you’ll up-chuck it all like an owl pellet.” Chester added helpfully.

“Or a hairball.”

“Why do you guys know more about being a vampire than I do?!” Ernst wailed.  Chester shrugged and pointed at his medical badge for the clinic. 

“I have more hours here than you do.  I’ve seen more patients.  Sorry man.”

Giving up Ernst collapsed into his chair and buried his head in his arms.

“I just want some garlic bread man…”  

Bobbi crooked her finger at Chester, drawing him out into the hall, and bent down to whisper as quietly as she could into his ear.  “Have you told him his dick won’t work right yet?”

“Nope.” Chester grinned. “I think he’ll figure it out come date night.”

“Sure as hell above my pay grade,” Bobbi said, and sauntered back towards the waiting room.

[lookherecomethewormies]

all the time i used to see people online say "we need more gay media that isn't about suffering or homophobia" but i've always been against that strain of thought, or at least what it represents. what i really want is for straight people to stop writing about homophobia INSTEAD of us. i feel like i'd want a least a little pathos in my gay writing. it has a complex effect on how i act and think and stuff, especially as someone who exists in a society built directly to antagonize us. it frustrates me to no end when, like, some trans person writes about LGBT stuff in a way that's a little subversive, makes the viewer a bit uncomfy.... uhhh isabelle fall and rhys ernst with adam are the first that come to mind... and people just dogpile them for transphobia and shit like....

i do not think we should dogpile on queer creators for writing about any type of LGBT-phobia without thinking like big boys about it. i think there are probably more important reasons gay people write about homophobia than internalized bigotry or smth.

ive never read isabelle fall and never watched rhys ernst so i can't offer any critical analysis here but still the REACTION people also have to their works without reading or watching them just freaks me out. we gays can get our entire careers knocked the fuck down by a bunch of cissies being all performative about their allyship like in the isabelle fall case, but when straight people legit espouse offensive ass shit in their creative work, no problem, we just headcanon it out. butters southpark has pronouns now its ok

[lushandlamb]

Purva Phalguni Men: Matt Rife and Vinnie Hacker

*Purva Phalguni is a Venus ruled nakshatra located in sidereal Leo. 

Vinnie Hacker is an American tiktoker and streamer. Vinnie is a Purva Phalguni Moon with an A rated birth time. 

Matt Rife is an American comedian who recently received backlash due to a domestic violence joke he made during his Netflix comedy special, Natural Selection. Matt is a Purva Phalguni Sun with an AA rated birth time. Prior to this special, he commented that he wanted to show that he didn’t pander to women and could make jokes for the guys too. 

I think Matt and Vinnie portray an interesting aspect about Purva Phalguni men and how they relate to women. Matt’s looks have played a huge role in his career as after he had his glow up or surgery visit, people actually started caring about his jokes. His shows are predominantly attended by women which made his DV joke come off even worse. In addition, Matt has expressed discomfort with being known for being attractive to women which is the reason why he chose to make more polarizing jokes with his special. I also think a part of him felt objectified by the fact that his rise to fame has been spurred by him being the “hot comic” and being valued solely for his appearance. Interestingly enough, women remarked that he was simply just experiencing what it felt like being a woman.

TikTok comment on video from @cozyakili regarding the psychology of Matt Rife

(Excerpt from New York Times article on Matt Rife “The Tyranny of Hotness”)

This reflects how Purva Phalguni men have a yin nature. They are receptive and feel the penetrative gaze of others. Rather than being the fans exerting their energy and attraction, he is the receptor of the energy. He doesn’t look; he is looked at. He doesn’t react; he causes the reaction. It is similar to how we respond to the significators of Venus (beauty, paintings, luxury clothes, etc.) Naturally, it can feel emasculating. Now to Vinnie Hacker.

Vinnie Hacker started off by posting thirst traps on tiktok and now does twitch streaming as well. However, it’s fair to say that most of his audience is women and his looks also brought him fame. Oftentimes, Vinnie has talked about feeling objectified by women. For example, after he won a boxing match, he was groped by a female fan. He has also stated that he is scared of getting a girlfriend due to the reactions of his fans and that he is scared of women, that he does not realize when they are flirting with him. There was the Julia Ernst situation where she apparently spread gossip and rumors while she was dating him. Women, in general, seem to adore him. As a Venusian man, he naturally has a way of appealing to women and through the reactionary nature of yang, provoking women. Either way, Vinnie faced the same emasculation that comes with the penetrative, yang gaze of fame, in this case with female fans. Fin. 

[project1939]

200 Films of 1952

Film number 175: The Merry Widow

Release date: September 5th, 1952 

Studio: MGM 

Genre: musical 

Director: Curtis Bernhardt 

Producer: Joe Pasternak 

Actors: Lana Turner, Fernando Lamas, Una Merkel, Richard Haydn

Plot Summary: The fictional European country of Marshovia will soon go bankrupt, but a miraculous chance to save it presents itself in a rich American widow of a former Marshovian. If the King can lure her to the country, and his nephew Danilo can woo her into marrying him, her $80 million dollar estate will be theirs. 

My Rating (out of five stars): ***¼  

I liked this one more than I expected to. It’s a remake of the classic 1934 Ernst Lubitsch version with Jeanette MacDonald and Maurice Chevalier, but it doesn’t reach that standard. For what it is, though, it's a decent watch- it’s a competent colorful MGM musical with a bubbly little plot. Fernando Lamas was the big highlight for me- his beauty and charisma alone could carry a film. (some spoilers)

The Good: 

Fernando Lamas. Oh. My. God. He is gorgeous! I felt melty every time I looked at him. He was a fine actor and he had a lovely voice as well. He later married my huge crush Esther Williams, and I think I would die if I saw them together. I’d double swoon, not knowing who to look at! They even made a movie together called Dangerous When Wet, which might be too dangerous for me to watch. 

Lana Turner was pretty good acting wise. I think her acting definitely got better as she got older. She looked amazing in some of those costumes, too. 

Turner’s vocal dub was shockingly good. She’s not a singer, but they actually found a dubber who sounded reasonably like her. They didn’t just shove Marni Nixon in there! 

The costumes! They were absolutely stunning. They were gloriously colorful and very flattering. Lamas looked scrumptious in his regal wear, and some of the stuff they put Turner in wowed me as well. I can’t vouch for how authentic they were to the year 1900, though.

The MGM Technicolor looked as beautiful as ever. There’s just something about the way MGM utilized it that tops any other studio. 

Una Merkel and Richard Haydn were both very effective in their supporting roles. Merkel went on to be a standout in 1961’s The Parent Trap as Verbena, and Haydn was just as memorable as Max in The Sound of Music. 

The plot was just good silly fun. 

The Bad: 

The casting of Turner, who is not a singer. I liked Turner in this, but it would have been so much better if they had cast an actual singer in the role. Jeanette freakin’ MacDonald played the role in the 1934 version for god’s sake! 

I wish there had been more music in it. I’m sure some of it was because Turner wasn’t a singer, but I kept wishing for more songs.

The ending was predictable from nearly the beginning. 

It was missing some of the creative spark of better MGM fare. Pasternak films did tend to be more rote than Freed’s, though. 

The musical numbers were also not filmed especially creatively. 

The overly disgusted reaction of Danilo when he thought he had to woo the older Una Merkel was gross. Yes, she was middle aged, but treating her like she was inhumanly ugly was insulting to Markel, but also to women in general. It was very dehumanizing. 

More disgusting East Asian stereotypes. There was a brief scene at the American Chinese embassy as they celebrated the New Year. The less said the better. I just wrote “NO!” in my notes. 

Accents! Why does the King of Marshovia have a totally different accent than his nephew? And a local Baron? And the Ambassador? It seemed like every person in the country spoke in a different way.

The Interesting??: 

Get a load of this quote by a French policeman when Danilo came to the station looking for a woman. When asked to describe her, Danilo can’t give any helpful information until he mentions she’s an American. “So she has long legs?” the policeman asks. “All American women have long legs. From the waist down, an American woman is incomparable. From the waist up, the advantage is with all French women!” 

 I. Can’t. Even. 

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Last week, news broke that James Dean will star in a new movie-64 years after his death. A production company called Magic City got the rights to Dean’s image from the late actor’s estate and plans to bring him to the silver screen again thanks to the wonder (or terror) of CGI. Now, Dean, or the digitally resurrected version of Dean or whatever, will play the second lead in a Vietnam War movie called Finding Jack, with a living actor standing in as his voice.

Unsurprisingly, the announcement inspired a wave of immediate backlash around Hollywood.

Chris Evans called it “awful” and “shameful,” and Elijah Wood said, simply, “NOPE.” But it turns out the intense reaction was surprising to at least one person: Magic City’s Anton Ernst, the Finding Jack director.

Ernst told the Hollywood Reporter in a new interview that he’s gotten “positive feedback” about the movie and that the Dean estate has been “supportive,” saying it will inspire “a whole new generation of filmgoers to be aware of James Dean.” He didn’t see the overwhelming negativity coming. Per the Reporter:

Ernst spoke with The Hollywood Reporter about the criticisms on social media, saying he was “saddened” and “confused” over the overwhelmingly negative comments. “We don’t really understand it. We never intended for this to be a marketing gimmick,” he said.

He also brought up Carrie Fisher’s appearance in the new Star Wars as an example of a way this posthumous CGI work can be done well, apparently missing the difference between honoring Fisher’s legacy in a role she was already scheduled to play and plopping James Dean in some random war movie half a century after his death.

When discussing whether resurrecting Dean digitally crosses a line with regards to posthumous casting, Ernst explained, “Anyone that is brought back to life – you have to respect them.” He noted Fisher’s posthumous appearances in the Star Wars franchise, saying that if the actress had expressed never wanting to be in a film after her death, or if her legacy or that of the franchise could be “tarnished” because of her casting, “then that should be a line.”

“I think the line should be … you must always honor the deceased’s wishes and try to act in a way that is honorable and full of dignity,” Ernst said.

Again, this is extremely different, since Dean could never have stated he didn’t want to appear in a film after his death because, uh, how would he have imagined that was even a possibility-but whatever. Finding Jack is still headed into production with an expected release on November 11, 2020, whether we like it or not.

[herrlindemann]

From OOR, May 2002 - Interview with Schneider and Flake:

“German bands always try to imitate their American and English counterparts,” says Christoph Schneider. “We also committed ourselves to that in the early days, by mixing hip-hop with hard guitars. You know, what every band on this planet does. That was mainly Richard's idea, we tried to build on his style. But hip-hop, that just had nothing to do with us. We didn't feel anything about that at all.” Yet it is the same Richard Bernstein who said about that early period in the Berliner Morgenpost: 'I got the chance to go to California and experience the bands we imitated up close. Only then did I realize that culture and climate determine what kind of music people make. I returned to Germany and started writing music that is characteristically German.' According to Schneider, that image needs some nuance. "Richard is the most stubborn of the bunch, we always have the most trouble convincing him of our ideas, especially in the early days. If he were in charge alone, the band would sound a lot softer and more poppy. It wasn't until Paul and Flake came along that our current martial style came into being. They had a punk past. That mentality appealed to us much more, at least we as Germans could get along with punk. Richard may claim the way we make music as his credit, but the fact that we sound so German is above all Paul's credit. In the other bands he played in, he also had highly developed ideas about how a band can distinguish itself. He always thinks about it a lot and in that sense is the theorist behind Rammstein. We owe it to him that we were able to muster the courage to take the risks we took then.”

“Pain, suffering and heartbreak have always been a source of inspiration for us,” says Christoph Schneider of the lyrics. “When we started the band, we all had relationship issues, some of us even had to leave their kids. Music in those days was an outlet for each of us for our frustrations. We are now ten years later and for me personally, suffering no longer plays any role in my life, but for Till it definitely does. And there are a few more band members who have to be in a constant state of pain and sadness in order to feel good. Although I do think that we will gradually have to break new ground if Rammstein is to continue to exist.” So to think that the band has become more cautious is a wrong assumption? “Yes, we have always played with ambiguity. In the very beginning we just tried everything. Until we heard the public reactions: 'Can a band make something like this, isn't it all too German?' Then we had to ask ourselves whether we had not gone too far with that ambiguity. Could we live with the judgment people had of Rammstein? Should we serve clear wine or leave our image in the middle without giving any explanation? We opted for the latter. This action-reaction dynamic is something we've been dealing with for years now, with public criticism counting as a yardstick: if they think we're going too far, then we know we're doing the right thing. Furthermore, it is a matter of being brave and saying: Was die Leute finden ist mir scheiß egal. Still, I think we've closed a phase with Mutter. We cannot continue to flirt with taboo themes, we have already pushed the boundaries of that.”

Flake: ‘There is humor in what we do, but it has crept in completely involuntarily. People see us as something comical, but that was never our intention.' Christoph: 'What we are playing now sounds authentic to our ears, we can identify with it. What we make is what we feel inside, what we experience as real. We bring comic subduing ganz ernst drüber, that's our craft. Till brings ridiculous subjects to the fore with a deadly serious face and a dramatic voice. We like that. It's good to leave people groping in the dark.' Oh, and otherwise Rammstein can still use as an excuse, entirely in German tradition: It was just a joke.

[f1yogurt]

hiiiie! prompt/request time

I think this would be interesting to see how a bunch of different characters would react/act in this scenario (ex. Niki, Laszlo, Zemo etc.)

Their reaction to a partner commenting/prasing their facial hair choice (if that makes sense) ex. reader suggests they grow out a beard/shave clean

ok so this one is kinda confusing but I just love facial hair {or lack of in some cases} its such a neat feature and this first gif made me think things

Cat you are literally the only person requesting things from me right now and I love you for it, keep it coming queen.

HCs: The Danny Bunch and Facial Hair

Zemo:

Zemo is definitely more clean-shaven, but like we saw with prison Zemo, he can still have a bit of scruff at times. He'd love it if you praised his clean-shaven look or ran your hands along his smooth cheeks, because I feel like he's the one most likely to put a lot of time and effort into his appearance. He'd not only groom his facial hair, but he'd also put on one of his fancy colognes and use some yummy smelling aftershave. He'd immediately be in love if you complimented how nice he looked or how good he smelled. At times, though, when he's been on a mission or just hasn't had access to a proper razor and mirror, he'll grow some scruff. Maybe even a full on beard. I think it might make him feel a bit unkempt if it goes on too long, but if you say something about liking his beard/scruff, he'd preen and enjoy it.

Laszlo:

Laszlo is a beard king. He keeps it very nice, well-groomed, in the fashionably acceptable way that society had at the time. He would loove to have his beard stroked, to have you run your fingers through it. Any kind of facial touches and he melts right into a puddle of love, wanting to stay there and have you touch him for as long as you want. If you praise his facial hair at all, and I mean like at all, he will maybe blush at first and get kinda shy, but then he'd want to use it as an excuse for you to hold him and pet his cheeks for hours. Laszlo's so touch-starved and will do anything for you to touch and praise him. Not to mention he loves having his beard stroked during kisses as you draw him in closer.

Niki:

Niki is definitely clean shaven. If he ever had any kind of scruff, he'd want to shave it right off. Especially if someone mentioned that he was growing even the smallest bit of facial hair, he'd cut it off. I just see him being very pristine in that way and liking to keep his appearance nice. It also must feel better to not have sweaty nastiness in a beard after racing on a long, hot day. But if you gave him even the smallest compliment on his appearance, especially on a facial feature other than his overbite, he'd internally be a flustered mess because no one really tells him he looks good.

Andrea:

Andrea is a clean-shaven baby. He'd blush when you coo about how you want to pinch his cheeks, or smoosh his cute little face. Honestly I think Andrea blushes really prettily, and his pink cheeks are so adorable. He likes any kind of facial touches or when you stroke the side of his cheek with your thumb. Any praises to his appearance and he'll be an excited a little puppy begging you for attention.

Ernst:

I feel like Ernst has a range and could go either go full beard, scruff, or clean-shaven. Scruff probably most of the time, because he likes to keep himself looking nice and tidy but he usually gets caught up in his work and forgets to shave some days. You would have to remind him to shave. Like during the day, he'd be working on some part of the ship, all focused, and then you'd just pull him in for a quick kiss and smile and say "you need a shave," as you hold his cheeks. He'd blink in a sort of daze and nod, but probably would forget again.

Alex Garel:

Oh Alex is a facial hair king. This Spanish boy knows how to do beards right. Alex has fluffy, unkempt hair. It's always mussed from him (or you) running hands through it while he's working. It gives him a very soft look. He keeps up with his beard and also enjoys your hands running through it, especially when you're kissing or cuddling. 10/10 kissable scruff. Very soft. If you compliment him on it, he'll smile and work to keep it nice for you.

Sebastian Zollner:

Ah yes, Sebastian. He's a chaotic mess and his facial hair would be the same. Most of the time, it's untamed scruff. He really tries to keep it clean shaven, but fails. I feel like he'd think the scruff looks sexy, which is true, but he usually doesn't keep up with it. If you compliment his beard, he'll smirk and wink all saucy like "oh, I bet you like it," but then you'll remind him that you hope he doesn't keep the unkempt druggie look for too long.

Alex Kerner:

Alex is very much like Andrea. Squish his cheeks, tell him his face looks cute, and he's a happy boy. Nothing more to say.

David Kern:

Like Alex and Andrea, David is a baby boy with no facial hair. David doesn't really do this for style or anything, it's just how he's always kept his hair. Plus, he loves it when you put your hands on his cheeks and he can feel the warmth of your palms. He likes that and will never grow a beard.

Konrad Koch:

Konrad has some of the most epic facial hair I've ever seen. That man can pull off any beard, goatee, moustache, etc. and still look good. He'd be really playful and silly and would enjoy you giving him new ideas to try for facial hair. He loves compliments from anyone, especially if it's you.

[tanadrin]

I usually take the approach that it’s worth examining motivations in order to classify behavior. Axial age warfare was pretty brutal; I think it’s Bret Devereaux who points out that its brutality actually isn’t matched (at least in Europe) until the beginning of the Early Modern period, and maybe not even until the Thirty Years’ War. Deportations, the destruction of cities, and the enslavement of whole populations are pretty common tactics throughout the Mediterranean basin across the whole period, and the Romans (and the Persians, and the Babylonians, and the Egyptians, and even occasionally the Judaeans) all made use of those methods of warfare.

In that context, the Roman conquest of Judaea, the Babylonian Exile, and the Bar Kokhba Revolt and its consequences all don’t seem to position the ancient Jews uniquely compared to the way other smaller nations were positioned to the surrounding powers. To be sure, atrocities were committed against them--unfortunately, those atrocities seem to have been part of the normal methods of warfare of empires in that period. (These methods of empire-building sometimes also included religious persecution--John Hyrcanus, for instance, is reported to have forcibly converted the Edomites to Judaism during the expansion of the Hasmonean kingdom.)

Christianity changed the social situation in the Eastern Mediterranean, and in particularly created the awkward scenario of a novel religious tradition whose predecessor was still around, and in fact still going strong. Different schools of thought in early Christianity reacted to this differently. Some were “Judaizing,” i.e., saw their movement as a Jewish one, and sought to preserve it as such; others (like Paul of Tarsus) sought to integrate gentiles into the movement. In Jewish-Christian Relations: The First Centuries, Abel Bibliowicz writes about the complex relationship of early Christianity to Judaism; his thesis as I remember it (it’s been a while since I read the book) is essentially that a specifically anti-Jewish strain arose in early Christianity as a reaction pushing back against the “Judaizing” (really, the core of the original “Jesus movement,” based in Jerusalem) faction, and this strain subsequently informed a great deal of later Christian thought on Judaism, though it was never omnipresent, if only because Christianity was never a monolith.

But it was frequently very influential; it was (again, this is me paraphrasing Bibliowicz as I remember him) a major compontent of Gnosticism, which sought to explicitly differentiate the Jewish and Christian notions of God, relegating the former to the status of Demiurge, as drawn from Hellenistic philosophy. It was even more influential in the Middle Ages, of course, with the development of high medieval antisemitism, and concepts like the blood libel, and the long history of not just violence against Jews as part of the project of brutal Axial age imperial expansion (which created a massive amount of violence against everybody), but as part of a program of ideologically motivated religious discrimination, forced conversion, and occasional slaughter. That was different; and Moritz Steinschneider coined the term “antisemitism” in 1860 or thereabouts in reference, as far as I know, to that specific phenomenon of European prejudice against Jews--initially, in his writing criticizing Ernst Renan, the first proponent of the so-called “Khazar hypothesis,” which was related to contemporary race science.

Given that the tropes of what we might call “classic” antisemitism, or central examples of antisemitism, draw heavily from specifically medieval and later stereotypes and myths about Jews, while we might stretch that definition to cover, e.g., religious persecution in previous eras (like that of Haman in the Book of Esther), that certainly seems to be stretching the word beyond its usual understood meaning. But applying it retroactively, and applying it to cases where the Jews were suffering the same treatment as any other conquered people in the Axial Age seems to me to stretch the word to its breaking point.

FWIW, I also think argumate is wrong here: the Catholics didn’t invent anti-semitism. It was present from some of the earliest parts of Christianity, long before anything approaching “Catholicism” as a distinct practice existed. There were bishops in Rome at that time, according to the traditional papal lists anyway, but the Roman Catholic church as a distinct organization and set of beliefs seems to emerge only gradually in Late Antiquity and the very early Middle Ages, slowly diverging from the eastern church and not formally being separated until the 11th century. Christians were working on institutionalizing persecution of Jews long before that--the first big Christian expulsions of the Jews were in the 5th century.

and while we’re on the subject, playing Hogwarts Legacy is obviously less harmful than say going to church and only attracts more criticism because a shitty game you had no interest in playing is an easier target.

[sunnygrey99]

Lost Family Pt. 10

~Trigger Warning: Minor depictions of torture and violence. ~

Its been a full year, two months, and 4 days since you left. keeping your head down and laying low was the intention but that hadn't lasted long. The suit Cisco made you for when you joined team flash as a fighter rather than a background helper sat in your bag for less than 3 months before you jumped in it. You went from city to city and state to state hunting down the leaders of the military that kept you cowering in the dark waiting for them to ruin your loved ones. You didn't kill them but for some of them, you certainly made it hurt. You always returned to the city that kept you close to family, Metropolis. All of it was leading up to the biggest threat. The one calling all the shots against you. You finally found him. Ernst W Mayer. Funnily he was on vacation when you found him, and with little security surrounding him. It didn't take you long to capture him and leave him in a warehouse for a week in isolation. It wasn't just any warehouse though. This was the first one and longest stay that had been used to house and brainwash you. After the week of isolation, you had done exactly what he had ordered happen to you done to him. Strapped to a table with electric rods stationed all around him at the ready. Every time he asked a question he was zapped. Every time he disobeyed he was zapped. Every time he was defiant he was zapped. Days of this before you cut the power and looked him in the eyes.

"If you come after me or anyone else I care for ever again I'll be sure to be your Judge, Jury, and Executioner. And to further ensure you do as you're told like the good boy I've been training you to be I have plenty of proof that if it found its way to the Media it would be plastered all over every TV across the world. You'll be sure to be thrown into a political prison." You wave a hard drive in front of him. As his eyes widen you grin and release him. "Live your life, Ernst. Oh and be sure to have all my records destroyed. I obviously already have that copied too. If I find out you haven't I'll just have to retrain you." He shakes some as he nods and you toss him a phone and his wallet to call a cab. Once you take off it was time to head home finally.

You crossed over the threshold into the cortex seeing only Cisco at the desk. You tap his shoulder hoping for a good reaction but also understanding there could be a bad one. He turns sadness obvious on his face, "Harry I told you we can't...(Y/N)...Oh my GOD." He wraps you in a hug and takes a minute to step back. "We... I mean... I gotta call Barry..." He goes from happy to see you back to sadness and grief all over his face. "I really have to call Barry. Hang on don't go anywhere." He steps off to a side room to call Barry. He answers in a matter of moments and you are still able to hear Cisco. "She's back. Yeah...No I haven't told her... No, I was hoping you could help she hasn't seen him yet...Yeah, see you soon." You furrow your brow as you started to put things together. Before Cisco was able to even exit the room Barry was standing in front of you.

"Hey, big sis it's been a long time." He goes in for a hug. You accept it but pull back pretty quickly.

"What happened." You give him the same stern look he remembered his mom had when he did something wrong or wasn't telling the truth. It took him a few moments of silence before you asked "Where is Harry?" You could already feel the tears in your eyes thinking something horrible had happened to him.

He took another moment before leaning against the desk. "He's fine. He isn't hurt physically or anything. But I wouldn't recommend going to see him right now."

You looked at him with confusion before it started to settle in. "He's upset with me isn't he..." There was no need to really ask it. You already knew that's what it was. "I have to see him Barry please."

He nods "He's in his lab. You also probably shouldn't go in wearing the suit." You looked down and nodded. It only took another wave of your hand to disguise the suit as one of your normal outfits.

You give Barry another hug and a whispered thanks to him as you head that way. It felt like the walk up there took hours but when you got to the door you hesitated unsure if you should knock or just walk in. That was when you heard the crash so you whipped open the door to see a disheveled Harry with a toppled over marker board and crushed glass all around his feet from empty flasks. His head snaps up to meet your gaze. Time seemed to freeze when you made eye contact. Every word you thought you had prepared slipped your mind in an instant so you said the first thing that came to mind which was a bad choice. "Are you okay?"

It seemed to take him from general anger to full fury. "Am I okay? Did you just seriously ask me if I'm okay?" He seems to take a second to compose himself slightly more before just forgetting it and setting further into the rage. "I let all my walls down for you. I allowed you into my head more willingly than I had with anyone else in my life. I fully trusted you and you walked out on me. You slipped out in the middle of the night with nothing but a note. A note... I didn't even read it. How am I supposed to bring myself to read a note from someone who had destroyed my entire world in a single move? And you know what I could have still forgiven you at that point, but it's been over a year. Not once did you ever call or try and send any of us a message if you were okay. The only information we ever got about you was when we saw you in Cisco 's stupid damn suit saving random people. What about us (Y/N) ? What about all of us? We needed you and you just left! I needed you!" Harry smacks even more flasks to the ground with tears in his eyes. You took all of what he said in with a deep breath you hadn't realized you were holding.

It took some time before you whispered out an I'm sorry. You waved a hand to return the glass to its previous unbroken state and waited for a few more moments unsure of what else to say. So you sit at his desk, tears in your own eyes. You hadn't meant to make him feel all that pain.

"I...I hurt you. I know you may never forgive me, but I'll do everything in my power to make up for what I've done. I thought I was protecting you all from pain, but I can see it just turned out I inflicted it...If you can find it in yourself to read the note I left I hope it will bring you some understanding of my reasons. I still feel how I felt about you before I left, and I need you to know that every day I was away from you was a struggle not to just come back and beg for your forgiveness. I thought I was doing the right thing." You stand glancing to see only his back turned to you and a slight nod. He wasn't going to say anything else and you knew that. quickly you walked out the door and back to Barry and Cisco to apologize to them and try to catch up. Harry later that night does sit down to finally read the note you left. It was definitely more like a letter though.

Harry, I know this seems out of the blue and you'll most likely be angry at me. However, I have to leave. I wanted to talk to you about this but I knew you'd likely try to talk me out of it. I want to keep you safe and I can't do that if I am also the one putting you in danger. This department isn't like the ones you and Barry have dealt with and I need to fix all this before I can come home. I don't feel like I have much of a choice in this and I can only hope that one day I'll see you again. If I don't come back, I just hope you find the same happiness and support that you gave me.

Love, Y/N

Part 11

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[disappointingsalad]

🎶✨when u get this, list 5 songs u like to listen to, publish. then, send this ask to 10 of your favorite accs (positivity is cool)🎶✨

*Here we go again XD*

Saint-Saëns: Danse Macabre

Das ist alles von der Kunstfreiheit gedeckt by Danger Dan (oh look it’s an actual song O.o)

Dvorak: Klänge aus Mähren (definitely influenced by the person i first heard them sung by cause i saw her play the Rosenkavalier in the opera of the same name and Hosenrollen are just plain hot. I am convinced they were made for the gay folks)

Sweet Dreams by Eurythmics (yay omg i could think of another actual song)

Schubert & Ernst: Erlkönig Caprice für Violine (do i wish to play this? Yes. Am i prepared to put up with my neighbours reactions to me practicing it? Absolutely not. So i guess i’ll stick to other pieces for now)

Thanks for all the asks btw, had a blast answering^^

[rumblelibrary]

"How many times can you look me in the eye and lie to me?" Also with Ernest, break my heart please 💔, I need like angry and broken Ernest

“How many times can you look at me in the eye and lie to me” - with Ernst Schmidt x Fem!Reader

Warnings: masturbation, mention of attempted murder

I wasn't ready to write this and when I was, I still wasn't.

Ernst smiled at you, he just woke up to find you laying beside him like very morning, his little corner of paradise, your silky nightgown clinging sensually around your shape, that amazing curve of your body always getting him more and more turned on.

“Good morning, Ernst”

You said to him and he smiled happily whispering it back to you.

“Oh, looks like Dr Schmidt is more awake than you”

The way you giggled and nicknamed his dick would have made him blush if he wasn’t so aroused by your presence.

“Get naked for me, I don’t have time”

You pouted but then you obliged as you stood on the bed slowly giving him a strip tease, you even hummed the music waving your body in front of him.

Your voice only rang through him, the way you sang was pure poetry.

You swayed from side to side as the silk slipped off your skin like water, you picked a moan as you touched over your body as he pumped himself nicely.

“Fuck, show me your ass”

He cursed as he went immediately hard on himself, he was hungry, needy for you and yet he didn’t have time to fully give into the pleasure.

You obeyed, you rolled your hips turning around as your panties made their way down your ass and quickly precipitated to your ankles before being kicked out of the way.

The way your hands moved, the moans that escaped you as your hands travelled between your legs gifting pleasure to yourself.

Ernst was thrown into a very fast orgasm against his own stomach while staring at you.

“Your breakfast is ready now”

You smirked as he chuckled “I hope not this one” he said pointing at his chest as you giggled jumping off the bed.

“I need the calculation for this”

You nodded providing him the answer in a moment, you worked side to side and you were his right arm, always helping him.

“So? How long is it going to take freak?”

Volkov voice made you roll your eyes.

He annoyed you like hell, but he really took a tool on Ernst.

Don’t let him get into you

You typed it on the computer for Ernest to see. He now needed to be focusing on the task ahead instead of the teasing, he pushed his glasses further on the bridge of his nose as he looked up at the screen ignoring the Russian.

Thank you he typed back to you

;) your answer

Nevertheless, the experiments kept failing and you kept working tirelessly with him. Where it was the error? What could it be?

“Ernst, I brought you something to eat” Lin said as she came to the control room and stared up at you for a moment, you leaned your head on side, you glared at her but smiled, it wasn’t even polite as a smile, it was just circumstantial.

“Don’t worry, I don’t need it”

You said it quite harshly earning a look from Ernst that made you turn around and go back to your calculations.

“Forgive her” Ernst said for you and Lin shrugged “I am worried for you” she whispered to him “you’re getting too much into this, it is not healthy, do not listen to Volkov but I need you to be awake and ready more than anyone, you’re our only physic here”

He chuckled lightly “the one who could survive here among you crazy heads” he joked as you looked back at them interacting and frowned lightly.

That evening he was applying some cream to ease the bruise Volkov left on his face after last experiment.

“That man should have been checked, with such a temper he shouldn’t be allowed on the mission” you mumbled as you stared at him while programming the dinner on the big screen to be delivered. Usually you would fetch it but the beating accident pushed Ernst to be asked to go to his rooms earlier than usual.

“I know, but I gave him his fair share and it is good like this. We are all stressed on board, Lin taught me this word which means actually stressed because of the pressure due on the mind, I need to ask her again about it”

“You like her, don’t you?”

You asked it like a firing shot, he rolled his eyes “please, not again with it”

You frowned as he dismissed always that topic but you hated it.

“You think she is more attractive than me?”

“That is not possible” he just said and you looked down at your floral shorts and top coord pyjama.

You looked back at the screen as you downloaded the exercises he had been prescribed before leaving the Earth to keep his back and neck healthy after so many hours on the computer.

“Would you fuck her?”

He glared at you “I said it is a closed topic”

You sighed nodding lightly, you nibbled your bottom lip but just carried on with the evening.

It was like an accident, Volkov was checking the oxygen reserve as always when he started to feel dizzy. He frowned as soon as he realised he rushed to the door. There was a leak. But when he rushed to the door it was locked and not even the code worked to open it.

He really thought it was the end but Lin saw him and with the help of Kiel managed to get him out of there.

Volkov didn’t speak to anyone for the rest of the night.

But Ernst knew perfectly who he had to talk to.

When he came to his quarters and locked the door you were wearing a nice deep blue dress, one of his favourites with off shoulders and a tight skirt, the dinner was ready for him to eat and some soft music playing in the background.

“You’re out of your mind”

He only said that and you looked at him confused “What? Why? Don’t you like salmon?”

“Don’t you play innocent with me Y/N, I saw the codes, you hacked the door, a clean job but you should know I can find your ID print anywhere, even behind the electricity system”

You frowned “I probably messed up, what door got blocked?”

He laughed out loud smacking his hand loudly over his forehead “How can you even be such a liar? Killing Volkov won’t solve anything”

You frowned as he spoke like that “He beat you Ernst”

You said it finally after a long silence “he handles you in that way and punches you and threatens you constantly, I can’t see him do this for more years”

“Killing him is not the solution”

“I was just trying to protect you!!” You screamed to him.

He stood straight in front of you, cringe colouring his features as you stared at him helplessly.

“What do you even know about protection? You’re not even -“

“I love you, that’s what I know”

He looked at you as you said that, the disgust on him turned to pain and then to rage.

“Take it back”

“No”

“I said” he came closer to you, his voice tone lowering “Take it back, now”

You shook your head as you felt tears forming in your eyes, your chest starting to hiccup as you tried to hold back the fear and the sadness of his reaction.

You daydreamed so much of him telling you that little ‘I love you too’.

And yet, here you’re.

“Ernst”

“No, no Ernst, this is over”

You paled up as he moved past you taking his tablet.

“Ernst, but it is true, I love you, I swear, it is love” you said, your voice trembling as your tears started to roll down your cheeks “Every day, you’re my only thought, you’re what I live for, I live to see you smile at me, to see you happy, to see that little quirky smirk you do when all the analysis work. The way you look at me when we are alone, the way you smile at me, share things with me. That’s all I wish for. Please. Please Ernst. You have to believe me”

“Liar.” His answer was dry, filled with anger and disgust, his eyes not even gracing you.

“I am not lying, I can’t lie to you. Ernst. I beg you, talk to me”

“How many times can you look at me in the eye and lie to me??” He shouted at the top of his lungs taking his dinner plate with his free hand and smashing it on the wall in front of him.

“Ernst” yours was a whisper, his name your only reason to live left as fear was now dominating you “please”

He glared at you, jaw clenched, hand locked into fists so tight that his knuckles were white.

He pressed something on the tablet that he still clenched on his side and on the big screen in the room that usually projected a night skyline for dinner appeared a red notification:

Are you sure you want to interrupt the hologram?

Yes - No

You stared at the screen as you closed your eyes, tears rolling even more down your cheeks.

“I love you Ernst”

“You’re not supposed to love, Y/N” his voice betraying the pain simmering after that mask of rage you know too well by now.

The tap of his finger on the tablet screen the last thing you heard before being caged back into your code.