#i haven't posted anything on this hellsite in at least a year

[wannab-urs]

Gin's 2023 sappy post

It's hard for me to believe that at the beginning of this year, I didn't know a single one of my best friends in the world existed. But it's true!

How we got here

I'm not quite sure exactly when I started looking up Pedro Pascal on Tumblr, but it was sometime after February. I'd watched Game of Thrones and Oberyn was my favorite character, but I was in one of my periods of not being on Tumblr (I've had this account for about 10 years, but it's seen many fandoms and I haven't always been active).

I watched the first few episodes of The Last of Us that had come out - I was 3 episodes behind I think - and immediately looked up Joel Miller on Tumblr. How could I not? Anyway, give me ten minutes on this hellsite and a middle aged man with a huge imdb and watch me develop a hyperfixation.

So then I looked up interviews. I watched basically every interview this man ever did, but I remember that the Lie Detector interview and his appearance on the Talk Easy podcast are really what did me in. I went from admiring this man as an actor and thinking he's pretty to basically being in love with him.

Anyways....

I didn't mean to start reading fanfic? I come from the world of Destiel on AO3. I never wrote it, I just read copious amounts of it. I'd never read reader insert, much less straight reader insert, and I'd never written a word of anything even resembling a fanfiction.

But I found @prolix-yuy, @frannyzooey, @joelscruff, @fuckyeahdindjarin, and @ezrasbirdie (check the spreadsheet, y'all are at the very top!) and I was hooked.

Then I read Psychomanteum by @whatsnewalycat and Celestial Navigation by @write-and-buried and was inspired to parade my trauma around in a Dieter shaped trench coat: AGOY was born.

@beskarandblasters is the first person I really talked to on here. In fact, Kel is the one who introduced me to most of my friends on here. And we've been harassing each other on the daily since. I hope to 🦵 her in real life someday soon ❤️. I love you, bitch. You mean the world to me.

I could never ever ever list all of my dear friends I've made on here. Seriously, there are so many of you that mean the world to me. But I'm gonna list a few.

My cannibal crew @pr0ximamidnight and @atinylittlepain, without whom Love as Violence Dave (starving season), Head up his Ass Javi (in the a.m.), and the later editions of loser druggie Dieter (AGOY) would not exist - or at least they wouldn't be as good as they are.

My darling soup snake, the loml, my spider twin, my forever partner in making bitches cry (it's us, we're bitches, making each other cry in an endless loop) @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin. #1 AGOY stan forever, you may love my own magnum opus more than I love it. Thanks for listening to me scream about every pedro boy on the planet and thanks for screaming right back at me. I love you.

The random college student I found by accident, decided to take under my wing, and then was subsequently taken under their wing bc it turns out they have more fandom experience and life advice than I can ever hope to have @idolatrybarbie. Bea, my darling, thanks for always letting me bitch, for showing me fics I never thought I'd be into (The Santa Claus AU Frankie Morales Free Use Kink, anyone) but that I often was into, for encouraging my writing, and for being fucking real with me.

The pedrostories crew, but especially @pedrorascal - I love screaming about Pedro with you at... 2:30 in the morning my time (we love time zones!). Thanks for letting me be a terrible mod for your fic archive blog and never getting mad at me for not doing my job. And for being a wonderful, kind, amazing person all the fucking time.

I'm being so serious when I say I could list at least 20 more people. People who brightened my day with a reblog or a message. Or who wrote a fic I still think about at least once a week. Or who made a gifset that is permanently etched into my brain. People I talked to in discords and most likely trauma dumped on and they listened and they cared and they let me hold their trauma in return. I love you guys so fucking much.

Conclusion

I never could have imagined I'd be a writer and run a fic rec blog at 24. Especially not for Pedro Pascal Characters. But here we are -- and I can honestly say it has been the highlight of my year. And I bought a house this year.

I have so many new friends and a new hobby (I never wrote at all before this) just because I wanted to Fuck That Old Man. Incredible.

[angstyaches]

hey, I really love your kazuhito-centric fics! I wanted to ask for advice because I'm only now starting to get into actually writing emeto fics (despite reading and liking them for about 1 or 2 years now). I hope that's OK! I want to write more in general, but I find it hard to find ideas I actually think are worth writing! I have little ideas I write down (many, actually, like 3 or 4 a day), but again, I can't force myself to finish or even start a fic idea I'm not 100% liking (although I sometimes dislike the fic after writing it anyway?) It's a bit sad because I wish I could do something with these ideas that are just uselessly sitting around in my notes app or on a sticky note in my room ... Any advice?

I'm sorry this has been sitting in my inbox for quite a few weeks now, anon! I haven't been physically or mentally well, but I'm doing a little better, so hopefully this helps.

Firstly, thank you for liking the silly little fox boy 🖤🦊

What I've found about writing sickfic is that it's not necessarily about the idea but about how you want to make the reader (and yourself) feel about the sickie. Do you want the reader to feel like you're right there, experiencing it from their POV? Do you want to show how pathetically sick they are from the POV of another character? Do you want there to be a bit of banter or lighthearted chat, or is the moment going to be heavy and angsty? What is the story going to reveal about your character; will they discover something about themselves, will they feel differently about the person who's with them by the end, will parts of their personality crumble away amidst the sickness? Emeto readers will read the same story a hundred times from a hundred different writers because it'll make them feel different every time.

Whatever idea you have, no matter how good you think (or don't think) it is, it is always worth writing! Every single time.

And the trick with not liking your fic is that I rarely actually like my fics before I post them. If I had my way, I would horde them on my computer and make tweaks here and there, with the aim of eventually ending up with a 'perfect' story, every single day until I'm in my grave.

Sadly, if we wait around to feel 100% happy with our work, we'll never share anything with anyone.

But people want to read your stories, and the only way they can read them is if you put them into words, get them to a point where they at least somewhat resemble what you have in your head, and publish them. Editing and perfection is for the professionals, and here on the hellsite, no one's going to compensate you for the endless hours you might pour into a fic, only for it to end up in the same state as when you started.

Let yourself off the hook. And let us read your beautiful stories 🖤

[piracytheorist]

For no particular reason (really) I woke up today remembering a peculiar situation I brought myself into in this hellsite some years ago.

So, to give some context, I have a long-time friend who has been a die-hard of anything related to Tolkien for longer than some of y'all have been alive. But because she is a hopeful person, she got excited when she heard about the Rings of Power show. Particularly because of how it was hinted at on Twitter while it was in production.

So because I wanted her to have a good experience, I also wanted the show to be good. I mean, who knew, maybe this time would be an exception, right?

Anyway, first trailers drop and discussions arise, and someone on tumblr makes the mistake of fake-newsing everyone by posting a promotional video (which in all fairness was bad) and claiming it was the show's opening credits. A mutual reblogs the post - which already had some additions mocking the "credits" - I go into the comments, I see that it's not the real credits, and I make a comment of the nature of "Maybe we should watch the real credits before we make a critique of it" and a comment later I say "also pirate the stuff, amazon won't starve without your money".

Of course, tumblr being tumblr...

I got an anon calling me a bootlicker. Me, tumblr user piracytheorist, who in the second breath of talking about it suggested we should pirate stuff, am a bootlicker. I mean, they tried. A random person in the comments of the post tried to talk back, I said we should critique the show but OP was misinforming people and we should at least make sure what we're critiquing it for, and they were like "What was the misinformation?" so yeah, they also tried.

But then, the worst offender was what I think that same mutual vagueblogging about my comment. Which is why, if you have a beef with a mutual - especially one you've connected with before outside of fandom stuff - take it to them and don't vagueblog. I was in the guilty position of vagueblogging once, and yeah it did cause a friendship to break apart (though we figured things out recently).

I mean, they could have been vagueblogging about literally anything else. But that's the problem with the vague part of it. I'll never know. Because seeing the mutual passionate in dragging the show through the dirt, and then vagueblogging about "not being affiliated" with something via a The Incredibles meme after I questioned the legitimacy of that specific critique... it could have been that, it could have not. I will never know.

Anyway, we watched the show, my friend didn't like it but is still a little hopeful for at least seeing cool backgrounds, I didn't like it and I still haven't watched the last two episodes, lol. But I can assure you the fake credits video had absolutely nothing to do with the things I disliked about it. I was only invested in it because my friend was invested and I wanted it to be good so that my friend would enjoy it. But alas, money spoke above all and it wasn't good. And also alas, tumblr is tumblr and how dare you not hate something the way I hate it - misinformed.

So yeah. Don't vagueblog, kids, especially if it's about mutuals 🫠

[ardent-fox]

✨ Tag Game Master Post ✨

Hi, all! Catching up on these two games I was tagged in during the holidays 💖

First up, thank you to the lovely @lupeloto for creating and tagging me in this fun Tag Game! 🥰

📺 Favorite tv show? At the moment, Our Flag Means Death (shields self from tomatoes being thrown at her 😁)

🕴️ Favorite character? Oof, this is difficult. Gonna have to go with my precious baby boy, Stede

💋 Favorite relationship in the show? Blackbonnet (shocking, I know)

👯‍♂️ Fav sibling relationship in the show? No blood relations but the entire crew is chosen family, so… all of them?

🎨 Favorite art form? Music, with a heavy focus on lyrics/words

⚡️ A talent you wish you had? Being able to draw would be cool

☀️ What is one thing that can always make your day better? My toddler nephew saying the most hilarious things, he's barely 3 and already the funniest person I know

🎬 Favorite fictional character of all time? Atticus Finch (any works he appears in besides To Kill a Mockingbird do not count)

🌅 Dream place to travel to? Thailand or Ireland (either "land" would do, get it? 🧍‍♀️ ...I'll see myself out)

🎈 You’re planning a huge party, what’s the theme? The Masque of the Red Death, get fancy and spooky, bitches 🎭💀

🍕 Favorite pizza topping of all time? All kinds of cheese and extra mushrooms

🥂 You can pick ONE celebrity to have dinner with… Who? Andrew Garfield, {Marge Simpson voice} I just think he's neat

🎥 Favorite movie that you kinda know is bad but you still love? Rocky Horror Picture Show 👄

👖 How would you describe your style? The "I gained a substantial amount of weight in the past 5 years and haven't bought anything new since, so I now wear whatever I can fit into and lots of dresses and skirts cause pants are uncomfortable and shopping for them is a nightmare" style 😬

🖤 Finally, something making you smile this week? My mom's reaction to a present she really wanted, seeing her that touched was soul ascending ✨

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Next, I got tagged by @deedala, @tanktopgallavich, @suzy-queued and @lupeloto to complete this round of Weekly Tag Wednesday, thank you my darlings! 💙

Name: Lyds

Location: Unknown location in Europe

Astrological Sign: Taurus squaaaad ♉

What's a TV show or movie you plan to re-watch this year? Hubby has never seen Giant, so I'll be rewatching it soon as well as some other classics like Some Like It Hot and Philadelphia Story, I'm sure I'll rewatch Frankie and Johnny for the umpteenth time as well. As far as shows go, I rewatch Our Flag Means Death at least once a month since it's my comfort show, and might do a Shameless rewatch since I've only seen the whole thing once (excluding all the Gallavich scenes)

What's a book or fic you will probably re-read this year? The entirety or The Menagerie by @crossmydna and Honeycomb by @metalheadmickey with artwork by @heymrspatel 💕

What is a song you will likely continue to play on repeat? I've been replaying One Of Your Girls by Troye Sivan for days and don't plan on stopping anytime soon, also still listening to Hozier's entire Unreal Unearth album whenever I'm chilling

What's a tasty treat you look forward to eating more of this year? Gonna steal Ri's answer here and say cinnamon buns, as well as my husband's homemade pizza rolls that I previously mentioned, as they're our favorite thing to eat while binge-watching

What's a time sink that you will continue to sink time into this year? Scrolling this beloved hellsite

Did you pick up any habits in 2023 that you plan to continue? Only unhealthy ones that I plan on ridding myself of in 2024 👋

What's your toxic trait? Inflexibility and freaking out when things don't turn out the way I've planned

What is a coping mechanism you will continue to indulge in this year? Staying in my burrow with my hyperfixations

Tell me something you like about how you look! My full, rosy lips against my smooth, pale skin

Give me at least three adjectives describing things you like about yourself. Honest, open-minded, creative 🌸

I'm out of the loop (which is about to change since I celebrated the last of the festivities today) and haven't been keeping up with the tags lately, but am still going to tag some peeps if you want to do either or both of these: @heymrspatel, @stocious, @too-schoolforcool, @xninetiestrendx, @krysmiss, @sleepyfacetoughguy, @michellemisfit, @whatwouldmickeydo, @vintagelacerosette, @metalheadmickey, @rereadanon, @francesrose3, @darlingian and anyone who sees this and wants to play! ✨

[blackswallowtailbutterfly]

"I'm never going to be free of that man I've never spoken to or even seen on my dash, am I?" I'm not even involved in this but idk why you don't just say what a stupid shit he is like youd do with any moid you came across. you respond to peoples opinions on dumb posts all the time but for some reason you seem to want to defend this idiot.

...because I come across them. Because there they are, in front of my face doing man things and I comment. For some reason you and whoever else* specifically want my attention on this particular one. Which, someone said a little while ago they like the way I explain things and that's insanely flattering, sincerely, but I *try* to speak from knowledge and experience to avoid talking out of my ass.

I don't want to put the energy into gaining enough knowledge and experience to speak about this man. He is not a thought in my head until I get yet another ask mentioning him. In the nine years I have been on this hellsite, I don't think I've gotten this many asks about literally anything else. First from people demanding I defend him and then from people encouraging and later demanding that I condemn him.

My cat posts didn't get me this many asks. The story I wrote didn't get me this many asks. Poorly worded earlier posts I've made didn't get me this many asks. Original posts that made their way to the rapist fandom didn't get this many asks. TRAs haven't sent me this many asks.

I don't want to put energy into this male! Tumblr to me is my dashboard and nothing else. I follow 201 people, nearly all of them women to the best of my knowledge, and no tags at all. If someone I don't follow doesn't come up on the posts I see when I'm active, either directly on the posts of people I follow or on the "based on your likes!" I don't see them. They don't exist to me. This male should not exist to me. He doesn't exist to me apart from when you people keep bringing him up. Why you want an extra man to exist in my life is beyond me, especially here. Like I'm sorry that you etcetera are unable to let go of him, but I promise your lives will be better when you do. Pinky promise.

*I don't even know how many people are involved here. Maybe you're all the same damn person. Hell, maybe you're all him! I wouldn't put it past a scrote to do something like this--men do all kinds of shit to get female attention--but fucked if I know. Now, go on! Bring on an anon telling me I'm joining in a smear campaign against him because of those last two sentences. Let's at least vary this up a bit.

[wheretogofrmhere]

GUYS!!!!

We are about to get new music!!!!! I cant believe its finally here. It feels like we've all been waiting foreverrrr.

And yes, I know I havent been on this hellsite in like...a year? Oh gosh, I dont know, its been awhile. I still have been checking in every so often, but not really posting.

I've been super obsessed with football (more so these past two years than before) so thats gobbled up almost all my free (stanning) time over these last 7-8 months. For the record, I hate loving a team that is so damn mid. I mean, we finished 8-8-1, literally cannot get more mid than that in a 17 game season lmao NEXT YEAR WILL BE OUR YEAR I FEEL IT 😆

Anyway, I've also been reading a LOT. Finally got back into it over the summer. I read at least a book a week, sometimes two if I have the time and the book cannot be put down. Romance (romcom?) and thriller/mysteries are my faves. So if any of you that are still out there have any recc's for books of those nature, please let me know! I'm always looking for new things to read.

And I know someone will ask, but no I haven't written anything lately. I mean, I have ideas floating in my head (I have even outlined things)...but weirdly enough, none involve writing about Niall. I think I may have surpassed the fanfic phase :// It's a sad time.

But please, I miss talking to y'all on here. So send me any messages/book recc's or anything you want, I will try to be more diligent in checking in and being on here and answering things!

Talk to y'all soon!!!! ❤️

[polaroidcats]

It's my 9 year anniversary on Tumblr 🥳

I just love how tumblr created this post for me when I clicked on that notification. Also WOW I didn't remember when exactly I created this blog but I guess it was june 1st 2014, when I was still a teenager (for a couple of months at least), studying law at university (LOL) and HEAVILY questioning my sexuality because I was in love with my best friend at the time (never told her, still friends though, glad I never said anything) and felt like the world would end if my friends discovered I was queer so i turned to tumblr to write shitty poetry and then quickly fell into the wolfstar wormhole (and haven't recovered since then). Happy tumblrversary to meeeeeee, can't believe I've been on this hellsite for 9 years (on and off with a 5-6 year break in the middle lol)

[shrunkupthejams]

hello tumblr, good timezone! a little life update (which was written at 2am? and gets very rambly and long but *shrugs* i tried to break up the walls of text a bit):

1. did i disappear? yes. will i elaborate on that? not really, i don't feel like it. but i will say that once you take a break from social media it is really hard to go back. it's very freeing, and that made me worried about how tumblr would take over the little free time i have if i came back. also hyperfixations are a lot harder to not hyperfixate on when i frequently spend time on here. overall, idk how long i was gone for, but it was a very good, much needed break that was probably great for my brain.

2. idk if i'm back back yet. we shall see. again productivity is doing much better without any tumblr in my system, as much as i do love spending time here.

3. i have read some very inspiring fics lately and am having many writing thoughts! which is great bc i really fell into a slump that i haven't been able to get out of this year like... back in may, or whatever. unfortunately, i have no time between catching up on missing school work from being sick, my job, and fucking moving. so.

4. not very tumblr relevant, but oh my god im fucking moving. again. story of my life basically. it's. fine. just happened really fast and it's weird to process. im officially in moving limbo for the next two weeks. and that sucks. but it's ultimately good for my system, i think, because i was getting restless waiting for the usual regularly scheduled "big change" in my life, and that quota is now being filled and it's relieving.

5. dear lord i don't even want to look in my notifications.. if anyone tagged me in stuff while i was out... im so sorry but it's likely lost in the pile. avoiding my problems on social media is like my specialty, and my notes is currently one of those problems.

6. (if you see me unfollow a bunch of stranger things blogs (hello, i know some of those are mutuals), im sorry but i clogged my dash with st blogs so bad and i cannot afford slipping into that hyperfixation rn. i can't do that to myself. it's not personal or anything. so um. don't mind me haha.. i should really consider the state of my dash before i follow... but alas, i do not. one of the main reasons i typically avoid the hellscape that is instagram! oh and tbh, i knew it was time to come back to this hellsite when i started casually wasting like. an actual amount of time on instagram semi-regularly. that's when yk it's time to go like fuck i do not want to be in a place where i am wasting time on instagram of all places. wasting time on tumblr is at least tasteful. sorry artists of instagram ily but i simply cannot.)

7. ahaha watch me avoid my sideblogs after this (not that's incredibly relevant). i can only involve myself in social media so much rn...

8. more irl news: after, at least of 2022 and then some of saying i need therapy, i'm finally getting therapy! first appointment booked for this wednesday babey :) thank GOD. definitely needed this after discovering that apparently you can have grandfather issues, as if my current parental issues weren't enough.

9. another irrelevant irl update: i got my license! fucking finally! idk if i ever complained about that on here but YEAH. it feels like so much has changed since i was last active on tumblr..

10. as a final bit of news, since this got fucking long im so sorry, im trying out the name kurtis now. seeing how that fits :)

and um yeah that's how my life is going rn. ill try not to go off in the tags about anything, considering the length of this post. sure makes that relatively new dashboard post shortening feature come in handy tho! haha..

[dragmedowntobeaconhills]

Prompt #10 || Tony Oller

Pairing: Tony Oller x Fem!Reader

Request: hey I was wondering if you take requests that you would write a tony oller imagine. Anything let your creativity free and write what lever you want thank you bye 👋

Word Count: 477

Prompt is from this list (X)

A/N: Hello, its been a while lol I haven't written fanfiction in a long time, I actually convinced myself I was done with it, but I just came back after a hiatus from this hellsite and was pleasantly surprised to see this request in my asks and couldn't pass it up. I never get asks period, let alone requests, the latter is probably for the best because I'm terrible at filling them 99% of the time. This is actually the first time I've written, finished, and posted a request all in the same day I got it. Ever. But anyways, since its Halloween, that's the theme! Thank you so much, anon, I'm rusty but I hope you like it! Happy Halloween! 👻🧡🎃🖤

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

Its the night before Halloween and you and Tony were at a little Halloween event. You were currently in line for a hayride, with you in a very good mood considering this time of year is your favorite everything; holiday, season, and month. Tony stood beside you, a little grumpy and bored as he hadn't wanted to come to this thing but he did because you wanted him to.

"Could you at least pretend like you're enjoying being with me?" You say in amusement when you look up at him and see his expression.

"You dragged me to this fall festival for ‘fun,’ and now we’re here, standing in line for an hour, to pay for a hayride. Explain the fun to me again." He sasses, looking down at you.

You giggle at his attitude. He's so damn cute when he's grumpy. "I shouldn't have to. You're here with me, that should be fun enough." You smile cutely up at him.

He rolls his eyes but can't keep a smile from tugging at his lips. "I'm with you every day, baby."

"Exactly. My mere existence in your life should be all the fun you need." You respond.

He scoffs in amusement, giving into the smile. You bounce on your feet beside him as you grin. "See? Now you're smiling and it didn't take much because, me." You say proudly.

He throws his arm around your neck, pulling you into himself. "Way to stay humble, sweetheart." He teases, pressing a kiss to your head.

You giggle, making yourself comfortable against him, always loving every second you spend in his personal space. "I'll shamelessly say it right now. I'm not humble, I've never claimed to be humble."

Tony laughs and you feel the rumble of his chest through his sweater, a familiar warmth spreading through yours at the sound of his amusement.

"I love you." He states, looking down at you.

You raise your head to look up at him, already smiling. "I love you too." Raising up on your toes, your lips meet his.

That is, until the hayride returns and the occupants exit, the line you're in starting to move as those in front of you get on. You pull back, an excited squeal leaving your lips as you waste no time, grabbing Tony's arm and tugging him with you as you bound ahead.

"I'm still not entirely into this, you know." He says after helping you in before following.

"Its gonna be fun, baby!" You reply excitedly as he sits beside you, his arm returning around you when you lean into him. "Plus, when we get home later, I'll make it up to you."

His gaze moves to you at that, one of his eyebrows raising as he smirks slightly, his reaction making you erupt into giggles as the truck begins pulling forward, the hayride starting.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

All rights reserved @dragmedowntobeaconhills2024

Thank you for reading!

Gif credit is linked directly underneath it

Masterlist (X)

Happy Halloween! 👻🧡🎃🖤

[tooboredtothinkofaname]

*sigh* I just blocked someone for the first time because of minor.

I am on this hellsite since i was 16. I'm not saying I was mature, i'm not saying it didn't fuck me up (it did. And the person who shown it to me) i'm not saying how i got here for porn and other fun stuff and it didn't help me explore my sexuality as a teen.

But ffs i was 16. AND i had the witts to at least not post my age here.

Sorry but no, my content is not for children, you might see something you're not ready for just yet.

At 15 you don't have critical thinking skill developed enough to see how some things are just fucked up for you and how you need experiences and knowledge about life to just walk over something.

Trust an older friend who HAS been there and it did not end up well.

At 16 i was proud. At 18 i was alerted. At 20 i was worried. At 23 i was broken. At 27 i recovered and at 28 i just know better.

I was not 16. I wouldn't have done it. It has done severely more harm than good. I couldn't know any better and i wouldn't listen if someone spoke to me about it. Maybe perhaps to myself from the future.

And you know what. Today let me be yourself from the future.

Say no to them. Don't go with someone who doesn't make you feel safe. Don't follow the thrill. You are better than this and if you cross that line there's no going back. It will haunt you forever. Sometimes it is better to regret something you haven't done than something you have. You don't have to do or try everything. It's Ok to not experience everything especially whatever your friends say they experience. Life is not a movie. Things don't look like in them. Real experiences might be different from emotions and anticipation. Sometimes they're better. Sometimes they disappoint. Sometimes you wish you never had them.

Aim for the good. Aim for the light. Trust your fucking gut but be honest with yourself about it. Real friends sometimes come in your 20s or 30s or 40s or even later in life. Some of them will disappear from your life for no significant reason. Sometimes you just.. stop clicking and that s fine. You don't even need to look for a replacement, it's good to have that solitude and learn who you are when you're just with yourself.

Spend more time with your pets and sibling. Little you know they will be angsty and secretive teenagers, then grow up, move out, get a job and a life partner. Little you know it's gonna be the last time you spend a late evening in the kitchen talking about life and laughing together, just the 2 of you.

Little you know your pets and siblings will get gray hair, hurting joints and back, and will not be so willing to go for long walks around your village.

Spend more time with your parents. In just a blink of an eye, these struggling with life and trying to figure it out, full of dreams and plans for the future 30 year olds who read you bedtime stories and made you cereal for breakfast and who were so happy to get you that bionicle toy you saw in a tv commercial and wanted so bad, the young and vigorous people who got their first apartment and a car, who taught you songs and days of the week will be more and more tired with each day, more wrinkles will show on their faces. And they will stop having dreams about starting their own business or going abroad or having a house with a big garden and will just want to sit down in the living room with their family and watch their favourite movie from the 90s that you used to love watching together. They will struggle to move as fast as they used to. They will start forgetting things and lose their focus. You will notice newer technology that they taught you how to use back in the day gets more and more troublesome for them and they will keep asking for more help until they will jist not be interested in improving anything about electronics or devices because they like it just the way things are.

You will remind yourself how they taught you to type on a computer keyboard and how to use a mouse. You will remember how they used to teach you how to start off a dvd player and how to play CDs. And you will notice they, once so tech-aware, are falling behind. And you will get mad at them for it. Not because it annoys you to help, but because it means they are slowing down. And it's just gonna be like this from now on. It will remind you about the inevitable passage of time that will touch everyone you love including you. And that one day, you will have to say goodbye.

So yeah, cherish every moment, every age you are because every age has plenty to offer. Spend time with your loved ones, take a longer walk with your dog, play with your cat after school, visit your family after work and go on a date with your partner on the weekend. Just be around. Because that's what life is about.

Go off-line and breathe

[deepsea-shopkeep]

so how do you feel about this unhinged hellsite so far

(OOC: hello from one person who recently made a Pressure ask blog to another lol

I’ve been lurking around and it’s certainly something- search for a bit and you’ll find things like in-character crackships such as Eyelights (still have no context as to how that happened but the mods for both blogs involved are in on it together) HDHSHD

I’ll def be throwing my OC (@hadalrecluse) once I have a better window of time (I am also in uni and have created an absolutely bizarre class schedule for myself 😅) to do so)

"It's fine so far, not bad, not jaw-dropping amazing, somewhere in the middle. I haven't had enough conversations to make a whole opinion, y'know."

"You calling it a hellsite makes it sound a lot more interesting, to say the least! Haa.."

oh hello!! thank you for the greeting, i appreciate it! i haven't had a chance to interact much with others outside of windy's p.ai.nter blog, but i plan on doing it at some point. crackship blogs are CRAZYY i gotta look at that LMAODHSJSFJ

still building a muse for this loser so i apologize if anything is ooc ^^" it usually takes me awhile to get fully comfortable with writing dialogue for characters without making it .... off the mark just a bit

i'll drop a follow for your oc!! uni is insane!! i took full online classes last year and i'm doing the same this year for personal reasons but that only means double the discussion posts bc professors want to make sure i'm like, real and stuff SDJHBDS

[unladielike]

Disclaimer: I'm only posting about this because someone has been block evading and stalking my blog to pick fights instead of talking things out with me, which I've been told by a friend classifies as harassment and a form of cyberbullying, especially when I did not respond to him/interact with him beyond a now deleted vent, so I'm just gonna talk about this and hopefully never have to address it again... because this shit is very tiring and I have been putting up with it for days on end now, especially while it had been my birthday at some point.

I just wanna say that if you ever feel like I had officially wronged you in the past, I don't mind apologizing for it, but to continue slandering me for my past wrongs on a public platform instead of privately venting to a friend or talking to me about it is not the way to go.

Of course, I won't deny that I wasn't always the best partner, but I've been here on this hellsite for at least 8 years or longer now, so it's not like I can recall every instance where I dropped threads, not follow through in interacting with past mutuals, or even hurt someone without personally knowing.

Granted, I get people disliking me happens to be an inevitable part of life, but blocking me should really be the end of it. Seriously, if I have not once bothered you or harassed you first, that does not give you the grounds to repeatedly stalk me, vague about me, or argue/debate with me in the replies of a confession blog (especially when you have me hard-blocked).

It's also very disingenuous to claim I'm still the same person that I was years ago, so if needed, I will defend myself, but I think many of my mutuals who have been here since the inception of this blog can personally vouch for the fact I do practice what I preach and know that I now ship with only two people at best and have moved past the point of caring about giving my OC more romantic ships without the proper substance, development, or build up.

It should also be noted that I constantly bring up I have autism if only because it affects how I communicate with others/how I get my points across and to pretend it doesn't would be a huge disservice on my part, as it does affect my social skills, both online and offline. That, however, does not mean I'm using it as an excuse but as an explanation, because too often, I have experienced neurotypical folks being ableist towards me and holding me up to neurotypical standards (ie: thinking I would be able to get hints if they somehow enforce the silent treatment) and unlike many others, I don't have the luxury of acting like I don't have it, because it's a permanent part of who I am that I can't completely mask no matter how hard I might try to do so.

Of course, that doesn't mean I'll refuse to be held accountable for my actions, but at the same time, I won't hesitate to speak out against ableism, point out how I have a different perspective on things due to me being neurodivergent, or defend myself if I feel like I'm being unfairly treated.

TLDR, though? Just talk to me or vent about me privately. Like, I honestly believe I'm a reasonable enough person, so if you tell me I did something to hurt you, then I will listen and apologize, but continuing to obsess over me/hold a grudge against me/misconstrue my points when I haven't been mutuals with you in years like some creepy, butt-hurt ex is not the behaviour of an adult. It's the behaviour of a child who can't let things go.

And believe me, I get being salty, but vaguing about someone more than twice in a row on tumblr is genuinely not a healthy outlet. Of course, it would be one thing if Tumblr was a site where you can set your blog to private like Twitter, but anything you post can be seen by the general public, so at the end of the day, you're achieving nothing by typing out misinformed clapbacks but make yourself look like an ass.

Also, be careful when using the phrase, 'Don't use your autism as an excuse', because depending on the context, it can come across as mansplaining or an ableist, thought-terminating cliché at best.

[liskantope]

And exactly five years later (well, four days shy of five years, to be exact), I'm completing that 1000 more! In other words, this is my 2000th post.

Even though these past thousand posts have been spread over a longer period of time (first posted on Tumblr on January 1st, 2015; 1000th post was in late February 2019 after a little over four years), which is mainly a reflection of how my job since mid-2019 has involved a lot more teaching which translates into me working harder with fewer hours of free time, it honestly feels like the first thousand posts were somehow more substantial than these second thousand have been. In other words, I have the illusion that during my time on Tumblr up to five years ago, I had written well over half of what I've written now. If I think back to anything particularly memorable or important (at least to myself) that I've written, the kind of thing I feel inclined to revisit or link back to, almost all of it is pre-2019. Of course it could well be that my first thousand posts were on average longer or more effortpost-y than my second thousand: I haven't exactly compared the word counts to check.

Five years is a lot in internet years, and much has changed about my Tumblr experience since the time I wrote the OP. The set of people I regularly interact with here doesn't have a ton of overlap with that of February 2019, actually. The content ban that shook up Tumblr had already happened (quite recently) by the time of the OP, but I don't think all of the aftereffects were quite in place by then, particularly some of the overturn among those on my regular Tumblr radar, which it was only recently brought to my attention changed a lot as a result of the ban (which itself doesn't seem to have quite stuck in the long term, although meanwhile there's a perception that this is a dying website for other reasons).

I think my general relationship to Tumblr has changed since my 1000th post, from having by 2019 retained a vague sense of "I'm here because I kinda-sorta identify as a rat and rat-adj Tumblr is where I can most easily get a foothold in part of rat culture" (though not as strongly as, say, in 2015) to "I'm just here as myself and not aligned with any particular subculture of Tumblr and while there are many individuals I have a ton of beliefs in common with I'm not sure there's any well-defined subculture here whose ideologies I don't dissent from in some serious way". Most of this evolution has happened during the last year, in fact, so that now I feel like part of my personality here has to do with positioning myself staunchly against certain clumps of the ideological memes that are prevalent in most parts of Tumblr culture, from children's rights rhetoric to anti-recovery sentiment to many elements of gender identity stuff. While this has led to some unpleasant moments, I actually feel fairly comfortable letting myself be a sort of maverick voice in this way, a critic of certain parts of Tumblr culture from inside Tumblr, and as long as I continue to find time and energy I don't intend to shift away from that role.

Of course, if there weren't a number of aspects of Tumblr culture that I do feel very in tune with (the general nerdiness and vigorous spirit of creativity, being a place to openly describe mental/social processes and dysfunctions, an overall sense at least in my circles that most people are drama-averse and know how to converse and disagree like adults, the feeling of being a safe haven for 20- and 30-somethings who haven't settled down), I wouldn't care to stay on here. Well, the relationships with particular individuals I know through this "blue hellsite" and being a fan of a number of the blogs I follow on here is another thing that has kept me on and leaves me with no plans to leave as I start to work on my third thousand posts.

This is my 1000th post on Tumblr.

A lot of my posts have been only a paragraph or two but many have been longer, and I rarely reblog things without commenting. So 1000 of them would seem to add up to a pretty serious amount of writing. It certainly doesn’t feel like I’ve posted on any blog that many times – I’ve watched the total number increase month after month without ever feeling like there was a great deal of effort involved. This is probably because writing in a relaxed, off-the-cuff way comes quickly and fluidly to me, in stark opposition to when I make an effort to be polished. Also, I think most people find it a lot easier to write in response to another person’s essay or a conversation already being had, which Tumblr allows plenty of opportunity for.

And it feels strange, because here I’ve made 1000 posts and been on Tumblr for well over 4 years and I still catch myself thinking in the back of my mind that I’m a newbie here. I think a lot of that feeling comes from the idea that I stayed a complete outsider to online culture until more recently than most people here and am still somewhat of an outsider to certain large online subcultures compared to a lot of you. But in fact, I’ve now spent a significant portion of my life a bit more “properly online”, and I’m having fun and have no plans to disengage anytime in the near future.

Here’s to 1000 more!

[theyarebothgunshot]

The questions at cons are getting boring anyways otherwise I wouldn't suggest it. But maybe someone should just ask "on a scale of all-my-pictures-live-in-the-cloud to i-have-an-entire-room-dedicated-to-scrapbooking where are you"?

god please no, nobody ask anything like this everrrr first rule about cockles is we don't talk about cockles etc etc (but yeah i do agree the con questions are getting boring)

more after the cut

I am 99% sure i remember someone had found an app that created that border at some point, and i know it was posted in a random reply on twitter, so not too many people must have seen that discovery. idk why that's so important to me but I've been trying to find that app for an hour now, i still haven't sadly!! I need this to find peace because i literally could swear it was from an app, even with that little tilt and those weird imperfect corners and all

now that you mention it, i do remember seeing a post about this...... though i don't remember if i was convinced it was that app or not lmao but yeah it's possible!

weighing in as well: the photo with danneel definitely has one of the old instagram frames, they removed them some years ago but some of my old ig pictures do have that same frame. the two anniversary pictures, i can’t really tell though because of the quality, it could be that frame on both which then were stitched together (but then that would mean a whole lot of trouble to make that one collage)

oh really?? in my mind the background on all three pics is the same but maybe it's slightly different idk.

listen i am a tinhatter as much as anybody can be—THOSE BITCHES IN LOVE—but i just neeeeed someone to know (and you're my favorite blog on this whole hellsite so im very sorry but im going to curse you with this) how fucking funny i would find it if the truth was jensen and misha are infact totally hetero, not even a little bit into each other—like, they truly and openly explored the idea with each other, really took it into consideration and were uncharacteristically open about feelings and attractions, and went 'ehhh nah sorry not for me' 'oh thank god i thought i was going to have to figure out how to let you down easy'—and that j&d are rigidly monogamous, but they do these things and perform these.. hmm.. displays.. utterly on purpose, fully aware of everything they do and the way we will interpret it, specifically BECAUSE we are so.. us.. about it. queerbaiting irl, acting in love so hard they've practically caused a cult—i KNOW cockles discourse has led at least one set of friends to come to actual physical blows, ive seen second-hand the fallout and damage of our beloved green blue conspiracy between believers and nonbelievers—just for shits and giggles. queerbaiting even harder than the nEtWoRk, just bc it's funny to them personally. that is both the worst timeline and by far my favorite timeline. i don't believe anything ive just said for a single second, but my sides hurt from laughing about it.

im also thinking about the fact that like. idk if we would have caught on as much, or at least in the numbers we did, if the show had just let the gays be gay on screen. many of us wouldn't be going "BUT WHY CHEMISTRY. WHY STARING. WHY SO CLOSE TOGETHER. WHY KISS FACE. WHY UNICORN LAUGH." if they had just said "uhh, because gay." like there would not have been much reason for most people to look deeper, there would not have been any reason for people who hate rps to be like "well, but.. i mean.. reluctantly, i cannot deny that the cards are all on the table.. they're.. uhh.. like, they're in love. duh." and the cockles community would be MUCH smaller and more niche. also an objectively horrible idea, also objectively hilarious. this one i do believe. not that they wouldn't be.. them.. like, they'd still be all mmlahh for each other, but they'd have a much more private relationship if not for the cdubs homophobia. and actually those of us that would ken it regardless of the show would probably have a lot more content if those two/three weren't under such incredible scrutiny. damn it.

anyway i am so sorry, you absolutely didn't ask for any of this but god its making me laugh out loud to think about so i hope it makes you laugh too!

lmaooo thank you it did make me laugh and also thanks for the compliment <3 yes i am sure jensen's on stage boners were all an act sfshfshf on a more serious note i do think i personally would still be as invested in perceiving them even if they did full on went for destiel in spn, but that's just me.

[ofgentleresolve-a]

HELLO, FERRE! Sending some character development questions your way!! Thank you so much for liking the post! Hope these questions are okay!

These are for Patrick!

Besides spending most of his time working, does he like to do anything else? Any particular hobbies that might be his way to escape from the depth of thoughts?

Does he make his own puzzles/riddles, or does he have a collection of puzzles he’s retrieved over the years? Perhaps both? Has he ever considered writing a book that features some (if not all) of puzzles he deems interesting?

How can you tell if he’s angry (if ever-- )or upset? What mannerisms does he acquire when this happens?

If a student decided to hand him a paper that’s all written with Comic Sans Font, what would he do? IUWHDIUWEHDU

@jeoseungsaja aka alex, a very wonderful person on this hellsite also asks wonderful questions!! can i steal that talent pls 🥺

HI ALEX!! first of all thank you so much for these questions- i'm very excited to get them!! especially because they had me thinking about my muses in ways i haven't before :'-D

Besides spending most of his time working, does he like to do anything else? Any particular hobbies that might be his way to escape from the depth of thoughts?

hahaha alex, he's definitely a workaholic...if it weren't for his daughter and son, he might end up growing mushrooms on his back from locking himself in his studies. that being said, he can fence- started in high school and continued through university. the fencing did get him the scholarship for his uni education. these days he doesn't do it nearly as often but he does like to do a match or two so he doesn't lose his touch too much.

other than that...probably just reading? he reads obsessively. he has picked up pottery recently since with both hiro and elise growing up, he's been finding himself with more free time.

i'd say that raising elise and hiro thankfully took up a lot of his free time throughout the past six to eight years and since they're both into engineering, patrick does know the basics of machinery things...mostly because he gets concerned with what they end up working on so if they're going to try something dangerous, he'd like to be the one to do it instead for their safety-

Does he make his own puzzles/riddles, or does he have a collection of puzzles he’s retrieved over the years? Perhaps both? Has he ever considered writing a book that features some (if not all) of puzzles he deems interesting?

he does both!! he does have friends/acquaintances who are just as enthusiastic about puzzles so there's a lot of exchange there...his favorite puzzles tend to the riddles though so expect most of the puzzles he makes to be of that nature.

he's never considered writing a book that has anything to do with outside of his field of study ( yet though? maybe?? ). it might make him uncomfy to put himself in the spotlight for an audience outside of his field of study, but if he did...hyuk's his test subject, sorry i don't make the rules here- JLKFJLSKDJFLS

How can you tell if he’s angry (if ever-- )or upset? What mannerisms does he acquire when this happens?

see my first answer is: you just know. he's naturally a quiet person, but it's like... a gentle kind of quiet? the welcoming kind? but when he's angry, he goes noticeably silent. i'd say while my other muses ( sans mana ) tend to burn hot when angry, patrick goes ice cold. prominent frown, crossed arms, only speaks when absolutely necessary and his voice remains calm and even but you know he's not happy.

on the other hand, when he's upset, he still does go silent and cross his arms and his voice does remain calm and even, but there's a lot more furrowed brows and a lot less eye contact. even more reticent with speaking too.

If a student decided to hand him a paper that’s all written with Comic Sans Font, what would he do? IUWHDIUWEHDU

this is where patrick really wishes he asked his students to send him an electronic copy of their papers too because at least he'd able to change the font to something more bearable...alas, he's a paper guy. since this would probably be the first time, he would bite the bullet this time around because he probably didn't think this was going to be an issue in his class ( mistake number one, patrick- never underestimate college students ) and therefore, didn't address it in his syllabus. wouldn't take points off either although he would be VERY tempted to do so.

that paper probably took the longest time to grade out of all of the pack. he would have to take multiple breaks just for the sake of his eyes. maybe drink a full cup of tea too. when he finally gets to the last page, he makes a note to the student, summarizing his notes and the grade given as usual but then also writing to 'please consider using a different font for the next paper'.

he also makes an amend to his syllabus right there and then - all papers must have one-inch margins with times new roman font size 12.

[woozi]

henlo yza <3 ,

hdjdkd i don't really have much knowledge abt different techniques & kind of dances so when the steps match the lyrics i'm like '!!! wow yes i love it' fhdjdjskks also bc i've grown up watching these kind of dances only so my that's what i tend to notice first hdjdjddk it is also one of the reason why i decided to stan svt dwc, oh my, thanks & our dawn is hotter than day's choreo details really impressed me.

maybe vincenzo is your svt club & ur so valid for that <3 hddjdjekek also pls don't say sorry!! you can talk abt it as much as you want i like knowing what you think. i'll let you know how was it for me when i complete it. & no homecha hasn't ended yet (idk if there are 16 or 14 eps i haven't checked) it does come on weekends, counting this sunday's ep, we're at 12th rn.

i get that fjdjdkkd i used to be the same 😭 always waiting for dramas to end so i can binge watch because not knowing what happens next would kill me. but idk when this happened, my will to watch anything died down bc the eps are just there, available for me to watch anytime. im like 'i'll watch it next time' but next time never comes 💀. this year i've watched no-air ones only hdjssj very surprising for me ( also my wack memory & svt content supports me by forgetting abt it after weekend ends dhdjdkkd) anyway i'm very excited to see how you like homecha!

CHURCH BOY JOSH HDHDJDDKKSLSDJ church boy josh, cringe domestic boy, joshua numbers. we've come up with so many nicknames for him in few asks only 😭😭 dbdjksksk deserve actually. BUT SO TRUE I STILL HAVE NO WORDS FOR HIM. THAT WAS- JUST- WOW OKAY WE SEE YOU 😭😭and dino lip piercing and hoshi eyebrow slit..... so sexy of them. cb concept pictures haven't come out yet & they're already shinning!! love to see that. also now we have gyu and hoshi's wedding reception pictures & cottagecore hannie (with that collarbone picture right in middle >:( wth mister but also hbd ig <3) being added in the equation.

IM CRYINGGGGGG THEY LOOK SO CUTE THEY ARE SO CUTE NOO 😭😭💔 HOW HAVE I NEVER SEEN THESE COVERS WTH (being the ex-directioner and all dhdjkdsksk). I SMILED SO WIDE WATCHING THEM <///3 it's been so long since i heard one thing wow lol. but! this means they know who zayn is. thank you for this jdjssk this is going to keep me happy for some time hdjdke. SUNDAY MORNING EHJEJEKE 😭 thank you <3 dndjdj

IKR???? IM SO EXCITED FOR THIS CB I'M ALSO EXCITED TO EXPERIENCE IT WITH YOU. agreee truly bless svt for helping keeping us from losing it over life (by making us lose it over them) tbh sometimes it worries me too with the way contents keep dropping but just now in these unit interviews being released, perf unit shared how they have ppl who encourage them to be okay with their tiredness. things like that put me at ease. hope they rest well from time to time too. honestly just looking at their tour schedules i used to get tired because these dudes used to have more shows and less day offs and some of them being used to just move from one city to another. i hope in coming years pledis changes that lol.

sameee for the poster release hdjdkeek. also even though there was scheduler, i forgot abt the concept trailer 😭 it was raining & bcoz of that power was out as well & i don't use data dhdjdkdk. i think 5 minutes after 12 kst power came back (you can say joshu's sparkler brought it back hdjdjdks) it literally left me speechless. yk that meme ' everyone remembers what they were doing & where they were when it happened ' that's me & you with this cb hfjdkd honestly that's everyone with this cb me thinks.

seventeenies bringing the grass to you w their posts djdjkd ( btw you can always tell me if silly little jokes get out of hand i wouldn't ever like to make you uncomfy) but seriously i hope uni doesn't give you hard time. don't worry much just keep moving forward, at some point whatever is making you feel stuck will move away eventually.

is it that obvious? 😭😭😭😭 no i don't like rain at all dhjddk (i actually didn't dislike it as much during teens) mostly because road drainage system sucks here & we live in lower area so even moderate rain causes water logging. i'd give you some rain but this one's bad so i won't </3 ( as if i could if it were the good one 💀) stay hydrated!!! drink two sips of water everytime you hear dino laugh, i hope it cools a little soon.

that's what being on tumblr since 2012 does to you 😭 ALSO UR SO FUNNY PLS, SO ARE THE MEMES YOU USE FOR ASKS DJDJDKD. *hands you bunny headband dino* it's dangerous outside take this, you too stay safe out there 😭😭😭😭 love you too <3 and thank YOU for hanging out w me hehe :3, also dw tbh these asks have become one of the highlights for me now & i'm only using my free time excluding resting time, i hope you are too, no pressure at all! dw about being late - 🪂

ps - did i tell you i actually followed your svt blog around the time everyone was guessing your biases hddjkddj i sent mingyu & jeonghan dhdjdj that was my first ask :3 - 🪂

henlo, 🪂!! <3 <3 <3

honestly it doesnt matter to me tbh <3 if people enjoy the dance its all that matters!! and omg i can see that!! i love the svteenies always bring something fresh to the table

omg that means you're near the end 😭😭😭 i keep seeing gifs of it on my dash and it makes me feel a lil lovesick ngl HJFHJFHD why is it so TENDER????????????????

ok but that's so valid too bc that's me rn with in the soop.... i literally have not watched the 6th ep yet 😭 and i'm getting the feeling youre mentioning w swf now because i literally always look forward to tuesdays just for the next ep HJDHJDS also i am dumb what are no-airs HJDHJDHHD and ur not alone tbh <3 i have also been super forgetful lately and that is not like me fdhjdfjhdfhjdfhj we're rotting in this hellsite ig

love bullying him i just wanna know how he'd react if he gets upset <3 i dont think we've ever seen angry josh and i wanna make him angry sm HSDHJSDJ im glossing over dino lip piercing to directly go over hOSHI EYEBROW SLIT BC HELLO??????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????????? ive never really liked eyebrow slits but he makes them look so- i want him to hurt me HJDSHJDHJDS ALSO THE LATEST SET OF PHOTOS OH MY GODDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD they're giving me what i've been asking for i love being here sm <3 soonyoung's so chummy w everyone have u seen his photos w jihoon last night 😭 he's literally tamed the actual tiger icb this. and no oh my god i do not Know what Collarbone Jeonghan is i have erased him from my memories thank u

HDSHDSJDSHJDS the ex-directioner is so funny to me 😭 i think we have all been there one way or another <3 and ofc omg <3 i'm glad my core svt memories make u happy HSDJHJDFHJHJDSF

they literally said escapism hELP ME 😭😭😭😭😭 i think they're also just workaholics in general. i would be too if i actually enjoyed what i did for a living 😭 and are we even gonna get tours in the near future.... this is so sad i havent even seen them irl </3

NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO OMG that's terrible, i hope u guys were okay though :/ AND NOT THE JOSH SPARKLER FDDHJFHDFHJFDHFDH now i have to think about him oh my god i think i passed out a little when eyebrow piercing josh came on screen and just full on blacked out when the match scene came on tbh 😭 JKSDJKDSKDS ITS LIKE THE PANDEMIC!!!!!!! WE WILL RMB!!!!!!!!!

ALSOO NOOO OMG i dont feel uncomf at all and u should also tell me if i do make u feel so <3 thank u for even mentioning that!! also love that they're Doing It All for us we dont even have to go out to touch grass anymore HJDSHJSDJ i've actually been v happy w uni omg!! just that i often feel stressed bc they give us sm things to do </3 thank u for ur kind words!!

that's the price of being an adult JDJSJKD now we gotta think of things like.. idk the effects of rain 😭😭😭 i used to even love it when it flooded as a kid HJDSHJSDHJ now i get anxious too!! i love all kinds of rain though so i wont mind JKKSDKJSDKJD just that other people might be affected </3 wish i had my own rain cloud on some kind of leash lmao. ALSO IF I DRINK WATER EVERY TIME I HEAR DINO LAUGH FDHFDHJDFHD gonna be bloated but hydrated af ngl

oh my gOD YOU WERE HERE SINCE 2012???? we're literally sick bestie <3 i genuinely think tumblr has changed something fundamental in me and my way of thinking has not been The Same as idk.. regular people ig JDSHJSDHJSD THE OFFLINE PEOPLE!! smth about tumblr is so <3 sick but also i love this hellsite so 😗 AND NOOO NOT THE MEMES FDHDFHJDF its my broken sense of humor and inability to convey emotions properly HHSDHJDSHJ

BUNNY HEADBAND DINO?????????????????????????????????????? honestly he'd bring me more harm than protection i'll say that much 😭

AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW 🥺🥺🥺🥺🥺 that genuinely made me feel so warm & fuzzy, i always look forward to your messages too <3 <3 <3 i hope u always have good days u deserve it for being such a sweetheart

WAIT HELLO???????????????????????? YOU'VE BEEN HERE FOR SO LONG THEN 😭😭😭😭😭 and im so impressed you didnt get weeded out ngl HFDHJFDHJFD icb you've been witnessing me going more ill everyday <3 ur a soldier

and u are partially correct abt mingyu & jh <3 at least during the time JSDJDSJKSDJK i think i've been desensitized to mingyu now but i still love him sm <3 he's just so cute and cutesy boys kinda infuriate me in an affectionate way so HJSDHJDSHJDSH