#i know my followers aren't the ones flashing antisemitism at me

[thegayfromrulid]

I'm really sorry for my silence lately. It's really hard to open social media and scroll right now. While I know many people aren't intending to spread fear and hatred, most want to be participating in activism, the rise of anti-Semitic posts on every form of social media has been overwhelming. Even amidst posts of people being very reasonable and educational, anti-Semitism is seeping through the cracks on these same tags, throwing all Jewish people under the same umbrella.

It's very hard to come online and see not only posts about how my family could be killed any day now, but also those ignorant posts that seep through saying I also deserve death as an Ashkenazi person. These sentiments are not exclusive to my online world. People are screaming to kill Jewish people on my own university campus. I do not feel safe online nor offline right now, and I am not a supporter of the war crimes and genocides occurring.

My family fled Nazis in Europe not that long ago. We want no part of genocide. We do not believe in genocide. Yet we are being harassed constantly right now as a loud minority of ignorant people throw all Jewish people under the same umbrella.

So, I apologize for being quiet. I apologize that I'm forgetting to post my updates. I am drowning in an ignorance that throws someone else's opinions and morals on me. I am trying so hard to keep on living and keep on going to my classes and go out to get food and necessities. But every day it gets harder the more people scream and tell me innocent blood is on my hands.

Please let me speak for myself, if you have a complaint. I lost a very dear friend in Palestine. I may lose dear family right now. We are not a monolith. I weep for the injustice. I weep out of fear for my loved ones. Please do not call me a murderer. Please do not call me a racist. I am a Jewish person who can think and reason for myself.

[sobbingdistantnoises]

25, 29, 38, 47 and 62!

25. Who's someone you like as a musician but not as a person?

The big names coming to my head immediately are Varg Vikernes and Euronymous. They're both former members of Mayhem and definitely not great people at all, but I do like the music Mayhem (and specifically the first album since that's the one both of them are on) made a lot

Here's a couple couple paragraphs of just me explaining some stuff they did; in case anyone's sensitive to this type of stuff, there's (mostly pretty brief besides the messing with the dead body) mentions of antisemitism, messing with a dead body, suicide, self harm, anti-Christianity (not sure if there's a term for this), torture, and murder

29. If you use Spotify, name all the songs on your Repeat Rewind playlist in order.

Metallica - Creeping Death

Exodus - Persona Non Grata

Children of Bodom - Triple Corpse Hammerblow

Venom - In League with Satan

Metallica - Master of Puppets

Exodus - Chemi-Kill

Children of Bodom - Platitudes and Barren Words

Forbidden - Follow Me

Metallica - Motorbreath

Exodus - Blacklist

Gama Bomb - 666Teen

Diamond Head - Am I Evil

Metallica - Holier Than Though

Exodus - Throwing Down

Alice In Chains - Angry Chair

Misfits - Crimson Ghost

Metallica - Seek and Destroy

Exodus - Culling the Herd

Forbidden - Forsaken at the Gates

Children of Bodom - Hexed

Metallica - The Call of Kthulu

Exodus - Brain Dead

Onslaught - 66'fucking'6

Havok - Point of No Return

Metallica - Of Wolf and Man

Exodus - Open Season

Flotsam and Jetsam - Burn the Sky

Annihilator - Sixes and Sevens

Metallica - (Anesthesia) Pulling Teeth

Exodus - Antiseed

38. Top 5 favorite debut albums?

Alrighty, list thing, let's go

Kill 'Em All (Metallica), Forbidden Evil (Forbidden) Killing Is My Business...and Business Is Good (Megadeth), De Mysteriis Dom Sathanas (Mayhem), and Doomsday for the Deceiver (Flotsam and Jetsam)

That's surprisingly not really too hard of a choice because there were only like 6 that I felt might be able to compete, huh. Apparently most of the songs that I like aren't from debut albums, so that's kind of interesting to learn

47. What's a band you tried to get into but just couldn't?

I still haven't given up yet, but I'm slowly trying to find something from either Childish Gambino or Tyler the Creator (hopefully I'm typing those right, going off of memory right now) since I have a friend who likes both of those people. It's a whole different genre, so it'll probably take a bit of time, but I'm determined. I know it doesn't completely fit because the question implies having given up, but it's the only thing I can think of right now, shjska

62. Favorite guitar solo?

The one in At The Gallow's End (Candlemass song)! I love how the start of it overlaps with the ending of the vocals, and the slow start and ending mixed with that quick flash of speed in the middle of the solo add a lot of personality. I personally interpret it as a bit of a cry for help, then panic/resistance against the execution, then getting knocked out and having the execution happen regardless, which I really like the idea of