#i dropped out of highschool and i dropped out of my tafe course

[pixelpacc]

ok i'm making it a journal now/ update with TAFE

i've made the decision to turn it into Manleo's journal, i think that idea is cool and fun. this however does mean that there will be a different google doc because im gonna keep the old one to keep track on how everything plays out and then write it from Manleo's perspective in his journal.

anyways now to the cool tafe stuff. not too long ago i enrolled into a cert III Horticulture in tafe because it went for free and this was the exact course that i wanted to do so i left highschool early. some would call that dumb to drop out of school but i call this an absolute W move. anyways i just went through my first week at tafe and oh lord, this is it.

it is everything i wanted and more, everyone is nice, the teacher makes things make sense and when you get to do the physical stuff you just get to go at it and do it at your pace, no hand holding and you could just pop in an earbud and start listening to some tunes.

anyways that concludes the update, have a good day.

[kiunlo]

this shit is fuckin pathetic and sad. read at your own risk i guess.

you know. with all the fucking shit that i tried in highschool to GET through it, including doing many of my courses online and only doing subjects i really really enjoyed, and avoiding going to the community thingy every day where all the distance ed students would go to be supervised while doing their work and to ensure they still had some amounts of social interaction (i don't get it either) i still struggled. like, yeah i did better than i did at the actual public highschool where i genuinely wanted to kill myself and the teachers sucked and literally DID NOT CARE that I had depression and that I wanted to die. i had better teachers in distance ed that actually cared about my health and wellbeing or whatever. and yet i was still expected to pump out work every week for EVERY single one of my subjects which were getting harder and harder and i kept falling behind and LITERALLY SOMETIMES THE ACTUAL WORK WAS ABYSMALLY CREATED. like the amount of links that did not work therefore i couldn't actually complete that particular part of the course. the fucking spelling mistakes. the fact that i was expected to understand some hugely massively fucking PRETENTIOUS asshole's drug induced ravings about his own art in my art subject and then answer the questions about that guys idea of his own art when he LITERALLY was not speaking words that genuinely made sense in the english language. an AI chatbot could fucking speak better english. my own distance ed supervisor couldn't fucking understand it and told me to just skip it! i literally never finished highschool because the stress of all of my subjects was too much and i was asked to do too much and i really feel as though i either am too dumb and stupid for even lower education or i was personally fucking failed by every single adult around me. and it's like. i really cannot survive in this capitalistic world. it would kill me. it's why i don't have a goddamn job and why i have to find other ways of making money because who the fuck is going to hire a highschool drop-out anyway, let alone one who is constantly fatigued and depressed and dysphoric and whatever the fuck. idk man. this world has failed me. i know i would never be able to finish no fucking tafe course or go to college or university or whatever. i'm just too fucking dumb for that shit.

[anger----issues]

Hey I dropped out of school early last year because I couldn't put up with the stress of year 12 (last year of highschool here) and I ended up taking a year to work my ass off so I could pay for my course that I'm starting this year. Im still unsure about if I want to be a vet but it's something I'm passionate about so I'm going to give it a try. Here in Australia we have tafe courses which are basically certificates that you can put on your resume to get a job. Hope this helped a bit :)

Thank you! I’m currently trying to hang in there until summer, but then I plan on taking a break from school and find work until I’m ready to go back and take the last year, it’s a struggle right now, and I doubt I’m gonna do well on the exams, but I hope to redo a lot of the classes when I’m ready to pick up on school again!

Best of luck to you!!

[tahere-ravenwick]

My worst teacher ever!

Okay so I've had so many fucked up teachers (-_-) I lived in a rural area, so far off the beaten track, that if someone screwed up badly(but not enough to be fired) they got sent there, so we had a lot of jilted and surly twats, we also had a lot of teachers new fresh out of university and a few close to retiring or with disabilities but still wanting to teach, those ones were generally nice and pretty cool. Generally the rules were a bit more lax for the teachers since they had already messed up but were being given a second chance, and that lead to some great(but strict) teachers, since they were there as a punishment and they wanted to get out of there and back into their old jobs asap,(we had a lot of teacher turnover) but there was also a lot of shenanigans; teachers busted by students having sex in classrooms, teachers thieving, taking drugs, openly perving on highschool girls, etc...

But despite all of that in my whole school career(primary and secondary) there was only One instance where a teacher at our school actually got fired although they called it "Permanent Leave"... we did have a couple who had mental breakdowns and quit.. but thats different...

Anyway it was in my 10th year of school, he was an English teacher and he was one of those older middle age crisis types (cheesy gangsta wannabe, band t-shirts, shorts hanging low, baseball cap backwards, cheap rapper bling and he was obsessed with ponchos). He tried so hard to seem cool and hip.. but he was just so creepy.

And he barely lasted a year.

He was openly bias and judgemental in class, favoring the academically inclined/more wealthy kids and snubbing the kids who weren't at the top of the class/less wealthy(going so far as to kick them out of class. Then he'd do a complete 180 outside of class and try to be all best friends buddy buddy with everyone like he thought he was the most favourite teacher in the school. He really wasn't. (¤_¤)

I was one of his favorites (unfortunately..) I think its because I had a lot of smart/wealthier friends and he though I was really "smart". I was on the higher end of poor and yes I was kinda smart but I hung out and got along with a lot of people, it was a really small town and everyone knew each other since preschool so we all got along for the most part and we all hung out often.

I was also one of those quiet artsy types, I doodled in my note books to help remember the content of the lesson.. He latched onto that like a maggot on rancid meat. He would go through my school bag pulling out my art books and rummaging through my stuff! And would give me Word Art to colour in and draw on as homework! Hell I remember one incident where I threw my phone at him to get my art books off of him.. that he had grabbed from my bag during someone else's class!(we left them in a seperate area to the classroom)

Who the fuck does that!?

I had to get a fucking padlock for my school bag!

And the really sad(annoying) thing is, I actually enjoyed English class before he showed his nasty face. That year we were meant to be studying Shakespeare and Chaucer and all of the old English books which I've been reading since I was little and it was my year to shine! But he made me feel like a fucking toddler with his "colour in the pretty picture" (○u○)

That his classes generally consisted of watching movies/music videos and slacking off(not so great since we had really big important tests at the end of the year that decided our futures...) and him having hissyfits if anyone objected.. I spent half the time skipping his class and hiding out in the library.

Really didn't help that he had a real short fuse, trowing tantrums and screaming at anyone who questioned him..

I remember one big incident towards the end of year, I dont know what caused it since I wasn't part of the class, but I saw the ass end of it as I was walking past on my way to the library. He was having a massive tantrum screaming his head off, purple faced and throwing anything he could get his hands on. Including a chair that hit one of my bffs and knocking her down in the middle of class, seeing this I knock on the door, giving the excuse that bffs mum wanted her and was waiting at the main office(our parents were really close so one of us delivering messages like that was normal) I got her out of there and took her to the nurses office because the chair had cut her arm and reported what was happening to the main office(he didn't get the sack for that, but it definitely added fuel to the fire) when bffs mum was called in to pick up bff she stormed right over to the fucktard and tore him a new one(shes short but holy crap she's fucking scary) he steered clear of bff and her family(me included as extended family) after that.

So many kids were reporting him and trying to get him gone, but things really came to a head at the end of the year after the results for the HSC* came back. Thanks to Him everyone in his class failed the HSC, including graduate aged students who needed the HSC to get into university. Since about 2/3rd of the school failed the HSC the Board of Education sent someone to investigate what had happened.

It was a really big deal, kids were called in to be interviewed (those in his classes and some outside for confirmation) All of us were given an intensive 2 week course by another teacher and a second chance to sit our HSC (a very big deal! board of education never allows do-overs!), but in the end many of us barely scraped a pass and its affected our chances of getting into university and future career paths. Several in my year dropped out and others moved schools.

Thankfully it was the final nail in his coffin and he was gone for good, I moved after that year(for unrelated reasons) so I dont know how things went in the next years aftermath, but I hope the kids in the years to come never have to deal with something like that happening to them!

*Quick explanation of what the HSC is...HSC stands for High School Certificate. In the last 3 years of high school students take 3 HSC tests(that we call the HSCs) to prove we are ready to move onto the next year of study. There are 3 tests in the HSCs the students must pass to achieve the minimum standard and recieve our HSC– reading, writing and numeracy.

Each years HSC qualifies students for new opportunities:

Recieving the Year10 high school certificate means that you can go onto years 11 and 12 or drop out and go to TAFE(aka community college).

Recieving 11 & 12 qualifies for University entry although the qualifying courses change depending on how high you score in those tests.

So years 10, 11 and 12 are really full of studying and prep for those tests because they are so important to our futures.