#i dont want to give up so easily. i feel like it'd be petty of me to do so especially so soon. and im being teased by family for my

[qumiiiquinnquin]

its only been 2 weeks but i just dont feel like i can do this.

its really stressful. the workload is always high. having a break isn't really a thing. and with how bad my schedule is (that i could not do anything about) i have to wake up extremely early (5-5:30am) and i come home in the evening (also 5-5:30 but pm). and i just have to dedicate that time to homework and i know there's going to be lots of all-nighters

i have no time to eat. im tired all the time. focusing on work is difficult in general, but my lack of eating and sleep make it worse. and while i know the exercise is good for me, having to walk a mile each way to and from home and all my walking on campus makes me very tired and sore. (im so petty)

i know im being overdramatic because its only been 2 weeks. but it gets worse from here on out. im really stressed and anxious all the time. and ive already broken down a few times. i want to cry right now because im under so much stress, but people are awake so i cant.

its so petty. i want to give up now and i keep contemplating, i thought about going to the rooftop and. well. you know. i want to drop out now but that would upset my family a ton (also its only been 2 weeks!!!). but i dont really like my family's idea that if they went to college and got their degrees, so can i. they all went to college so thats what was encouraged of me to do too after i graduated high school. and this is just community college. if im barely hanging on in community college id be dead by now in a uc or cal state, either one im planning to transfer to once im done at community college...

i knew i wasnt cut out for college. i knew it since before applying. i keep telling myself this is only until december. and when i register for the spring term i can hopefully form a much better schedule so im not stressed out and loaded with work all the time and i can actually take care of myself. so im trying to keep moving forward. but its only now september. i have 13 more weeks. and if these first two weeks were enough to kick my ass then im fucked for the rest of the semester. and probably my entire time at college.

[valen-dreth]

allard- 🔥🍋🛍🌸

veig- 🌹💿💛🔮

go crazy, go stupid !

(also dont feel obligated answer all of them if u dont want to btw, i just wanted to make sure u had a variety lmao)

YESSSSSSSSS i am ready to SPEAK

ALLARD:

🔥 Give us a list of general likes and dislikes, such as colours, textures, music, weather and other stuff!

LIKES - warm, rich colors, cozy rooms, worn stones, foggy weather, his very nice silver dagger, extravagant dress

DISLIKES - dancing, wind instruments, high towers, stagnant water, mold, Daedra, adventurers, thieves, dense woods

🍋 Does your OC act petty and jealous easily? What sort of things make them feel like this and do they experience guilt for getting so worked up? How do they deal with these emotions when they get them? If your OC doesn’t feel like this often, why not?

He really only hangs around with Veig so yeah he gets a jealous if he thinks that he is off with someone else. He's just lonely is all. He doesn't feel guilty for it probably because he's not ..... really aware that he's supposed to.

He mostly just skulks about it and probably just gets himself worked up, what's he going to do, confront him?

🛍️ Function or Aesthetic? Skirts or Pants? Heels or Flats?

Aesthetic / pants / he does actually wear slight heels (when not wearing his slippers)

🌸 What does your OC’s voice sound like? Their laugh? Are they good at singing? Do they have an accent?

ouuf im so bad at describing voices and he doesnt have a vc bear with me

He speaks somewhat slowly, his voice is generally a bit high but he does have decent range (which varies with his emotional state and is his Most Obvious tell lol). He has hints of both a slur and a lisp. His laugh is not terribly loud, he bites his tongue when he laughs. He probably does have a regional accent but not the regular roman accent I give Imperials. hope this helps :')

VEIG

🌹 How easy is it for them to connect with others and make friends? On the flip side how easy is it for them to make an enemy of someone? Are they the kind of person who hangs around the food table at a party and never talks to anyone or are they the type who can talk to anyone?

He used to be quite sociable! He was well-liked in his village so his exile came as a shock when it first happened but also like, he could definitely understand. The communication barrier now presents and issue but he and Allard took to each other fairly easily after Veig proved his intentions weren't malicious.

It is easy for him to unintentionally make enemies because uh, he does not pass for a mortal Ever and that scares people! If he were to intentionally try to make enemies of someone it'd probably be pretty easy too I mean he's a big imposing figure.

He COULD very easily talk to other people at parties if that was an option for him. Realistically he would hang around with Allard and scan the crowds. They wouldn't last terribly long at an actual party though I think Allard would get tired of it and go home lol

📀 How easy is it to shock your OC? To confuse them? To lie to them, to manipulate them? How are they with feelings of trust? Can your OC be trusted?

He's seen..... a Lot so he's not terribly shocked by a lot but he can be taken off-guard. Generally though it takes a bit of effort, he tries to stay aware of his surroundings. He is confused by a LOT of things in the world nowadays so I mean. What's more stuff onto that. He is much more a leader than a follower so to actually manipulate him would be an Endeavor, language barriers aside. He does trust easily but he would like to think that he has a good sense of who to trust!

💛 In general, how in control of their emotions is your OC? Do they have a good hold on them or do their emotions control them, not the other way around? What do you think is the reason behind this and is your OC ever concerned about their lack of or good control?

He keeps a good handle on his emotions but doesn't emote terribly much or uh, well. He does suppress his emotions somewhat, otherwise he would just be incredibly frustrated and confused about the world he's woken up in but don't worry about it that's probably fine

🔮 Star gazing or cloud watching? Hand-holding or snuggles? Early mornings or late nights?

Cloud watching / snuggles / early mornings