#i just always feel a little bad when i can't be as present ic wise as i'd like to be XP

[take-ya-to-the-ghey-bar]

well, part of me feels a little bad to mention this, as i've already had another stretch of unplanned down time from being super active, on account of being sick recently-- but~... i just wanted to let all you lovelies know that come a lil later this afternoon (probably around 1-ish) i'll be heading over to visit that little friend group of mine~

i've got plans to bring my laptop, plus i'll be mobile whenever i get the chance to lurk there lol-- but still, i'll probably be quiet around here and on my other blogs, plus over on discord, for the next week or two until i'm back home ; w ;"

[erisenyo]

i’m not anon from before but i must also say words… hakoda treating sokka like a child, OR like in day of black sun with the invasion plan presentation, just throwing him off the deep end and watching him fail? whereas bato at the abbey gave him comfort like home with the way the room is decorated and the food, and he took him ice fishing (proving he’s An Adult or whatever) and then gave him the mark of the wise… bato refusing sokka’s advances at first because sokka’s obviously not old enough and he loves hakoda but sokka just keeps pushing and pushing because. he told me i’m an adult now with the ice fishing! he told me i’m wise! he believes in me! and bato tries to ignore him but he eventually tells himself. well. sokka DID finish ice fishing. and both of them are so lonely, “away from the pack” like they say in the show, and ugh hakoda eventually finds out of course and bato has felt terrible the whole time and sokka doesn’t understand why hakoda’s soooo mad at bato. yeah dad and bato kinda had a thing going but warriors take care of each other when they’re away from their lovers! warriors help each other out! and sokka’s a warrior. he’s been in battles, he’s indirectly killed people, he lead an invasion! he’s not that young- right? he’s not a kid anymore? dad’s just being overprotective. he knew what he was doing. he knew what he wanted. maybe. maybe it would’ve been nicer if bato had just held him like dad used to do when he was little. maybe he didn’t know what he was getting himself into. maybe it doesn’t feel great anymore. but sokka could never tell that to anyone- a warrior’s tough. a warrior knows how to handle pain.

This one's really striking a chord, huh? Hakoda not knowing how to be a dad to Sokka, but also not knowing how to stop treating him like a kid because part of Hakoda froze when Kya died and Sokka was 10 and everything else has just been papering over the pain and throwing himself into things that make him seem fine (being Chief, being a warrior) without touching on the things that hurt (his kids' grief, because it calls too much to his own).

And Bato being able to see the ways Sokka is growing up that Hakoda doesn't, and also seeing where Sokka needs comfort and support that Hakoda can't give, just seeing *Sokka* and stepping up to support him--and how jarring it must be for Sokka when Bato suddenly steps back, because Bato didn't mean to support him like *this.* How hurt and doubtful and insecure it would make him, to have the person who has been supporting him as an adult suddenly so no, not actually an adult, not like that, not really, I believe in you but not with this.

And Bato sliding kicking and screaming into a bad idea but unable to stop himself, unable to counter all of Sokka's arguments and justifications and challenges because part of him *does* want it, too, which is part of the problem. Bato never set out to do those things to get *here* but here they are anyway, and now Bato can't look at Hakoda, can't be his second, can't think about him, can't be his best friend, without being painfully aware that Hakoda would view this as a betrayal--because it is, part of Bato would point out. A betrayal of an affection that Hakoda never accepted, but still *had.*

And Hakoda always knew he had it, too, and was kind about it, and maybe sometimes took a little advantage of it but life is messy when you've been friends with someone for so long and through so much grief, but it's still going to make Hakoda finding out so much worse. The ugly things suddenly forced to light, all the pain and frustration between them, Hakoda feeling like his son has been used and Bato feeling like Hakoda is just treating him like some option to have on deck the way he always has, and Sokka still fighting to be heard because what's the big deal calm down get over it, it's just sex, it's just what warriors do, it's just what *adults* do. Right?

And that would be a second knife to the heart for both of them, that for Sokka it's just sex, that he was willing to wade into something so messy and upend years of history for something so casual, that Bato thought it was different this time and once again he was wrong.

And oof, anon, a knife to the heart for me how you needed with Sokka realizing once he's in it that actually, he was seeking support, not sex, and mixed it up, and now he doesn't know how to get out, now he feels like he has to keep going because Sokka can never bear to see the people he cares about hurting if it's in his power to help them. And he learned how to be a warrior and a man from his dad, after all. So Sokka knows that a warrior and a man never shows that he's hurting.

(In short--everyone needs a whole lot of therapy none of them are getting lol)

[bighitfics]

CEO CHARACTER PROFILE [2]

dynamic with their oc's (you can imagine yourself if you want to, however you like)

Taehyung and Oc

virtuous ray of sunshine and her hot headed guy

loud extrovert and shy extrovert

sensual love

always gossiping about the most random and bizarre things together.

would over pretend to be more in pain because he's just obsessed with the way she tends to get worried, he basks in the attention she pays him.

appears unapproachable and disinterested but he's already picturing to fuck her.

is wary of male friends, he has passive aggressive interactions with them. he can't help it but he ends up overreacting quite violently everytime a male would romantically want to approach you. will obsessively hold onto your waist and ask for kisses.

he's at your service at any given time, be it those anxious bad days, the chicken ball and blueberry ice cream cravings at midnight or picking you up from work, he wouldn't let you do the littlest of things by yourself.

would stare intensely.

calls you love/pretty girl all the time.

"mhm, sure"

"can I touch you there?"

"can we like fuck? right now?"

"open the door, I'm standing outside your apartment"

intensely keep staring at you, and make you nervous with the much details he would point out.

will have your messy morning head selfie as his lockscreen.

mutual fascination.

silent treatment as a way to cope when they have a fight, but never the type to scream or get physically violent.

will prevent his cunning family members from reaching out to you, if they ever try any of their ancestral ways with you, he'd bring them to shambles.

Hosoek and Oc.

overthinking delinquent and his book nerd

poised extrovert and clueless introvert

obsessive love

Hosoek tends to be practical and rational as a partner, it will take much time for him to bare his heart. Whereas she's full of life and the plumpness of youth. (at least that's what he has in his mind)

the kind of lover to send you luxurious presents out of nowhere, BUT mind you he'd die than admit that in front of you.

would unintentionally become controlling in the beginning, which would lead to arguments in the upcoming time.

habitant to admire you discreetly.

"oh really?"

"that's my girl."

"come back, I wanna see you"

will mentally freak out when he sees you cry, would make ridiculous dad jokes in attempt to make you feel better.

he'd never let you pay for bills at dates not even split

calls you sweetheart/babe but only in private, he doesn't like any sort of phd in public (that doesn't even count as a phd) but things like that matter to him.

would feel turned on when he'd observe you picking on his habits.

one touch starved, one can't stop touching.

both get defensive if anyone ever hints at something negative about each other.

lots of yearning for each other.

Jungkook and Oc.

strict giant and his little bundle of smartness

calm and collected introvert and talkative introvert

unconditional love

grumpy and smiley.

intellectual and wise conversations at midnight.

always eager to give oral down there for the longest time, quite impatient and sexually active when he's around his lover, and you find it amusing because that's unlike his normal self to be so horny most of the time.

normally force him to watch brutal crime stories with you which ends with you getting scarred for life (just for that particular episode), and he always needs to reassure and cool you down if you get too panicky, as if you didn't insisted on watching it in the first place.

they get caught making out (almost eating each other's tongue off as they say) multiple time.

your real name is your pet name (is not really the sweet talker) calls you angel/my healer when he's not sober.

"fuck yeah"

"you like that?"

"make sure to eat."

fuck everyone else I only care about you.

owns up to the fact that you're his total, absolute, and infinite opposite, would shyly smile thinking about your silly antics.

would give you cash money as a gift.

will exceedingly devote his time to get to know your family, he's more of a "your family is mine" kind of guy. he'd create a rocking bond with your father, and a playful fellowship with your mother he's gonna have that "run away with me please, I like you more than your daughter" and he'd spoil your younger brother with expensive gifts even when you'd give him an ear about it, from the latest x-box to the latest balenciaga and prada shoes he'll take full responsibility of your little brother.

his wealth will overwhelm you sometimes.

will sneakily smoke out of your sight, would feel apologetic whenever he'd be intoxicated and take marijuana (after countless of anxious resistance he'd just give in), he'd most probably avoid you on days like that which might cause misunderstanding from your side.

both fatigued and need a break away from the society.

both hopelessly in love with each other.

one wouldn't hurt a fly, another one wouldn't hesitate to kill someone hands down.

my note :

hello, everyone.

I'm basically writing after a year. a lot of things happened in just a year and it cost me to loose a lot my ambitions, my dreams, my desires they are ruined and it was self destructive in many ways. I couldn't work on anything nonetheless let's not get more into this topic because it's tiring atp.

How have you all been?

Did you like it? I have no idea where I got the sense of motivation to make this at five am in the morning but I think I liked the outcome.

Which one is close to your ideal type of dynamic? I'd be very delighted if I get some feedback.

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