#i haven't written in so long i'm sorry this sucks lmao

[mx-miserygutzzz]

yandere!Dxttie (NY//N//KS)

forgive the censoring, i wish to keep this out of normal fandom spaces as much as possible. it has also been quite some time since i've written, so i'm quite rusty. if you know, you know. please refrain from sending this to the creator or reblogging to any sft fandom blogs. thank you :)

part 1 - confessions

yandere!Dxttie who was convinced to have visitors by Txll Mxn, even if she'd rather remain alone, tending to her garden and keeping to herself. But when you turned up, she had to admit she didn't mind your company.

yandere!Dxttie who finds herself fixated on your mannerisms and behaviours. She studies you every time you're together, gathering as much information as she can each time. When you accidentally forget your pen, she opts to keep it. Surely you wouldn't mind, right?

yandere!Dxttie whose isolation has withered away her decencies, as she examines your pen, noting every imperfection. The print rubbed away where your fingers would sit, the imprint of teeth on the soft silicone casing. She gives into the urge to smell it when Txll Mxn catches her. She has no good explanation.

yandere!Dxttie who becomes excited every time you come to visit. You become one of the few visitors she greets at the edge of the path. Sometimes she's so eager she waits for hours, greeting you with the same enthusiasm each time. She's familiarized herself with the sound of your footsteps, and she swears she can smell your shampoo from feet away.

yandere!Dxttie who discreetly spills some juice or ink on your shirt, making it look like an accident so she can convince you to leave it with her, so she can remove the stain she left. She didn't expect you to nonchalantly pull it over your head and pass it to her, exposing parts of your person she's never seen before. She's always been unfamiliar with lust and desire, but they're the only words for what she's feeling.

yandere!Dxttie who greedily inhales your scent in her quarters, totally transfixed on the shirt you left in her care, to the point that she doesn't wish to clean it. She knows cleaning it will remove your scent, and she wouldn't want to do that, would she? It's all that remains of your visits after all. But she's a woman of her word, and so she cleans it as she promised to ensure you trust her with your belongings in the future.

yandere!Dxttie who has become so obsessed with you that she couldn't bear the idea of you leaving her again. She knows you have to, but her desperation to keep you longer becomes evident. Your morning gardening drags into the night, Dxttie finding every reason she can to prolong your stay. You become suspicious of her intentions, but you've grown so fond of her that you dismiss it. Surely it's just another one of her many peculiarities.

yandere!Dxttie who stops you at the end of the path as you're on your way out. Pouring her heart out, confessing her fixations, for the first time referring to her feelings as love. Her soul shatters as you wordlessly leave, unable to discern your emotions. She's plagued by a feeling of loss, remaining at the path until morning.

yandere!Dxttie who doesn't greet you at the path. You walk to the door, passing through the familiar gardens, some flowers in hand. You knock on the door, your heart in your throat and hoping Dxttie isn't too upset at you. You shouldn't have walked away, but you were so flustered you just didn't know what to say...

yandere!Dxttie who answers the door, surprised to see you. She tries to put on her usual chipper tone, but she can't help but notice your averted eye contact and hushed tone as you hold out the flowers you'd brought for her.

"Dxttie- I didn't mean to upset you the other day... I just didn't know how to respond. Can we- uh... try this again?"

"Oh [Y/N]... I wouldn't have it any other way."

[dudewhy3]

4 and 27 for the writer's ask game 🤗

Hi Myrtle! Thank you for the ask! 💛

4. a story idea you haven't written yet

Oho, do i have plenty of those! One of them is an AruAni medical drama, sort of like Grey's Anatomy but with aot characters. The 104th are doing their internship at the same hospital. Annie's the daughter of the acclaimed doctor Leonhart, and she bonds with Eren over the 'perks' of having fathers with such powerful names in their domains. It's through him that she meets Armin who- lo and behold- is renting out his late grandfather's house. And since she desperately needs to get out of her father's house, it's the perfect opening. And it sort of develops from there-- they start falling for one another, they're a great team at work, they quarrel at home because they have different tabiets and so on and so forth.

Maybe Armin is like the O'Malley of his year- very awkward, underestimated, the butt of each joke... proves himself worthy by performing heart surgery in an elevator during a blackout. Levi could be their attending- who they mistake for a janitor at first because he was dusting a shelf when they first met. Erwin is the chief of surgery, also a general surgeon, and he keeps getting these crazy ideas for investments and possible procedures- which are, of course, encouraged by Hange the cardio surgeon and very much frowned upon by Levi. Hange takes a special interest in Annie because of her father's legacy. Levi hates all their guts. Eren tries to get to his good side by getting closer to his niece Mikasa, which proves to be futile. I just think it'd be hilarious to hear Bailey's speech out of Levi's mouth- "Don't bother sucking up to me, I already I already hate you." Hilarious!! Maybe at some point he'd take a week off and the group would get Shadis assigned as their resident- which doesn't end well; catching Sasha stuffing her face with chips during rounds is the last drop for him.

Maybe Annie told her father she's moving in with her boyfriend (ahem *Armin* ahem) to get him off her back and then they'd have to fake a relationship in front of the old man. Maybe they actually start acting like a couple all the time and don't even realize it until Hitch jokingly points out that they're like an old married couple.

The possibilities are endless!! Had I known more on the medical part of things, I'd probably actually write the thing lmao ;-;

27. your favorite part of the writing process

Outlining!! Now, before i outline i usually vomit all the ideas i have into a document, however they might come to me- chaotic, all over the place... The outlining part is when it all starts making sense. And i just love putting stuff in order and watching how my silly ideas start taking a shape, tying together to form a coherent thing that breathes on its own.

Thank you once again for asking! I had such a blast answering these haha, and i'm sorry it took so long for me to get around to it ;-;

ask game in question

[cowboylikeyouu]

For the WIP game, No Other shade of blue but you, please!

oh my, i completely forgot the wip game ahahah sorry for the wait, here you go:

i started working on this THREE YEARS AGO???? it's not even THAT long, but i always forget it exists for like 6 months before writing another 1000 words and then forgetting it again.

the premise is basically: steve & tony had a Thing™ during that period when pepper & tony had broken up, but then civil war happened and yeah. pepper & tony get back together, get married, have morgan, endgame happens as usual BUT: instead of tony, pepper dies. which is. . . cruel, i know, but hey, she was canonically part of the final battle so in theory she could've been the one to get the stones & do the snap lol. anyways, then it's just a lot of depressed tony taking care of morgan and refusing to accept help, until he caves in and calls up steve one day and yeah, then they have their very very slow getting back together arc, while they're raising morgan. there're gonna be a lot of shenanigans with other characters bc tony's slowly letting other people back in his life, so it's actually just gonna be a shit ton of avengers family feels. i also have a fully planned out winterhawk spin-off to this fic lol. idk if i'll ever finish writing it tho, i have about 15k and most of it was originally written in german. i DID translate it and i wrote some of the later stuff in english, but i'm still SUPER unhappy with it. i love my german writing SO MUCH, but it tends to lose its flow when i translate it :/

here's a small excerpt, the grammar might suck as well, my english skills were even poorer back then than they are now lmao

Steve ignored his words and pulled out a burner phone instead, placing it on the counter next to Tony. Only one number was registered in it. Tony paused momentarily and regarded the phone with an unreadable look before swallowing hard and turning back to his plate.  "Haven't we been through this already, Cap?" He said quietly as if his voice would fail him if he spoke louder.  The movements of his hand holding the sponge became increasingly erratic, and Steve couldn't stand it anymore. Without thinking much, he put one hand on Tony's arm in an attempt to soothe him and stop his movements before using his other hand to carefully pull the plate from his clenched fingers and place it on the towel next to the sink. This time, Tony didn't even try to free himself from Steve's grip. "Maybe you're gonna use it this time," Steve responded and pushed the phone a little closer to Tony with his free hand.  Tony looked up from the phone to meet Steve's eyes, a sad smile on his lips. "Well, I'm sorry, but I don't think you and I were on such good terms the first time," he said, even more quiet than earlier.  Brown eyes that stirred so much more in Steve than he would ever admit stared into his, and for a moment, it felt like 2016 all over again. Like the time when Pepper and Tony had broken up due to personal reasons, the time when Steve had spent his days in Tony's building and his nights in Tony's bed, wasting time on kisses and sex and late-night promises. Like that brief, dreamlike period when everything had been okay for a few months. The calm before the storm that the Sokovia accords brought to their lives and their relationship. Then Tony looked away, and the moment shattered.  Steve found himself back in the present, where Tony and Pepper were no longer together because Pepper was simply no longer there, where the peaceful intimacy existed only in memory, and where the events in Leipzig and Siberia and the months without contact that followed continued to stand between them like an impassable wall. Steve didn't regret siding with Bucky at the time. He didn't regret wanting to protect his best friend, who had returned after seventy years, he’d do it again without thinking twice. But he regretted the naturalness with which he had thrown away Tony and all they had in the months before. He regretted more than anything not giving a rational thought to find a compromise that would allow him to keep them both in his life.

send me more asks about my wips if u want !!

[snufflepup]

They're some of my favorite! It's hard for me to really pick my favorites of anything (except for people, that of which is you^^<3) off the top of my head though, I like spy x family a lot too. I've read the manga for seraph of the end and plan on watching the anime soon, but it got confusing after they suddenly just kinda went back and saw the first vampire guy when mika died? I think? I really have no clue lol. I have a pretty bad sense of time too, it really sucks when there's so much I wanna do. I'm assuming you haven't seen kill counts? I watch this channel on yt called dead meat, and they give a movie synopsis alongside counting the kills in various horror movies. I think they're pretty funny. Ik that escape room movie, i found it kinda well written and fun^^ I've seen just about everything about omori except an actual playthrough, it seems really interesting. Who's your favorite characters? From what I've seen, I really like Kel and basil^^ I'm not really the best person to give advice on where to start in xmen, cause tbh, I saw a nightcrawler edit on tik tok and got obsessed with him lol. I looked up everything about him so it's not like I know nothing about him or something and I will watch the movies some time, i just haven't gotten to watch them yet. The end of the fucking world is a Netflix show about these two kids who kinda run away and be adults and realize everything's shit^^ James (boy mc) is a psychopath who ran away with Allysa (girl mc) with the intent to kill her and he ended up falling in love and killing a nasty guy that tried to mess with Allysa. Allysa is a kinda blunt girl that a lot of people say has bpd (idk if it's Canon or not) and she's really cool and badass and speaks her mind^^ James for me is totally transition goals lol

Omg like no one irl know total drama, I'm glad you do^^ who was your favorite characters? I love gravity falls too! I really liked the plot and thought it was just the best! I watched Winx and mlp when I was younger, though idk if I was old enough to understand it all :< maybe I'll watch the remake of Winx when it comes out^^ I love good animation- have you seen takt op destiny? It's absolutely goregeous and beautiful, though the plot isnt totally understandable, i feel. I've seen that video recommended to me, and I actually have it in my watch later for whenever I watch the playthrough. I'm glad you might check it out^^ and that at least I can talk to you about stuff^^ sorry this was so long lol

-ike<3

I know how you feel, I find it hard to do the same at times ! (｡>\\<)

Spy x Family is a lot of fun !! I like it a lot too ! I'm . not really up to date with the manga, but I know what's happening . kind of . I also lost track around that time, but !! I think I understand whats going on, at least. I agree, it really frustrates me (◞ ⸝⸝ ◟ )

oooo !! Okay ! It sounds fun ! Omori is really cool. . . It's my favourite game ! I really like all of the main characters. . . It's hard to pick favourites because they all sort of like . plague my mind /pos but ! I think it's probably Sunny and Basil that are my top favourites, but I really love the others ! They are all so special to me

That's fair, I've done that too, with different things ! I only watched voltron because of one of the characters at first lmao I hope you enjoy the movies then, when you are able to watch them !! ^–^

Omgmg it sounds so !!!! I'll definitely watch it ! I'll let you know my thoughts when I do ! I think I liked Gwen and and Mike a lot !! I liked Alejandro and Heather too. . . despite them being like . evil sometimes. I liked Chris too ! Who are your favourites ? Gravity Falls is super awesome, there seems to be something going on with it recently, though I don't really know what but I'm excited nonetheless

I watched them a bunch of times growing up, and I rewatched mlp again a couple months, or at least the seasons on netflix ! I haven't ! I just looked it up, though, and it looks really nice. I think I've seen clips of it because it looks familliar but I'm not really sure ! The video kind of . hit me like a ton of bricks, so, this is a warning I suppose !!

And it's okay ! I know mine can be long too :)

[longeyelashedtragedy]

this is re. your post on writing for yourself, because it's really made me think hard for some reason (sorry if i misunderstood any of what you wrote, this is just how i interpreted it, and sorry for writing so much, it's really not my strong suit).

i can't say i fully understand how you feel, and what writing must mean for you as a person. however, i can say that i understand the feeling of wanting the method you understand/communicate to the world to fully represent the feeling you have inside, and how when that doesn't agree with everyone, it hurts.

more often than not, i spend ages making a piece of art, imagining my ideal reactions and i end up too afraid to post it. the idea that it might not get the reception i want it to get (highly likely as my art can be too niche for tumblr at times) feels like a rejection of me. i've had a mental block against posting my art for years, just out of the fear that people would find it distasteful, therefore finding me distasteful.

even as someone who struggles with conveying themselves fully through their medium, (something i genuinely admire you for, by the way. everything you write is so distinctly you, even if they're not written the same way, or about the same people. your voice is so clear when you write) it still feels like someone has seen a part of me, the clearest window into myself i can feasibly show, and decided i'm not worthy. it's flawed, it's illogical, and it absolutely sucks, but at times it's impossible to think otherwise.

answering your question for both you and myself here: it's not embarrassing to want to convey yourself to the fullest extent, even if that means others won't like it as much. at the end of the day, not everyone is you. they may not understand your writing the way you want it to be understood, or at all. but you will. and just because you make something, doesn't mean it is intertwined with you fully (unless you want it to be). what you are and what you make are two different things.

this feels a little too vulnerable to post off anon (another thing i admire you for: despite everything you've gone through, you're able to speak about yourself with such honesty and clarity, it's so amazing and a testament to your strength), but i guess you can guess who this is anyway. in a way, thank you for posting lmao. i haven't thought this hard in a while.

hi anon,

never apologize for writing a lot. i want to see what you have to say!

thank you for taking the time to send me this. it meant a lot to me to read, really. thank you for your compliments 😭 and it seems like i'm not totally alone in this. i guess there is a vulnerability in the act of creation, or at least making your creations public. once you publish/post, something that's purely yours becomes...everyone's to interpret. or everyone's to ignore!

anon, i'm sorry you feel that way. i'm sort of having a similar conversation in private about this--one of the things that makes me the saddest is when people are afraid to express themselves. you need to do what's right for you at the time, but i promise you, you are worthy of being seen and appreciated. almost everyone is unless they're some hateful troll piece of shit, lol. i hope someday you find the courage to share your work with us. it feels so good to break through something like that, but can take so long to do.

maybe this is a cliche, but i feel like people who are truly judgy have lives without much internal happiness and joy--their heads and hearts are so empty that they have all this room in there for judging art and writing. (and other things that are completely irrelevant to their own lives.) every day i'm grateful i'm not like that, and keeping that perspective helps me.

(one of my fears is that all of my writing sounds exactly the same, and that my writing voice is very distinctive but in a bad way, but maybe i shouldn't be afraid of that?)

thank you for giving me some things to think about as well! please, always feel free to come into my inbox, or my DMs if you're in the mood for that. i appreciate you!

(i also feel REALLY bad but i can't totally figure out who this is; i have a few people in mind, i think maybe we support the same prem club?)

[shiraishi--kanade]

(in reply to the aphantasia answer (it wouldnt fit in a comment and i do have one or two follow-ups if you dont mind)) (edit post-writing: this is such a long ask LMAO no pressure to answer all of it)

oh this is so interesting…. im a very visual person (to an unfortunate extent) so i think we’re opposites in regards to reading interests- i adore extensive metaphors and elaborate descriptions of actions/worldbuilding. it makes a lot of sense that to-the-point stuff works better for you though- also your explanations on the ‘mathematical’ approach were excellently written, thank you :)

since you said you mostly rely on aural senses when it comes to thought processes, do you think youre more of an auditory learner then? or is it just the case where it’s useful mostly for reading?

also,, because you have to rely so much on figuring out meaning and the ‘why’ and the purpose of descriptions, do you think you have a better or worse understanding of body language and what to look for as opposed to the ‘average’ person / how it would’ve been given you didnt have aphantasia? im mostly asking in the context of interpersonal interaction

also also please dont worry about rambling on for however long youd like (or even expressing/explaining things outside of the given question) unless it’s something you’re uncomfortable doing — learning about people like this is something i take a lot of genuine enjoyment from, so in a way this is a bit of a selfish act akdhajs

Interesting questions! Let's see what I can tell haha

1. I'm actually a little conflicted about the "learner styles" since, as far as I'm aware, it has been debunked as a myth a while ago. Now I'm not a psychologist, I just study it on a higher education level (as a part of my major), but regardless I don't think it works that way? I think we're confusing the ability to recall information (memory) and the actual process of understanding and applying information, because of how much our educational systems, as well as understanding of "education" in general, has been built on reproduction of the the information instead of applying or analysing it. While the ability to recall, I think, might vary by person to person basis, the actual process of learning seems to be more or less uniform. In the latter sense I am like a majority of people, and am best learning through application of skill. But if we're talking about which type of memory (= therefore remembering information) works best for me, then yeah, probably auditory with tactile as a close second. With that said I never found it particularly helpful with studying, only that in my observation if the information is solely presented in visual way (e.g graphs and stuff) then it often will go over my head completely. I think aphantasia is definitely more hindering than anything when it comes to learning, I haven't noticed any particular benefits? But eh, might be different for different people!

2. In interpersonal interaction? Absolutely worse, but I don't think it's because aphantasia necessarily as much as due to the fact that I have ✨autism✨ (which I think might likely be misdiagnosed adhd or audhd neurotype. And I'm also not diagnosed officially. I was 6 when my mom was told I "probably" had Asperger's and that's it pretty much. But hey I'll take it as a credible evidence). Although the two might be linked.

Back to the point, I just really suck at being a person in general because of it. I have no idea what it's like to not be neurodivergent so I can't say with confidence if I would be better or worse off with interpreting body language/facial expressions if I only had aphantasia, unfortunately.

Those are a very non-answer answers. Sorry. (⁠๑⁠•⁠﹏⁠•⁠)

[sinningtamer]

opinion on rpf for tmi tuesday??? in the context of "this is meant to be cc! not c!"

it depends!

in general i think it's fine, as long as you're not a creep about it. like, yeah, it's inherently a little weird, but i just feel people should be self-aware when they engage with it? as long as you're creating content for it with the mindset of "this isn't real, none of this is actually happening/going to happen, i'm just having fun and the cc isn't seeing it," then yeah, whatever, go wild.

i'm just uncomfortable when i see stuff that turns into like... truthing. compiling evidence to prove something about a person you don't know. that stuff. rpf content that does that is pretty minimal, so i just avoid it and rarely see it anyway :]

hopefully that makes sense?

to go into a more personal answer, i haven't really made rpf content myself, mostly because i find it a little boring. i get the appeal, but it's more fun for me to have wiggle room with the world and headcanons you surround a character/ship in.

though, me and my co-writer's teacher/student AU was actually gonna be borderline rpf, with a lot of details based on the IRL ccs. (i mean, where do you think we got english teacher dan from? lmao)

i'm still mourning that AU x_x we had a whole outline for the fic written... i forget if i've said it directly, but it's abandoned because the other man character was wiIbur :< i'm not against reclaiming characters from shitty ccs, but because his character in that au was kinda, based off the irl guy, neither of us feel comfortable trying to do anything with it. which sucks!!! i really liked our ideas!! and i think y'all wouldve had fun with it ORZ

sorry this turned into a rant HAHA but yeah rpf fun i just don't have much interest in it

tmi tuesday time babes

[jungshookz]

i cant believe your back. i redownloaded the app to see the reactions of some of the blogs i followed to the jujutsu kaisen spoilers and i noticed that the little thing said that u had posted recently and i was shocked. u were one of the last x reader writers that i read. nowadays i read exclusively member x member stuff almost but coming back to this blog feels like a warm hug. i found ur blog during the pandemic when i was starting college and now u come back when i’m a senior. i have a job lined up, cee :’) i have an apartment, and a photocard collection, and so much has happened, but u feel like an old friend that i have to tell everything to. i’m sorry for what happened while u were away, i truly am. i’m glad that ur healing and that ur still writing and getting an education in it. as someone getting a lit degree but is not going to do anything ~traditional with it (i’m going corporate actually) it’s really inspiring to see u pursuing something u love. i wish u nothing but the best and the brightest days ahead and long nights reading and writing and loving what u do <3 i honestly don’t know where to start with the new stuff you’ve posted and the worlds you’re coming back to. it feels like i forgot so much lol, but i’m so happy to have all of these worlds back. i did have a question, u mentioned in another anon that u had lost a little interest in bts over the time that u left, does that mean that you’re having difficulty creating new concepts or any other problems? i’m genuinely asking bc i’m curious and i’d like to know how u approach it as a fan and a writer

so so so happy to hear all these great life updates!!!! congratulations on the job AND the apartment and what sounds to be a fantastic photocard collection >:))

and thank you so much for the kind words!! it means a lot to me to hear that - to be honest i don't think i'm very skilled in other areas so fingers crossed writing will work out for me some way somehow LMAO

i'm still trying to get into the swing of things bc i haven't written fics in forever but i've been really enjoying reading all ur asks and brainstorming fic ideas hehe

and to answer your question - i think it has impacted the way i've approached fics now!! because i don't keep up with bts that often i just don't have that same fire in me but i still LOVE coming up with new drabble ideas... but also because i have to submit a 20 page submission every two weeks for my own classes that's been sucking up all my creative energy :-/// it's all about balance i suppose!!!

[diagonal-queen]

hello it is i the question deliverer of ever!!!

here are a bunch of random stupid questions for you to answer. you don’t have to do all of them if you don’t want to, just the ones you find the silliest 💕💕

these are all just gonna be completely random questions i’m pulling out of my ass expect zero consistency

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-what’s the best fanfic you’ve ever read/written?

-are you a spider girlie, a snake girlie, a beetle girlie, or a bee girlie? (this is how i classify people in my head so i have the answer already, but i want to know which one you think you are)

-what quote/lyrics/words from anything ever resonate with you the most?

-opinions on rat kings?

-what’s your favorite kind of leaf (and/or tree)?

-favorite type of cloud?

-who is the silliest person you know?

-what would someone have to offer you to get you to punch atsushi in the face?

-on the contrary, what would someone have to offer you NOT to punch fukuchi in the face?

-what are your most used emojis and why?

-of the authors represented in bsd, which one is your favorite? (keyword authors not characters, it’s very clear who your favorite character is lmao)

-orange juice or apple juice?

-what song is stuck in your head atm, and how much do you actually like it?

-if paint was edible, which color would you eat?

-if you could learn everything about any one thing in the universe instantly, what would you choose?

-what’s your favorite suit in a deck of cards?

-what’s your least favorite thing about your favorite thing?

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ok that’s all i can think of rn. expect more later after my beain collects more ideas probably

have a BANGER of a day sir dialicious 💕����💕

SEWER RATTTTTTTT BRO ALWAYS GOT MY BACK bro is so nice...bro <3 also im sorry for this long post to you and everyone else who sees it i know it's gonna be boring as fuck T-T

What’s the best fanfic you’ve ever read/written?

well i personally suck dick at writing and i haven't read any full fanfictions in ages...i really can't remember but if i find any

Are you a spider girlie, a snake girlie, a beetle girlie, or a bee girlie?

If i had to choose one of these i would say bee girlie because spiders are scary and snakes are scary and beetles aren't my style but bees r so fluffy and like flowers...jus like me... :D

What quote/lyrics/words from anything ever resonate with you the most?

They say the sun don’t shine forever But through any weather we’ll make it As long as we make it together - song lyric

"Someone will come for you. But first you must open your heart." - book quote

"The head may err, but never the blood." - book quote (and yes im serious lol)

"It's because of you that I don't even wanna be here anymore. Eventually I'm gonna end up jumping off a cliff because of you." - something i was told by someone

there's gotta be more but i can't remember them at the moment lmaooooo like literally any time someone asks me something i like i suddenly forget every single thing i've ever liked ever

Opinions on rat kings?

what like when rats all get their tails tied up? or just men with rat energy that i stan? well i love that second one but the first one is sad...they're stuck... :(

What’s your favorite kind of leaf (and/or tree)?

my favourite trees are cherry blossoms and jacarandas because they're GORGEOUS (honourable mention to frangipani trees) but when it comes to leaves specifically i don't really have a favourite lol

Favorite type of cloud?

cumulus because they're super cute ^^

Who is the silliest person you know?

hmm...deadass probably you man. you are hella silly and i love it

What would someone have to offer you to get you to punch atsushi in the face?

There is literally nothing you could give me to get me to punch my husband in the face

On the contrary, what would someone have to offer you NOT to punch fukuchi in the face?

the gift of flight and the complete abolition of systemic oppression in modern society

What are your most used emojis and why?

🌸 - looks pretty and i like it and i use it as the same as a happy face 💜 - purple is my colour 💓 - usually when im talking to jaya lol 😭 - when something SUUUUPER funny hehe haha 🔫 - when i threaten people to give me their arts and writings 🤧 - when ppl r nice to me...an i cry...happy.... ✨ - to add some PIZZAZZ ❤️ - i am a loving person i love a lot of ppl a lot 😌 - i use this to pretend im dom-coded

Of the authors represented in bsd, which one is your favorite? (keyword authors not characters, it’s very clear who your favorite character is lmao)

well i'm gonna be real with you, i actually am uncultured and haven't read many of the authors' works. i've read only a few, so i'd have to say of those that i've read, i liked doppo kunikida, mykola hohol and akiko yosano. i've yet to read dazai but i really really want to :(

as for individual works, i've read and enjoyed anne of green gables and the raven. i got through about a third of the great gatsby before abandoning it because i found it boring. i am still reading crime and punishment and i like it a lot.

also you don't know who my favourite character is silly goober because i have TWO in my head rn and you couldn't guess either of them i dare you to try

Orange juice or apple juice?

orange juice 🍊

What song is stuck in your head atm, and how much do you actually like it?

punky funky love by granrodeo. i love this song sm it's so catchy and fun and it just lifts my mood so much. if you asked me to name a bad granrodeo song i would glitch out because there literally isn't one

If paint was edible, which color would you eat?

hmm probably brown because it reminds me of chocolate or beige because it'd be like caramel

funfact; whenever i eat m&ms i have this ritual where i save all the brown ones for the end, i eat all the other ones except for one of each colour, then i eat all those in one go. and then i begin eating the brown ones one at a time until there are nine left (lucky number) and then i eat all those at once. its cus the brown is more chocolatey in my head literally just because it is brown

If you could learn everything about any one thing in the universe instantly, what would you choose?

cmon i cannot possibly decide this. hmm uhh fuck um. i might like to know the entire contents of the library of alexandria, the truth behind every cold case in the history of true crime, my entire family history, the truth behind ghosts and spirits and the paranormal, and those are just some of the things i'd consider.

What’s your favorite suit in a deck of cards?

probably diamonds. i really dont know why but they fuck. i also like spades cus spades look and sound super cool

What’s your least favorite thing about your favorite thing?

i seem to give it to the world a lot more than it gives it to me

[silverzoomies]

20 questions for writers. i'm really bad and boring with these sorry

i was tagged by the lovely and talented @taintandviolent

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

21 !!!

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

131,983 !!!

3. What fandoms do you write for?

atm i write for x-men and american horror story. but i've written for other marvel stuff, always sunny, mystery science theater 3000, gotham, stranger things, and even austin powers lmao

4. What are your top five fics by kudos?

naive pig (stranger things), judgment clouded (moon knight), honeysuckle, maternal, and a filthy little fic called Uhhhhhhhh (also stranger things)

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

i usually don't !! lol i'm tryin' to respond more often. but i'm just too shy for that shit sometimes, sorry

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

the long form fic i've been workin' on for two years now. i haven't posted it and probably never will LMAO !!!

7. What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

all the peter ones have pretty positive endings, i think !!

8. Do you get hate on fics?

only like once or twice? mostly just criticism. which is fine !!

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kinds?

i write filthy degenerate bullshit and if my southern traditionalist conservative baptist mom knew she'd be so disappointed

10. Do you write crossovers?

kinda? i write marvel universe crossovers, i guess !! i also rp crossover universes A LOT. like some multiverse, childhood imagination on the playground level shit !!

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

recently had a fic concept stolen for a character ai chat. that's fun !! but technically i don't own concepts. so it's fine

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

nah

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

nah

14. What's your all time favorite ship?

y'all ain't gonna have any idea what i'm talkin' about. but i'm batshit over tv's frank/dr. forrester from mystery science theater 3000. also charles xavier/erik lehnsherr is a classic

i'm also a diehard peter maximoff/logan howlett truther sorry but liiiiike that dynamic is cute af to think about !!

15. What's a WIP that you want to finish, but doubt you ever will?

the long form fic i mentioned earlier. the one i've spent two years on? as time passes, it feels more and more cringeworthy. as much as i love it, i don't think i'm gonna finish it. which sucks !! i'd love to see it fleshed out !! even if the end result was super lame !!

16. What are your writing strengths?

writing too fuckin' much too fuckin' often idk

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I could make a power point honestly ,,

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

i've done it before !! i know basic children's level russian !! lol i think it's all about research and respect !! and if you can, always look to native speakers for help !!

19. First fandom you wrote for?

big time rush definitely. big time rush got me into fanfic wayyyy back in 2009 !!

20. Favorite fic you've written?

i fucking love screwball so much. so so so much.

uhhhhhh tagging is hard and i'm shy idk do this if you want !!

[lesbian-in-leather]

20 Questions for Fic Writers!

Thanks for the tag, @accidentallylita!!

How many works do you have on AO3?

Forty-two! (christ when did that happen??)

What's your total AO3 word count?

111,491

What fandoms do you write for?

Oh god okay I've published for What We Do in the Shadows, A Series of Unfortunate Events, School for Good and Evil and Harlots (but I don't think I'll write anything else for that). But I have WIPs for some others (CBS Ghosts, several for the Hunger Games, etc.) and honestly I am constantly in danger of being sucked into a new fandom to write for

What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

That's Not the Point

His Good Lady Wife

What a Way to Spend the Evening

An Eternity With You

A Matched Set

Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

I always try to! I really appreciate anyone taking the time to comment on my work, and I like to thank everyone ^.^

What's the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Oh god that's not an easy question to answer. Probably either Insistent or Under The Moonlight, but honestly all of my asoue fics are entrenched in tragedy (as is most of my writing). There's also The Final Thoughts of Charlotte Wells, but I don't count that as much because the ending is explicitly canon so it feels less angsty to me

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Uhhhhhh okay well I don't have a lot of happy endings—That's Just How the Story Goes would have been my go-to if I'd kept it as the oneshot I wrote it as, but I was convinced to continue and now we're midway through a very long plot so it hasn't actually ended anymore lmao. Maybe His Good Lady Wife?

Do you get hate on fics?

Not thus far, thank god

Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

I haven't published any smut but... yes. Thus far I'm too scared to let anyone read it though ahaha

Do you write crossovers? What's the craziest one you've written?

Again, I haven't published any, but I do have an AU WIP where asoue characters exist in the world of the Hunger Games if I ever get around to finishing that

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Not as far as I know

Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

I am far too much for a control freak and nowhere near enough of a planner for that to be a viable option lmao

What's your all-time favorite ship?

Oh god you want me to choose? I can't even choose my favourite ship in some fandoms and you want me to pick one overall??? Okay okay I guess I'd have to say either Eswell or Beasme but I cannot narrow it down more than that

What's the WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

Hmm... maybe the Villainous Violet AU? I've mentioned it several times on here, but I've barely written anything down and as much as I love it, I'm not very good at multichapters :(

Oh, or my WWDITS rewrite! I was really mad, but the show is sort of slowly driving me away so I'm not sure I'll write anything else for it (we'll see how mad I get when I finally have access to the new season lmao)

What are your writing strengths?

I've gotten a lot of compliments on writing in-character dialogue, and on my angst, so probably one of those? I am. Still not great at being nice to my own writing ahaha

What are your writing weaknesses?

Oh god okay well I am awful at making anything happy (I tried to write a fluff fic once and it. Did not go well), but also exposition is literally so hard??? Either I just do a massive clunky paragraph of description or I fully do NOT tell you anything about the environment I'm so sorry

Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language for a fic?

I don't think I'd ever do it because I cannot speak another language (and every attempt to learn thus far has failed spectacularly), and I like being able to have the proper implications and nuances when I write dialogue, which I obviously can't do if I don't know what they're saying. I think the only way I'd do it is if a character was temporarily speaking in another language for like, a specific purpose, which I don't think really counts

First fandom you wrote for?

Okay, the first fandom I published for on this account was WWDITS, but I've been writing fanfic (in my head at least) for as long as I can remember

Favorite fic you've ever written?

Oh god um... I personally really like Under the Moonlight, but I'm not sure I quite got across everything I wanted to in it. I also think A Prior Engagement and Correspondence With A Duchess are pretty good so maybe one of those? I don't know, reading back my fics always just makes me want to fix them 😭

Tagging @virginian-wolfsnake, @changelinq, @downton-not-downtown-smh, @gray-zelle and anyone else who wants to do this!

[rookflower]

for character opinion ask thing - what's a random headcanon about cinderpelt you have?

ill just do all i have to answer for her as well lol

sexuality/gender headcanon: lesbian!! 100%!!!! i don't really have one set gender headcanon for her, i can easily see her as cis, transfem, or nb!

rating out of 10: 10/10 that's my obligatory childhood fav

favourite thing about them: i haven't read tpb in a wee while so this is pretty vague but i really like her relationships with the characters around her! she's got a strong personality that stands out in the huge cast. she's also surprisingly consistently written, while she's alive anyways- benefit of your fav having a short lifespan, i guess.

least favourite thing about them: i don't feel like i'm the best person to speak at lengths on the ableism in her character but it is definitely there and definitely the most glaring issue at play. the implications of her reincarnation and the retcon that she was secretly miserable and unable to find happiness her whole life especially fucking sucks

why i first started liking them: latched on pretty immediately, long ago. i just gel well with some characters who start out as excitable and cheery, and she's one of the first female characters in the series who really has anything to them (besides yellowfang, who gets worse later, and bluestar ig) so there was that i guess LMAO

do i relate to/project on them?: a bit!

fav moment: i actually really like her mortality struggles in tnp but tbh that scene in tpb where shes like 14 and she calls tigerclaw a stupid bitch takes the cake

fav ship: cinderpelt is unfortunately very low on ship options. i've seen daisy, fury, and gremlin suggested and those are all cool but very much rarepairs lol.

fav platonic friendship: firestar! also yellowfang, littlecloud, her siblings, sorreltail, etc. girl of many pals

a ship i hate: firestar! firecinder fucking sucks so so bad sorry <3 they are besties. like siblings. mlm wlw solidarity. i wish the erins could talk about cinderpelt without recanonising cinderfire but tis impossible it seems.

do i prefer canon or fanon?: uhhh neither tbh? cinderpelt canon is riddled with issues and cinderpelt fanon hasn't evolved since 2013. i like the version of cinderpelt that exists to me <3

random headcanon: i like to think that she. kind of fucking hates bluestar, having been her sole medicine cat for that tense while before she died, and after what bluestar did to brightheart especially. i love bluestar too but i think cinderpelt deserves to have a little rage and resentment as a treat.

what colour do i picture them as? solid dark grey, blue or purple tint, paler neck ruff/mane. i do like designs where she has some ginger flecks though.

unpopular opinion: can't think of anything serious but i will say that im dying on the hill of fluffy and fat or bulky cinderpelt designs. slim dainty cinderpelt designs are cute but thats never how ive pictured her so they don't read as the same character to me lmao

favourite map/pmv/amv

[writtenmemxries]

"We broke up."

Buck stared at his phone in disbelief. He did tell Eddie he should reconsider his whole relationship with Ana, but he didn't expect him to actually do it. Not so soon anyway. Yet here he was, staring at those three little words that made his head spin.

He briefly thought about Taylor, how she would spend the night at his place sometimes, how he would wake up and find her blissfully sleeping next to him. He felt a pang of something he could not identify. Didn't want to identify, actually.

He closed his eyes and let out a shaky breath. His mind wandered towards places he did not want to explore. He thought about Eddie. It was always about Eddie. He looked at his phone again.

"We broke up."

Did Eddie want him to come over? Did he want to come over?

Goddamn, yes. For the past few months, it was all that he wanted. He wanted to go home with that man he so undeniably loved, and he wanted to find a boy with golden locks waiting for them on the couch. He wanted a family so bad it hurt. And he had one. God, he had one, it almost felt like he had them, but they were both too close and too far away to reach. There was Shannon and there was Ana and there was Taylor and they were two men and what if Eddie found it weird and what if Chris found it weird and what if-

He shook his head and went to the bathroom. He looked at the mirror, looked at his stupidly dilated pupils and could not contain the laugh that managed to escape. He was pathetic, wasn't he? In love with a man he could never have. When did he even realize it was Love, capital L?

His phone buzzed in his pocket.

"Buck, you there?"

"You were right. I'm not in love with Ana. Have never been. She's not the one."

"You busy right now?"

His heart skipped a beat. He sucked on his bottom lip so hard it almost bled, thinking about what to say. He needed to see him, he needed to look at those brown eyes and hear him say that it was over for real. He wanted to tell him that they weren't, they would never be over. They were BuckandEddie, a whole package.

A few minutes later, his phone started ringing. He didn't even need to look at the screen to know who it was.

"Eddie," he answered breathlessly.

"Hey Buck, I- shit, you're with Taylor, aren't you?" came Eddie's voice from the other side.

"What? No, I-"

"Sorry man, I guess I just wanted to talk, but-"

"No Eddie, listen-"

"No pressure, just call me when you're free, alright?"

"Eddie, listen to me! I don't want to be with Taylor anymore!" Buck exclaimed.

Eddie was silent for a bit, Buck's heart pounding in his ears.

"What do you mean?" Eddie asked, with something too similar to hope in his voice.

"I..." Buck hesitated. "I guess... she's not the one."

"Oh."

"I'm on my way, okay?" Buck asked sheepishly.

He could feel Eddie's smile like he was standing in front of him.

"Yeah. Yeah, okay. I'll be waiting."

Buck smiled. Pathetic, isn't it?

[toskarin]

so re: urobu chi in madoka we are just replacing the "man/ghost" with a girl with grey hair, right? I buy that.

I think he has strayed away from these basic conventions a lot as of late, but he also has been working a lot less in general. I'm curious if you have a favorite of gen's work or if you feel you haven't absorbed enough of it to have an opinion (or maybe you just don't like any of it). while it does boil down to the basic framework you describe I feel like on the journey to that he explores some pretty interesting ideas. Just as well I also like the different ways he resolves his "everything sucks" narratives. at least I feel by the end usually there is more there than that basic idea but sometimes it takes too long to get there.

As far as zero is concerned, Nasu approved it basically all the way through its release and worked with gen on it so there is that. And when you consider Gen was basically given free reign there's no real reason for him to stick to the original concepts, I don't think (but I understand the argument for him to do just that). I guess my takeaway is if you find them incompatible (zero and stay) then that's fine because they were made by two completely different people, the same way I don't have Aliens in the same headspace as Aliens. They are different things that just happen to have the same characters.

I spent a lot of time just stating my own opinions rather than asking yours, sorry. Whatever you feel about Gen (I'm not a big fan but he's made some stuff I like), it's hard for me to say he did some interesting things that a lot of authors would be too afraid to do (or perhaps simply wouldn't be allowed to by their publishers).

anyway if you can/want to point me to where you've written more about these topics I'd be curious to see it!

I'm gonna apologize in advance because I'm using your ask to write my most comprehensive (and sympathetic) post on Urobuchi so far lmao

I should definitely open by clarifying that when I drop an opinion like that, I'm exaggerating my actual stance because I think it's funny to do it, so I'm not actually as anti-Urobuchi as I come off, it's just that I'm just not especially a fan (and at the end of the day, no matter what I say on here, I'm a pretty big Madoka fan who thinks Saya no Uta is a fantastic piece of horror and likes Nitroplus vns as a whole)

in general, when I sound overly negative about an author, it's usually because I don't feel the need to write out every time I find a piece of media okay or even good, so playing up some stronger opinions for a punchier line is always gonna result in what looks like a paradigm of blind praise and seething hatred. it can come off especially rough when preexisting connotations attach themselves to my rambles and rants

for example, me complaining about the misogynist tendencies of Urobuchi's writing is more of a ribbing than a hard moral judgment on whether it's got merit. I've got no idea what he's like outside of his work, besides that we like a lot of the same movies and he seems to get along with other people I hold in high regard. that's a big part of why I make a point of tending towards more tongue-in-cheek references to his choking fetish as opposed to anything with real substance

all that being said!

even though my stated opinions are oversimplifications of what I actually believe, I'm a little unfair to him, and I'm fully willing to acknowledge that. I disagree heavily with the way Zero was handled, especially in regards to how it handled preexisting characters, and it's one of those few situations where I wonder whether Nasu was actually right to lend so much creative freedom to a partner on a project he was (by all accounts) so closely involved with

Gen has a fantastic sense for horror and despair, and it's solely because he produces stories so close to what I'd consider amazing that I complain about the things holding them back. an example I'll point out is that I've never gone after the low hanging fruit of gun jokes because, while it is a recurring theme in his writing, I genuinely appreciate his fixation on the specifics of firearms

I haven't kept up with Urobuchi's stuff recently, largely because of time constraints, but I really do hope he's been working his way out of the boxes he worked himself into. if he were a purely mediocre writer who made consistently okay work, I don't think I'd have any opinions on him at all, after all

in the end, I really dislike Zero because of both what it tries to be and what it doesn't try to be. if it had been a more boring production, I'd have much less to say about it. I think that's a pretty good encapsulation of my feelings on him. I'm never bored, regardless of whether I'm having a good time

[healinghyunjin]

hi!! i just wanted to drop by your inbox and say that i read wolfsbane and it was so well-written!! i’m also so flattered that you’re following me and i can’t wait to see what else you write this year! i hope you’re having a good day/night <3

CLOVE omg hello!!! Thank you so much for dropping by - I'm an awful person for taking so freakin long to respond to this, I know, but thank you so much for your patience 🙏🏽🙏🏽🙏🏽

Your reblog genuinely fucking made my day, my week, my month - I've been a fan of your writing since I FIRST started reading SKZ fics (almost a year ago now!!). Where do I even start - there's genuinely NOTHING I love more than >10k+ word, well-written, plot-heavy, imagery-filled fics, and you have SO many in your arsenal. I can genuinely gush over every single one of your fics (I mean, the sheer CREATIVITY it takes to write something like Midnight in the Maize - like fucking hell, that one gave me *chills* the first time I read it!!), but I think my favs hands down are Symphony and Falling from Grace. Symphony was one of the first long SKZ fics I ever read, and I read it at a point where I really only knew Chan and Hyunjin (lmao can you imagine??). Symphony gave me the hots for Minho to a point where I legitimately only watched Minho fancams for like two days - and subsequently realized that there's no way that I'll ever be able to have a fixed bias for SKZ lol. Meanwhile, the only way I can describe Falling from Grace is just that...it's genuinely one of the most immersive fic reading experiences I've ever had? Like your descriptive abilities are supreme in this fic - the way you set the mood in the attic; the way you build the oppressively opulent atmosphere of Hyunjin's home - it's so well-done, and I just remember being sucked into the story like nothing else. [So - to people who come by this post lol - if you haven't read Clove's work already, you *need* to do so asap!!]

I've rambled a bit lol but all in all - your feedback and thoughts were so uplifting and helpful to see, so thank you so much for sharing them!! I'm sorry again for the delay, but I'm really happy we've connected, and I hope we can continue chatting as we both write more fic haha 🤗🤗

[messofhell]

I really have no idea how to start this thing up because this is mostly me creating a blog to post shit I wrote I don't mind posting online. Also because someone told me I should try and see how it goes.

Careful, what's under there is reeeally long.

I'm not confident in my writing and, if I have to be honest, I think it sucks. When I read my stuff, I feel like the characters I write about are OOC and that's one of the main reasons I've always avoided posting anything anywhere.

Besides that, not that my life matters, but because I'm a friendless person, most of the shit I write are about me being friends with anime characters that would probably never befriend me.

Like my name indicates, I'm a mess, but well, I'm working on it. And, one way to try and do that is posting some stuff here. If I'm able to.

Anyhoo! This is getting way too long so here's the animes I might post about⬇️⬇️⬇️

For some reason I sound really cold whilst writing this and it's freaking me out😅 But, I don't bite. I'm just so used to not interacting with others that I think I'm somehow making myself sound like an ass even though I'm actually a nerd, sorta

I'm not planning on writing explicit NSFW stuff, but some might pop up in smau's I write because, somehow, I have less trouble writing some there.

Tokyo Revengers

I've watched the anime like a month or two ago and fell in love with it. I've been working up to reading the manga and I've read up to where Mikey gets his bike.

Bleach

Not the very first anime I've watched, at least I don't think so but I don't really remember what the first anime I've watched is so😂 but one I love a lot since I watched it when I was kid. I've read like, 3 volumes maybe?

Detective Conan

Another one I watched when I was a kid, on TV though. At least, whenever an episode popped up. Even now, I still follow most of the episodes that come out and I'm glad I started when there weren't that many😅

Boku no Hero Academia

Somehow, I never planned on watching it, same for TK by the way, but ended up doing so and I wasn't disappointed😂 Fell in love with Hawks after just seeing a picture of him lmao

Naruto

So, this is another one I watched on TV when I was kid. Unlike the others though, I haven't re-watched in a while. But, sometimes, I still end up writing stuff about it so I'm adding it.

Haikyuu!!

Actually re-watching this right now so there's a big possibility I'm gonna be writing about it soon.

Kuroko no Basuke

I had a phase where I wrote stuff about this one non-stop so I might fish out some stuff I wrote and post it.

Eyeshield 21

I REALLY wanna write about it. But my ass can't seem to get any inspiration at all so I'm just adding it here in case I'm satisfied with something I write and post it.

One Piece

Okay, so, One Piece is the one that I wrote the most about at some point in my life, but I lost all my files a few years ago so I've been working up the motivation to write things about it again.

D.Gray-Man

I might write about it, I was re-watching it a few months ago, but got distracted by another anime (KnB) so I kind of lost track of where I was with it.

Shingeki no Kyojin

Big warning with this one, but I only watched up to season 3, I think it was season 3. So, I've seen some stuff around, but the way I see this one is when they're all stuck in the walls and trying to get out.

Kimetsu no Yaiba

I haven't finished watching the 2nd or 3rd season I think? The one where Uzui and his wives appear. I'm not sure if I have to count the movie as a season😅 but it's really cool and I've written a few things about it.

Persona 5 / Persona 5 Royal

I literally played this game in one freaking night. The first one at least. I've also got a few things about it on my phone, so possible post.

Annnd, that's all I can think of for now. There was also Ao no Exorcist, but I haven't written about it in a while soo, maybe, maybe not.

I'm sorry if this is extremely long and thank you to whoever read everything until the end because there is one last detail I have to mention that I don't think I have.

There is a very strong possibility that after posting (or not posting at all) I might vanish for good. It's not because I forget about the blog or anything, but because I just can't bring myself to do something with regularity.

So, yup, that's it. If I post anything, I hope you'll like it. And if I don't, I'm really sorry for wasting anyone's time.

See ya~