#i emailed my profs- they'll give me an extension if needed- but god i know i could use it but i dont want it
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I'm afraid to go to sleep because what if I wake up in a world without my grandpa?
#personal#he is in hospice care now.#my parents said 24 hours. that would mean 12 hours from now.#but it could be a week? a month?#im having a hard time breathing when i think about itm#they were talking about moving him to the nursing home and getting physical therapy not even 3 days ago...#i have to take the test that made me so stressed out i skipped my period for 2 months - i have to take that test again in a week#and i havent studied at all bc of holidays and the stress of everything my gpa is going through and i got sick-#and im terrified that ill need to go home next week for a funeral.#i emailed my profs- they'll give me an extension if needed- but god i know i could use it but i dont want it#i dont want that extension bc that means he's gone#'good thing my grandpa died it gave me more time to study!'#the thought makes me sick#i fully cried in walmart bc my friend asked if i was going back- i said no bc i thought she meant to go to his deathbed-#it hit me that there would be a fucking funeral#all 140 of my family would be there.#god we were supposed to have a Christmas party on the fourth but that got canceled bc gpa was in the hospital l#it all makes me wish i was religious of sorts. believing in an afterlife where i could see him again- hug him again- have him call me the#awesome girl again-#i think of my death and i want an end. i want nothing. i accept that i can just become part of the universe again. loved ones?#loved ones need a heaven. i want them to go somewhere. somewhere i could meet them again.#take bets if i sleep before 6
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