#i feel everything so i've been popping these pain meds like candy

[micahsawyer]

hi moots, tiny update!! i go for a ct scan tomorrow night and surgery is wednesday! on my sister's birthday, which sucks, but i'll be going home that same day! depending on how i feel after, i'm gonna try to be around a little more. i've been hyperfixating while the pain is bad so i'm currently (very slowly, in between hurting and sleeping) working on a complete rewrite of klaus @slghtr; i'll probably give him an extremely private & low-activity blog because i intend to get back to focusing on micah as soon as i can. discord has been a hard feat for me lately so i apologize for being distant, i'm just really tired and i'm relying on family for daily care, which is so amazing of them and i love them for it, but it takes a huge toll on my social battery because i'm never alone, you know? if you get it you get it. so if you get one message a day from me... be proud of me. anyway, thank y'all for being so amazing and overall just wonderful people. ♥

also, since i'm here... a giant thank you, a million hugs, and my eternal love and gratitude to my loves @flappervcmp, @theres-nothing-to-be-scared-of, @cemeterysgirl, @doesoft, and @malumxsubest for being absolute fucking lights in my life!! in general, of course, but especially now when all i'm capable of is bare minimum. y'all might not think it's a big thing but i see y'all in my messages all the time checking in, sending love and laughs, and being the most patient and kind people i've ever had the pleasure of befriending and i am literally just 🥰 so insanely fucking thankful for each of you!! best believe that as soon as i'm able i will be showering you and your muses with overwhelming love and attention! thank you so much for bearing with me y'all, i love each of you sm!!!