#i haven't checked this inbox in a very long time im so sorry anon for getting to it so late

[rainswept]

ngl i had to take a fat nap after that response ☹️

i have genuinely never felt so overwhelmed with emotion before, now we're in the same boat because i don't even know what to say to tell you exactly how much i enjoyed reading all of it. i got that whole eyes burning going on n shit and im having a very fun awesome time trying to put a name to whatever the feeling in my chest is (not), but love sounds like a nice way to put it so we'll go with that! i love you too, and appreciate the time you took to write everything out more than any sentence can convey the full meaning of

you're right about me not expecting my ask to mean so much, i wrote it because i knew most authors (and creators as a whole) like hearing how their viewers discover their work. you said you were curious in the notes of the url post, i thought i might as well send in my story to satisfy.

it would be a big step for me, but also a chance to say something nice to someone who inspired me and then move on after a “thank you” or vague acknowledgement to… prove to myself interacting isnt as bad as i thought it'd be?? something like that. i’m not sure what i wanted you to say, or how i wanted to feel about it

bbuut as per usual, you managed to surprise me no matter what i was looking for ( ‾́ ◡ ‾́ ) and it wasn't all over the place or hard to understand at all. my turn to be dramatic:

“what is the point of feeling if, as soon as you pry your eyes away from the page, the emotion fades with the ink?” is definitely a question i connect with. impressionable teenager check ‼️

i said i want to love like you because the way you dedicate yourself so completely is something i’ve never been able to do. i wasn't into picking apart characters before because i thought it was obsessive.

they aren't real right? who cares? which leads me to the metaphor i used for your writing: wholly consuming. imagine not being able to delve into those depths. of course it feels uncomfortable to be pulled under the waves at first— you aren't going to be able to breathe— but the underwater life has so much to offer. i know it now, because i’ve seen that unknowable infinity in your work and in your passion. and there's so much more to sea (ba dum tiss). thank you so much for showing me that

love changes a lot of people. it is sacrifice, and you often have to make compromises. so why not let myself be devoured by that endlessness? i would rather suffer, be swallowed by the ocean and have all of my soft edges filed into jagged pieces by the currents than to have never known that pain at all. because it changed me. i want to remember that.

i want to remember your words, and the part you played even if i am left with only hurt, because love is also giving. it's greed knows no bounds. it's scary, the only thing i had to offer was myself and my experience. but it's getting easier. i’m happy to be seen as a member of your audience, and will applaud every success long after our interests no longer align because that is my compromise for you ♥(ˆ⌣ˆ)

hope all that makes sense. i like the umbrella tag! i’m being perceived and i haven't exploded (yet) (destruction is imminent) ☂️

ANON i am so sorry for the late response i had to process this. i’m having such a hard time posting these bc i just want to keep them treasured in my inbox forever ugh

long post again

ANYWAY. you’re so poetic this is insane. hello???//?/? when i first saw this there were tears in my eyes literally. i cannot. the first paragraph. actually all of them. i . died?? goodbye?? this is the end of me as i know it. i will never be the same. these r the most impactful words anyone has ever said to me i think. i have no words. genuinely no words i’m going to melt into thr floor. plea. please. spare me anon. spare me. i’m in agony right now ur writing is so beautiful. ANONNNNN😭😭😭😭😭😭 god i will never recover. i am in tears

“i said i want to love like you because the way you dedicate yourself so completely is something i’ve never been able to do. i wasn't into picking apart characters before because i thought it was obsessive. they aren't real right? who cares?”

i get that, in a way. but as you said — “which leads me to the metaphor i used for your writing: wholly consuming.” — that’s how it feels to me, too, and it always has. i get the idea of thinking something isn’t important because it’s not real, but i’ve always latched onto them regardless. so i had to write, honestly. to get it out. because otherwise it would consume me instead. it sounds very dramatic, i’m aware, but it’s true — i have so many feelings surrounding these fictional pixels and stories and they have so much to offer and they take up too much space in my brain and if i do not talk about it i will Explode ™️. Or Implode ™️. so i write! because i want to. because i have to. because otherwise it will Swallow Me Whole. and i’d rather embrace it! i’ve always been an ‘obsessive’ person when it comes to interests — it’s all or nothing for me. so it’s one or the other — i can drown or i can swim, but i can’t really get out of the water of my own volition,,, and i’d rather not drown. so i’m both glad i inadvertently introduced you to that way of seeing things, and regret it, because it does hurt sometimes. but it’s worth it to me, and it seems like it is to you too, so that’s good!

ONCE AGAIN i could copy and paste this entire ask and comment on it but i fear it’ll just be me repeating your sentences and gawking at them and it would get way too long. 😭😭😭😭 so i’ll just let your ask speak for itself

“i’m being perceived and i haven't exploded (yet) (destruction is imminent) ☂️” also we can explode together actually. i’m glad u allowed urself to be perceived because. oh my god. 😭😭😭😭 this ask changed the trajectory of my life forever. half joke. destruction is not imminent you’ve got this

also, you’re definitely more than just a member of my audience now, in my opinion. if you do decide to stick around (and i hope you do), i hope we can become friends eventually too! even if you decide not to, these interactions have meant more to me than you know! so thank you, either way

[steven-universe-trading-board]

I'm an artist, I whant a stupid cat b too embarrassed to reveal my identity because I just want something stupid like Amethyst pulling a prank on cat boy Steven, or Connie just being utterly confused on why her boyfriend has cat ears, and I just think that's just kind of weird. (I'm sorry for putting this in your ask box)

This is a super late response, but unfortunately I cannot put you in the trading board since this is supposed to be a trade. You'll need to make something for the person who completes your end of the trade.

However, we also have a prompts blog @steven-universe-au-prompts where you can submit this idea!

[kaustic]

Hey how are you doing? I hope your doing well I hope dream's doing well I hope punz is doing well and whoever else you're a fan of is doing well I hope all your mutual's are doing well or whatever

I haven't been on Tumblr in a very long time (by my standards) so I have no idea what's going on lately.

Obviously you don't have to reply/post this if your reply is something you're not comfortable sharing but I wanted you to know someone is thinking about you. This is very weird im sorry I just feel like it's been a while and I have issues. the more and more I edit this the weirder it gets I'm sorry I'll stop now

-very very drunk Shakespeare anon

i'm doing pretty good! just logged off my hardcore world which is going amazingly! I'm on day 2 and I already have a skeleton xp farm. I'm such a gamer <- almost died like 16 times

i love that you're checking in on my streamers too that's so sweet! I'm squishing you and putting you in my pocket!

I hope you're also doing well Shakespeare anon! It's always a joy to see you in my inbox :D

[herecomesnaya]

I don't want to be too bold, but have you been ok? You haven't been answering many asks, or being very sociable? Take all the time you need, I'm just concerned!

aww, thanks very much, anon! I actually took a second job recently, so it’s cut into a lot of my time. I’m working 52 hours a week now in total, including evenings and weekends. I do still check all my messages, but then I end up getting into other stuff before I can answer, and then feeling bad that I let them sit for so long, so I let them sit for longer out of shame asjkshdksjsd IT MAKES SENSE TO ANXIETY-BRAIN I GUESS??

I’ve been more active on discord, though, since I guess it feels more informal? when I reply to people’s asks I like to make sure I actually have a decent amount to say, whereas in a group chat I can fire off “JKDHGJKDJFD IM GAY” and then vanish into the mists if need be LMAO.

so if you’ve tried to get in touch with me on tumblr recently and I haven’t gotten back to you yet: I’m super sorry! I’ve definitely been meaning to answer the stuff in my inbox, but it’s one of those cases where the total is so intimidating that I feel overwhelmed when I sit down to try. hopefully it’ll become easier as I get used to my new schedule!! and if you sent an ask in weeks/months ago and I suddenly reply to it... uh... sry 4 being the slowest fucker on earth

and if you want to join any of my discord servers, let me know! you can also catch me on there 1-on-1 at missnaya#9454 c: