#i guess spanish would be my first because whenever i get pissed i immediately switch to it. english just doesn't have that OOMPH.

[astramachina]

Maybe it's to do with how we're exposed to our languages growing up? I often get asked what my first language is and I just blank out because I legitimately cannot say whether it's Spanish or English. My dad only spoke English until he met mom, and mom was fluent in both English and Spanish when she met him. Meanwhile, growing up in PR during the 90s meant that 98% of the world outside of my childhood home was in Spanish, while the world inside our house was 99% English. TV, movies, music, books--everything was in English, and I was an avid reader. But also PR Spanish is so viciously "improper"/mutated that half our lexicon are badly pronounced English words.

Prende los parabrisas? Nah. It's prende los wipers. Dame un momento? Nope. It's dame un break. I was in AP Spanish during middle school and my teacher was a member of La Real Academia Española and boy howdy this lady had daily aneurysms because her students spoke like "American dropouts".

So like... I'm shrugging with plenty of confusion. There is no brain switching when I flip flop between English and Spanish. Words from both languages do blend together stupidly into a single sentence. It's not proper, but it just happens.

Granted, when writing dialogue it might sound weird when it's written by someone who's monolingual because conjugations might be off so on so forth, but that aside idk what some of y'all are talking about.