#i highkey haven't had motivation or inspiration

[aizawashoutah]

no one is more annoyed at me than myself for not updating my fics in nearly 4 months 

[golbrocklovely]

I can still hear the song that plays in FD3, gives me the chills.

Virgo candle!?!?! Why have I never heard of this before?? I WANT! Also are you a virgo? If so same! XD

MR MOO MOO!!! Thats the cutest thing ever!

I want to visit Italy one day as well, mainly because I want to see Pompeii.

For years I wanted to be an author, ever since I started writing in 5th grade, I would write literally all day, every day. At one point I had a giant tote bin filled with paper, that was just written on back to back with all the stories I could come up with. Now it's kind of bittersweet, I still love writing and have so many ideas but every since I started taking antidepressants, it has killed all motivation to write and has given me an almost permanent writers block ): I hope to one day get it back. If so I'd probably stick with fiction maybe some fantasy 🤔

Favorite subject in school to be honest was Language Arts in middle school lmao I had this teacher named Mrs. Adamcheck (definitely not how it was spelled btw there was a y and a z in there somewhere lmao) but she made learning so interesting and she's honestly part of the reason why I started writing in the first place.

Oh boy, oh boy, oh boyyyyy. Now this is definitely a difficult question haha. When I first got into Twilight, I was definitely Team Jacob because abs and I was also pissed at how Edward could just leave Bella like that. Now that I'm older I'm kind of a mix of both. They're both toxic af in their own ways lmaooo buuuuut lately I've been leaning more Team Edward🤣

What is your favorite memory? What's one thing most people don't know about you? What's your most embarrassing memory?

omg the 'there is someone walking behind you...' song. that shit gave me nightmares lol

yeah i'm a virgo :) and i love getting things that are virgo related haha

and that would be cool. i totally didn't realize pompeii is in italy... i'm not good with geography lmao (also, i kinda didn't know where pompeii was located weirdly enough)

same here. i've been writing since i was kid, both bc of school and bc of fanfics. i suggest when it comes to that deeply of writers block and motivation, just take it day by day and know that no one is putting pressure on you to write besides yourself. and if you feel inspired, write down what you're feeling, even if it doesn't make total sense or isn't a full story yet. the finer details can all be handle with in time.

language arts was my favorite subject in school too. along with art and music.

haha omg highkey i've hated jacob literally since day one. while i don't think edward is amazing (but definitely thought that way when i was younger) i at least could enjoy him. jacob was so whiny and desperate and it was just so hard to like him. that whole part of breaking dawn i skipped reading bc i didn't like him. granted, i didn't quite understand what happened, but i didn't care and kinda understood by the end of the book. even to this day i haven't read that part lol

okay, that is a very interesting question. idk if i have only one favorite memory. and the one i'm about to say isn't quite a memory bc it's not one specific moment, but it's multiple moments and how they made me feel. i love thinking back on all the vacation me and my family have gone on. we have a membership to disney world and would go basically once every other year since 2003. and i've been thinking about it recently bc me and mom want to go to disney world at some point next year, but brother is against it bc he doesn't want to go down there bc of my dad. my dad was the one in the family that loved disney and would plan out everything; when the best times were to go to the parks, fast passes, dinner reservations, everything and then some. but since his passing, it just doesn't feel like something worth doing without him. but i said i want to go bc i can't just ignore disney world the rest of my life bc my father is gone. he wouldn't want that. so i've just been thinking back on all the trips we've taken down there.

one thing not everyone knows about me (that i feel comfortable sharing lol) is that lady gaga follows me on twitter. i forget that sometimes she does lol

oooh, this memory isn't technically the most embarrassing, but it is one that i find super funny bc of how uncomfortable and over the top i reacted. so when i was a junior in hs, i did theater. and there was this freshman named cory who was a part of stage crew. he was the younger brother of the student head of stage crew. they were polar opposites in how "cool" they were (cory was a nerd, his brother wasn't i guess lol). but everyone really liked cory. i had a friend that was in stage crew and he said i had to meet cory, so eventually i did after school. cory was really nice and we were having a really good conversation. idk what we were talking about, but eventually he said something and i laughed at it. i remember he gave me this 'in awe' look and i thought 'oh fuck, my laugh was too much' bc sometimes it is. the convo came to halt for like a solid 5-10 secs and before i could apologize he chimed in with the most awkwardest thing i've heard a dude say to me.

"you seem like you would be fun to tickle."

now, in the grand scheme of things, this isn't the worst thing you could say to me. but back when i was 17, it was. i got so uncomfortable i basically started to awkwardly laugh and back away from him while he apologized profusely. while i started to back away, he reached out to stop me and i said "omg put your hands down" and then he got more embarrassed and apologized for doing that. i then stopped him, ran away from him and hid behind my guy friend that knew him, and cory eventually came over and kept apologizing.

i feel bad for the way i acted, but i literally couldn't help myself. i still feel bad about it to this day.

questions: what tv show/movie could you watch over and over again and not get tired (other than twilight haha), do you believe in ghost and have you experienced anything paranormal, and the best compliment someone has ever given you :)