#i have to make a kpop post here and there to scare off anyone whose soul is not strong enough but tbh i didn't have to do quite this much

[faggotryandtransjesterism]

if bts end up going on a world tour after they've all returned from the war the military, they had better be putting together the most insane unpredictable setlist known to man. i need it to open with namjoon performing what am I to you by himself. i need to hear tomorrow, hip hop phile, we are bulletproof pt. 1, and begin. they should loop baepsae so they can perform it for ten minutes straight. they should let hobi perform jack in the box all the way through somewhere in the middle. if i don't get outro: her concert performance i will kill myself and if i hear dynamite or butter even once i will kill everyone else. i want to hear songs from namjoon's first mixtape live and i'm willing to make inadvisable choices to get it. if we ask really niceys they will make jimin strip on stage again. dis-ease. house of cards. still with you. people. jump. danger. boy in luv. wishing on a star. and i need yoongi to dye his hair orange again

[kihyunswrath]

@all kpop fandoms in this shithole of a website

ugh my wrath for this entire MX situation is growing again especially after seeing this one fucking shitbitch twitter account going way overboard with their attempts to bully Wonho and what she said is absolutely irrelevant and I’m not about to bring that up now, but let’s just say this.

I am absolutely done with y’all. 

I’m not ok with this silence from Starship, this lying and covering things up, this forcing MX members to continue without breaks, this absolutely insane spineless cowardice Starship has been practicing, but at LEAST some of those things are kind of written into their work contracts and are indeed tied to legal stuff, WHEREAS.

WHEREAS other groups’ “fans” who are literally having fun at the expense of idols who are suffering unfairly, just because they now have one “threat” less to their own group’s success, was totally voluntary? THAT QUITE LITERALLY WAS AN EXTRA USELESS EFFORT YOU FOR CERTAIN DID NOT EVEN GET PAID FOR?

fuck that. your own favourite oppas absolutely loathe you all and probably hope they could smear pig shit on your disgusting faces and then walk all over you BECAUSE THEY KNOW THIS COULD HAVE HAPPENED TO THEM TOO. are you literally THAT deep in your own stinky asshole to even notice that whatever happens to one group happens basically to ALL of them? 

there’s not a single group out there, not even fucking angelic idol lords BTS, Exo and others who are doing good at the moment, who’s safe from being treated unfairly and inhumanely by their company or their worst bullies and haters. and the same goes to literally ANY and EVERY group that’s currently active or has ever been active. with 99% chance every single idol is suffering from mental illnesses, physical injuries, sleep deprivation, malnutrition and literal PTSD and if they don’t realize it now, they will after they’re done with their careers. AND I AM NOT FUCKING JOKING OR EXAGGERATING HERE, not in the slightest.  

this entire movement for Wonho became so huge at first precisely BECAUSE most of us do love and have loved other groups too and we have ALL seen so much suffering going on in the industry. we hoped our voices could finally bring some reason to it, that since we are the paying customers, we might try to show kpop companies and obviously Starship we are tired of this conservative, capitalist slave trade fuckery and that we are ready to fund better ways to manage things THE SECOND THE COMPANIES REALIZE THAT. this movement became so huge because we KNEW Wonho has been one of the kindest, friendliest and warm-hearted people to ever exist and now that we saw things happening to him, it for fucking certain means absolutely no one is safe. 

if you genuinely love and care for your own idols, whoever they may be, for fuck’s sake DO NOT BE SO NAIVE THAT YOU THINK your idols are somehow immune to being hurt. do not think they can’t be attacked and destroyed by literally anyone who just wants that hard enough. do not think your idols are not already scared shitless that this happens to them. do not think your idols are not already mourning for other friends and colleagues they lost, whose dreams got crushed, who disappeared into nothigness, who got punished for mundane bullshit every single person in this wretched fucking planet is guilty of. 

if you do not want to change your idols’ lives for the better, if you don’t want to advocate for better times, if you think bullying other idols is somehow helping your own favourite group become bigger THE ABSOLUTE LEAST THING YOU SHOULD REALIZE IS THIS: the only one you truly hurt with that is that group you’re rooting for. you may make other fans pissed off and that may satisfy you now, but i know that your short-sighted ass haven’t thought things through, so let me put it out there clear as crystal for you:

one day it’s your fav oppa/eonni who gets attacked, silenced, shunned, beaten up, paid less than what he/she deserved, taken down from his/her pedestal. it might drive him/her into madness, it might cause him/her to want to hurt himself/herself. and you will feel helpless, especially because there isn’t many to join to fight alongside you, because there isn’t anyone left who truly feels empathetic for you. 

that day does come, because this industry doesn’t give two shits about their idols, and every idol, if nothing else happens to them before, has an expiration date. and if not before, at least right after that they’re treated like absolute trash.

also maybe you haven’t educated yourself about absolutely anything ever, but no matter all the apparent competition you see happening in the kpop industry, it’s all a facade. all the people who actually gain money out of the industry are in the same fucking boat. that boat tries to present the economy, politics and culture of South Korea under a positive light, that boat is making anything Korean into a brand you’d want to keep supporting without thinking what lies underneath. the kpop groups fighting against each other is an illusion, because they are ALL playing the SAME FUCKING GAME. their companies. are. one. and. the. same. capitalist. force. 

so maybe think again before you start making bloody wars about which idol group is better than all the others. that’s ridiculously naive and plays straight into their hands.

now if you’re one of those people this post is actually talking about, hurry back to your tumblr and twitter and wherever and remove those “jokes” you made about other idol groups, those witty remarks you wrote, those edgelord insults you came up with and maybe, at the end, for fuck’s sake, stop pretending you truly care about absolutely anyone but yourself. stop pretending you’re a fan of absolutely anybody. just. full stop. 

[anodyne-sunflower]

I hate that I want to vent to you because of your last post. So pls forgive me if I’m contributing to your stress and if so, ignore this. By all means, Sin ignore it! But if you’re okay to listen then I just want help or advice. Okay, I know this is like a broken record. But the kpop (particularly bts) fandom cause me stress. I love them. I do. I love my groups, but I feel so intensely dependent on them to make me feel good and that scares me. I’ve somewhat stopped, but I still get nervous. 1/2

And I feel like I’m not a good fan if I don’t keep up, or I don’t buy this or that. I feel like not streaming makes me shitty or ugh. I’m lost. I hate how angry certain comments make me, how toxic fans are in all groups. I just feel like I need to find they balance. :( Uoure an older fan, and I just wanted some advice because you seem to be better at navigating this lol (2/2)

Please don’t ever apologize to me for needing to vent or seek advice. I swear to you, this isn’t the part of my life that causes me any pain. I’m glad to be of any help I can be to any of you. So don’t worry for me. I promise you I’m alright with this. That being said, prepare for a mildly long answer, because I have many feelings on this. AND this goes for all fandoms, not just Kpop in general, but since this is the fandom you speak of I’ll mostly be mentioning it.

First, you are not a shitty fan for not streaming or buying any content or even keeping up 100% with a group. We all have lives outside the internet and unless you’re a young fan with literally no job, and all the money at your fingertips, this is downright impossible to perfect. For example, I have a full time job, a husband and pets. My life includes them and they always come first, and I’m not going to use my free time when my husband is off work to be streaming a video or buying content. That’s rude to him, and a waste of time. I assure you, you can watch a groups video once or twice and it still counts for something and can definitely be appreciated—if not more so than the fans who let it run over and over just for hits. That’s not enjoying anything but contributing to obsessive competition with Kpop and I find that very hurtful to ones mentality overall. Also, this works for all fandoms but I’ll use BTS as an example. Not sitting there all night and streaming isn’t going to harm them. I promise you it won’t. BTS will be just fine and not crumble over night if you choose sleep and health over their new music or video. It does not make you a terrible fan, it makes you (excuse my language) fucking human. You don’t owe them anything, and I know some fans will disagree with me but it’s true. You being a fan is enough. You listening to their songs or watching an MV once or twice or just here and there is enough. You do not owe anyone or any group your entire life or day. The same can be said for the idols. Aside from being thankful for people liking their content and helping them succeed in a way, they don’t owe us shit. Honestly, I wish they’d realize it’s their hard work that started their career. Fans came after. That’s the truth. But that’s an entirely different point...

As for buying their content, don’t if you don’t want to. I like a few groups, and other artists. I haven’t bought a cd since 2009 and I never will again. Because I prefer digital and I already pay Apple Music. Also, I don’t want a physical copy just to have a physical copy. It’s useless and will just sit there and collect dust. I’m not wasting my money on that, and if you’re the same then that’s okay. Don’t feel guilty. It’s your money. If you don’t want to buy something, don’t. If any fan out there tells you you’re not a good fan because of it—fuck them. You don’t need to buy every single piece of fandom collectibles or whatever to prove anything. I’m a collector of many things but I only buy what I really want and being an international fan makes this a bit trickier, too. I saw a Mamamoo keychain I really loved. ($7) and shipping was $32....yeah lol No. ✋🏻 So trust me, you aren’t terrible for not spending money on the whim of needing to be a fan. I swear your groups will not fall into destitution because of it. They’ll survive and the fandom won’t dissolve. Not to mention there are fans who just don’t have the money or whose parents don’t have the money. If any fan ever shames them for this, then they need a lesson in humility because screw that mentality. Also, side note—kids who don’t make their own money and rely on their parents, never be angry with them if they refuse to buy you something from your fandom. Again, that’s an entirely different topic but I want to throw that out there. Point is, hun, you are no less a fan than the one out there with every inch of their wall covered and shelves filled. You are a fan if you believe you’re a fan and that’s all that is required.

Onto the dependency. This is a little heavier a topic, if you feel it’s something very serious please refer to a professional for mental health. I am not one, but I can only offer advice from my own experiences or feelings on the matter. So, as for this, it’s okay to find happiness in things or fandoms, but for it to be the only source is not healthy. I would say take a small break if it feels overwhelming for you. You come first, always. These idols do care about their fans, but they don’t CARE about the fans. What I mean is...there’s that normal and basic form of human empathy most of us have. We obviously don’t want others to hurt, but if we don’t know them personally it’s a little less significant. I say this because I think the idol and fan relationship (especially for Kpop) becomes very distorted. Fans feel they have to be loyal and will argue if they think they need to defend their group or idol. You don’t have to. Chances are an idol didn’t see that one comment made by a teenager on Instagram under a random fan page. I’m not saying we let them be bullied or ridiculed, but I’m saying if those comments cause such an emotional intensity in you, then bypass those comments and block the one who made it or avoid the comment section altogether. You not defending the artist won’t make them hate you, won’t make them think you’re less their fan. I would actually argue idols or groups would wish you to take care of yourself first. Think of it this way, like I mentioned, the group/idol would not wish you harm but they also don’t know you. If someone hurt you, they wouldn’t hear about it and therefore wouldn’t comment on it. Does that make them less human, does it make them terrible for not defending you? No. It means they have their life and you have yours and people who actually know you that have a better chance at helping. You are no more responsible for them as they are you, hun. I say all this because I want you to understand this dependency you feel/obligation to always be in the know. It’s okay if you’re not. There is more to life than BTS or Kpop and that’s okay. You’re allowed to enjoy other things. You’re allowed to find comfort elsewhere. This doesn’t make you bad, again—makes you human.

Hell, you don’t have to even like everything your group does. Sometimes a song isn’t that great. Sometimes a video isn’t that deep. That’s just personal taste and it doesn’t make you less than other fans. In fact, I guarantee you some fans even lie and say they love every single song poured out. They just feel obligated to say so. For as many BTS songs I love, there’s a handful I find dull. So please don’t let anyone make you feel less than. It’s all valid what you feel. ❤️

[foreverconfused-foreverlost]

Umm so I'm just thinking about the Jin one-shot I'm writing and the other bts planned one shots I have (And also I have some series in the works but shh. I haven't officially made an announcement post for those ideas) and like all this combined for some reason just made me think.

When I first started writing here on Tumblr I'll admit it that I had no plans to write full length One-Shot's (Cough let alone even think about multi chaptered fics) for any of the fandoms I'm in. I was just going to stick to scenarios as well as those little bullet point list I do. I was just like really scared because writting something bigger leaves more chance for failure and I was just worried that no one would wanna read those. Like that I would mess up that badly on it so I just kept them to myself. I just didn't think I was capable of writting for anything but my own pure original work. So I just decided to stick with short stuff that doesn't really have much of a substantial plot.

I also had no plans what so ever to write for bts. I just, those are real people and I felt like if my interpretation of this real person for my fic isn't how people wanted it, I just thought I'd get serious backlash and hell I didn't even think about writing about real people because I thought that I'd have to well write out exactly how they are shown in real life. Because. They. Are. Real. I'm still somewhat nervous (hence why so far bts is the only kpop group I write for atm. Once I get my claws in I'll start more, hopefully) but like now it is just nervous about writing a good fic. I don't feel all too much about making it perfect, that even though I'm basing this off a real person, like this fic includes that person doesn't mean I have to overly worry. I do my own added shit for characters, I'll sometimes even add a bit of things that might look ooc to some but either look right for me or it just fits the what I'm writing so I kinda had to. When it came to bts I just thought I'd be a horrible person if I messed anything up. If I added something someone thought was wrong.

I never told anyone about this. I never planned to. I never planned to write for bts.

I never planned to write a full fic. I never planned to write for bts let alone a full fic and I know that doesn't really seem like shit or much but you wanna know why I started? Hell idk even if she even knows she's the reason but after talking to her? Like about her own work and everything it just- it just- I don't remember that defining moment or whatever that I decided "To hell with it, I'm writing this shit" and I don't remember what went through my head.

All I really remember was somehow without even realizing it, she's what got me to write it. "Pinky promise", "Sunrise" and "Thanks for the memories" are things I wouldn't have even dreamed of writing. I also wouldn't have done those drabbles for bts! They wouldn't have even ended up being included because I simply wouldn't have even thought about writing for them.

It's just. If I never became friends with her then I wouldn't have written those above fics. I wouldn't be working on these current one shot wips that I'm so fucking excited to write if it weren't for her. I wouldn't be in the planning stages of making three multi chaptered fics.

So suffice to say she's one of the best friends I've ever had the pleasure of having (and the writing thing is only one of those many reasons)

Ah whose she you might ask? @x-useobwa-x

I'm so sorry you had to read all that shit since I tagged you in it and I waited til the end to tag you. Hell maybe you didn't read this entire thing but honestly? I really mean it and now I've made myself start to cry from the feels and emotions even though I feel really stupid and embarassed right now. so I'm just gonna post this now and go to bed, hopefully feel less embarrassed when I wake up in the morning. You probably hated this, I'm sorry.

[wongguk]

70 questions

I was tagged by the amazing @ukihyunnie! Thanks!!! (ﾉ◕ヮ◕)ﾉ*:･ﾟ✧

1. do you have a good relationship with your parents? It used to be hell when I was younger... high expectations, your brother didn’t do this and that blahblah but now they accept me so it’s all good and fun.

2. who did you last say “i love you” to? oh I don’t really remember? I don’t usually say this to anyone but I guess my best friend 

3. do you regret anything? Yeah... back then I wasn’t really a nice person so like I regret being hateful towards people who didn’t deserve it. Luckily I changed A LOT.

4. are you insecure? I wouldn’t say so. I mean there are days when I am but I’m mostly happy to be me, you know? Now I think that self love is valid and I embrace my trashness and looks lol

5. what’s your relationship status? Single and happy ayy! also in a long distance relationship with idols but

6. how do you want to die? *enter exsistential crisis zone* Um... UMMMMM... IDONTKNOW.... quickly? Without pain? *sweats nervously*

7. what did you last eat? PANCAKES

8. played any sports? Yep, soccer for 4 years and I wanted to continue but our coach ditched us 

9. do you bite your nails? Nah... I don’t like the sound of it, it gives me goosebumps

10. when was your last physical fight? um... i would say when I was 8 when my cousin hit me in the jaw and my primary tooth fall out lol

11. do you like someone? Um... yep but he doesn’t know ya feel me

*sighs*

12. have you ever stayed up 48 hours? YES. When I travelled home from the US I couldn’t fall asleep on the plane and then I didn’t want to sleep until i got home. I passed out as soon as I reached my room lol

13. do you hate anyone at the moment? Nah... if I don’t like someone I ignore them

14. do you miss someone? Yeah my best friend who lives in the US and my brother’s cat

15. have any pets?
 I have two dogs but I want a cat too

16. how exactly are you feeling at the moment?
 I watched No Exit so I’m pretty happy rn, they always make me laugh lol and aslo hungry forever

17. ever made out in the bathroom? Nope

18. are you scared of spiders?
 As long as they are not as big as my palm nope, after that I’ll burn the house down that’s the only way

19. would you go back in time if you were given the chance? Yeah I would tell myself to get a fringe sooner and to stop crying over stupid people whose opinion is invalid. Also would tell her to study more but she wouldn’t listen lol

20. where was the last place you snogged someone? At a party...

21. what are your plans for this weekend?
 Ah nothing. I should be studying but I procrastinate a lot pls save me

22. do you want to have kids? how many? Um nope... I can’t even take care of myself IMAGINE ME HAVING A KID LIKE WHAT A POOR SOUL

23. do you have piercings? how many? I have a fake earplug lol and I want to get a lip ring after graduation

24. what is/are/were your best subject(s)? Art but I don’t know any longer

25. do you miss anyone from your past?
 My cousin. She lives opposite to me but she doesn’t talk to me any longer. I kind of miss that cause I don’t have friends in my town

26. what are you craving right now?
 Lemonade! And gummy bears amd pancakes brb

27. have you ever broken someone’s heart?
 yup

28. have you ever been cheated on?
 Not that I know of

29. have you made a boyfriend/girlfriend cry?
 I did way too many times *sigh*

30. what’s irritating you right now? THE FCKING WEATHER. MAKE UP YOUR MIND

31. does somebody love you? I hope so hah but I never actually know

32. what is your favourite color? B  L  A  C  K like my soul, and blue like the ocean

33. do you have trust issues? Nah not anymore

34. who/what was your last dream about? Okay it was weird because I was kind of like a mentor to a small kid who was from our high school’s sister primary school we don’t even have that wtf and he looked like Ten from NCT and I walked with him hand in hand and he was tiny and the coolest kid from the playground like everyone know him in my school lol

35. who was the last person you cried in front of? My mom... I’m stressing out from uni applications a lot these days

36. do you give out second chances too easily? Actually no. It’s really hard but in the end I always do because once you lose my trust it’s hard to regain it

37. is it easier to forgive or forget? How do you even forget things? literally every embarassing thing that I did haunts me e v e r y d a y. Plus forgiving is more important so choose this option

38. is this year the best year of your life?
 I hope it gets better tbh

39. how old were you when you had your first kiss? 15... and it was embarassing cause as my bf kissed me my roomate’s actual bf of that time hugged us and said ‘like one big family’ and i was like nope thanks get off me

40. have you ever walked outside completely naked? NO GOD BLESS - i had a recurring nightmare of me walking in the parking lot of the local mall while all of my primary school classmates are watching me and the terrifying thing was that it felt completely normal like WTF RÉKA

51. favourite food?
 PASTA

52. do you believe everything happens for a reason? YEAH THAT’S A THING

53. what is the last thing you did before you went to bed last night?
 I watched EXO vines i’m trying to get to know them and be an even bigger kpop trash lol

54. is cheating ever okay?

NO IN NO PARALLEL UNIVERSE IN NO GALAXY IN NO CASE IT’S OKAY

55. are you mean?
 I don’t think so. If I ever say something mean it’s probably because I’m trying to be funny and i fail

56. how many people have you fist fought?
 None but I’m smol and filled with rage so I AM READY

57. do you believe in true love?
 I don’t really. I believe that two people can have a strong connection and love each other till death but it’s rare and beautiful. I feel like it’s for the lucky ones but I’ll update you if that’s ever changes lol

58. favourite weather?
 Spring but rignt now I hate it. IT HAS BEEN SNOWING FOR TWO DAYS AND IT’S APRIL

59. do you like the snow?
 lol okay I do but only during winter

60. do you wanna get married? No. I don’t think that’s necessary besides I love being independent. THE FREEDOM

61. is it cute when a boy/girl calls you baby? well in my language no I prefer babe or something unique

62. what makes you happy?


MY BEST FRIEND AND SOULMATE

My brother and my family

Monsta X, BTS, GOT7 [and a lot of others lol], All Time Low

memes

63. would you change your name? No but I would like to have a cool nickname so ppl who are not from Hungary will have it easier, something like Raven or idk

64. would it be hard to kiss the last person you kissed?
 Nope and that’s awful lol

65. your best friend of the opposite sex likes you, what do you do? something that doesn’t exsist can’t like me. jokes on u  ヅ

66. do you have a friend of the opposite sex who you can act your complete self around? i used to have but he fall in love with me or the other one fall in love with someone else and since then he doesn’t talk to me (?? he doesn’t make sense to me)

67. who was the last person of the opposite sex you talked to?
 my ex boyfriend SHAME ON ME

68. who’s the last person you had a deep conversation with? literally my followers because believe it or not but this post was the deepest i can get wow [okay i probably had deeper moments but i don’t remember because i like to make the atmopshere light rather than serious]

69. do you believe in soulmates?
 I don’t know ask her @letmeknow-tomorrow  ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

70. is there anyone you would die for? My favourite biffle, my family and my boos and i could take a bullet for my fave idols as well just sayin

here we go wow. I really enjoyed doing this so thank you once again for tagging me! I tag @letmeknow-tomorrow @photosynthesizingparkhyungsik @kawaii-hedgehog @chanxyeollie @nctgyu @kittyminhyuk @the8th-sense

You don’t have to do that if you don’t feel like it of course.  (◠‿◠✿)