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rabbithaver · 1 month ago

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every so often i will see a post from a leftist on this website that is so egregiously ableist that i remember that like. oh yeah the userbase of leftists on this website is violently anti-disabled people and will jump at any chance to demonize any of us for any reason. i just forget that fact because i'm extremely dedicated to curating my space

i'm paraphrasing here but i saw a post that said, "every time i see an American [disabled person] mention being scared about the election because they're afraid of losing their benefits i have to laugh. anybody who wants blood-soaked money from the US government deserves to starve" which. like. goodness that's a lot to unpack. i think we should burn the whole suitcase instead !

#i inserted [disabled person] because they used a fucking slur instead and i didn't want that in my post #like i feel like there should be room for disabled people like me whose lives literally entirely depend on accessing said >#> extremely limited benefits in conversations about whether voting in this election makes you complicit in genocide #which like! i do understand. i do. it's nauseating to think about what this shit ass country is doing. it's horrific. i do not blame anyone #> for not wanting to be a part of that. *and* i am also terrified for my own life because i remember the first time trump won it suddenly >#> became IMPOSSIBLE for ANYONE to get on benefits. EVER. and so many disabled ppl i know went to renew benefits theyd had for decades >#> just to be denied. one of whom was a below-the-neck paraplegic. he died because he lost those benefits!!! because trump won #i really do understand why people dont feel right voting for harris. or why they don't vote at all. i truly do. but holy shit i am so scare #and yes! i am aware that people in palestine and gaza are suffering so much worse. and i wish i could change that #but every single person in power in the US is pro-israel and eagerly drinking the anti-palestine kool-aid. no matter who wins >#> things will not change in that part of the world. and it is infuriating. when the revolution comes this will change. but it hasnt.#the revolution will not save me as a physically disabled person. it will not save any of us. we do not matter to leftists. i am sorry but >#> this is the one thing i have learned after being in leftist spaces for over 10 years. and posts like the one i mentioned prove it #so i am very sorry. i really am. for being physically disabled. but i cannot survive another 4 years relying on my parents for everything #if trump wins i will be killing myself. this is a promise. i cannot do that again #i know it makes me a bad person to be afraid that harris will lose. but people on the left already think i'm a bad person for being disable #i want the genocide to stop. i absolutely do. i also want to survive. i am terrified that the US leftists will sacrifice disabled people #like me so they can feel good about being put in a real life trolley situation #again. im sorry. im so fucking sorry. i wish i was a better person. i wish i was able to give more. i know that if i was just a good #person i would be able to have a job and give to every palestinian gofundme on my dash. i would be able to do more than my daily clicks >#> and reaching out and calling representatives that don't care. if i was a good person i would be able to convince my parents that z*onism>#is deeply fucking racist. and that israel is wildly racist and killing palestinians for fun. if i was a good person i would be able to make #>them leftists too. im sorry. im sorry. im sorry im not good enough. im sorry that im scared. im so scared and it's not right for me to be #when so much worse is going on because of this countrys bloodlust. im sorry that im benefiting from being born here i dont want to be #im sorry for not having any other options. if i was a good person i know i would have them. im sorry. god im sorry im so fucking sorry

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