#i have so many drafts that i need to finish 🥲

[oddishblossom]

— Imagine being loved by me (1) (2)

[whoahoney]

Based off this lovely thought that got deleted bc my dumbass posted the draft instead of saving it 🥲 anon, I hope this finds you!!! Please tell me if it did 😭💖 this could’ve been a mini series I think but I’m too lazy to spread it out!

Anyway, here’s my rambling imaginings 💖

Warnings: fem!reader, quite a bit of angst, a lot more fluff, some wine drinking and allusions to spice.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

You hate to say it, but you’d been dreading this.

The news had been exciting when they found out about the tour. You, too, felt that exhilarating burst of energy hum through the room as the tour manager began the breakdown of the cities they’d see and the venues they’d play.

You’d hardly heard the shouts of joy around you, but you did see Jake’s face. His eyes so wide and bright, his smile stretched so taught across his mouth, his cheeks must’ve ached. You’d never seen him so happy as he threw his arms around Josh, clapping him on the back. Sam and Danny bounced over, already deep in eager conversation about Milan and France.

It was everything they’d been dreaming of.

Everything Jake had been dreaming of.

The four of them were a tight clump, muffled chuckles and words were exchanged as their parents joined in their embrace with pride and tears. Your heart swelled at the sight, being able to be here for it, to watch them celebrate, to see their dreams come true before their very eyes.

A world tour.

They’d just finished their last one, barely even unpacked. And now he’d be gone again.

Your stomach sank heavily, like a rock into quick sand, guilt churning deep within you; how could you be so damn selfish? This is everything he’s ever wanted and you’re thinking about yourself, again.

You keep the smile on your face, your hands knotted in your lap until Karen turned to you, eyes rimmed in red as she wiped at them, “Oh, honey, get on up in here—what are you doin way over there!” She chuckled as you blushed and made your way over to the unwinding arms, the layers of bodies falling away as Jake let go of Josh and looked to you.

One side of his smile hiked up, and you could see he’d clearly shed a few tears of his own as he wiped a fresh track away and passed it off as tucking a strand of hair behind his ear. You don’t hesitate to reach for him, chuckling softly when he yanks you into his chest and wraps you up tight.

You breathe him in, and swallow a hiccup—his neck a heady mixture of his warmth, sandalwood, and something deep and spicy that always cut through you. Tonight you clung to it like a safety blanket, thinking of the nights you spent in his bed without him, nose buried in his pillow as you tried not to cry like a lovesick fool.

“It’s really happening.” He whispers against your hair, running a tender hand down the back of your head.

You nod, “Better believe it, rockstar. You deserve every bit of it.” You squeeze him a little tighter before pulling back, already feeling the swell of emotions brewing within you.

For the rest of the visit with the managers and family, you sat quietly next to Jake, his arm slung around you holding you close, his other hand on your knee. He noted how tightly your legs were crossed and how you picked at your nails unflinchingly, not much to be heard from you.

Jake knew he didn’t need words from you to know you were okay, but every bit of his intuition told him something was up. He’d worried about leaving you alone so much. About how tiresome it must have gotten to be in a relationship over the phone for the last 8 months. Even missing your first anniversary while he was in Chicago.

He wondered if maybe your feelings were fading, that maybe he’d thought wrong about claiming all life had to offer him—that he couldn’t have both love and fame no matter how many times he convinced himself that maybe it’d work with the right person, and he was well passed sure that he’d found that person in you.

“—But until then, you guys are free. So use these next couple months to your advantage!” Aaron clapped and rubbed his hands together, eager for the next time they would hit the ground running.

Jake shoots you a familiar glance, his eyes asking, ‘are you ready to go?’

You nod and stand with him, bidding the family a good night before you were in Jake’s car headed back to his house.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

The ride was quiet, almost tense. Jake thought maybe you were biding your time, wanting to be careful with your words and say the right thing as you always did. His chest tensed and he turned up the radio, so maybe the pressure to say something wouldn’t be so bad.

You were thankful for the Jefferson Airplane coming through the speakers, Today lulling you into a hazy calm as you stared out the window at the dark tree line. Jake snuck a glance at you every once in a while, trying to figure you out in a way he never had to before.

When you reach the long driveway and park, he turns to you expectantly. Your eyes dart away from his, scanning the car for anything else to look at besides his pretty face that made you wanna crumple like old paper.

“What?” You ask barely over a whisper.

“That’s what I’m wondering, myself.” He says casually, running his index finger down your cheek. “Talk to me.” He says softly.

You swallow and shake your head insistently, “Nothing, babe, I’m just tired. S’been an exciting day.” You chuckle and meet his eye with a soft smile that told him you were okay. You kissed his palm that now cradled your cheek before he could ask anymore questions. “That’s all.” You assure.

Jake nods and swipes his thumb across your cheek one more time before leaning in and pressing his lips to yours chastely—once, twice, three times, before pulling back and appraising you.

“Let’s get inside.” He whispered, suggesting a hot shower as you open your door and comically rush ahead of him just to hear his boisterous laughter.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

It hadn’t been long since Jake had fallen asleep, his hair still damp from when you washed it for him, bergamot and rosemary shampoo the two of you shared lingered in the air around you. The light of the moon kissed his nose, his blanket tucked up over his shoulder. He was always beautiful, but when he slept he looked prettier than a Grecian bust.

You couldn’t sleep no matter how tired you got, and staring at the object of both your affection and agony wasn’t helping. You snuck out of bed, pulling on the cozy robe he’d gotten you the first night you stayed with him, and made off to the living room with your phone.

You’d become quite familiar with the space despite not getting to share much time with Jake in it. He’d asked you to take care of the plants and his cat, Percy, reminding you to send him pictures and updates whenever you were over there.

Really, he just wanted to see you in his house like it was your own. When you sent him snapchats looking all cute and sleepy in his bed, it did more for him than he thought possible. He’d told you to sleep on his side so that when he got home his sheets would smell like you, and you had no objections to his request.

Since the start of Dreams in Gold, you’d practically lived here, waiting for him to come home.

Your steps were light and slow as you crept down the hall, the quiet chatter of the forgotten TV was directed around a beautiful Asian dish being made on the screen. A single lamp was lit and the orange glow filled the room and part of the kitchen.

You spy your AirPods on the island and plop down in a chair at the counter, another soft light just barely illuminating the kitchen, emanating beauty and nocturnal comfort.

You tuck an earbud into your ear and open your music, trying to piece together the genre that would make the ache go away, nothing too slow or sad, nothing too loud— and then it hit you with a small smile.

You search up the 50s Greats playlist and hit shuffle, sighing in content when the sound of Unchained Melody began. Your mind went peacefully blank, and you laid your head on top of your folded arms.

And then you spotted the wine fridge.

The idea sounded lovely, a glass of fancy red to make you sleep? Yes please.

You tucked the other ear bud in and went about pouring yourself a generous amount of drink in a long stemmed glass Jake brought back from a vineyard he doesn’t remember visiting.

You took a generous gulp and tried not to gag at the bitter taste. It burned all the way down but not with a bite, a slow bitter curl coated your tongue and throat, insisting on more and more to be drunk.

So you do, and finish the glass before tucking your knees to your chest.

Your head was heavy, and just as Can’t Take My Eyes Off You begins, you notice the cooling tears that had fallen down your cheeks unknowingly. You sniffle and then hiccup, twisting your empty glass and considering a refill as Jake shuffled out of the hallway, his pants slung low on his hips and his shirt missing.

He rubbed his eyes and squinted around the room, spotting you after you sniffled again from your place balled up in the chair, your face buried in your knees.

“Hey…” he whispers, not noticing your headphones until he wraps his arms around you and you jump with a yelp. You rip out your AirPod and face him with flooded eyes, in the midst of your cry. “Baby!” He coos in surprise, “What’s wrong?” He pulls you back into his chest, his fingertips at work against your scalp.

You shake your head, “I… I-It was just a bad dream. I’m okay, I promise.” You sniffle, staring at his chest and not his face. His hands cupped your chin and made you meet his eye.

“Look at me.” He said with quiet and loving firmness. You lock eyes with him and take a deep breath through your mouth as he does. “I know you haven’t been to sleep.” He said knowingly. You close your eyes in embarrassment. “I need you to tell me what’s wrong…” he whispered, “—Before I start making assumptions.” He finished as if he hadn’t already formed them from the moment he saw your face at the studio meeting.

You stare at him for a moment, your tipsy brain swimming with swollen emotions and bruised self image.

“Everything.” You whisper before shaking your head, “And absolutely nothing. Truly.” You clamp your eyes shut in confusion. “It’s gonna be fine though.” You assure quietly, both yourself and him.

Jake puts a hand on your shoulder, keeping the other on your face. “Is this about the tour?” He asked quieter than before, his tone void of emotion.

You hesitate before you nod, and he mirrors you when he sees your answer, and you feel fear strike through you like a crack of thunder. He tsks and you feel his fingers squeeze your shoulder before rubbing it lovingly, “Whatever you’re thinking… I just want you to know… whatever you want, I want too.” He said directly into your eyes.

Your brows pinch before you shake your head, “What?”

He shakes his head and casts his gaze low, his mouth flat and eyes still empty, like a stone wall was put up to guard the windows you’d so easily peered into before. Was he angry? Was this what it looked like for him?

“I should’ve thought about what it would mean for you— me being gone all the time.” He said lowly. “I don’t blame you for getting tired of it, I really don’t.”

“It’s not that I’m tired of it, Jake.” You finally say. His eyes find yours again and you place the AirPod in your hand on the counter to cradle his face as he had done yours, “I love seeing your dreams come true. You are magic out there, baby—I will never get tired of hearing all the stories you have or the feeling I get when you call me on the road.” You ramble, thinking out loud more than anything.

“I’m just… scared.” You realize. Jake flinches back a little in confusion, “—scared of everything the world has to offer you—Everything I don’t have—it’s out there. And you have every opportunity imaginable, now. And yeah, I miss you like crazy, and I get bummed when I realize I’m watching your life happen through a phone screen, but I love seeing you happy even more than missing out makes me sad.” You shake your head emphatically.

Your phone lights up and Jake catches a glimpse of the album currently playing and forgotten in the AirPods. Jake looks back at you and picks up the loose ear bud, tucking it in his ear before reaching for your phone and unlocking it.

You chuckle in disbelief, tears still rolling down your face as he scrolls through the playlist and selects We Belong Together by Los Lobos and sets the phone back down, adjusting the volume with his slick smile that told you everything was about to be fine.

“The world?” He asks as he pulls you to your feet and places his hands around your waist. You drape your arms around his shoulders as you’d done countless times before and waited for him to continue, “I have it. Right here.” His fingers worked under the back of your shirt to graze your skin lovingly.

You scoff as he begins to sway you both side to side, his eyes boring into yours with unwavering confidence in his words. “I’m serious.” He says before releasing one hand from you and raising the other to have you spin, which you obliged with an adoring eye roll.

“You say that now, but—“

“No, no buts.” He shakes his head and begins swaying you again, “I don’t care what’s out there when I already have everything I’ve ever wanted right here at home with me.” He pulled you close and kissed your neck, the affection sending more tears prickling at your eyes and a wistful sigh

“Jake—“

“Shhh…” he whispered in your ear, tucking your head into his shoulder, “You’re mine. And I’m yours.” He said. “Nothings going to change that. Not as long as you want to be with me.” He stroked your back reassuringly as more tears fell down your cheeks.

“I always want to be with you.” You whisper pathetically, letting your forehead thunk against his chest.

You feel him chuckle against you before he kisses your head, “And I with you.” He says like a guy with a plan before he spins you, smiling at your own sleepy smile and closed eyes as you begin dancing with him properly, hips swaying and bare feet shuffling across the cold tile floor.

You giggle, “I can’t believe you like me that much.”

Jake snickers at your flushed skin, happy to see you so light after the heaviness that followed you today. He missed you. This.

Jake loved dancing with you. Whenever a song called to him, he was quick to sweep you up in a waltz and relish every smile or giggle he could pull out of you. When you started staying the night with him, you guys would take turns playing music, which quickly evolved into Jake playing beautiful melodies he said reminded him of you, songs he’d heard and longed to share with you in a close dance.

To think of it, everything made him think of you, he realized as he swayed with you in his arms. “More than you know.” He mumbled, spinning you one more time before wrapping you up and resting his head against yours, singing the rest of the song in his low velvety voice.

─── ･ ｡ﾟ☆: *.☽ .* :☆ﾟ. ───

There were only two weeks left til the band left for tour.

After your conversation with Jake things felt better. The dread hadn’t loomed over you like you assumed it would, and things with Jake were as good as ever, no holds barred anymore. You were quick to tell him your thoughts and feelings, even more so now than you had before, and seemingly, so had Jake.

You worried you’d lose that once he left, though. That it would be something you had to work and build at when you’d get back together.

During Dreams in Gold, you made three shows, and got two weeks with him in the middle of the tour, uninterrupted—which was nice! But it was different than seeing him every day and falling asleep next to him at night.

Today, you were at the studio to go over more details and itinerary for the first leg of performances in the states.

You and Jake showed up only 20 minutes late with matching iced coffees, Sam scoffing when he saw you didn’t bring him one of his own.

“This is what I get for being here on time!” He flopped into the couch and looked at Danny, who was just reentering the room, “They got Scooters!”

Danny’s eyes widened, “That’s so uncool.” He playfully seethed before whipping out his phone and muttering something about delivery and a cookie.

Jake obnoxiously slurps the emptying drink with eyes locked on Sam’s. Sam lurches to his feet and storms over to his brother to snatch the empty cup and throw it in the trash. “Not on my watch.”

Wordlessly you hand Jake yours, still half full, for him to take a sip just as Josh strode in. “I made it! Can we get a time stamp?” He asked the room around him.

“It’s 9:37, Josh.” Aaron marked from the other side of the room as he prepared itemized sheets for everyone. Josh nods with an easy smile. “We were due to meet at 9:00.” Aaron amended, wiping the smug smile off Josh’s face.

“Oh. Well, we’re all here now, right? Let’s start! Whatcha got for us?” Josh leaned on the table and listened intently.

The group gathered around the table and took a look at the papers in front of them, getting handed your own with your name at the top for whatever reason. You miss the expectant look from Jake and Aaron but you read the pages carefully, seeing where this adventure would take Jake this time.

Back through the states, most he’d seen before, and then the countries— the Netherlands, Germany, Ireland, Spain, Portugal— places you’d dreamed of seeing long before you dreamed of Jake Kiszka.

You sigh, softly and dreamily as Aaron talks transport for their European leg; plane rides and first class tickets, excursions to the Louvre and Stonehenge, and lodging and hostels.

“Is the little place we have for our week in France the same one we used for that little getaway we took a couple years ago?” Sam asked with excitement.

Aaron nodded as did Jake, “Yep! Oh, Jake, I put you guys in the empress suite like you asked. I’m still waiting on confirmation at two of the other hotels, but you guys should be set with a master suite wherever we’re staying.” The manager looked from Jake to you as he spoke, your confusion stirring, was there a mistake? Are he and Josh sharing rooms?

Jake looks to you with expectant eyes, as if waiting for your thoughts. He smiles and nudges your shoulder when you don’t answer, “What do you think?”

“About what?” The group breaks into laughter as you look at Jake for an explanation.

“About coming with me.” He took your hand and gave it an encouraging squeeze. You softly gasped and looked over the papers in front of you again, your own agenda highlighted in orange for when the band would be busy.

You look back at him in awe, “Really?” Is all you can muster in a ghost of your voice.

Jake smiled and nodded quickly, “Yeah, of course—I’m tired of leaving you.” He covered your hand with his. “Say you’ll come.”

You nod before you can speak and then kiss him right on the mouth. “I wanna be wherever you are.” You say with a cheek aching smile, a real one stretched wide across your face.

“And I, you.” He agreed, though he knew his words could never convey how much he shared the feeling.

But hopefully… the other surprises he had planned for the tour can say it for him…

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[milla-frenchy]

20 Questions for Fic Writers

Thank you for the tag, @goodwithcheese 😁 loved these ao3 questions ❤️ @thundermartini @sawymredfox @mermaidgirl30

1. how many works do you have on AO3?: 35

2. what's your total AO3 word count?: 158,827

3. what fandoms do you write for?: Pedro and Boyd

4. top five fics by kudos

Smack my b*tch up

Blackmail

Wolf like me

Room 301

7 am

5. do you respond to comments?: I'd say, 95% of them

6. what is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?: easy 😁😬 Wolf like me

7. what's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?: Morning waves, I think? Probaby the fic with the most positive vibes, everyone's nice and happy 😌

8. do you get hate on fics?: so far, never

9. do you write smut?: that's the only thing I write, actually lol

10. craziest crossover: Blackmail. I don't know if it's crazy, but Joel/Javi P? Fuck yeah!

11. have you ever had a fic stolen?: Not that I'm aware of

12. have you ever had a fic translated?: No

13. have you ever co-written a fic before?: Yes, @aurorawritestoescape and I wrote several fics together 💕

Keep on your mean side

The burglary

Bad girl

The hounds of hell

14. all time favorite ship?: Hannibal / Clarice Starling

15. what's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?: There's one called Dopamine. In my drafts for sooooo long. It's almost finished, but I didn't like it enough to post it. I guess my writing changed, maybe I should try to rewrite it a little, and see if I can do something with it

16. what are your writing strengths?: @iamasaddie wrote this in a rb once:

can’t explain it, but there is a very specific voice you use when you write dark fics, I would always recognize it. I love it so much, it’s not tacky, not filled with stereotypes, it is creepy in a way that makes you exited 😈

I love it so much and I think it's a strengh

17. what are your writing weaknesses?: English isn't my native language, I have a ton of weaknesses 😭😭😭

18. thoughts on dialogue in another language?: as a writer, I used some spanish in Glory O. I don't speak spanish at all, @toxicanonymity helped me with it 🙏

As a reader, I like it, if the translation follows immediatly the dialogue. If I need to check at the end of the fic it takes me out of it 🥲

19. first fandom you wrote in?: Pedro

20. favorite fic you've written?: Blackmail, I think. I love this story and I'm kinda proud of the ending 🙏

npt: @toxicanonymity @corazondebeskar @covetyou @aurorawritestoescape and anyone who wants to play 🙏

Tagging some moots but I don't know if you're on ao3: @joelmillerisapunk @604to647 @mermaidgirl30 @mountainsandmayhem @bonezone44

[hanafubukki]

This one about Monster from Epic album and Lilia 🥹

This album is a gold mine of inspiration. I can talk about one single sentences of lyrics for one hours. The musical vibes sent you in so many different places. And it have so much different style from one song to another. And it sent me back in my Greek mythology area again. Also, too much Oc's, too much stories, to much crossover possible !

This whole album is my current obssession. The only sad part is that I'm the only one understanding english in my circle of friends and family 🥲 Still trying to convert my younger brother. One day I will take someone in the Epic boat with me. I'm still so grateful to you for making me discover this project 🥹

- 🦋 Anon

[referencing this fic]

Hello 🦋Anonie,

Yessss, I’m glad you liked the fic 🦋Anonie. I had it in my drafts since the Underworld Album released. And been adding on to it since then when the mood stuck. I had it finished for awhile now, but I don’t know it didn’t feel right post it until yesterday. And behold! I find out the new saga released. The timing is uncanny but greatly appreciated and loved 🥳

The Underworld Album is sooo sooo good and it’s such a Diasomnia core and especially Lilia core Album. The lyrics?? The score?? Ahhhh I can’t even word the way it just hits you in the feels!!

Fun fact, I had/have (haven’t decided what I’m going to do with it) a fic with the Underworld song from that album. It was going to be another Lilia centric fic in the past but technically I got the idea of what I wanted to convey through with the Monster song fic since they share lyrics and all so I might scrap it since I only wrote a few lines. We’ll see. 🤔

But Monster?? Oh that song just spoke to me. Everything just filled that inner part of me. What if I became a monster? Just the idea of what anyone would do to return to their loved one. To see them again. Just the actions they would take? Chef kiss.

And you know, you know Lilia wouldn’t let anything stop him when it came to his family. You know he would give it all. 💞💞

There’s also the OT3 one you sent me with the knight of dawn and Lilia AND IM SHAKING YOU. I want to write it so bad but the stars and my brain haven’t aligned with my hand to type out exactly what I want ABDKSKFNFN

But that song?? Ohhhh the potential!! The potential!!!!!

Good luck coverting your brother 🦋Anonie, you can do it!! You’re always more than welcome to talk about it with me Anonie. I haven’t heard the recent album yet but from what I’ve seen, it’s a doozy and I need to get myself ready for it.

I’m so happy to know that you discovered the epic musical through me 🥹💞😭 that makes me very happy and that you enjoy it so much. It always makes me happy when people enjoy or love what I love or I can introduce them to it. So, thank you 🦋 Anonie 🫂💚 it means a lot for me to know this.

[vintagelacerosette]

Weekly Tag game (Catch up)

Forgive meee I am late but I had the other one in my drafts & I hadn't be able to finish it off yet 😅

I was tagged by these sweethearts 💖💕💖

Jessica @guinguin1984 Julia @blue-disco-lights Deanna @deedala Georgia @iansw0rld

Face @burninface Jaclyn @crossmydna Evie @energievie

Bri @y0itsbri Lyle Lyle crocodile @kiinard Macy @heymacy

Mel @gardenerian Sarah @sleepyheadgallavich Julissa @heymrspatel

Harvey @mikhailoisbaby Kat @mybrainismelted Ling @lingy910y

Name: Shermyn

Where in the World is Carmen Sandiego? (or you): Sydney in the western part  

Ok, so this week we are going to snoop into your google search. Type in each phrase and tell us what the first suggestion is that google gives you!

What is the best way to….rule? (hehe nice maybe my Leo tendencies 🤣🦁

This is what I saw on Quora

1) Become a community organizer · 2) Learn to speak eloquently · 3) Tell people what they want to hear · 4) Sell your soul to the Devil · 5) ...

😂😂😂

Where can I…. watch Saltburn? (it's on my watch list haha) Amazon Prime

How old is…. Taylor Swift? (i didn't search this but i guess she's top result) 34

How long does it take… to get to mars? (wow a fun one) Now quoting NASA, "If jt all goes well, you'll get to the Red Planet in about seven ot eight months." ♂️🔴

How many… states in Australia? Six states 🇦🇺

Who set the record for…. the highest jump? Javier Sotomayor good job my dude 👏

When did….michael jackson die? 25 june 2009 (woah I started 1st year of high school then)

What does it feel like to… to be in love? (ummm ive never searched that but damn a pointed search 😭😭😭) Reddit says "when you wake up thinking of that person & go to bed thinking of them"

Can you…go parasailing in sydney? (So me bc i missed out when i was in the Philippines 🥲) You can't anymore booo 👎

Why do… i sweat so much? Google says could he nerves that trigger it.

Is there a way… to save karlach? I really wanna play Baldur's gate 3 what's gonna happen to her?? I love her?? 🥺

How old do you have to be… to work? (boooo i don't wanna work but i want money 😩) In NSW minimum age for full time work is 17

Where do the… kardashians live? (i don't care) Malibu

What is the best time to… to go to fiji? (aaayee holiday??) June to September

And to finish us off…. What comes up when you type in Shameless? shameless last episode date

11 April 2021 I needed it for my gallacrafts 🥹

Name: Myn

Age: 27

Astrological sign: Leo ♌️

Upon which continent do you reside: Stralia 🦘

tell us how you're feeling right now using 3-5 emojis: 🥶💸🤔🤫🤗

whats your favorite flavor of gum? Juicy fruit but the flavour never lasts long

whats the last movie you watched? Anastasia for my nieces first viewing 😆 It mostly became a sing-a-long with my big sis 🎤

what was your worst subject in high school? Maybe science?

whats the job you stayed at for the shortest period of time? Working for a weekend event at a convention centre for the active wear brand Lorna Jane. I got lost on the 1st day & didn't get paid for that 15 min 😅

whats your favorite thing to do at an amusement park? Try all the interesting foods 😋

what condiments go on top of the perfect hot dog (meat or plant-based)? BBQ sauce & caramelised onions 🌰

cincinnati chili, thoughts? Never heard of it!

do you sleep with a plushie? No my plushies are on a shelf bc I can get kicked out of my room every 2nd weekend bc my sister & her family takes it over haha. But worth it to have my baby niece over 🥰

how do you feel about thunderstorms? No strong emotions. It's cool when boom

what's the last animal you touched? My dog Roxy 🐕 ❤️

grab the nearest item with words on it that ISNT a book and tell me the final word: Tulip on this korean dry shampoo I'm trying 🌷

have you ever forgotten to do an assignment until the night before its due? Oh I was organised at knowing darw but procrastinated the hell out of the assignment until the due date. Then trying to finish the night before 😅 I found an old diary entry calling myself a dumb bitch for doing that to myself & saying to never do it again (she did) 😭

Not tagging anyone bc LATE but if you wanna play consider yourself tagged! 🩷🐇

[lorelune]

hey lore !!!!! I'm a big fan of your works <3 they honestly amaze me so much. i especially adore your world building it's just so ?? scrumptious ?! no seriously it's so good like i want to eat it up along with your characterization. i love how you enhance already existing world's as well as create new ones — not just world's but ways things work and intricacies within intricacies.. you provide such a clear idea that makes picturising it all so much easier and interesting

ive never written before other than some blurbs here and there on my notes app but recently hsr brainrot has been Hitting it lately and i've had way too many thoughts 💭 i was planning on maybe writing a fic.. but it requires insane amount of world building (and ik that's definitely not the right thing to start off on, as a new writer/for your first work but then again ig there is no right and wrong way to do it (?) it's more like my brain power might not support me and i’ll abandon it half way or something 🥲 haha) anyway i was wondering if you have any tips on how to worldbuild or build further on the existing ideas of certain organisations and all that sort.. there's just so many ideas haywiring and i would really love some advice if you don't mind. but no pressure !! sorry if this was too long,,

omg hello anon!! not too long at ALL hehe i'm gonna answer this below the cut hehe

first off THANK YOU 🥺!!! i appreciate your kind words so much <3 i really enjoy worldbuilding in my own writing and i'm very glad the ideas i bungle up translate well when actually in a story :'^) in my own little brainworld where i daydream, i tend to add details and layers to the original story that i do like... question if i can execute. so it is always nice to hear that they do in fact make it through 😭💓

as for advice!!

anon. so transparently. so REAL-y. if you have the brainworms for a story, even if its big and complicated and a lot to chew on it, just start!!! it is so intimidating truly but there is no better writing fuel than the muse of a story that has captured you. and!! if it does not end up finished, that is totally okay!! i have personally learned some of most valuable lessons writing while working on large pieces that ultimately ended up unfinished.

for more material advice:

when working on fic, i keep a lot of notes in a personal discord server. i have a wip channel and threads for certain fic ideas where i compile plot details, world details, fanart and inspo photos. it's super helpful!!!

one thing that helps me when i have big grand worlds in my head and i need to get them down and written is, instead of choosing to take a bite out of the whole world itself, i try to choose just a snippet or event and build around that. for example, in cicatrix, you get LOTS of lore abt calibrators and their relationship to the luofu, but plenty of what i had spinning around in my noggin didn't make it down. it wasn't relevant to the immediate story, event, or conflict, so it stayed unspoken. however, i think having really rich background going INTO writing these snippets of a larger universe helps fill things out and seem more like... lived in.

i will say. so indispensable. BETA READERS. the first few drafts of cicatrix where so ROUGH when it came to world building. i had the whole lore of calibrators and the luofu in my head, but getting it down clearly and in a way that made enough sense to an unknowing audience took a few read throughs and feedback by some lovely friends of mine. i highly recommend tracking down someone to read over your pieces and provide feedback on the things you're worried about!!!

and like... perhaps a little corny. but. believe in yourself. we are our own greatest critics, and the best attitude to cultivate toward the craft is that you can... do it. you just can. innately anon, regardless of experience, you can create the story and world you want to. bolstering a sense of confidence goes FAR esp if you end up writing a longer piece!!!

anon i got quite rambly asldkf. i hope this is in some way helpful!!! if you have any other questions, i am happy to answer!! i truly think writing immersive worlds is SO fun and engaging, and sometimes you just gotta. throw your hat in the ring. start the run and see where it takes you. i wish you such like and good tidings anon <3

[0shewrites0]

20 questions for fic writers

thank you for tagging me @rebelrayne 🫶🏼

How many works do you have on ao3?

20

What's your total ao3 word count?

539,557

What fandoms do you write for?

Love Island the Game, Romance Club fandom, The Originals (and I guess you could say LoveLink because I had characters appear in a LITG fic?)

Top five fics by kudos:

1. Dead of Night

2. Seamless

3. I’m Yours

4. liquid gold

5. crossroads

Do you respond to comments?

Yes! Always! Maybe not right away but I love getting comments, reading them and replying to them 🥹

What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

I don’t know, I guess it would be the ghost of you because rainbow isn’t that angsty. It’s more hurt/(a little)comfort?

What's the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

There are so manyyy 😂 But for the sake of it, I’ll put a thief and a liar here

Do you get hate on fics?

No and I’m glad I don’t. I only had someone ask why there was such a difference in the level of writing between I’m Yours (literally my first ever fic) and Seamless. Which, duh. And I should probably give I’m Yours a rewrite but I honestly couldn’t care less. It’s a part of my journey 🥲

Do you write smut?

Yes and I think it’s fun!

Craziest crossover:

I’ve not really done crossovers.

Have you ever had a fic stolen?

No but I feel like if that happened to me, I’d be heartbroken.

Have you ever had a fic translated?

No.

Have you ever co-written a fic before?

No.

All time favourite ship?

I thought I’d say Lucas/MC but now I don’t know? I’ll write anything as long as the ✨hyper fixation✨ hits, ya know? And I read everything as well. I’ve read so many great fics where I absolutely loved the pairing.

Lmao in case you couldn’t tell, I’m fucking indecisive 💀

What's a wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

A chaptered fantasy AU. I have so many chapters written (unedited) but most days I’m not really feeling it 😩 It’s been sitting in my drafts for forever.

What are your writing strengths?

I’ve had a lot of people in comments say that my character analysis is great and that way I can bring them to life in a realistic way? And that I can portray them and their thoughts and emotions really well 👉🏼👈🏼

What are your writing weaknesses?

Definitely the language. I’ve tried writing in German but it’s horrible. It’s so cringeworthy and I can’t even imagine putting that on a platform even though I’m native and obviously have alllll the vocab skills I’d need. But English is only my second language and I’m still struggling, sometimes so much that I can’t even sit down and write because I get so frustrated.

Thoughts on dialogue in another language?

I love it!

First fandom you wrote in?

Love Island the Game

Favourite fic you've written?

I’ve loved writing It was meant to be you so so much 😮‍💨

tagging @willkimurashat @mercedesdecorazon @crimswnred @libelle949 @perfectlysunny02 @operationnope @ellegreenwxy @eskiix @ariendiel 🩷

[haleyhunwritess]

Pleaseeee update WHO IS SHE🥲🥲🥲🥲 If you could do a blurb on it or something that'd be so good 🥶 It could be before everything happened wtih his EX wife and just fluff😻🥰😊

how things used to be before natalia (blurb for who is she?)

a/n: I do have somethings in my draft that I'd like to post before I finish part 3 for Who is She but I hope this blurb is good for nowww <3

��Alright, come on. Time to put the book down now.”

Bucky would take the textbook from you no matter how many times you protested

he would pick you up, giving you kisses everywhere as you complain about him being a meanie

“Mhmm I know, bubs. Such a meanie, aren’t I? Just want my girl to take a break” he would mock you, chuckling at your pouty face

Ughhh as much as you hate to admit it, you know he’s right, you need a break after working all day

he’d bring you over to the kitchen, put you down on the counter before going over to the fridge to get you a drink

he would wait for you to finish your drink before helping you over to the couch for some cuddles

you would fall asleep in his arms in just a few minutes

he would just kiss your forehead and let you rest because he knows how hard you’ve been working lately

i need this right now so bad. school is so tough right now i have like four exams coming up

[graygiantess]

I have to say, I can't tell you how many times I've reread that 'Armand has a sad/low day' A03 piece of yours -- truly it's exceptional. Small things about it always stick with me. I really like the nuance with which you present Armand especially <3! You do Daniel great too <3, I have re-read that one a lot, it's always so great especially in terms of atmosphere. I also finally just realized that the Daddy piece is fiction [not just a comic, I mean], I hadn't figured it out from the summary line for some reason, and it's very enjoyable, love it! So funny <3 Also I just read the new 'low day' piece and it's SO good. I love the way you have Armand truly be himself, with all the complexities of that [ethics etc] -- so good!!!

Hey Nonny,

Thank you so much for your lovely message!

Silver Lining is one of the fics I'm the most proud of, so I'm always delighted to hear that it resonates with others!

It just occurred to me yesterday that Daniel’s flippant S1 line about Claudia not being held enough in between ritualistic murders also describes Armand down to a T. 🥲

I think 99% of the problems TVC vamps have and create for each other boils down to a deep-seated sense of loneliness, fear of that loneliness, and the desire to belong/be loved.

I think the show is doing such a gorgeous job of exploring that in Armand this season (in a just world this season would sweep awards season just on Assad's control of his facial expressions alone!) and I really needed to give him a hug after watching episode 4.

RE: Daddy.

I'd literally just finished the first draft of the fic when @verimuru and I got to talking about doing a potential collab. Based on their previous comics, I thought Daddy would work well with their style of storytelling and they agreed!

I really wanted to highlight the comic when we posted it, but I also wanted to include the 'written-out' version, because:

1) it was there and I liked how it turned out, but mostly

2) it's almost like a BTS feature in that it shows some of Daniel’s internal dialogue and how that informed certain decisions RE: the art AND shows you which elements were added while we were working on the comic. Armand really being physically in Daniel’s face, him pulling Daniel into his lap, and the way they're visually almost at the club already on pages 7 and 8 were all Verimuru's ideas, and IMO those choices elevated the storytelling SO MUCH.

I mean, 70yo Daniel Molloy literally sitting in Armand’s lap just before putting on the very expensive outfit Armand picked out for him and then saying (paraphrased), "Where do you get off suggesting I'm your sugar baby?" is just so completely hilarious to me. 😂

I've said it once and I'll say it a million times: working with Verimuru was an absolute joy! (And you probably haven't seen the last of us yet.)

I'm so glad you liked both versions! Thank you again for your ask. 😊

[aleksanderscult]

Some Darklina songs?

Oh shit. That's a serious question and I need to live up to your expectations, anon.

Random, but do you spy on my drafts?? 'Cause I created a short Darkling playlist (solely composed by soundtracks though) two weeks ago. But I don't know when I'll release it for you, guys.😭😭 So this ask gave me a deja vú HAHAHA

I've actually already thought about this question so I had some songs in mind for quite some time now. But I also searched to find more.

(This list will also include soundtracks 'cause I find them just as important)

Part 2 here!

1) Shades of Cool - Lana Del Rey

I imagine this song from Alina's perspective for the Darkling. The chorus in particular and the bridge (there are lyrics in the bridge but they're purposefully barely audible) remind me of Alina and her opinion for the Darkling SO MUCH.

2) Big Eyes - Lana Del Rey

Again these lyrics are from Alina's perspective to the Darkling. When you hear them you'll know what I mean.😏

(ESPECIALLY THAT BRIDGE IS SO ALINA ABOUT THE DARKLING)

3) Terrence Loves You - Lana Del Rey

(I think you, people, have already guessed that I'm a HUGE Lana Del Rey fan😭)

This song speaks about loneliness. Your love is gone and you're left behind trying to fill the void. This beautiful song is Alina after Aleksander's death in R&R. The lyrics fit her grief.

Especially the lyric "But I lost myself when I lost you" hits too close to home, knowing how she lost her powers and basically herself after she lost him. And the lyric "Trying to transmit, can you hear me? Ground Control to Major Tom, can you hear me all night long?" makes me think of Alina trying to communicate with Aleksander from the other side🥲

Also the lyric "Isn't it strange how you're not here with me?" (*silently sobbing*)

This song is Alina mourning.

(A little fun fact, this is the song I put on my earphones after I finished R&R to cope with the Darkling's death. Needless to say I cried even more with this).

4) Cherry - Lana Del Rey

This song talks about a toxic love that is so catastrophic to the point that you fall to pieces both from the intense love and the burning toxicity. Instead of flourishing from this love, you're crumbling.

In other words, Darklina🙂😭

Whether it's from Alina's or Aleksander's perspective (or both), I leave it to YOU ❤️🤗

5) Once Upon A Dream - Lana Del Rey

(I swear not all the songs are going to be from Lana😭)

Guys, this song is Darklina.

The lyrics are Darklina.

The creepy, atmospheric vibe is Darklina.

The dark fairytale-like melody is Darklina.

It just screams THESE TWO!!

"But if I know you, I know what you'll do. You'll love me at once the way you did once upon a dream" - Once Upon A Dream.

"Something more. He'd known the name for it once. A hundred lifetimes ago." - Rule of Wolves.

6) Seven Devils - Florence + the Machine

Let's change the scenery and go to Dark!Alina.

'Cause this song gives me that vibe. Just close your eyes and pretend that Alina has taken the villainy road on Aleksander's side and together they ride to battles to bring peace to Ravka by doing it the hard way and then they rule together (sounds a better ending than the one Alina got at R&R like💀).

Anyway, this song is dark Darklina 😍

Thank me later.

7) Everybody Wants to Rule the World - Lorde

It doesn't only give me strong Darklina vibes but also strong Grishaverse trilogy vibes.

Also the line "There's a room where the light won't find you" is SO Darkling coded.

This song gives me vibes of their opposition and rivalry. Just imagine the second half playing while they're battling against each other 😩

8) War of Hearts - Ruelle

To be honest, I neither like nor listen to this song.

BUT! The lyrics are the personification of Darklina FRR😭

9) 13 Beaches - Lana Del Rey

I have so many things to say here.

First of all, it can be interpreted both by Alina's perspective and Aleksander's.

The spoken, opening lines ("I don't belong in the world...") remind me of these two. Because they both felt like outsiders. Like they didn't belong anywhere. Like no one could understand them.

Secondly, the lines "But I still get lonely..." and "It hurts to love you. But I still love you..." are them. I just can't explain it.🥲

10) Within You - David Bowie

The man. The myth. The legend. David Bowie.

The song was written for the movie "Labyrinth" which I have already recommended to my fellow Darklina friends. The relationship and dynamic between Jareth and Sarah is DARKLINA CODED AS FUCK.

And the lyrics of this song are also Darkling coded sooo....we have two in one!!

(The music might not remind you of Darklina but what can we do😔).

More songs in part 2! 🖤💛

[empresskylo]

I hope you’re doing well!! I appreciate your writing sm, you write for like all my fav fandoms. I hope you’re just bored with tumblr and not experiencing anything distressing.

thank u, i hope you’re doing good as well 🫶🫶

ahhhhhh, you see, i had the urge to write about these oc’s i had and it took all of my writing inspo for the past few months 🥲 i have so many things in my tumblr drafts that i just need to finish, and i think i will be able to now that i finished my non-fanfiction related writing project (like i genuinely just randomly had the urge to write a romantasy book and it’s done and 120k words and idek what to do with it. i don’t think i’m good enough to ever be published so i’ll probably just keep it in the drafts forever <3 i simply just had to get it out of my system, but i digress)

thank you for caring, anon 🥹🥹 i’ll probably come back and post call of duty things again (i’m kinda not in the mood for any of my other fandoms rn)

[enmi-land]

HELLO DILAAA aaaa just found your new acc, so sorry that happened to you it must have been an awful experience i would def cry 😭 i went through your asks briefly to fully understand what happened and i have NEVER met an author who is as considerate of their readers and patient as you. its some of the reasons i love you and your blog so much ahh 💖💖

but please please take some time off to cool down so you can come back with a clearer mind! dont feel the need to rush into anything with all the requests and drafts that you had, especially with your plan for mila’s birthday special 🥲 we’ll wait for you, take as long as you need !! i hope you feel better soon dila 🥹

HELLAUR ANONNIE!! 🤩 i’m glad you were able to find it okay!’ I was worried since this is a new account i was on shadowban for a day or 2 so my announcement post about what happened to my account wasn’t showing up in the tags, and i was just hoping my readers would still find it somehow so they didn’t panic ❤️‍🩹❤️‍🩹 but that’s so sweet thank you so much it makes me happy to have such understanding, kind and patient readers like you 💖💖 like blr can be a bother, but ppl like you always make it better 🩷🩷🩷🩷

i’m currently in the process of making a decision for the future of my works ☹️☹️ after the blog deleting incident i just don’t rlly know where else to go with my blog here on blr anymore, i just feel a little demotivated and lost with my direction, so the current works may or may not be put on the back burner as a second priority to other works which i’ll talk about in a sec 🫶

if you guys didn’t know, one of my favourite authors on wattpad was the user baesuzi before she deactivated — i’m not sure if you guys know of her, but she was a poly writer who had so many good works before she disappeared from wattpad, and seeing how much i miss her works inspired me to consider focusing on finishing a poly fic with an actual plot line 👀👀

i already plotted out fate, vampire/rejected soulmate au as well as the rewrite for criminal love (the mafia au) and i think you guys would rlly like those ones bc of the elements included in them (and mila happens to somehow be in them) 🫶🫶🫶

it would be easier as well to write smth with an end in mind, compared to this 8th member au which is just continuous, and i would like o feel the satisfaction of completing smth you know?? so we’ll see how it goes but lmk if you guys have any opinions, bc i’m open to ideas - but just so you know, i don’t think i could ever fully drop this fic. it’s too close to my heart to let go of 🩷🩷

[pxelbunny]

Hello!! ☺😌 For the fic writer meme: 1, 3, 4, 10, 13, 16, 18! 😎

Oh...! Uh, revenge is sweet or what?! (💗💗)

1 Humhum.... Heroin by Nostalghia makes me think of Homeostasis!

3. My favourite fic is definitely Ashes in the Fall, though it is taking me ages to finish it. We're at one chapter a year at this point.

4. H-how many WIPs?? Uhm hang on - well, 21 that will someday hopefully amount to something.

10. Honestly, most of my fics get a different response than what I'm expecting. The ones I think will be hated are usually received pretty well and the ones I'm kinda proud of get tumbleweeds 🥲

13. Not too much planning, as in actual sitting down and writing up a plot line before I start, but I typically get an idea and then I let it simmer for half a year to a year before I start to write. Once I'm about four chapters in I've gotten the vibe and a feel for the characters and know approximately how their behaviour will be affecting the course of the story - that's when I write up a bullet-listed plot line and start the proper first draft. I write long ass fics so it needs a bit of work so it won't careen completely out of control :')

16. About the point where I start making the plot-line.

18. Couldn't have asked a more difficult question, huh? :')))) Let's see, out of the about 500k words I have published and 200k words that's still in their wip folders... what is my favourite line? (god I just realised I've written 700k words of AoT fiction in three years... do I have an actual life? No, no I do not) But I guess... "Levi lifts his beer and clinks it against Petra's. To being dreamers born of filth." - super cringey out of context but, heh, it wraps up the entire chapter in a way I was quite satisfied with.

[moonlightknightess]

Hello

can I get some master/slave(pet) bdsm smut with toys( master , mistress and pet) , basically warriors Eren and mikasa get rewarded a slave(pet) AKA Sasha for their success

it’s alright if you don’t want to do it ☺️

There’s something similar for Sasha and mikasa on AO3 the work is called master’s pet by orphan account

😳 Oh lord

Ngl I had to read that piece you suggested cuz I really needed some inspiration 💀 it's gonna be the first time I ever write about sex toys too so bear with me!

Not proof read! And beware cuz this one is gonna be more into the dark side of what fiction has to offer, some TW are: death, noncon, bdsm issues but without the consent part, and so on

PS: this is yet another one of the asks I kept on the drafts for so long so sorry about it 🥲

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The operation to retreave the Titan Founder didn't went as they planned

So many things went wrong at the moment they started to invade Liberio, and to be fair, their plan was doomed ever since its conception

You have to be really hopeful (or dumb) to truly believe it was possible to invade Marley's capital, whose army and technology were centuries ahead of them and was probably deemed the most dangerous country to face in a war

Still, she wouldn't have backed out from joining in the operation, she never did when she was told that most of them would die, nor she did when she entered the Surveu Corps, throwing her dream to join thr MP's to the trashcan

She really wanted to pay the very same people that backstabbed her trust in such a cruelty way with the same coin afterall

That's why, when she witnessed the now so familiar yellowish thunders light the skies and saw them in their titan form, she didn't think twice before flying to them head on, no hesitation in doing the right thing, even less when at the time they proclaimed themselves as the titans that destroyed Maria wall she couldn't do anything but

Still, it wasn't enough, there was not a squad big or skilled enough to win in a fight against both the Founder titan and the Warhammer titan, she doesn't think even Captain Levi would be able to pull it, let alone the best thing the Survey Corps had to offer

She only wished they just finished her life just like they did with so many of her comrades, because what they were doing to her right now was probably way worse than anything else

- Mmmgh! - The feral scream that was force out of her lungs was muffled, the bite of the metal clamps on her nipples making her hiss in pain and bite onto the obtruction stuffing her mouth, tears of frustration daring to fall and make new wet dry paths all over her cheeks

- Don't even dare - The sudden tug of the chain attached to the clamps made her toss and turn on the soft mattress where she was lying at, her back arching in the hopes of not letting them have room to do tug her again, an useless effort once she felt the harsh pressure of them tugging her up again

There was a time in which she looked up at them, for always being on top anyone else when it came to training, always willing to help her out when she needed it, even if they had to risk their life in the process

And yet, there is so much she could be grateful with Eren for teaching her what she knows about self-defense and combat techniques when he uses her mouth as his mere stress relief, his massive shaft making her gag on him everytime he snaps his hips further against her small mouth, the telltale of his cock bulging her throat in a way that dreaded to snap open the collar around it, the same one that deems her as a mere pet for their pleasure

There is so much she can be thankful for Mikasa's friendship and the countless times she has ever saved her life when she stirs her insides with so little difficulty it makes her want to scream, the buzz-like vibration of that hellish phalic-like device throughout all her core making her legs shudder and leak even wetter, which only made it easier for her to speed up the pace to a punishing tempo that makes her feel lose conciousness, the back and forth dance of her hips plowing against her own thighs managing more orgasms that she has ever got in her life so far

It has been like this for quite some time already, whenever she hears footsteps outside the room in which they held her captive she just knows things were about to get nasty, the darkish laughs they dedicate at her whenever they open the door and are meet with the sight of one of her former comrades blindfolded and chained to the ground the most tame thing they could do to her

It has been quite some time since they started to break her spirit little by little with every tortuous lust-filled treat, sometimes Mikasa would come alone, every lick delivered by her togue over her clit as she pumped that smooth plastic rod in and out of her insides making her writh and shake to the core in a muscle tauting sensation, the separation bar attached to her ankles making it impossible for her to denie it, Eren's own intake taking into the form of forcing her to ride his thigh, making her smear him in her juices as he forces the dildo in and out of her ass, hands playing with the mast of her rear as he pumps the dildo at a quick pace, his cock already buried inside her and bulging her stomach with his impressive length, his lips forcing himself on hers and successfully filling er every holes

And still, the worst parts comes when they both decide to come at her at the same time, her mind going insane everytime Eren plows her from behind as Mikasa robes the air from her lungs with every kiss shared, her own strap own wreaking havok on her front as they both timed their movements so perfectly it makes her come undone in seconds, eyes tearing up whenever Eren forces that egg shaped pink device on her clit and makes her beg, all the while she is forced to lap at Mikasa's folds clean, sharp eyes taking into the sight of her

- Tired already, little dog? - She doesn't know how much time she spent daydreaming like that, but when she comes back to reality Mikasa is already fucking her like her life depends on it, her juices gushing out with every thrust in and her back arching to its limits with every tug of the chain attached to the clamps on her nipples, Eren going overboard by fucking her mouth with such an erractic tempo it makes er mind go numb

It's only when they both thrust in for one last time that she gets a break from the four hours of torture they made her endure, with Eren exploding and shooting his seed right in the deepeness of her throat where she can't do anything but to swallow it and Mikasa keeps sheathed right inside of her, the vibrations of her strap on over stimulating her already sensitive erogenous area

- Not bad for a filthy Eldian - Only when he gets himself out and make sures she swallowed everything he decides he can give her a little treat, his fingers tugging the leash attached to her collar and bringing her up, with her willingly letting her tongue out for him to spit on just like usual, swallowing it before he can ever command her to do it

She just hopes someone can put an end to this before if its too late to save her...

Before they both turn her into something so utterly different from the Sasha she has always been

[under-and-over-the-moon]

I just saw your response to my ask. Take all the time you need, I'm dealing with the exact same thing with a short story I've been meaning to finish. It's the third and final part and I've finally figured out somewhat of an idea of the ending and am trying to get myself to actually finish it 🥲 so I feel u on that writer's block, it can be frustrating. Don't forget to write at your own pace and try not to let yourself feel pressured to finish something if you're not in your creative mind space to do so yet. Take time for yourself and remember to write when you feel you're at your best. Sending love and support your way!! 💕

aw this was such a sweet ask 🥰🥺 thank you!! i have the ending pretty much mentally plotted out but somehow what was supposed to be a max 4-part series would probably have like 3+ more parts on top of the 10 it already has, which is daunting 😅 I did a lot of my plotting in earlier chapters on the fly where i just dropped stuff in the story and was like, i'll figure out what this means/tie this up later! but now later has arrived 😩 many many loose ends to tie up!

Also, there are some writers whose first drafts are gold, but I always end up having to edit the living daylights out of my drafts to get them to feel right, so even on the best of days it's kind of a fun slog. Which is great when i have tons of time, not so great when i don't 😅

good luck on your story too!! 🥰

[sparrowscoutout]

🥀 day 3/100 🥀 | 10.11.22

i hated yesterday but i got many things done on my plate so that’s a relief. i had to finish small chunk of code but procrastinated till the next morning and made a clown of myself in the meeting<\3

i wanted to get a better idea of golang and pulsar so after making some lunch for myself, i sat down to go through some documentation and try tutorials. i have my basics clear now but pulsar is still a mystery to me, unaware of its inner workings, hopefully ill get a hang of it through some daily readings.

i then took a 2 hr long break to cook dinner for my family. it was a wholesome meal and everyone enjoyed it. i even got time to cool myself off and get out of my head. i have realized i don’t like reading as much as I like the idea of reading. My mind switches to think about other people a lot, which i absolutely hate it because it creates anxiety. i have decided to not force read and only read it when my heart really wants to consume something. i also feel i no longer need fiction stories at this point because self-help books really help me rewire my brain. i love psychology so im just gonna stick to it till im done w/ my graduate admissions.

i really wasn’t into completing my code yesterday so finished working on my lor draft and sent it to my professor finally. then started working on webflow for my ui/ux portfolio.

my partner and i completed a year together so we wished each other (nothing grand) and slept my ass off later🧿🥲

🎧 Mother Mother - It’s Alright

📖 MXTX - TGCF