#i have many many nora feelings today but they're not cohesive

[kinaesthetiqueer]

nora "so we failed as a team but we succeed as a team too!" valkyrie has been trying so damn hard for so damn long i hope she gets some focus in v10

> pyrrha running off by herself to accept the maiden power while nora and ren look on helpless >> "where is she going?"

> pyrrha running off to fight cinder, pushing jaune away

> jaune taking cinder solo on in a highly emotional state despite absolutely not needing to, not heeding nora's attempts to becalm him >> "...jaune-?!"

> ren shutting jaune and nora out when he sees his feelings as a liability. >> "why won't you just talk to me?" (technically said prior to the shutting out, i know)

she's on team self-sacrifice. what the fuck else would she do when she has no one to restrain. holding them back holds her back!

she watches her team not listen to her time and time again, not because they mean to hurt her, but because they're so wrapped up in their own feelings

thus, nora, away from her team for the first time since beacon: you know what? fuck it. be strong and hit stuff. *does some stupid self-destructive shit within 24 hours*

i fully believe that nora's self destructive impulses are only curbed by having to curb the rest of her teams' SDIs. be strong and hit stuff feels like two things to me. be strong? she's been [emotionally] strong this whole damn time. we never quite get to see her grieve on screen; she spends so much time comforting others. this isn't a dig at the narrative, it's a compliment to it. i don't think it's a coincidence that she did the most self destructive thing possible the second she was away from them. grief and self loathing and confusion, all of it coming to a head.

anyways i love her a normal amount.