#i know y’all want her but ill be devistated

[jikooksgirl19]

My Soulmates I 2

Genre: Soulmate AU, fluff,angst,eventual smut

Pairing: Idol Jimin x Lawyer Reader x Idol Jungkook

Warnings: mentions of death and abortion

AN: Thank you for your patience with this chapter. Not only did I delete it prior not once but twice, I had a personal loss happen that caused me to take some time away from writing. But I’m back on track and writing this story again. I hope you all enjoy this chapter. It’s short but I have some big stuff coming in chapter 3. Please let me know your thoughts and give feedback. I love talking to y’all.

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The three of you found yourself on the Top floor in Bang SiHyuks office. He sat across from you, hands clasped tightly just staring at you all. He hadn’t said anything in the last 15 minutes after you and the boys explained what happened, except to call on his personal secretary. The silence was deafening and you were so so tempted to tell a joke just to break the silence. Just as you were about to open your mouth his secretary Kim Hyunjae came into to office with a stack of papers with all the information about poly soulmates. He began to explain in detail about how the bond between you three is deeper than a normal soulmates, and it plays a huge part in the emotional side of things. Not only do multiple partners have a stronger connection to each other but their emotions, feelings, even moods can be affected by the other people in the relationship. It had been documented that on some occasions each party could physically feel what his or her mates were going through during moments of heightened situations. For example if one party had a headache or got hurt or even was sexually active the others could feel this both physically and emotionally. They also could not be parted from each other for long periods of time without it causing harm to themselves. Though extremely rare the pull of the bond would act as a tether and bring all participants back to each other, or risk crippling illness and the eventual death from the one that left or was left in the relationship. Unlike a normal Soulmate bond it could not be broken except through death as the universe had decided that these were the most sacred of bonded mates hence why they were so rare.

Only one case with no death of the separated mate has ever been documented, and that is in the case of Korean Soulmates Song Jungman, Jong Ara, and Im Jinna . The group had decided they wanted children so both Jong Ara and Im Jinna had tried to conceive but only Ara was able to do so. In a jealous fit Jinna claimed that Ara somehow caused her infertility and wanted to break the three apart. She played the victim so well and convinced Song Jungmin to leave Ara. Together they would start a new life with just the two of them leaving Ara behind. Ara was devistated as she was expecting their child and knew if they left her with the intention to not come back she could get sick, lose their child or even die. She pleaded with them both claiming her innocence but unfortunately Jungmin did not believe her and they left her to move to Japan. Ara waited to fall ill knowing that the separation would be too much but her overwhelming love for her child triggered a new bond that allowed her to survive the loss of both soulmates. After several years it was discovered by Jungmin that Jinna had once had an abortion before meeting her soulmates and as a result she became infertile. He was destroyed by this information because he didn’t try to listen to Ara and wholeheartedly believed only Jinna. He threw away part of his heart because he believed the other so willingly knowing that it would lead to the death of Ara. He believed Ara to have passed away after they abandoned her all those years ago. He left Jinna to go home to Korea and accept his fate wishing to be buried next to Ara and their unborn child only to discover that Ara not only survived but had twins, a son and daughter and was married to a man that had lost his soulmate years earlier. Though he tried to make amends with Ara it was difficult for her to forgive him as their bond had been broken beyond repair. They were both still connected but since they had been separated for over fifteen years it wasn’t as strong, in fact it was like meeting an old acquaintance instead of a lover. Unfortunately his separation from Jinna became too much and he succumbed to debilitating illness and died only three months after reconnecting with Ara and his children. It was later found out that Jinna died the same day in a hospital in Japan. Ara was of course sad at this news, but the love of her children allowed her to continue living and she was able to find peace.

You had tears in your eyes and noticed that you were holding on to both Jimin and Jungkooks hands during the story. You were so wrapped up in this that you didn’t even realize you three had unknowingly gravitated towards each other for comfort. They were both choked up as well. Someone cleared their throat causing you to refocus on the gentlemen in front of you. You sat up straight and decided to get straight to the point.

“So where do we go from here? I don’t even know what I’m supposed to be feeling at the moment, and now you’re telling me I have this life altering, can’t change a thing, you now have not one but TWO soulmates, and oh yeah, you will feel all their emotions and feelings and you can’t even be away from them for too long or you might just up and kick the freaking bucket situation going on...this is what you are saying to us right now?” You couldn’t help the panic rising in your voice. Your professionalism was flying right out of the proverbial window. Jungkook just looked at you, and then Bang PD and said “What she said.” You couldn’t help it you started to giggle at his brief statement then the boys started giggling with you.

Bang SiHyuk cleared his throat and got right to the point. “First we get you moved into the boys complex. You will have an apartment on the floor below the dorm along next to Jins soulmate Yuna. This will allow visits between you three without risk for now. Only essential staff will be told about this arrangement. Y/N you will be hired on as a permanent staff member within our own legal team. Also because you are also multilingual you will assist with our translation team while the boys are traveling, as well as help teach English to to boys. This will help with the questions the public might have about you being around the boys all the time. This is going to take some preparation before we can put this information out to the public. We are also going to have to get you started on the path to Citizenship here in Korea.” Said Bang SiHyuk loudly while clapping his hands together as though he just solved all the problems in front of him. “Now I suggest that you three get to know each other and settle anything else you might need to attend to quickly. Y/N I will have your apartment ready in two days. Is that enough time to get you packed up and ready to move?”

You sat there with your mouth open like a fish trying to digest everything that was being said. This was going too fast and you needed to pump the brakes on whatever this was that was happening. Realizing you needed to answer you opened your mouth to vehemently deny any of his requests and spoke up with a resounding. “Yes Sir.” It came out of your mouth like it was nothing. You immediately slapped your hand over your mouth and thought what on Gods green earth is wrong with me? I have lost my ever loving mind. While you and your inner bitch-demon continued to argue in your mind, the others started making arrangements for you.

You noticed that Kim Hyunjae didn’t seem as though he was fond of you or this situation you had found yourself in. He didn’t out and out say anything rude or with tone but your gut told you he was not happy with this relationship between you, Jimin and Jungkook. You chalked it up to the amount of paperwork this was going to cause him so you tried your best to let him know you would be as much help as you could and you would do your best for the boys and the company. At this point you were giving Jimin and Jungkook your current address and contact information so you could meet tomorrow morning for a “ Get to know you meal”. You excused yourself and prepared to go home when Jungkook caught up to you. “ I know this is a lot Noona and we are all a bit overwhelmed and know absolutely nothing about each other, but please know that I am so blessed to call you my soulmate. You seem very kind and you are beautiful and smart and amazingly funny even when you don’t mean to be.” He smiled at you and your heartstrings tugged in the most peculiar way. You were already becoming attached as you could feel a pull towards the younger man. He took your hand and shook it in a very businesslike manner and said “Till tomorrow malady” and bowed in a funny way causing you to laugh again. Jimin came out and grabbed your other hand and said he was looking forward to breakfast and getting to know more about you as well. You said your goodbyes and turned and left the building hailing a cab to take you home so you could process the events of today. You had not been prepared for the absolute crazy that happened today but deep down you were getting excited at the prospect of having and loving two adorable soulmates.

As Jungkook and Jimin were getting ready to leave Jungkook looked at Jimin and asked “What are you going to tell Somi?” Jimin just looked back at Jungkook with sadness in his eyes and shrugged his shoulders and replied “I have no idea.”

To Be Continued...

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The Airing of the Jaime Lannister Grievances because I can’t move on with my life until it’s purged

TL;DR: thank you Jaime Lannister for being one of the characters who has given me the gift of trying. Also the gendering of Jaime’s abuse and resulting downfall is really gross.

Hey y’all strap in because this is going to be a long one.

A few things to know before I start. First, like most people I was deeply upset by S8x05. I was upset by the unearned and ill constructed turn of Daenerys. I was upset by the continued stupidity of Tyrion. I was upset by the complete anticlimax of Cersei and most of all I was devistated by the end of Jaime Lannister.

Second, Jaime is my favourite character. Cersei is my third favourite character. I DO NOT HATE CERSEI.

Third I am the last person on Earth to come to the Lord of Light when it comes to JaimexBrienne as a romantic ship.

Want to have all the facts known so that no one can be all “your just butt hurt because your boyfriend didn’t get the ending you want”.

Like all good stories Game of Thrones has transcended just being entertainment and has come to represent something very personal. It has gifted me with a world view on how to get through living a life in a difficult world. Nine times out of ten most people will make the wrong choice or do the wrong thing. They do it because it’s easy, because their scared, because they know no different and because braking patterns and changing is just about the hardest thing anyone will ever do. It is that one time out of the ten when you actually try that is life. In that one time you try is when you find out things about yourself. It is when you are brave. It is where love exists.

No one represented the stirdes you make when you try, more than Jaime Lannister. If going back to and dying with Cersei (like he did in the show, not going back to kill her) is how ASOIAF ends I’ll still be stung but at least GRRM will have thousands of pages to explain his motivations (him explaining to Brienne that he loves her and the life of good he has built with her but at the end of the world he feels for his sins that he only deserves Cersei is the only motivation I will accept).

I have been watching season 8 with creeping dread but a burning hope that this plane could land. I was able to put aside the off, and I mean REALLY OFF characterisation, of some of the best characters put to screen so that the diarrhoeaing of plot could take place. But when my man said he didn’t care about the innocents of Kings Landing, taking the best thing he every did IN HIS LIFE and make it mean NOTHING is when Game of Thrones and I broke up. I am paradoxically too depressed and to optimistic for that to be true.

You cannot swear up and down that this is not a story about nihilism, that this is a story about breaking toxic cycles of the past and end it with Jaime saying that, with Sandor Clegane falling into the fire, with Theon being delivered grace but only after suffering immeasurably and being irrevocably broken first.

While I had never romantically shipped JaimexBrianne before this season and NC-W’s lovely, completely in love facial acting showed me the way there was still no doubt in my mind that Brianne was the love of Jaime’s life. She was the love of his life because she showed him what his life could be like, how he could feel and what his legacy could be if he tried.

The gendered response to the Jaime/Cersei death has been deeply disheartening. Whether it’s people saying that they had a “special” bond that couldn’t be broken or some people actually acknowledging that it was an abusive relationship, there is a definite air of he’s a man so he should be able to break away from her. Make no mistake Cersei made Jaime the victim of the abuse that made her and that is why for me Cersei is THE tragic figure of Game of Thrones. Cersei never tried. She couldn’t, but, thanks to LH’s beautifully nuanced performance we saw the briefest of flickers of her wanting to know what trying would feel like. She couldn’t because the world that made her would not let her and if she couldn’t the other half of her couldn’t either.

So fuck you Game of Thrones and your garbage ending. In my rational mind that understands how stories work Jaime Lannister died in the arms of the woman he loved, doing the right thing one last time. In my irrational heart that loves stories Jaime Lannister is living a long, quiet and happy life as the first gentleman of Tarth, sometimes failing, but always trying.