#i haven't been very active i'm sorry

[insecateur]

Hello!, Incase you haven't seen yet, (since i think I remeber you Posting about Not keeping up with the leaks?) WE GOT SOME ACTUAL LYSANDRE CONCEPT ART!!

hi! you are extremely correct and i'm very happy when people bring me stuff to look at tbh haha altho i've actually got a friend rn who's kindly sending me things over as they get posted so i do not have to go thru the fray..............

but yes!!! i have seen it and i'm mostly excited to finally know for sure who designed lysandre 😭 his polish genes...

i also made this earlier today which i thought people might enjoy seeing lol:

sorry it's very crude bc it was made entirely for my own satisfaction (i actually made it a little nicer to share it just now lmao.) obviously as i always say this is clearly VERY early concept art and shouldn't be taken as gospel or anything but even then i am happy to know lysandre was always meant to be lorge <3

[arendaes]

It's 5:30am, I can't sleep because I had a bad night last night and I need to vent.

Sometimes I wonder if not being more open about my offline life is to my detriment, because it never fails that I seem to attract people who see me as someone who's easy to walk all over. So many people I've known both online and off really like to treat me however they like, including being rude, condescending, and sometimes just downright cruelly, but the moment I have enough and draw a line in the sand they just want to wipe it away and tell me all about how I'm the one in the wrong.

I once had a friend who ignored my existence for six months and then got mad when I told her I wasn't coming to her son's birthday party. When I say "ignored my existence", I don't just mean unanswered texts; I mean I worked at a store in town and saw her in there multiple times. Every time I would wave and say hi while she was looking right at me and she would walk right by me as if I wasn't there. She knew I worked there too because we met working there. Literally we went from hanging out every day off we had together to that and still she got mad when I was hurt and just didn't want to come to a child's goddamned birthday party (when I have no kid of my own) because of it. The kid was only a year old so it wasn't like he knew who I was, either.

And online has been worse in a lot of ways. I made a friend a few years ago back when I first started getting involved in fandom. At the time I was resistant to the idea but now I realize I befriended him out of pity, because no one seemed to really want to be involved with him and he'd always been so nice to me. That was a mistake, because it turned out he was an alt-right chud who waited until he thought we were close enough and then started deliberately baiting me into arguments where he'd say horrible shit to me and make me upset and then fucking laugh He admitted it was fun for him to upset me. He stopped laughing when I finally stood up for myself and cut him out of my life, only to repeatedly ignore my requests for him to leave me alone. He would send me messages and like my posts, along with asking his friends to do the same and even writing a fic about one of my favorite characters where an unnamed OC treated said character poorly (all while said OC said things that were word for word things I said to him in out last conversation) and posting it where he knew I'd see it. Thankfully his conscience got the better of him with that last one and he took it down just a few days after posting, but the damage was done. He's the reason my ask box is closed most of the time and I have it set to where only followers can message me or comment on my posts. I think he's moved on - I hope he's moved on - but I live with this ever-present fear he hasn't and if I let my guard drop he'll start again.

And this is just two of the biggest incidents in a long line of family members saying I can't have boundaries with them because they're faaaamily and honest conversations with friends about how they've hurt me only to have them turn around and blame that hurt on myself. I'm just...so confused about what I can even do anymore. It feels like no matter what I do I just attract people who want to use and abuse my good nature. Hell, it's been so bad that I typed that and immediately thought "are you good-natured or do you just have an unnecessarily high opinion of yourself?" Which I know is the brain demon talking, but sometimes it's hard to drown it out, especially when this is all I've ever known.

[dirty-bosmer]

third week in a row no writing wip 🙃

[iroissleepdeprived]

taking care of someone while dealing with chronic pain and illness is not something I'm glad of

[strawberrisoulmate]

yearning for godot again.

that's it. that's the post.

[primordyalsoul]

blows a little kiss to the dash <3

[batfossil-fr]

comin soon... this + some other recolors will be public (and when I finish them, I'll reblog this with the recolors). if you want to be pinged for this you can sign up here!

[ritahayworrth]

slept in my childhood home for the last time last night

[thesearchforbluejello]

I fundamentally do not understand this show. The Dominion War was RIGHT THERE. Like, RIGHT. THERE. Why did we need some whack Romulus-blew-up backstory when the federation was already decimated by the war?? A follow up on the fallout of that and how the ceding of territory, the betrayal by allies, and the xenophobia of threats from both within and outside would have been SO much more interesting to me.

And they're so busy pulling half developed plotlines out of thin air that they're not even pounding in their anchor points for it all. Like, case in point, Jay looking for Icheb's cortical node. SEVEN HAS IT. IT IS LITERALLY IN SEVEN'S FUCKING HEAD. Like, okay fine easter egg? Maybe? But a major plot point isn't exactly an Easter egg?? Like obviously Beyer knows a shitload about Voyager, so at least one of them must be aware of that, so I assume it's implied... but not everyone has seen every Trek and that is from one specific Voyager episode, and Seven had the perfect opportunity to rub that in Jay's face... And are we not going to talk about Seven becoming a Ranger which is HUGELY antithetical to where she was at in Voyager? Because the fact that she became an individual on a ship that was what, 1/3 Maquis? Um, that's a super fucking important fact? Love that for her, but Christ alive nail. these. plot points. home.

idk I guess these two are nitpicks, but I have so many more and just don't feel like writing a novel expounding upon what I perceive as their many (MANY) failures in writing this show. But this show is just full of those moments and I don't understand their choices. Easter eggs only work when there's actually something semi coherent to hide them in (hence why most of M*rvel's fail nowadays, just saying). This feels almost as incoherent as Renegades, and I am SOOOOO very sorry to be actually saying that because woooooof that is not a compliment. Like... it's the Romulans, it's the androids, it's the Borg. It feels like whatever unholy combination is happening with Applebee's and iHop right now. Like... Okay I guess? But it's just a weird combination and very unnecessary. Just fucking pick one and go from there.

I do however need like a lot more ex-Borg bonding that was such a good moment okay thanks bye

[astrcthesiai-archived]

I'll use the tags I used to tag MiraLaw, Aceyuki, Saboyuki, and other pairings as prose and fangirling tags. Been sitting here missing my ships, but life changes and continues. I want to talk about them and my original characters and hope you get excited about them. I'll try to come up with various verses for them but I'm going to continue working on their One Piece verse which will become secondary. Their other verses will become primary (among them being ffxiv, obey me!, trigun and fandomless). I have a good chunk of you One Piece mutuals!

I will also be updating my rules page to fit one or two more rules. Moving forward, my attention will be diverted/split to discord rp, drawing, the blog, and watching ffxvi gameplay. I will keep things vague cause I'm in love with the world and want to play around with the world lore of dominants or avatars of various deities.

I'll let you know what canon muses I'm feeling the most muse for (usually any of my original characters and Roberto). I am zeroing in on some other side characters from Trigun that are Independents as well. There is some material I need to review as well.

tl;dr: I'm doing a little better, my brain is still scattered.

[zuzusexytiems]

opened my anon for a little bit, I'll probably close it again after a few days (or the moment anyone's mean) but rn idk, I've been feeling really down, so if you have any cute jeanpiku headcanons you wanna share, or idk just some nice words or reminders, I would honestly really appreciate it 😞

[nxthingmxtters]

🐌 ---- Does your muse take their time on things that are important? Are they the patient type of person?

🐾🙀😻 --- Animal themed headcanon prompts

Martha is absolutely the type to take her time on things that are important! Patience is a virtue, one that is particularly important when you're from a prominent family and moreso as a mother. As the Joker? She's spent decades terrorizing Gotham, carefully eluding her husband while setting up intricate plans, elaborate traps to impede him. You think she might want to hurry up a bit now she's getting older but Martha's quite content to take her time with things, to exhaust every possible option before ending things with a BANG. When Martha gets a plan in mind, she can be deadly patient, waiting for just the right opportunity before making a move. She's quite sure about that, knowing what she wants and what it takes to get it and even if it takes a little longer than she likes, she's not one to rush things until the jaws of defeat comes snapping at heels. She and Thomas have already suffered for well over twenty years. She can afford to wait just a little longer, if it means finding a way to fix everything.

[wishmkr-jirachi]

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[wisheswagered]

HEY YOU....... PSST!!

DO YOU LIKE IDENTITY V. do you like horror. do you like... mad science.

if the answer to any of those questions is yes - i made a victor frankenstein rp blog that comes with a main verse for identity v!! you can find it here, so please check it out if you're interested! ;www;

[takethejourney]

[pxrplepolkadots]

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