#i dont remember feeling like that came out of nowhere so there might've been smthing before. maybe i just knew about sh and suicide from

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earliest instance i can think of that happening was in 2016, when we were 11. we were in class and she came over to where i sat and showed me her cut up wrist, said something along the lines of ''guess im not even good enough to kill myself'', and went back to her table. i just had to sit there and try not to show i was panicking. and them i got reprimanded by our teacher for not paying enough attention to geography class