#i dunno i might not. i don't want to like make it cutesy that dan had life altering crises

[astradyke]

hey in case anyone had any doubts about whether or not i'm insane about the thing i keep posting about rest assured i'm still thinking about the hiatus. okay disclaimer also i'm not trying to be like oh their struggles were so gay yaoi and sweet coded, that's not really my point this was like serious shit. anyway. like fuckkk what gets me crazy insane is like how much stress they had in their lives (phil's health issues and his chronic illness along with his anxiety; dan's breakdown with youtube post-coming out and the implied financial/mental struggles with that) and like (1), overwhelmingly, i get emotional every time i think about how much happier they are now, how dan was able to create something important to him and phil has come so far with his anxiety it makes me like <33 and is why i can't really watch stuff pre hiatus but (2) not more important than their individual/collective happiness obviously but related to it like... damn. they were so fucking in love? they were still so fucking in love. i don't know. dan and phil clearly have gone through a lot of shit in their lives online/privately **and as fans we do not know the half of it, i'm sure, or how a lot of it affected them, and i really am not trying to pry** but like... just from what they have told us, like. i am so serious i could tattoo it on me they always brought the other person up. like phil gets brought up in dystopia daily episodes he's not even in, not to mention that he was part of the production team. phil brings up dan in every video of his. and all of it is so overwhelmingly loving. like the hiatus must have been some of the scariest times of their life, whether or not they'd live together was in flux, both dan and phil had their own creative purgatories, but like... they're dan and phil. they can survive anything. they drive me fucking crazy.