#i have one weird nipple and one normal nipple after top surgery and im fixing the weird one and it's working

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me: yeah i'm careful not to overshare on the internet and i really don't use social media for anything other than marketing my art and occasionally being a little silly on instagram

me on tumblr: HEY GUYS MY WEIRD NIPPLE IS SLOWLY TURNING NORMAL

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2 weeks post op top surgery update!! pics & details under the cut!

i had my 2nd post op appointment on monday, getting the stitches off of my grafts and medical tape off my incisions. other than my limited mobility and some mood stuff and scar care, im pretty much back to normal! im v happy with how my chest looks, and my doctor said i was looking more healed than average for the 2-week mark :)

physical healing:

having the stitches taken off the nipple graft was a bit uncomfy but just felt like a light tugging and only took a few minutes. having the medical tape taken off hurt a bit bc the adhesive pulled on my skin, but it was super fast and not an intense pain at all.

so i had been instructed to keep my nipples very very hydrated with aquaphor (which is why they look shiny here lol), and not to pick at them or rub them. before my appointment yesterday, the entire grafts looked how the nipple does now, all black and scabbed, but i hadn’t been able to tell that it was just dead skin scabbed over & ready to come off because i had been keeping them so hydrated that they didn’t flake off like normal scabs, i thought it was just my bruised healing skin and that the scabbing process had barely started. then, i went into my appointment, and when my doctor took out the stitches, she swabbed the area lightly, and all of the dead skin came off super easily! i was so surprised! turns out almost all of the scabbing of the areola had already happened, i just didn’t know, because it was so different from normal scabs due to the constant hydration. now all thats left is the nipple, which takes longer to heal because its a thicker part of the graft.

you can see the little indentations on my skin from the gauze pressing down under my compression wrap, which i still wear all day every day, and will continue to do for the next few weeks. there is still a light bruise on one side of my chest and a numb patch on the other, plus a bit of swelling around the incisions, especially near the center of my chest. the bruise actually looks more visible in these pics than it does irl.

current physical care:

i’ve started scar care, which is super exciting! i massage my scars twice a day with healing ointment, keeping them nice n hydrated under a thin layer (but still dry enough that they dont get weird from being wrapped up all the time). i also started using silicone scar cream, which is for healing and fading scars.

i massage the incisions for about 15 minutes per day total, for 5-10 minutes at a time. it feels nice, its pleasing to run my fingers over the incisions, it is a bit tender on the place where there is still swelling and a light bruise. i also (very lightly) rub the outside of my nipple grafts when applying the aquaphor, which is to prevent the buildup of excess scar tissue that would raise my areolas up.

i feel much more confident about my healing after having the tape taken off my incisions and the scab tissue wiped off my nipple grafts. i spent the entire past 2 weeks worrying about my nipples falling off, and now i know that won’t happen lmao. im very excited about scar care, being able to massage the incisions and confidently touch my nipples is great. i’m looking forward to my nipples scab tissue flaking off, and for the dissolvable sutures under my incisions to dissolve completely, because i can feel them under my scars which is weird!

concerns going forward:

-spitting sutures, which is when a dissolvable suture gets agitated or rejected by your body and has to be removed, but it’s an easy fix if it does happen, i just have to go into my surgeons office and have them take it out.

-scar care! keeping my nipples hydrated, massaging my scars and the rims of my grafts, keeping everything wrapped under my ace bandage compression with gauze pads over the nipples.

-limited mobility and not carrying stuff- now that i’m pretty healed its hard to make myself not do normal things like reach my arms out, stretch, and lift things up, but i really shouldnt do it even if it doesn’t hurt.

-compression, i still wear my ace bandage wrap and will for at least 2 more weeks, which sucks, i can’t wait to be done with it! but im also glad it’s there because it makes my chest feel protected, i’m still very very cautious and weird about my giant wounds and still-healing nipples.

mood:

overall, i’m very happy with how it looks and how it’s healing. im very relieved to be past these first few weeks when everything is at its most difficult. i’ve been really really stressed out about it this whole time, worrying about my nipple grafts failing or not healing right, having full on anxiety attacks when i accidentally stretch my arms out too far or put too much weight on them, and being terribly afraid that my chest won’t look good aesthetically.

i’ve also been depressed lately, idk if it’s post-surgery depression or my normal depression or my seasonal depression. i was in very good spirits the first week, but i’ve been having low moods and low energy more recently :( i think once i’m able to drive and exercise again i’ll be much happier, but for now being trapped inside all day in my room has been rough.

recovery has been physically grueling and mentally very weird, because i literally did not believe it would actually happen until it had actually happened (seriously i was at the hospital getting prepped to be taken into the OR and i still didn’t think it would happen), and i didn’t believe it would be okay until my 2nd post op on monday when i saw how healed my grafts and incisions were. so really, i’m just now getting to experience the relief that i finally got surgery!!!! the more healed i get the more i enjoy it, which i’m sure will continue for the next months and probably years.

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ABO Dynamic Non Pregnant Female Omega Estrous Cycle

OK this is long....I should be studying BUT this kinda helped me study repro for my test sooooooooooooo dual purpose...and because i was curious and science

Also cause @hymnofthevalkyries are doing a ABO rp and well we like to research things 

**This is how I picture this and I am no way a reproduction specialist so I am welcome to constructive comments but based this on our veterinary repro lectures/textbooks with a bit of creative freedom. Since ABO is kinda based on animal cycles (heats and all) kinda used animals a bit as a guide (particularly the mare why idk shes weird)

Also adult language sorta used like basic anatomy terms

Normal is based off a normal Human cycle

MALE REPRODUCTIVE SCIENCE FOUND HERE

RIGHT WHAT THOSE HORMONES MEAN (the simple version)

FSH-Follicle Stimulating Hormone- basically the growth and development of the egg in the ovary (also helps with estrogen production) 

LH-Luteinizing Hormone- Basically triggers the egg to be released and development of corpus luteum (helps maintain pregnancy and huge producer of progesterone, some estrogen as well and a few other things not relative to this)

Ovulation- egg is actually released and is waiting to be fertilized. 

Estrogen/ Estradiol- Primary female sex hormone, basically for this part im using it as part of mood and behavior 

Progesterone - good old pregnancy hormone here maintains a bunch of things to help support pregnancy.

KAY MY Theory. Gonna start with body temp and go from there

Body Temp So normal humans it drops before ovulation but my theory is it rises, with rising body temperatures comes sweating and giving off waaaay more scent markers. (We’re only talking like 2-3 degrees here nothing too crazy high or things quit working). This lasts for as long as the heat is happening then once its over it drops drastically down 2-3 degrees lower than normal before it evens out again to normal lets call this bonding time with alpha cause they a bit chilly lol cold feet and hands for all. 

FSH- nothing any more special accept instead of helping one egg developing typically it helps like 1-3ish or more whatever verse/multiple theory you would live to give this. 

LH- RIGHT GOOD STUFF HERE SO this one actually helps the release of these egg AKA Ovulation. My theory they do not all release at once but rather in timed periods making sure fresh sperm can get to them and the other egg is out of the way as it moves into position (may not always release from opposite ovaries could be from same). Hence why “Heat” may take a few days depending on your world of ABO

Estrogen- HOKAY so this one is where the “HEAT” come into play, basically the symptoms that the body is ready to house the baby! AND signal to the male lets get it on. Slick is gonna get produced along the mucosa of the vagina/cervix/uterus and stimulated by this hormone right here, all hypersensitive features come into play to further stimulate everything(breasts/nipples, clit, genital area in general, and wherever else they like to be touched), mood is modified to wanting to be around an alpha getting a bit clingy and needy, horny you kinda name it

Right we all good so far? Cool here’s where its gonna get a bit tricky and very much not like usual animals. 

Progesterone- rises after ovulation to help develop the uterine wall for implantation. Here’s where I went a bit off the normal and went a bit more fictional. My theory is this takes place quickly starting while they are still in heat just slightly before the first egg is released and rapidly develops till the body can recognize the eggs been fertilized. Kinda like the horse I feel like the eggs will rotate around for awhile in the uterus before it implants to also allow the wall to develop more. (Typically it just finds a spot and plants but in the horse for some reason it likes to move around for a few days) 

   **This is where part of the heat pains can come from! Without the proper sexual stimulation the contractions of the walls that move the egg around can go a bit haywire without something to move. Essentially they over contract and without proper orgasms they cannot relax. Also I feel like alpha sperm play a role in this part as well, some composition of the makeup will also help to soothe and relax the walls. As omega ages this process consumes more and more time takes longer and longer to create the lining as previous failed attempts would most likely leave some damage to the walls. So this process becomes more and more painful as the body is trying to do what it was designed for carry babies. 

Second the body realizes its not pregnant it immediately drops in progesterone levels sparking the dreaded periods. Yes they still get them still humanish. So on top of the cramping of not having a fertilized egg then you get the body quickly trying to get ride of the walls it just made. Adding once again to the pains and this time losing the lining. Also a place where it can get dangerous as more and more scar tissue builds up higher chance of it failing and bleeding out.  So that’s my theory how they could die not just pain but failure of the lining causing bleeding either external or internal (which then means like emergency surgery and remove everything which probably makes the omega feel like less of a woman) 

BUT This takes like YEARS to develop this isn’t just an overnight type of thing. 

**Exception would be if their mate is away for extended period of time then everything is ramped up ten fold cause it wants to make that baby so a normal process that takes years could only take months. Why a mate should never leave them for too long, if they die body kinda knows this based on the intense grief and they will either revert back to a normal cycling or no longer cycle period depending on age and if they have had kids. 

Can it be fixed? SURE! Cause why not they already are not abiding by normal rules. So sexual stimulation in the correct way aka through mating with an alpha will decrease this overly intense contractions allowing for the walls of the uterus to heal (why first heats sometimes they will not get pregnant it has to correct the damage) 

** AGAIN THIS IS PURELY FICTIONAL I MADE UP BASED ON A FEW PEOPLES ABO FICS AND RULES as well as some I’ve just come up with. ( @kittenofdoomage @ilostmyshoe-79 @dr-dean to name a few I follow) 

I am curious as to what other head cannons y’all think. Im thinking about making a few other charts as well (female pregnant, male alpha rutts, possibly omega male, and alpha female) not quite sure yet as I’ve procrastinated long enough from studying real animal reproduction as I have a test thursday XD

Thoughts? Comments? welcome!