#i haven't written anything in Ages so it might suck lmao

[kuyadevotee]

I wanted to write something about my new Nukani oc so Of Course I had to add Kuya, and then it got out of hand-

Kouchirou sinks to the ground, back against an old oak tree, as he struggles to regain his breath. Ever since that blasted extra moon appeared in the sky, the forest has been wrong; ill at ease and thrumming with strange essence, it turns the tanuki away from home again and again, guiding him deeper into the choking undergrowth.

For the first time since his recent transformation, Kouchirou yearns for his animal form. If he reverts now it will take days of pain to return to this human shape, but the memory of his soft, thick fur and sturdy body tempts him desperately. He wants nothing more than to crawl into an old den and hide, to curl up and wait for the pounding between his ears to go away...

But before he can make a decision, a thrill shakes down Kouchi's spine, causing the sensitive fur of his ears and tail to spring to attention. Though he can't pinpoint its source, he knows this feeling. A predator is nearby, one more dangerous than any of the crazed monsters he has faced in the last day. A yokai, and a powerful one at that, is watching him, stalking him, and it wants Kouchirou to be afraid. Well, two can play at that game; Kouchi is a predator too. He rolls to his feet, balancing on hybrid toes he's barely used to. Eyes flicking to and fro restlessly, the tanuki allows his claws to extend and bares his teeth at the thick darkness between the surrounding trees.

"Oh? What's this?"

Any thought of fighting flies out the window when this silken voice drifts through the forest. It seems to come from everywhere and nowhere, bringing with it an aura of power, of presence, that sends Kouchirou's animal instincts completely haywire. He freezes, his breathing shallow.

"Fox got your tongue, pup? You're quite a long way from home, you know. The eclipse is dangerous for such a defenseless little thing."

Kouchi can't respond. Even if he wanted to, fear has glued his mouth shut; he can only stand there, frozen to the spot, as a delicate but wild scent overwhelms his sensitive nose. It's almost familiar, and he tries to place it, but to no avail.

A lilting laugh like the chime of a windblown bell swirls through the forest.

"Won't you speak, pup? I do suppose I'm asking a lot of you. You're so new, after all. Haven't even learned to hide your markings, how sweet."

Kouchirou resists the urge to tuck his hands, fingers stained the same deep brown as his claws, into his robes. It's true he hasn't been able to hide his mask yet, or the dark rings circling his chest and torso, and dismissing his ears, tail, and furred, canid feet is entirely out of the question. He has no mentor, no older yokai to walk him through the process of learning to navigate this new existence.

"Though I suppose that's not your fault either. You reek of human." The word is laced with disgust. "You must be living with them, no? It's no wonder you're behind the curve. Poor thing," the voice coos. "You don't know any better."

At this, Kouchirou finally finds his voice.

"You're wrong."

The next laugh is more of a bark, canid and dripping with malicious mirth. "Am I? Let me guess; they've been kind to you, they've housed you and fed you, they've obviously clothed you. You wear the garments of their delusion."

Kouchi's hands ball into fists, and he takes a step forward. This is also true; the old priest did give him the robes he currently wears, embossed with sigils of the Church of Klein. He has listened raptly to the priest's words, learned to read from the Holy Book, and he believes in God's works.

"The God of Klein is not a delusion! His works are all around us, and he loves all things, even yokai! You're-"

The tanuki's jaw audibly snaps shut as a pair of glittering golden eyes emerge from the darkness barely ten feet from him. A body follows, thick purple mist coalescing into a lithe, elegant form. The essence-laden musk of an alpha predator clogs Kochirou's nose and his nostrils flare; as much as he tries to resist the instinct, his tail curls between his legs as this new presence demands his submission. Tall purple ears and a sleek tail are the last detail Kouchirou can parse before a terrifyingly strong grip on his chin forces his gaze upwards.

"This forest is not the domain of humans, little puppy. They are parasites, leeching off a land they will never own, creating false idols to mold the world to their expectations and to shoulder blame when the karma they've collected turns to take it's due."

The kitsune's claws dig into Kouchirou's cheeks, drawing blood that tickles as it runs down the tanuki's throat. Despite his previous bravado, Kouchi is mesmerized by those golden eyes, drawn in by the delicious essence that fills his lungs as he pants in his captor's hold.

Those eyes crinkle as the kitsune smiles and leans closer to whisper into Koushi's ear.

"You'll do well to remember this, pup. As long as you live in this forest, I am your God."

[fonulyn]

20 Questions for Fic Authors

thanks for the tag @thebrandywine 💖

answers under the cut.

1. How many works do you have on AO3?

268 works.

2. What is your AO3 wordcount?

1,256,253 words.

3. What fandoms do you write for?

RE. and still have the urge to write Gears but lol if you thought nivannedy was a rare pair...

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

nobody's perfect (TOG, pretty gen)

now drunk on lust I drown in you (forever within I'm lost in you) (RE, Chreon)

and who's to find the way right through you (RE, Chreon)

scattered fragments of time (that's all we are) (RE, Chreon)

how to accidentally get adopted - a guide by Piers Nivans (RE, Piers-centric, also background Chreon)

5. Do you respond to comments?

always! i know i missed a couple, sometimes i take ages, but i do always try to respond bc i love and cherish nice comments.

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

the bad endings on three words to last forever. i still like the angstiest one the most :'D

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

lmao like everything else idk i want them happy. i've written loads of fluff idk how to quantify which is the happiest.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

only ever got a few nasty comments thankfully, so no, not really.

9. Do you write smut? If so, which kind?

yeppp. idk what does 'which kind' mean? anything that feels inspiring lol.

10. Do you write crossovers? What’s the craziest crossover you’ve ever written?

not really. i did start a few back in the day but i didn't really finish them. i am not really into crossovers tbh i don't even read them 99% of the time.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

yeah. someone was selling it on amazon pffth.

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

a few. apparently five on ao3 lol but i think there was one or two back in the lj days too. might be wrong tho :'D

13. Have you ever co-written a fic before?

lol loads. at one point in life like... fifteen years ago, most things i wrote were co-written with a friend. and i've done it a couple of times after that too. i really like co-op stuff tbh but haven't found people to collab with lately.

14. What’s your all-time favorite ship?

right now i would sell my soul for nivannedy. might already have.

15. What’s a WIP you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

ehhhh at this moment i doubt i'll ever finish anything. maybe the lifeguard au? i was red-hot for the idea at first but then it kinda... fizzled out. kept changing. got ruined by pushy ppl lol. but maybe i'll get back to it one day bc i would love a nivannedy summer romance tbh.

16. What are your writing strengths?

uhm. characterization. dialogue. emotional shit? idk i think i do best when i have intimate moments with two people. tiny everyday moments and mundane shit. like that. if i get going writing sometimes flows super well and i think i can get consistently readable stuff done in one go. but that'd require getting going lol.

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

action. i suck at action. i also suck at it in the way that i can't actually make myself start writing. i got way too co-dependent when i still had people excitedly participating in the process and now i sit here sad doing nothing :'D but anyway. writing action and having some self-discipline lol.

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

depends very heavily on the context. in general i do think it should be all in one language for readability but there are exceptions. i've done it too lol but it was only like a line or two in finnish :'D

19. First fandom you wrote for?

diru, twenty years ago lmao, it's like a different lifetime. i only learned of the existence of fanfic at the ripe old age of nineteen lol but yeah it's still been so long now.

20. Favorite fic you’ve written?

asdjfngkn i can not choose between all of my children c'mon. uhm. am just gonna say the self-indulgent series bc it truly was so important to me for so long and i'm still devastated it ended. sigh. now i made myself sad again :'D