#i haven't had a break from university in almost a year due to my bachelor's thesis and i'm just so tired

[kachulein]

(I hope it's okay to reblog this)

I really like option Y because I think all of the above are valid and taken together they can all be helpful on our journey through life.

What I mean by this is that:

A: Sometimes, we feel frustrated, sad, defeated, upset, angry, etc. at ourselves, or at the world, or whatever it may be. These feelings have a right to be there and to be felt and let out, so instead of pushing these negative emotions away or ignoring them, feeling them, sulking, and just letting off steam can be cathartic and help you feel more at ease afterwards.

B: After these emotions have been let out and we were able to get a bit of distance between the here and now and whatever happened that made us feel bad, we will have a clearer mind again and can reflect about what happened which then gives us an opportunity to learn from it and do the work we feel like we still need to do. This is the stage where self-compassion is so important because we can recognise that we are a work in progress but still feel proud of how far we've come already. It's okay to feel stuck and to go slow, as long as we keep going on our journey. 🩷

X: These down times are very important imo. We can't work and improve 24/7, we will eventually burn ourselves out like that. Life is not just about working hard and progressing in life, it's also about taking breaks, doing things that are fun, taking a breather/rest, engage in things that can cheer you up if you need it. Sometimes, chasing that quick dopamine rush is perfectly fine. We don't have to be productive all day every day. It's the balance that makes things work long-term. c:

And lastly, for Y: Self-love is a goal to strive for, and for those who struggle with it, I always like to imagine myself as a close friend of mine. How would I treat my friend? What would I tell them when they struggle? Then, I'd use that and apply it to myself since it can be so easy to become our own biggest bully, and we deserve to be more gentle with ourselves. 🩷

I really enjoyed reading this, and thank you for this post!!🩷🩷

a love letter to You and I

To the unfortunate ✨🥀 (or most fortunate 😌🌻 - perhaps neutral? 👀🌱) Soul who sees this:

I wonder what sort of state You’d consider yourself in… The possibilities are thought-wringing. Yes 🙂. Thought-wringing cx

This… may be an attempt to do a life check-in. Sooo, if you’d like to do one with me, please feel free -^u^- 🌸

aight c: Status report: Overwhelmed at everything. Not doing well; multiple breakdowns in a single week alone. Saw burnout from a distance, and promised to treat self with unconditional love, and did best not to take anything out on others. Positive at beginning and “keeping head up.” Proud of self for coming this far [;before, I beat myself up every time I wasn’t able to do what I felt I “needed” to do. Now, I accept that sometimes I do get knocked down, and I allow it to happen, and I do my best to heal while my theoretically burning body lays there].

I am a fool 🤧. For laying there and not rolling around [sometimes I lay in bed, on my phone for hours and declare that “rest” :’) ]. For not yelling out for help or in pain [lashing out because I keep holding everything in; regardless of the reason, I know I haven’t done my part to communicate 😔]. For patching up the wounds and expecting it to be better immediately, moving in such a way that the wounds open up again so it takes even longer to heal than if I had cared for the wound [isolating, and then coming out of isolation from fear-based reasons instead of from actually taking care of myself, so I isolate even more because I’m so exhausted running on negative stress-adrenaline ☹️].

There are two - perhaps three or four? - options I can choose from about what can I do with the above-information:

A: Conclude I can never do anything right and allow that to define me as a person and continue spiraling in the unalchemized darkness. “I try and it doesn’t work. I can’t do anything right. 😀👍✨”

B: Conclude that while I have work to do on the way that I do some things, I acknowledge that I am doing my best with what I have and what I know. Each time I am knocked down, I have an opportunity to be still, reflect on my experiences, and learn what works and what doesn’t. “I tried, and while that didn’t work, this did. I can do more of this and see if it works more. 😌💕”

X: Conclude that I am tired, I just wanna have a good time now, and I push this to future me to handle this because [think nihilism]. “Hey, Ego, here’s something for you [quick fix: ‘you’re doing your best, everyone makes mistakes. Just don’t think about it and move on. It’s fun to be silly li’l guy anyway.] 🤭”

Y: Conclude that each and every one of these are options that are valid, fluid, and each have their own unique consequences. I don’t judge choices that people make because I understand and each of us are on our own made-perfectly-for-us journeys (which I think is wonderful and amazing because we are all embarking on our paths on this Earth together! On the same planet and stuffs! And no matter what we might believe, we’re not alone!), and I should allow myself that same, nonjudgmental freedom >×< I conclude that, since I love myself, I do my best to carry out options that I would hope a loved one carries out. I want the best for my loved ones, and so I want the best for myself. And I hope… by sharing this… this helps more precious souls too uwu 👉👈💕

Now, refer to the beginning. What sort of state are You in? What are you going to do (or not do) with it? :] genuinely curious

[Whatever your answer is, I send you so much love, I wish for you the support You specifically need at this time. And we shan’t forget - there is an abundance of blessings within and all around us! I hope hope hope you accept the blessings meant for You. 143 infinity style ❤️‍🩹♾️]