#i hope u had a good week tho and it wasn't too stressful!!

[izzymalec]

saskia 🤝🏽 carrying me through the duolingo friend quest (tysm ily i apologise for my questionable performance this week 😅) 💕✨

asmdkmsd it's usually the other way round so i'm glad to be of help for once!!! we are slaying this owl app 🤗💓

[l1nghuarchive]

HI THERE ASTRIE!!! I was browsing through ur blog when i realized. wait. i can request mystic messenger stuff???? WOH OMG????

Well as a die hard Yoosung simp, now i feel like ive been called upon by hatsune miku herself to request a Yoosung x reader where they dye their hair together (oneshots pspsps)

Ive never requested anything from u before, so feel free to decline this! and also. TAKE. UR. TIME. Idk if u know this from how i am on Amia's blog but. IF U ARENT TAKING CARE I WILL BE VV ANGRY >:( SO U BETTER NOT OVERWORK URSELF OR GRGRGRRRR

Pairing : Yoosung Kim x reader

Warnings : n/a (mention of rikas death ig?)

A/n : i actually took my time :') (1 week+) hope you enjoy this tho!! Btw you are NOT the mc and instead a college friend of yoosung.

COLLEGE was rather… Stressful to say the least, with you entering one of the best universities out in Korea you expected yourself to always do good in your studies and that is what you did. Though, you didn't expect yourself to befriend one of your classmates who didn't really enjoy studying as much which really made you wonder how he even got into SKY University perhaps by luck? But yet you heard that Yoosung got in with a scholarship and is going to be working for the corporate heir Jumin Han, of course silently you did envy him after all being on C&R's waiting list could only be achieved in your dreams..

You didn't expect to be dying your hair on the weekends where you could be studying for upcoming exams, well you didn't really have any choice with Yoosung's constant pleas. You both decided to dye your hair together since Yoosung's hair colour was fading as well,though your parents wouldn't have allowed you to dye your hair they aren't here to nag at you! So why not just live your life without the eyes of your parents?

You were lucky enough to convince your parents to pay for your tuition fees, after all you were a grown adult and should be finding a job instead of asking your parents for money. Though they did pay a crazy amount to get you in here, you still felt guilty for them spending so much on you.

Yoosung's voice awoken your train of thoughts before your vision cleared as you saw Yoosung snapping his fingers in front of you with a worried face.

"are you okay? You don't look too good.. I didn't put any hair dye on your eyes right!?!"

You shook your head before a calm smile on your face as both of you waited for your hair dye to dry, you weren't one for small chatter and often it was Yoosung who started conversations between you both though it was silent between you both it wasn't awkward at all and instead it just added to the calm atmosphere.

"So, how is RFA doing..? Do you perhaps plan on holding another party soon?"

You always refrained from talking about anything related to RFA after hearing that Yoosung's cousin had sadly passed away, comfort wasn't your strong suit but yet you still try and gave him encouraging words. Though you always wanted to attend a party held by the RFA and even if you got the chance, you knew it might clash with your studies after all you had always placed studies above all even when you were in high school. You never really went to parties, instead you were always cooped up in your own room reading or studying you technically weren't a loner. You still had friends but they weren't really in your inner circle and you only interacted with them when it was lunch.

You looked over to see Yoosung ranting about the new member of RFA with stars in his eyes, unknowingly a small smile dawned on your face for some reason your heart was slightly warm perhaps not used to this feeling of someone actually wanting to talk to you though you won't deny it isn't a good feeling.. You had always found yourself smiling and enjoying whenever Yoosung rants about his day or his games, was this what your books.. Call a crush?

Reqs are closed as of currently sorry! Likes, reblogs and follows are always appreciated tysm if u do any of those!

[hyuckmov]

IT WAS SO GOOD LIKE MY SOUL ALMOST WENT UPWARDS …your ability to write in a way I can visualize everything is insane…... First of all rockstar hyuck made me MADDDDDD my blood was boiling at his audacity ( still love him tho ) he was angry at reader for talking to his member but then made out with girls left right be fr

There were some key moments I thought he was truly going to like actually take her out instead of just fucking her but yea it never

When they were fuckibg and his other members stood in front of the door MAN HAD ME STRESSED I could barely focus on the smut so I ended up skipping a few moments ( i will read them when I’m less stressed) I felt so anxious

But the smut was good btw

I FELT SO BAD FOR JISUNG …. he just wanted to take reader on a cute date only for her to get railed by hyuck. And the way he was embarrassed by hyuck just made me feel guilty. Haechan is just petty as hell. #Jisung deserved better

Idk about Mark did he actually have a girlfriend and is a cheater? I felt like Hyuck lied but not sure about that

Ohhh when Hyuck got stood up by reader I felt some satisfaction…he deserved it, honestly it was probably a valid reason why she stood him up.

Out all of them Jaemin is the only real one ☝️

Also I was right rockstar hyuck is in fact best fic of the year💯

- 🍞 anon

🍞 ANON!!!! I WAS SO HAPPY TO RECIEVE THIS ASKKK thank u for taking the time to review it!!!

i'm so happy u were able to visualise it...ngl i was afraid the rockstar-ness wasn't enhancing the story and it was just regular angst so i made sure to always describe the concert settings too LOL im glad you were able to feel for while being mad at rockstar hyuck...

also omg it was my first time writing a scene like that which makes this fic so special to me bc it just SUITS him !!! proud cocky rockstar hyuck who gets jealous for reasons he can't explain and maybe is desperate to prove himself just made me think i haaaave to have a scene where his band members are involved somehow. i hope you can enjoy it now you know they don't burst in HEHE

jisung truly deserved better 😭😭😭 he has the purest intentions... i can tell u for a fact after hyuck mentioned reader to the band he died his hair black got so emo and moped about his room with the curtains drawn plucking at his bass for dayyyys. trust ur not the only one feeling for him maybe i will give him a gf by the end of part 2 <3

hmmm did mark have a girlfriend? why did y/n stand him up? WE WILL SEE i feel like its become a tipping point for both their characters so its making me extra nervous u have me questioning my original plot 😭  there will definitely be more jaemin in the next part tho!!!

thank you so much again for sharing your thoughts with me and supporting me so much thus far !!! it means the world to me :) hope you have a great week!!!

[inupipi]

ilyt beanie 🥺🥺 I've been fine!! im trying to manage my workload more and not neglect my responsibilities (aka homework lmao) so im feeling good :) hruu?

today i tried replacing xingqiu with kokomi and sayu and the little electro wolf things were dead so fast i thought that the event still wasn't over JAHSHDHD i managed to get 4 gold medals on this floor!!! :D but on the first and second? 😃 let's just say i didn't read the instructions for the rewards properly before i reset the trial sjdbbffbbf kokomi is actually really fun to play!! I can't dodge anything so all i did was stand there and let kokomi's jellyfish do its thing ajbdbfff

the portal does lead to somewhere if you're in the glowing bubble thingy for a world quest! but it's just mesmerising to watch, even on mobile with potato graphics 😭

puzzles in enkanomiya were the next level omd the hilichurls should riot over the constant change in nighttime/daytime that i caused. i managed to solve a bunch of them on my own, fortunately :D plss the moving wall puzzle made me so confused bcs how can it be symmetrical when the imaginary blue walls aren't in one line with each other. then i realised the colour didn't matter and u just had to fill in all of the space 🤡

i only have a hundred or so bcs i don't like it if the amount drops under 100 🖐 i just did gorou's hangout a few days ago and he's the bestest boy in the world, , , i was NOT expecting for us to have to retreat in the end after the confrontation 😭😭 i loved beidou's hangout out of the new ones the most, though. she really has great characterisation and writing. chongyun's still remains my fav tho bcs im biased 😩✨

NOOO JAHSHDHDHF im so blind sometimes too. what i did was i tried to get as many chests and those jade things as possible without asking for hints and when i hit around 70-80% exploration, i used hints

mwahh sorry for the horrible late response i've had a shit ton of work this week omfg i missed u sm <33 and pls do i knwo i always say this but if u have a way to get urself less stressed i think i will turn into a rainbow :D and im good!! just very happy right now for some reason BSHFSHB right?? i love LOVED making electro-charged teams with kokomi i had the time of my life... imagine getting all gold D: i dont have two main dps built (for some reason i felt like i said this already, i probably did but eh) so i had to rely on trial characters as dps and all my good supports, and xiao basically going solo for his floors <33 gooo xiao but right?? lifesaver for anyone who has zhongli NSJFBSH tfw cant dodge <//3 i get bullied sm for it ship save me pls omg i'll try going there today :D when i log on bcs i have class rn and i am abt to fall asleep oops omg i hope u mean date's quest?? that was so painful i was moving the outer walls for like half an hour before i realised there was another thing for the inner walls... the humiliation i felt was horrible (but also pls hepl me w puzzles i just leave it to a friend who comes in once in a while NSJFBHE) 100 or so... honestly same but its with like. 40 i have no knowledge on where to get the cores so i jsut go near tree go near rock domain and boom done :D omg omg ship i forgot to tell u built chongyun so that he's not on lv 60 anymore (he's also nearing friendship 10) and can i just say im in love i love this boy sm FBEJBFS at least he doesnt go gRGgRGGR on his idle <333 thats very big brain of u i got to like 40% and gave up and low graphics were not on my side

[tsukishumai]

HI BESTIE!! IM ALIVE!! 😩😩😫😫 I've been awake for 23 hours now and it's crazy that my day wasn't even productive 💔 To be honest, instead of wrapping up my remaining requirements for the semester, I've been procrastinating the past couple of weeks!! I mean it's not really by choice. I just feel so drained, and I only just recently regained a bit of my social energy. I think it's burnout?? I've been just under a rock this whole time and staying in my own little world. I was even out of reach from friends. There are really just some days wherein I prefer to shut the world out for awhile and just be peaceful in my own company.

I am hoping that my day could be more productive later once I wake up from my sleep. I also am locking that by the end of the month, all my remaing reqs should be turned in. They're quite heavy so I'm very overwhelemed and quite lost on how to start with them. Also while procarastinating awhile aho, I finally got to read your recent Ushiwaka contents and I am inlove!! 😩😫😭💜 It's been quite awhile too since I've been here on tumblr so your writings really made my day bb!! 🥺💜

So to sum it all up, i am stressing out for not having any outputs yet but, I am having a hard time progressing on them because I'm so stressed out 🙃 All the stress aside, how have you been doing bestie?? I MISSED U SM MI AMORE!! 😭😭🥺🥺💜💜 Please acccept this 🤲🏻🧋 boba as my treat to u bc Im back from the dead (well, semi back,,, still dedt tho 😩)

-🦠

GERMY MY GERMY omg how i've missed you so :'(

ahhh i'm so sorry to hear that, germy! honestly, you were going pretty ham like literally ALL ENGINES WERE ON FULL THROTTLE so while i'm sad to hear that ur feeling burnt out and exhausted, im a little thankful that finally you're taking a chance to rest ur body and ur mental health? like girl u were always working working working so it's good u gave urself a little recharge!

don't be so hard on urself bestie. we are only human and could only do so much! just gotta take things one day at a time, one task at a time, and you'll see everything will be okay (: and i know ur smart and hardworking so you'll catch up in no time!

ANYWAY I'VE LITERALLY MISSED U SO SO MUCH! i've been doing welllll germy just like super super busy, i recently moved houses, my s/o left for the philippines and is gonna be gone for 3 months, i had a weekend trip with my friends and seriously fucked up my ankle lmao so like, it's a whole lotta nothing but also a whole lotta things going on fdalfdas i've also been feeling a lack of inspo and lack of drive like, so many ideas but no fire to want to write anything LOL

anyway germy i'm really happy to hear from u and i missed u so so much im sorry it took me so long to reply but i needed to like sit down and take a breather and give u all my attention lol but ILY ILY AND I MISS U SM!!

[kyunsies]

Hi angel!!! Feels like it’s been awhile since we talked (although i did send one ask a couple weeks ago that I think got lost in the tumblr void…) Have fun at the concert tomorrow!!! I was trying to go the one near me next week but I have to work, so I’m going to miss it 😭😭 If you wanted to do a liveblogging kind of thing for your concert I think that would be really fun! I’m a little stressed out/anxious rn because my family is seriously thinking about moving back to michigan (which, don’t get me wrong, i’m very happy about, it’s just going to be a big change and I’ll have to find a new job and hhhhh 😵‍💫) Also, my sister and I were watching some of the newest kpop releases together and we watched the new Bvndit one! I remember you saying you liked them, have you had a chance to listen to the new song yet? Anyway I just wanted to say congrats on graduating and that I love and miss you 😘

-💜💜💜

HELLO MY LOVE <3 how have you been lately? and nooo i did answer it tho angel !!! it took me a while to get to it bc of graduation and everything, but i know i didn :( did you try searching in your tag? i'm sorry it took so long to get to it ;_____; but anyways bub thank u so much <3 i will have fun !!! it's going to be my first ever kpop concert ever and i'm just so so excited :) but on no, love i'm so sorry youre unable to go :/ they've changed this thing so many times it's a miracle anyone can go alsdfj ,,,, i myself wasn't able to go for the longest time until they changed the dates for the last time, otherwise i would not have been able to go ;_____; AND ??? OMG A MOVE BACK TO MICHIGAN ??? that sounds so stressful !!! but i agree w you, i love michigan hhh so i'm hoping it will all work out okay? let me know more about this as time goes on !!!!!!! if you don't mind me asking bc i can't remember if we talked about this last time, but what part of the state did u live in before/moving back to? ALSO AHHHH there have been so many good comebacks as of recent <3 I TOTALLY FORGOT ABOUT BVNDIT ALSDKFJ i will get back to you on that one even tho i've been so excited for it i cannot believe i missed it SDLKFJ :( i have been loving onew's album and the new got7 album recently too <3

AND THANK U FOR congratulating meon graduation sweets :( i cannot believe on this new chapter in my life but i hope it all works out okay <3 and i love and miss u too my angel !!!

EDIT here is my last ask to u angel <3

[planetdream]

HELLO HELLO I FORGOT I SENT YOU AN ASK???? AND I WAS THE ONE ASKING IF IT GOT DELETED? VERY RUDE OF ME

okay no but yes I just got sick for another week 😭😭😭 life is not kind to me,,,,I JUST finished an essay and it's 6:19am rn and the sky is lighting up this is homophobic </3

I'm trying to get to terms to losing it but mannnnn I'm so pissed and upset because I had three kpop photo cards in it 😭 (along with other very important stuff ofc like my old student cards and I, obviously, alr graduated)

What can I say I'm just someone who loves the dark too much sksksksks jokes aside tho the dark is nice cos it makes me less guilty to be depressed - it's so weird to see it still light outside at 7pm rip

DREAMIE I WAS LOWKEY KIDDING BUT YOU ACTUALLY SAVED A SPOT FOR ME ALDHFJSJSHDJSKKDDK I LOVE YOU HELLO?? Okay but yes I will Sit Down and Think About It and come back to you with an MV uwu

Also Maniac omg,,,,Felix is such a queer king with that skirt and his HAIR as always a fashion icon. Hyunjin with red hair?? Chan with blue hair?? Changbin with green highlights?? Freaking LEE KNOW with purple hair?? These boys are here to slay and they aren't leaving anyone alive oh no. And Han with that slicked back hairstyle </3 I'm sorry Seungmin but Han is killing me there I can't skskkzsksksksks Also erm no hate but I didn't like the song at first? But it's so catchy?? Like does it sit at the top of my skz playlist? Not really. But is it so catchy that it makes me want to loop it so many times my brain explodes? Yes.

(also sorry if everything looks incoherent I've been writing a 2k essay for the past seven hours and I desperately need sleep)

Bestie SAME on the touch starved end 😭✋ and yes physical emotional connection desperately needed here as well pls 😭😭 I think my friend's constant complaints rubbed off on me because he's always like omg I want a boyfriend and there can only be one touch starved hoe between us so I have to be the bigger person ☠️☠️ but yes much love needed here as well

SCREAMING CRYING MOANING AT THE MENTAL IMAGE. just,,,,seungmo trying to not betray his feelings but ultimately man is a human as well and at the end he's not even scrolling through his phone,,,,the screen is black and it's just something to anchor himself onto </3 absolutely insane with that idea

Also that anon who said Lee Know <3. Massive vibes <33

How are you doing dreamie? Hope all is well hehe :)

-seong

ok first off—get some sleep (maybe u already are idk) can't have u out here sleep-deprived AND sick omg.

and the wallet 💔💔💔 three pcs and important things oh baby i really feel for u...tbh i dont think i'd be able to come to terms with losing it...

as for the collab—there's not a set deadline for posting the fic at the moment (and there probably won't be lol) so you can take your time choosing the fic, but that seungmin spot is 100% yours, babe!

maniac—the boys all look so good and im proud of what they've accomplished this era so far. i was talking about this with moon the other day but it's so fun to watch all of this happen in real time. like bb200?? so sexy of them, really. and yeah, at first listen i wasn't vibing with maniac like i did the other songs on the album (chalking it up to my general occasional dislike of singles) but after the second listen i liked it a lot more ahaha

— apologising for things seeming incoherent?? welcome to my entire blog fr

i've been going outside more and more lately since it's getting warmer and idk im just so...starved of different types of connections. i think i want a romantic connection lol, but that's a lot of work rn and i can't put someone through the stress of dealing with me atm rip

how am i doing? well it's pretty late now and i had a pretty busy day and im finally settling in at home fr and im just....so emotional for no reason?? wanna cry a little bit but other than that im doing good. upset bc i don't have any weed rn but it is what it is lol

[taonsil]

waddup jay,,,,,I'm not over the concert,,,,,I wasn't even there n I'm getting all sorts of feelings,,,,,I'm in my Tao feels bc his birthday n jUst !!!!!!!!!!!!!! aaaaaaAAAAHHHHHHHHH JAY. JAY. TAO IS BEAUTIFUL JAY. I LOVE TAO. AAAHHHHHH. anyway I was supposed to get a job tomorrow with my friend but she's sick so I'm using that as an excuse to not go n find a place bc I fear,,,,,I can't even look people in the eye or speak without messing up the order of my words or stuttering xhdgfv

like I just want them to look at me n give me a job pls I can sort clothes n stock up things n make sure stuff is clean that’s all I wanna do ;;; n then an interview for a job ???? Idk what to say !!! what can I bring to the workplace ??? Tao ???? noises ??????? my loudness ?????? idk who I am what makes them think I know what I can bring >:^[ anyway,,,that yelling was me yes idk what happened to the first message but it just contained more yelling don’t worry agjdhb

like I just want them to look at me n give me a job pls I can sort clothes n stock up things n make sure stuff is clean that’s all I wanna do ;;; n then an interview for a job ???? Idk what to say !!! what can I bring to the workplace ??? Tao ???? noises ??????? my loudness ?????? idk who I am what makes them think I know what I can bring >:^[ anyway,,,that yelling was me yes idk what happened to the first message but it just contained more yelling don’t worry agjdhb

I know I’m messaging a whole lot but !!! I’m talkative when I’m happy n I’m trying to stay happy even tho !!! I keep messing stuff up !!! n I can’t talk very well today !!!! everything is difficult !!!! n then my allergies are attacking me n I don’t have medicine n I just wanna play lil app games but I have no phone space n I’m just not very well put together today !! but it’s okay bc it’s Tao’s birthday n I’m going to a friends house on the fifth for Cinco de Mayo thingy aahhh

ok,,,,last message,,,,im sorry,,,,,I hope you had a very good day today n that you didn’t have too much stress ;; pls drink water !!! n have a good rest of the day !!! thank you for listening to my loudness even though I don’t make sense a lot aahh bye bye

ayo~~  it’s a good time;; he went to LA and left us to die for so long bc he’s gonna keep us fed for the rest of the year;;; (I read all of his upcoming dramas are gonna be like 40+ eps I’m.) it’s so so nice when he’s active and happy and HLs are happy :{ job searching tho..good luck OTL I remember doing that. I had one interview, with a design company and had to show them the work book I graduated with and it was just full of gory bl A TERRIBLE EXPERIENCE aksjd (tho some places are ok with quiet people ! I know people who are practically non-verbal who have been able to get jobs outback at places and it’s worked out nicely ; ;)

aa dont worry about messaging a lot tho! it’s nice you’re happy~~💖 even with gross stuff happening too. I think we have a busy gross week ahead (n tao’s LA documentary is out the 3rd I think? so I’ll be out..n I think there’s stuff on it I don’t wanna see aksjd I hate just seeing lil bits on twitter while Im out so I’m trying to [bicep emoji] n be happy about what there is to be happy about ; u;) aa anyway have fun on the 5th ! today was pretty good ; u; I took water to bed and drank it first thing and cat was proud of me even I complained a lot kasjd I’m just waiting for an art video I recorded to upload and then sleep~~ you have a good rest of the day too !! don’t stay up all night ! 🌙

[kyunsies]

MADCH MADCH <3

hello fam - I've had a weird day, I'm super happy I can take the time out to reply to you. always thinking of you though, I hope you're always having a great day. today's been a bit of a non day - a family member has to deal with operations and that's on top of me too so i've just felt a bit winded in life?

YES to you finally conquering that damn cold! do you feel properly replenished now? omg i hate sore throats too - okay i hope this doesn't give you nightmares but when i was a kid i saw a documentary about this terrible disease that manifests at its worst a bit like alzhemiers but it can hit anyone of any age and for the majority of people who get it... one of the first symptoms is a sore throat and i have literally lived in terror of sore throats ever since. but luckily it's a very rare disease. so basically, yes, i understand you.

OMG you know when you're like eight and you don't want to sleep and you're like no i will adult and stay up and it will be glorious - i'm like, CHILD YOU FOOL you could have gone to sleep XD and ugh no responsibilities?! i remember working most of the time when i was a kid and i kind of wish i had wreaked havoc? what was your childhood like? did you get to do lots of fun stuff? i know my mum wishes she had been able to spend more time with me when i was a kid and i'd like to have a family and i'd love her to be able to relax and just spend time with her grandkids? OMG well when you come to europe let me know and then i can show you around and give you a hug in person!

so we're mainly cofe here though cahtolic culture is still big and honestly i'm with you. like religion can be a great influence on you if it's not used in nefarious ways and can help you learn so much - like even if there are things you don't end up agreeing with at least you learn about then so you can make a choice for yourself as opposed to not really knowing anything? agree - people that are really boastful totally put me off, i just can't deal with it at all. but you're right, like it makes us so so hard to forgive ourselves for anything right? like, even if we've done nothing wrong and we shouldn't have to punish ourselves? like i swear i'm apologising for everything haha XD once someone pushed me off the tube and i ended up apologising like ON REFLEX? hasjdkahds XD but i really hope you have people around you that keep bigging you up too! if not i will keep bigging you up :D :D so you know that you are worth it.

i'm sorry you're not looking forward to your final year of uni! think you're almost there though - like this is the final stretch and you'll have like conquered everest you know?! and even if your landing at the end of it isn't as perfect the fact you landed at all means so much and that means you can stand up again and keep going! day at a time and moment at a time you know? i kind of had this moment today (hence my wierd day) when i was worry about everything and i literally sat there like - have i made the right choice and done the right thing and surely i've made the wrong choices in my life and do i actually have any talent cause if not people would actually like my stuff and i had to just be like... a moment at a time sometimes you know? like, just bit by bit and don't sweat the stuff you don't have to? idk i find it hard to do but i hope that helps you - like you'll surmount every little thing bit by bit and before you know it you'll have made it! you were born ready you were <3 <3

TINY SQUAD IS GO! the pant dilemma is truly a massive issue, like IDK how to deal OMG OK SO LAMPSHADING is like when you do big baggy like tops and then like leggings or tights or something skinny on the bottom so... you look like a lampshade? like i guess it makes you look cute and then also it's such an easy way to dress without worrying if you look like a kid that's wearing your mum's clothes?? ahsdjakdhsa XD

AHHHH YES BASIL ME TOO!! what scent did you end up buying? i'm sure it was lush - are your parents near you or is it like a massive special occassion to get to see them? YES agree with your take on musk though! like it feels like idk, something a 50 year old with a cigar in a stuffy country club would wear? like, there's no energy to it but not in a chill mellow way either??! like even if i was going to a dinner thing I would still rather not wear something musky? like i'd still rather it be something a bit sweeter? also like some musk perfumes can be SO STRONG? like i'm like - my nose is choking on this perfume XD

YES BLUE MOON SQUAD AAAAA it is literally one of their finest ever, it's always stayed on my top faves list by them. like ugh yes to the lofi stuff sometimes i just wanna VIBE and be in my feels but not so much i'm too angsty but enough that I'm FEELING feels ya know? what did you think of kiss or death? it really wasn't that kind of vibe but yh i hope they do more lofi jazzy stuff - also cause like not a lot of korean groups play with that sound a lot?

hello mädch's mom as always! nerer apologise for being late, always just happy to hear from you and i hope you are super super well and looking after yourself first and foremost! more than anything <3 (also i take ages to reply too ya know and omg this is so so long ahsdjakhdaskjdh)

love you lots and lots and lots xxxxxxxxxxxx

ANGEL ANGEL !!!!!!!! <3 i know i'm really late to this LKDFJS i've had such a busy week getting some overtime in and then visiting my grandparents' house so i didn't really have a lot of energy to reply to all of this BUT IM HERE AND i can finally give u a good response <3

firstly is your family member okay??? i hope so ;____; how was the rest of your week, and how was your weekend angel? i hope u were able to enjoy your weekend and that everything is okay in the family <3

but YEAH my mom and i are over the stupid cold ;_____; i hate colds,,,, they last way too long lol like i say i know the flu is a little more serious than a cold but i would rather have it for a day or 2 than being stuck feeling lousy for a whole week :( ALSO SLDKFSJDFKLJ OH GOD SEE we are both hypochondriacs ( that's not the best trait to have as a nursing major lol ) but tbh i'm really curious about this rare disease ????? :o sounds really scary tho goodness gracious i wonder what it could be ;____;

also god i was always awful at staying up late as a kid LOL but i know what u mean !!!!!! honestly there was only one time i can recall i had a sleepover with my friend in like the 3rd grade and we tried pulling an all nighter so i think we made it to like 5am but i had to go to bed omg i felt like such garbage LKDSFJ </3 it's just funny bc like as u get older u realize that staying up late is really nothing special and if anything u feel like a train hit you the next morning and adults are so sleep deprived as it is we just *try* to prioritize sleep SLDKFJSDKLJF :') you worked a lot as a child bub?? what kind of things did you do? i didn't start working until i was 15 bc most places here don't allow u to work until this age (unless you're in a family business i guess lol) but all the jobs i had in high school i hated so much ;_____; but my childhood? i would say it was relatively normal LOL like we say all the time i've had a single mom so life was really stressful for her but i always felt loved <3 i always had my mom <3 and we took trips to the beach with my family every year, it was our little tradition !! i went to san diego to visit disney, you know little trips here and there !! and then when i got into my sport and i started getting older my mom and i spent a lot of time and money investing into my sport so most of my weekends consisted of a lot of tournaments and driving far away for me to compete :') i do remember when i was really young like in kindergarten my mom's work was really far away from my school and we had a recital ; i was the "host" where i would introduce all of the songs and stuff and my mom didn't get off of work until like 6 and by the time she made to my recital, it was over :( she told me she cried a lot that night :( i don't remember her doing this (i don't even remember the recital all that much lol) but now that i'm older and i understand more about adulting, i'm sure she was so devastated thinking about it now :( anyways about visiting europe LOL I WILL DEF GIVE U A CALL AND LET U KNOW SO U CAN SHOW ME ALL OF THE COOL PLACES <333333

and about the religion ....... yes ;____; i think it's a great thing if a family decide that they want to do this when they're families; i hope to continue to practice it (even tho we aren't regularly going to church at all hhhh gotta work on that) but there is something about catholic guilt specifically that just makes it soooo hard to like, be easy on yourself? but ,,,,,, i guess it keeps me grounded :( in a self depreciating way ??? LDSKFJ I KNOW U UNDERSTAND ... it's weird for me to put into words ;____; and YEAH :( i think i'm getting a little better at this but i used to apologize all the time for things i never needed to be sorry for hhhh (still do) :')

and yes babe honestly i'm really terrified to start uni :( i think i have this weird anxiety issue i've had it ever since last year but i don't know why i'm so scared and anxious about things that haven't even happened yet ;____; are u like this too? is it normal? i wish i knew :( i guess i won't really feel better until i have made it to graduation, but i just want to do well this year. whatever i do, whether it's exams, or clinical rotation or my preceptorship, i just want to do well ;____; i don't want to do poorly, i want to make my mom proud and i want to work at a place i'll be excited to work at, and most of all i just want everything to work out ,,,, i wish someone could just sit me down and say listen i know what you're going thru is hard but you CAN get thru this and EVERYTHING IS GOING TO BE OKAY NO MATTER WHAT HAPPENS bc no one in my family is in the health sciences (besides my cousin who is studying to be a doctor but she doesn't give a shit about what i do lol) so ;_____; yeah ,,,,,,,,,,, lots of anxiety and apprehension of the unknown :(

LSDKFJSD FOKAY NOW I KNOW WHAT LAMPSHADING IS LMAOOOOOOOOOOO yes i wear those clothes on lazy days LOL the thing is i'm really picky about the length of my oversized crewneck sweaters hhhh the can't be too long bc if it goes below my butt i look like i'm wearing rags LOL so i have to be careful :') but most days i do like, reverse lamp shading lDLKFJSDLKFJ i like wearing flowy pants with a more tight top or like baggy jeans with a tighter shirt or a blouse i can tuck into my jeans LOL but omg its so funny i didn't know what that was :') thank u for the explanation my love <3

OKAY BUT HALF THE REASON I DIDN'T RESPOND IS THAT i was saving this weekend to go to the jo malone store in my mall and !!! I GOT A NEW SCENT AND I'M IN LOVE WITH IT SO MUCH BABE ;____; you have to go smell it if you go there soon and tell me what u think !!!!!! it's called wild bluebell (here is the scent description lol) but the guy behind the counter helping me was soooo amazing and helpful like they really do treat u the best at the store and AH i’m so happy with my purchase <3 my wallet isn’t so much LDSKFJ but nonetheless i know i’ll have it for a long time :)

KISS OR DEATH !!!!! i actually really enjoyed it lol i have seen some ppl not really like the rapping so much but i loved it ;____; i’m super biased obviously LOL but gosh i thought they were all great and minhyuk + hyungwon killed the song for me <333 wouldn’t expect anything less from our monstas !!!!! and my mom is sending her love lol i tell her the work u do and she’s always wondering how ur doing :(((( same for my moots she always asks me about 2 in particular LOL she’s always asking me <3 i love u so much bubbie !!!! iM SO SORRY FOR BEING LATE MY LOVE again i always just want to give u a quality response <3 i love u the absolute most and i hope u had a great weekend !!!!!!! this is my last week at work before i have a week long break before i head for uni so :’) can’t believe i’ve done all this LOL :’) i will be happy to hear from u whenever u come back hun !!!!! TAKE CARE LOVE U <3